Changing the way i feel

Athanks so much!!!for everything!!!
I made a mousaka yesterday,and i did have a piece.................and i also had a piece right now its 11"30 AM.....................................
So i think i must REA::Y take it easy today and NOT have another.I did make it with out oil and low fat milk and butter but still i worked out the cals jusst for the creamy topping and it is 205 cals!So then you got the minced beef and the potaoe,zucchini , eggplant that i DIDNT fry as i should,i put them on grease paper in the oven, so i have made it helthy way at least.
Thing is today i am making those lovely yummy mini cheese pies so Mario can have a couple each day at school.I LOVE them....OMG...i think i'll make them and before cooing them all , ill put them in the refrigirator and just cook like 10 of them.3 for mario and 7 for my husband...Its the only way i'll survive it!!!!!

Rainbow i think i will treat myself to a pair of undies its on my mind from yesterday so i'll give in!My dad is staying with us.....I can just imagine mario trying to play with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he is such a serious buisness man....oh well..

Must mention that i got on the scales and it showed nearly up to 82.?????cant be...........i havent been soooo bad...maybe its water ....hope it is.dont fell bloated or anything.Ill wait till friday cause im going to go back to weigh DAY no EVERY DAY.So ill be back later!
 
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ok!i did my 43 minuite on bike burnt 500 cals!Did 100 cunches and 60 bridges.
Food

BR 2 coffees 200 cals and 1 piece of mousaka healthy made!(dont know how much,im guessing 600)
Lunch Low fat yoghurt 205 cals
Dinner 4 mini cheese pies (i calculated and it comes to about 80 cals a piece)360 cals
Snack 3 carrots 60cals
TOTAL 1425.........
I skipped lunch cause of the mousaka i had.I am hungry,though now,im now having anything else.Plus the pies didnt come out very nice,so thats good.I made all of them cause my father is coming tommorow at 4 pm.So ill have something for him to snack on.
I am feeling realy bad,i feel horible,thinking of the scales this morning.Why such gain suddenly?I was doing so good.And i wish i didnt have that mousaka for breakfast.I would have some cals left to eat now.
 
AHeya sweeite

Don't worry about the scales. They do that to me all the bloody time. I can stand on them and they say one thing, get off and stand on them again straight away and they will have gone up by 2lb. I always end up thinking 'why the hell did i weigh anyway' I have learnt over the last 3-4 weeks to only use what they say as a guide line and just pay attention to my weigh in on the Wii on a sunday ( i don't weigh on them during the week) I would say only weigh once a week but i still get on the scales about 4 times a day so cant really say that can i lol.

Oooh, don't worry about having the mousaka for breakfast, you will have burnt it off with your super exerciseing....At least you didn't eat it before you went to bed, that would be way worse!

Hope it goes well with your father coming to stay. I will be thinking of you. Love and hugs. Xxx
 
AHmmm... yes. Bloody scales. I think I'm going to go back to my once a week at boots routine.

I think its such a shame when grandparents don't properly play or interact with their kids. My mum was like that- all she ever did was tell Charlie off.
 
Atoday i was 80,7...im a bit relaxed over that...Not going to weigh every day,it makes me get in a bad mood if i see something higher.So Im going back to Fridays weigh in's.A!tommorow is Friday!:)

So last night i had after the carrots 2 mini toasts 52 cals,and was i hungey yesterday!
Im making lunch (chicken w/rice) and doing some housework before going to get mario from school.

thanks katie!i hope it goes well too!Rainbow thats horrible that she only tells him off.It must feel real bad.Im sorry to hear that.I hope that doesnt happen when my father comes , wouldnt want to get in a fight with him.Its strange the way i feel w/him.I change.Its like im scared,not that he will do something to me,but like i feel i must be serious,and not a lot of laughing and joking around....Plus i have NEVER had a fight with him.Even when he has spoken real bad (concerning work-i used to work for him),i felt i couldnt speak back to him.....Generally i DONT feel comfortable around him.Well im grown up now have my own family so maybe it will be different,or i will feel different!
Ill be back later
 
AHeya sweetie.

