cherry garcia's diary
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you're doing great! steady progress!! its amazing you've lost 8kilos already!! yayy
dreamingblue
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OMG, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You're doing SO fantastic. You probably won't lose weight EVERYDAY for whatever reasons like food intake, water retention. Especially us women, we go up and down slightly all the time. I weighed myself yesterday and I was 320 lbs. Today I weighed myself and I'm 316. And I know it was because of water weight. So wait a few days, I'm sure it will keep dropping...
cherrygarcia
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i think you might be on to something, before initially i was doing some weights but not that often and not as dedicated, but the last 2 weeks i've been consistent with it....so that could be it, i sure hope so.
thanks surya! i always say i'll pop into your journal and never get round to....today is the day...will see u there shortly
thanks for the encouragement dreamingblue! i'm definitely working on getting my mind right....i just need to not let the scale control how i think.
cherrygarcia
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Week 8 of exercise: Friday
okay, today was another looong gruelling day at the gym. on friday's there's no aerobics classes on so had to do two treadmill sessions. it was difficult but i kept on....the feeling at the end of a workout, besides the aches and pains, is always a feeling of pure satisfaction, knowing i've given 100%.
today did:
-60min treadmill (on steep incline)
-weights
-60min treadmill (on moderate incline)
-oh yeah, again i tried the dreaded AMT machine/stepper and only managed 60seconds, it's the one thing in the gym that makes me feel really bad that i got to a weight where i can only manage 60seconds on it, whereas others even get to 30minutes on it! so i think i'll leave it alone yet again for a few more weeks untill i've got my mind right and i'm ready to tackle it again.
so those darned pesky kids were in at the same time as me again today, today i was like no way am i letting some kids get to me, so i told them i'd get them kicked out of the gym if they kept messing with me....that seemed to shut them up, for now anyway. that may sound normal to others but for me it's a big deal...the more weight i've gained over the years, the less i've spoken out even if i'm being treated wrong....it's just....WRONG! it feels good to start getting confidence in myself once again, the process is slow but sure.
now that i had a break during the week means i have to gym tomorrow and there's no classes again so it's another double treadmill session...grrrr
okay, today was another looong gruelling day at the gym. on friday's there's no aerobics classes on so had to do two treadmill sessions. it was difficult but i kept on....the feeling at the end of a workout, besides the aches and pains, is always a feeling of pure satisfaction, knowing i've given 100%.
today did:
-60min treadmill (on steep incline)
-weights
-60min treadmill (on moderate incline)
-oh yeah, again i tried the dreaded AMT machine/stepper and only managed 60seconds, it's the one thing in the gym that makes me feel really bad that i got to a weight where i can only manage 60seconds on it, whereas others even get to 30minutes on it! so i think i'll leave it alone yet again for a few more weeks untill i've got my mind right and i'm ready to tackle it again.
so those darned pesky kids were in at the same time as me again today, today i was like no way am i letting some kids get to me, so i told them i'd get them kicked out of the gym if they kept messing with me....that seemed to shut them up, for now anyway. that may sound normal to others but for me it's a big deal...the more weight i've gained over the years, the less i've spoken out even if i'm being treated wrong....it's just....WRONG! it feels good to start getting confidence in myself once again, the process is slow but sure.
now that i had a break during the week means i have to gym tomorrow and there's no classes again so it's another double treadmill session...grrrr
Mikez0rr
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It's great your feeling more confidentand you will see improvement using the stepper over time, it is just a matter of adjusting to it.
your signature makes me wonder...
what if you single-leg leg press with 10 plates?
cherrygarcia
New member
aw, wish i could teleport you here!
thanks trusylver for checking in...i guess it'll take time.It's great your feeling more confident
you know what? the thought actually occurred to me today. you've definitely hit the nail on the head with this one, the thing is, i've only been doing upper body weights...free weights actually. the thing is alot of the machines at my weight are tricky to get into. i've been in and out of gyms for years, and back in the day my all time favorite machine was the leg press. but since i've put on so much weight this time round i'm hoping to loose abit of weight round the middle first so that i can comfortably get into the leg-press and be able to push my legs up without my mid-section getting in the way.
But your definitely right, since i'm not doing leg work means my leg muscles aren't as strong and hence the connection to not being able to handle the stepper for more than 60secs....goodness, the human body is really interesting.
Once i feel comfortable enough to start on the machine weights i definitely know who i'll ask coz you've been doing an AMAZING job.
cherrygarcia
New member
okay, today i'm glad the scale went down a bit. this weeks weight loss has been slow and steady compared to last weeks, but i'm glad as long as there's results. if i keep eating right and exercising right by next week i should hopefully be in the 320's.....YAY!
