Mermaid_sister
New member
hey everyone
you all seem as down in the dumps as me! sorry to hear about all you wonderful people having it rough at the mo, I guess there are ups and downs
I'm going to open up here because I haven't told anyone in my own life yet and I need to get it off my chest.
I have decided to see a councellor about my eating disorder- and this time keep at it. The last few days have been hell, so many assignments due and I have found myself not eating all day trying to finish, then stopping to eat a whole heap of you guessed it- junk the disgusting stuff that got me into this mess and then... well you can work out what happens after that when the guilt hits. Tomorrow I am back on Cohens 110% and I am going to see a professional about my problem because although I said I HAD bulimia and I was over it, I deny the fact that I have relapses and until I get help and face those demons I have realised it will never truely go away. Last night after an episode I had a huge cry and I sat down and made a list of why I don't want to be fat anymore. I read it and read it and read it some more. The I decided to make a list of the reasons why I AM going to be thin. Not why I want to be thin but why I am going to be thin. This helped a great deal and I recommend it to anyone who is feeling negative about their progress/ deviations/ themselves in general.
sorry to burden you guys with all this but I need to get it off my chest and I guess the whole annonymity of the forum is a security blanket for me right now.
So tomorrow (actually today) is a new day and we are all going to do it and do it well, I hope everyone has a nice weekend and feels much better (those that aren't right now, to the others, keep up the good work)
much love
Bec
you all seem as down in the dumps as me! sorry to hear about all you wonderful people having it rough at the mo, I guess there are ups and downs
I'm going to open up here because I haven't told anyone in my own life yet and I need to get it off my chest.
I have decided to see a councellor about my eating disorder- and this time keep at it. The last few days have been hell, so many assignments due and I have found myself not eating all day trying to finish, then stopping to eat a whole heap of you guessed it- junk the disgusting stuff that got me into this mess and then... well you can work out what happens after that when the guilt hits. Tomorrow I am back on Cohens 110% and I am going to see a professional about my problem because although I said I HAD bulimia and I was over it, I deny the fact that I have relapses and until I get help and face those demons I have realised it will never truely go away. Last night after an episode I had a huge cry and I sat down and made a list of why I don't want to be fat anymore. I read it and read it and read it some more. The I decided to make a list of the reasons why I AM going to be thin. Not why I want to be thin but why I am going to be thin. This helped a great deal and I recommend it to anyone who is feeling negative about their progress/ deviations/ themselves in general.
sorry to burden you guys with all this but I need to get it off my chest and I guess the whole annonymity of the forum is a security blanket for me right now.
So tomorrow (actually today) is a new day and we are all going to do it and do it well, I hope everyone has a nice weekend and feels much better (those that aren't right now, to the others, keep up the good work)
much love
Bec