It's a shame you father manages to intimidate you. You need to remember.. He is not better than you and he is in YOUR house so he has to go along with you life and your rules. Stand up for yourself sweetie, you are a beautiful, wonderful, independant woman!!

Hope it all goes well and keep in touch.
 
Ahey!!!Couldnt come in last night.So he came with my husband about 11ish at night.We spoke about situations and stuff for buisness he seemed really tired and sad.I felt sorry for him.He has come to sort out some buisness stuff,he has made a company with my husband and stuff isnt going well so thats why he traveled to greece.He is going back didnt ask when though.
I had such a fright yesterday.Mario got his 3 fingers caught in the door.But not the side the door opens the other side that is steady.I dont know how he managed to get his fingers in there.He had opened the door cause i was taking him for a walk and i turned around to close the tv then i heard him crying and calling me.They where stuck really bad.I could close the door or open it further cause i would have crushed them.I lost it.I stuck my head out and screamed to the neighbour across the road , I DONT EVER SPEAK TOO CAUSE I DONT LIKE THEM.She came out and i said run and help.She got down as soon as she could and i was shouting " Come QUICKER"!!!she said she has a bad leg and is trying....!!!So she managed to get the fingers loose one by one and i was shacking so much i couldnt even stand.Another neighbour heard it and came aswell.They came in the house got some water for me,marios was mostly scared cause he saw me shaking and crying,but he didnt cry much,his fingers where just red.Poor baby,i think he got a real fright looking at me.Then i thought "thank god the house was spotless , with all these neighbour in here"!Oh it was terrible....One of them told me that thier granddaughter had the same thing happen to her and she had to rush to the hospital to get her fingers stuck on ..........

Now food.Yesterday

BR Coffee
Lunch Chinese chicken w/rice (home made)
Dinner the same as lunch.


So im off again to clena the bathroom will be back later.
Katie i know i must stick up for myself its so hard to do that around him.He seems so tired of life he isnt really as i remeber him.He told me stuff that made me sad , ill tell later.


Ps...I saw this lovley little cat yesterday at the park,it was small still and black.It was acting like a dog,it was SOOOO playfull with mario running after each other and playing!i never have seen a cat like that.I nearlly took it home but didnt.We just got 2 love birds and still i havent got the stand to hang them up...I told my huband about the cat , and SUPRISE SUPRISE he said i should of taken it!!!So ill be going to the park again today!If its there maybe ill take it!...Thats all i need!My crazy beagle dog,the tank with fish , the lovebirds, chicco the cat i feed outside and a new little black cat!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
Ai checked out the calories for me and its gone down....Take a look

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1361.40 to loose a kg a week
2461.40 to maintain
3561.40 to gain a kg a week[/COLOR]

no way im having 1300 only....maybe 1500-1700

oh how am i going to manage.Maybe thats why im not loosing weight anymore...
1300?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
whatwill i eat??????????????OMG?>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Food for the day

BR Coffee 70 cals
Lunch spaggetti w/red sause and 25 gr.cheese= 700cals
Snack Cereal bar =91 cals , Coffee =70 cals
Dinner xucchinis steamed w/1 onion and lemon...say 150 cals???
Total 1081!!!

I realy worked out the cals today!!!what a time consuming thing to do.Hate it but what can i do?Seems i have a few cals left aswell.Dont think ill have anything,maybe a couple of carrots later on.Isnt it unfair to eat less while slimming down?????????
Here are some pics.The mini cheese pies i made , the ckicken rice i had yesterday , and my spaggetti today.Boy did i want a second plate..............!!!

Workout

10 minute cardio dvd.Hated it,so difficult couldnt keep up,legs where collapsing!!!!
43 min. bike
100 crunches
60 bridges!