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HIGHEST WEIGHT: 159.1kgs (350.7pounds)
CURRENT WEIGHT: 151.0kgs(332.9pounds)
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Sunday: 19/04/09 - 153.0kgs(337.3pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, combat class)
Monday: 20/04/09 - 152.7kgs(336.6pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min combat class)
Tuesday: 21/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (60min treadmill, aerobics class, weights)
Wednesday: 22/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (rest day)
Thursday: 23/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min aerobics class, weights)
Friday: 24/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
Saturday: 25/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) :
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HIGHEST WEIGHT: 159.1kgs (350.7pounds)
CURRENT WEIGHT: 151.0kgs(332.9pounds)
===================================
Sunday: 19/04/09 - 153.0kgs(337.3pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, combat class)
Monday: 20/04/09 - 152.7kgs(336.6pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min combat class)
Tuesday: 21/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (60min treadmill, aerobics class, weights)
Wednesday: 22/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (rest day)
Thursday: 23/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min aerobics class, weights)
Friday: 24/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
Saturday: 25/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) :
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cherrygarcia
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thanks blancita! i'm hanging in there.
You're doing awesome girl! Looking forward to more updates
cherrygarcia
New member
Rock bottom
okay, i was going through the forum and stumbled upon the thread asking what our wake up call was. it's really neat because everyone sums up they're rock bottom point in a few lines, and it's interesting to see what triggered everyone to start their weight loss. i actually just posted on there some things i've never told a soul and it felt so good to do so...so i decided to add it on to my diary. those days were so dark for me....i know i have a loong way to go, but i'm NEVER going to go back to the way i was again.
here's the post
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this is a really cool thread, it's like reading everyones life in a few sentences.
okay, what was my wake up call?
1) I LOVE TRAVELLING but stopped because not only could i hardly fit in the plane seats but was scared i'd be asked to buy two seats....so saved myself the trouble and haven't travelled in like 2 years even when i had the opportunity. By the way, the last time i travelled ie 2yrs ago, i had marks on my legs for months from the indent the arm rests of the plane made from the many hours of seating.
2) i haven't been to a movie theatre in 2 years for the same reasons as stated above, the last movie i saw in the theatre, i was suspended in mid air in my seat because my ass/hips couldn't go all the way down. i was in so much pain, i don't even know what the movie was about.
3) going out with my thin friends and them getting free drinks left right and centre and getting hit on, but no drinks for me and not even a glance in my direction. the only men who ever came up to talk to me were actually just asking for my thin friends numbers. the past two years i've been out about 5 times.
4) going to the plus size clothes store and immediately trying out the biggest size of clothes, out of every 10 items i try only having one fit very tightly. i haven't been to a clothes store in months, and now shop online for PLUS PLUS sizes.
5) when i was younger alot of people would tell me i had a pretty face and just needed to loose some weight and i'd be fine. the past few years, even the pretty face comments subsided because of how much weight i've added and has puffed up my face with extra chins, cheeks etc
6) i can go on and on and on. but will leave it at my number one and the one thing i hate most about me now. I HAVE BEEN WEARING THIS ONE HUGE JACKET EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, I CALL IT MY HARRY POTTER INVISIBLE CLOAK BECAUSE WHEN I'M IN IT I FEEL INVISIBLE TO THE WORLD, AND LIKE PEOPLE CAN'T REALLY SEE HOW FAT I AM. EVERY PIC IN THE LAST TWO YEARS I'VE HAD THAT COAT ON...AND I WANT TO THROW IT AWAY....NO I WANT TO BURN IT! I HATE IT AND WHAT IT REPRESENTS AND ONE DAY I HOPE I'LL LOOK BACK AND SAY I'LL NEVER EVER COME BACK TO THE ROCK BOTTOM POINT I WAS IN JANUARY...hence i made my lifestyle change on february 1st. I still wear my jacket because i don't have any other that will fit for now, but i'm waiting for it to get really loose before i dump it for GOOD.
7) oh sorry, i have one last major one, last christmas and new years were the first holidays i've ever spent alone in my entire life. i told everyone i spent it with friends I LIED. i lied to them because i was too scared to hop on a plane to go see my family because of the reasons i've mentioned in point 1 about not fitting into plane seats. the feeling of hearing/seeing everyone with family when i was alone watching cable eating every form of junk food known to man was.....DEPRESSING. that was my rock bottom, that was when i knew it all had to end...and that i needed to change.
