ok~~~Im home~~
After leaving Marios at nursery (it was like day 1......crying and hanging on me./////) i drove near by his school but to the sea side.I didnt go to thew place i mentioned yesterday,That place is more near my home.And because i needed to not loose time driving up and down i passed on my loved sea side....some other time.
So i started to walk along a path next to the tram line,there where many other runners as well!That made me feel uncomfortable.Anyway i walked for 7 minutes till i found the courage to stast running............I felt so embaressed,but i managed.I didnt have the program on my phone neither a timer so i DONT KNOW how long i was running.But it went like this probably.Running for about 30 seconds walking for more that 1 minute.At the begining it was like my body was tight ,my steps where small and my arms where stuck on my sides,but as time went by i started to feel like a bird!!!!ans my running steps where largers more bouncy!!!HAHAHA!!!!It was soooo difficult.I didnt think it would be SO difficult.I was out of breath immediatly and then felt nauseous!!!!??????!!!!then i got a pain in my side that took long to leave.....then my legs where a bit sore not to bad though just a little.But most of all i was out of breath and my chest actually hurt....Think that is from my smoking?or just pain cause of the extra air coming in?i dont know.
So i started it at 9:18 and finished (with a last little run to my car~) at 10:00 .
Surely my walking was way much more than my running.
I found a little path next to the boats where there are NO RUNNERS!!!!so i'll be going there until i feel ready to face them!When i went to the path i didnt know how long i willl be running (i mentined i didnt have atimer or the application) so i put targets.A rubbish bin,a car,a tree ect.....It was really hard.But i think i can manage.I am just sooooo amazed how UNFIT i am.I thought that cause of me cycling in my lounge and doing that airwalker and step ect i would be at least a LITTLE fit but i felt like the biggest unhealthy person on earth today.PLUS i could FEEL my extra weight while running.I felt the weight!.....
SO KATE!!!!THANK you my dear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!For going on about running as you see you did major good and i cant thank you enough!!!!
While trying to run today i found it so difficult that i thought i would just go there every day and walk for half and hour.But then i thought of you Kate saying that you felt bad and tired at start and now you are fine so i think i'll just give it a go and see!!Thank again girl!!!!It was really lovely just to be alone near the sea and even though exhausting it was lovely.I felt FREE if that makes any sense!
Joh you are not old of course and not getting older.Prefer to think of it as maturing!!!!!!!!!!!thanks for coming by here!
Aw tete!I guess we have our lovely kids to look at and be proud of and think that we did well giving up stuff for US ,stuff we will find later on in life,time we will get also!
I am sooo wanting to be 75 kilos just to feel safe!!!!!6 weeks it took huh?Well i am really positive about it.Couldnt even think of going up on the scales again...terrified of 80 kgs! and then when im 68kg i'll be teriffied of the 70kg marking!!!!AAAAAAAAA 68 kilos!!!Sound like music!!!!!!!!