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AMmmmm that food looks gorgeous. How did your weigh in go? How much weight have you lost over the past month?

I'm really sad that having your Dad over isn't a joyful occasion, and that you feel like you can't be yourself around him. I am not going to give you any advice because obviously you know him and what he is like, and how your relationship is better than me.
 
AWell exept the cheesepies the other two where yummy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!specialy the chicken/rice////////////////////////////////////
I looked back on my diary.From September 8th until now i have lost...wait...hold on....its big!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!In one whole month i have lossed 1,5 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG>>>>>>Nearlly nothing..........
Think its the calorie thing.Probably im maintaining or loosing a tiny bit....I am struggling with this and trying my best.If i get more exersise i can eat more.

Add half a tub of yoghurt for dinner 100 cals.Total 1181 cals........its exhausting!

A rainbow.I dont know him so well.He is just a buisness man.a serious buisnessman.The years i lived with him after coming back from us,he was ok.Not affectionate or anything near .Well now and then he would hug me!it felt strange.I think cause i didnt grow up with him.Plus i have heard some real "good" stories from my mum...
 
AYour poor little Mario!! I can only imagine it was harder on you than him...kids bounce back so fast and we are still sitting there shaking!! Glad your neighbors were there to help!! :hugs2:

http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm is a really good calorie calculator....I kind of base my routine off of the ZIG ZAG method that they recommend. I have read over and over that eating the same amount of calories every day is not good for you body....its way to smart and gets use to those calories so its less effective ..we need to shake it up calorie and exercise wise!!

Hope you are having a good day and CONGRATs on the size 14's!! I told you, you would fit!! WELL DONE!! xoxox :)
 
AIt is harder on me i think,thats why ive been getting him new toys and book and stuff all week........and i must stop it.................

Well!I checked out how many cals in a slice of cheese i usually eat quick while making Marios's snack fro school.100 cals......................i used to have a couple and not think about it cause they are thin and kind of small......I had a shock.....One bread sandwich with 2 slices of cheese and tomatos and little butter come up to about 450 cals........................................So there you go!then im complaining im not loosing any weight!
So im back to NO BREAD....started today/I did that at start then started having some.Im not anymore,well at least until i've lost some weight.

[COLOR=FF00AA]BR Coffee 70 cals+2 mini toasts with a slice of cheese 150 cals = 220cals
Lunch Cereal bar 91 cals+Coffee 70 cals=161 cals
Dinner plate of peas with carrots and potatoes 600 cals + 50 gr.feta cheese 130 cals =730cals
Snack Bowl of jelly 200+ glass of pineapple juice 100cals=300 cals

Total 1411[/COLOR]
No work out today but i did clean the nightclub for 3 hours so im counting that as exercise.

I used to eat to grilled cheese sandwiches every day with lots of butter and ham......and i used to have 2 in the afternoon and two late at night.......that and all the chocolates!no wonder why the weight came on...................
 
AYou're doing awesome hun! You re almost under 80kg!! WOWW!! Im so proud of you, keep on going amazing woman!!:hurray:
 
AThanks so much@!!!!

Erika thanks for sayingthat! I am triying so hard,to get to 79 kg...i get close then go up a little again.I hope now that i have realized my calorie intake was highr than it should have , i'll get there soon!

No the 10 min.cardio i did was from a dvd i have from shape magazine,it was real difficult,i couldnt manage it only 10 minute!

Mario has laryngitis...........................he has fever 39,38....i am feeling so sorry for all of us....i must get over it,but i keep thinking how shity these 2 weeks have been with him.
His mosquito swollen legs,then his eye,then his fingers in the door and now he is sick.

Food till now

BR 2 coffees 140cals + 2 mini toasts with slice of cheese and slice of tomatoe 160 cals=300 cals
Lunch A big plate of rice soup made with 1 chicken and 1 veggie cube and lemon=no idea but not much
Snack Coffee 70and 4 small oreos worth 204cal=274cals
Dinner ???? dont know yet.
 