-wow, this is some good venting, i needed it...i'll actually go paste this in my diary.
okay, i was going through the forum and stumbled upon the thread asking what our wake up call was. it's really neat because everyone sums up they're rock bottom point in a few lines, and it's interesting to see what triggered everyone to start their weight loss. i actually just posted on there some things i've never told a soul and it felt so good to do so...so i decided to add it on to my diary. those days were so dark for me....i know i have a loong way to go, but i'm NEVER going to go back to the way i was again.
here's the post
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this is a really cool thread, it's like reading everyones life in a few sentences.
okay, what was my wake up call?
1) I LOVE TRAVELLING but stopped because not only could i hardly fit in the plane seats but was scared i'd be asked to buy two seats....so saved myself the trouble and haven't travelled in like 2 years even when i had the opportunity. By the way, the last time i travelled ie 2yrs ago, i had marks on my legs for months from the indent the arm rests of the plane made from the many hours of seating.
2) i haven't been to a movie theatre in 2 years for the same reasons as stated above, the last movie i saw in the theatre, i was suspended in mid air in my seat because my ass/hips couldn't go all the way down. i was in so much pain, i don't even know what the movie was about.
3) going out with my thin friends and them getting free drinks left right and centre and getting hit on, but no drinks for me and not even a glance in my direction. the only men who ever came up to talk to me were actually just asking for my thin friends numbers. the past two years i've been out about 5 times.
4) going to the plus size clothes store and immediately trying out the biggest size of clothes, out of every 10 items i try only having one fit very tightly. i haven't been to a clothes store in months, and now shop online for PLUS PLUS sizes.
5) when i was younger alot of people would tell me i had a pretty face and just needed to loose some weight and i'd be fine. the past few years, even the pretty face comments subsided because of how much weight i've added and has puffed up my face with extra chins, cheeks etc
6) i can go on and on and on. but will leave it at my number one and the one thing i hate most about me now. I HAVE BEEN WEARING THIS ONE HUGE JACKET EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, I CALL IT MY HARRY POTTER INVISIBLE CLOAK BECAUSE WHEN I'M IN IT I FEEL INVISIBLE TO THE WORLD, AND LIKE PEOPLE CAN'T REALLY SEE HOW FAT I AM. EVERY PIC IN THE LAST TWO YEARS I'VE HAD THAT COAT ON...AND I WANT TO THROW IT AWAY....NO I WANT TO BURN IT! I HATE IT AND WHAT IT REPRESENTS AND ONE DAY I HOPE I'LL LOOK BACK AND SAY I'LL NEVER EVER COME BACK TO THE ROCK BOTTOM POINT I WAS IN JANUARY...hence i made my lifestyle change on february 1st. I still wear my jacket because i don't have any other that will fit for now, but i'm waiting for it to get really loose before i dump it for GOOD.
7) oh sorry, i have one last major one, last christmas and new years were the first holidays i've ever spent alone in my entire life. i told everyone i spent it with friends I LIED. i lied to them because i was too scared to hop on a plane to go see my family because of the reasons i've mentioned in point 1 about not fitting into plane seats. the feeling of hearing/seeing everyone with family when i was alone watching cable eating every form of junk food known to man was.....DEPRESSING. that was my rock bottom, that was when i knew it all had to end...and that i needed to change.
-wow, this is some good venting, i needed it...i'll actually go paste this in my diary.
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cherrygarcia
New member
hey mike,
thanks...those were my dark days, so feb 1st is when i picked myself up and said NO MORE...i just can't live like that anymore....and have been going strong since then, and won't stop till i get to a healthy weight that i'm happy with.
and yeah, my family has been super supportive, in the past i never talked about my weight with anyone, and i would go on the defensive if my family brought it up. But in january when i hit rock bottom i just told them every single little thing about how i felt and how sad i'd been all my life i wrote like a 5 page email because it was too hard to say in words...they were speechless because they didn't know that's how i'd been feeling and they all felt really bad, and they were there to listen and have been behind me 100% since then. i thank God for that because i don't know how i'd have managed otherwise.
that's why i keep saying physically i may still look more or less the same as i did just 3 months ago, but emotionally i'm a whole new person...i left all that emotional baggage behind because it had gotten me down in the dumps. from now on i only look to the future and always positive. the past will remain the past.
thanks...those were my dark days, so feb 1st is when i picked myself up and said NO MORE...i just can't live like that anymore....and have been going strong since then, and won't stop till i get to a healthy weight that i'm happy with.