AYou have had a crappy few week...I hope it all turns around for the good soon!! Hope you little guy feels better soon!! :)

NO BREAD!!! omg NO way...I could never!! do you cut out all carbs or just bread?
 
AThank you so much tete!i hope it turns around and we get real good luck.It seems everything is against us,even financial maters , work , health ,you name it.I hate it complaining cause there is such worse and misery in this world.
Well i cut out bread only.i can live with out it,but i cant do without spaggetti.Even if i have to weigh the stuff at least i can eat it.But bread?not so interested.I wish i could cut out carbs all togetheri would probably loose a ton!

So Again my food all together this time

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BR 2 coffees 140cals + 2 mini toasts with slice of cheese and slice of tomatoe 160 cals=300 cals
Lunch A big plate of rice soup made with 1 chicken and 1 veggie cube and lemon=no idea but not much+cereal bar 91 cals
Snack Coffee 70and 4 small oreos worth 204cal=274cals
Dinner boiled zucchinis and potetoe and onion with 1 tbs olive oil and lemon,i used some oreganon for extra flavour and it was really nice! 250-300 cals+ half yoghurt 100cals

Total 1065 cals plus the soup.No way i have gone over 1300!!!and i had some oreos!!!! .[/COLOR]

I just looked up howm any cals in boiled potatoe and there are 144 cals in a medium potatoe (167 gr.)...i didnt know it had that much...thing is it fills me up instead of just having the zucchinis alone.I will be more carefull in the future and weigh the potatoes!

Mario is feeling better , went and got him another make of syryp for the fever and he was looking better he even ate a little!I hope he has a good nights sleep and gets well soon.
Here are the photos of todays food,didnt take a pic of my "sick"soup though.A and my begging dog while making the salad!!!


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AAwww sweetie
You really have been going thru it :( Glad Mario is starting to feel better.

So pleased that you are still managing to eat healthy while all the stress is going on...Well done you!! :hurray: :hurray:
 
Aoh well day started out real good but finished bad.Not terrible but not good...I think my dinner was like 1000 cals!And my lunch at least was good so dont think the damage was real big.

BR 2 coffeess 140 cals a koulouri 120 cals= 20 cals ----------i turned down a hot cheesepie from the bakers sitting right next to me in the car....
Lunch Boiled zucchini and potatoe salad a cup of rice and some boiled fish.
Dinner 3 chicken sticks , 2 grilled pita breads about 4 spoons of tzatziki and 10 fries.....

Last nigh i turned down pizza with peperoni my dad ordered and the same tonight.But i was stuffed anyway.I turned down a kadaifi...ill attach a pic of that.Warning its dangerous to look at!!!!!I turned my back to little chocolate cakes , lemon cream cake , butter biscuits today , while at the supermarket.I was checking the cals to see if i could buy something naughty cause i was really craving.But i didnt...A!My favorite lemon cake is nearly 400 cals for 100 gr and i used to eat one every week.In a day......
i am so tired i want to go to sleep asap!
Ill never get of the 80's if im not going to make sacrifises....Thing is i dont feel so bad..................its like because i turned away from so many bad things today , the dinner i had doesnt count....Stupid i know.I feel like its ok i had it,im not going to gain anything,probably wont delay my loss either...What up with me???its like i am wonderwoman or something,nothing affects me.....
Well if i see the scales go up,that will affect me for sure.Why am i not guilty?is it also maybe that i had an ok lunch?I want to feel BAD.
went to my sisters today,i was soooooooooo happy to see them(her and her bf)!!!my dad at home is really putting me down for some reason.He hasnt done anything though.and going to my sisters today felt fantastic!
I gave her the size 10 sequin dress cause she loved it.She only wanted to borrow it but i know she loves it and wears it every time she goes out so i gave it to her.I ll try find another one for me on ebay.I tried it on its still really short but fits better than before.The photo today was taken in another mirror and another distance and another light so i dont know if its accurate!


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