and yeah, my family has been super supportive, in the past i never talked about my weight with anyone, and i would go on the defensive if my family brought it up. But in january when i hit rock bottom i just told them every single little thing about how i felt and how sad i'd been all my life i wrote like a 5 page email because it was too hard to say in words...they were speechless because they didn't know that's how i'd been feeling and they all felt really bad, and they were there to listen and have been behind me 100% since then. i thank God for that because i don't know how i'd have managed otherwise.
that's why i keep saying physically i may still look more or less the same as i did just 3 months ago, but emotionally i'm a whole new person...i left all that emotional baggage behind because it had gotten me down in the dumps. from now on i only look to the future and always positive. the past will remain the past.
cherrygarcia
New member
okay, today i didn't manage to go to the gym
i left the house late and ended up missing the bus...which on weekdays isn't a problem because the gym closes at 10pm but on weekends closes at 6pm so there was no point in going for like a half hour. i'll go tomorrow to make up for it.
this week i've gone monday, tuesday, thursday, friday, and will go sunday. i actually might keep up this schedule instead since it still adds up to 5 days per week.
i left the house late and ended up missing the bus...which on weekdays isn't a problem because the gym closes at 10pm but on weekends closes at 6pm so there was no point in going for like a half hour. i'll go tomorrow to make up for it.
this week i've gone monday, tuesday, thursday, friday, and will go sunday. i actually might keep up this schedule instead since it still adds up to 5 days per week.
Amiba
New member
hey sweetie I am sorry you had to go through all of that,
you are a strong person for sharing it with us and I know you are on your way to changing how you felt.
the point about the guys at the bar- they did that to me , too. even at only 30 pounds heavier they would ignore me and reach for the skinny friends. I think they have a skank radar and that's why they avoid me- so yeah maybe you just have too much class for them to handle!
you are a beautiful person inside and out and your face doesn't get any less pretty just because of some weight gain.
xoxo!
you are a strong person for sharing it with us and I know you are on your way to changing how you felt.
the point about the guys at the bar- they did that to me , too. even at only 30 pounds heavier they would ignore me and reach for the skinny friends. I think they have a skank radar and that's why they avoid me- so yeah maybe you just have too much class for them to handle!
you are a beautiful person inside and out and your face doesn't get any less pretty just because of some weight gain.
xoxo!
cherrygarcia
New member
THANKS AMIBA! for your lovely message! i'm so glad i found this forum because your all so encouraging. I think when i wrote that message it was to tell the world and remind myself where i've come from and let me know i'll never be there again ever.
i think your a beautiful person too inside and out....those guys don't know what they're missing out on!
i think your a beautiful person too inside and out....those guys don't know what they're missing out on!
cherrygarcia
New member
okay, this week i've weighed in at the same weight 3 times, i had my period this week and keep seeing everywhere on the forum women complaining they even added pounds during that time of the month. so for now i'll be greatful that each day of this week i've either maintained or lost a little weight. next week begins tomorrow so things should be better. i've been extra good the past two weeks with proper eating and great exercising....i hope i can go strong another week. This is the first two weeks i've gone without a cheat day. i'll perservere one more week then treat myself with something nice. will go to gym today to make up for yesterday.
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HIGHEST WEIGHT: 159.1kgs (350.7pounds)
CURRENT WEIGHT: 151.0kgs(332.9pounds)
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Sunday: 19/04/09 - 153.0kgs(337.3pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, combat class)
Monday: 20/04/09 - 152.7kgs(336.6pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min combat class)
Tuesday: 21/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (60min treadmill, aerobics class, weights)
Wednesday: 22/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (rest day)
Thursday: 23/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min aerobics class, weights)
Friday: 24/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
Saturday: 25/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) : (no gym)
Sunday: 26/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
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HIGHEST WEIGHT: 159.1kgs (350.7pounds)
CURRENT WEIGHT: 151.0kgs(332.9pounds)
===================================
Sunday: 19/04/09 - 153.0kgs(337.3pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, combat class)
Monday: 20/04/09 - 152.7kgs(336.6pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min combat class)
Tuesday: 21/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (60min treadmill, aerobics class, weights)
Wednesday: 22/04/09 - 152.2kgs(335.5pounds) : (rest day)
Thursday: 23/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, 45min aerobics class, weights)
Friday: 24/04/09 - 151.5kgs(334pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
Saturday: 25/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) : (no gym)
Sunday: 26/04/09 - 151.0kgs(332.9pounds) : (60min treadmill, weights, 60min treadmill)
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