Cate's Diary

Well I feel better mentally today & am worrying a little less. None of us know what is down the track. What I do know is that I must take care of myself. I have been putting everyone else first lately & neglecting to look after myself.
Yesterday I ate all day long. Not good!
In the afternoon, when our YGS was asleep I got on my bike & then struggled with 2 sets of weights- 240 reps. I forced myself to do it but I struggled. Our DIL called in to pick up our GS & stayed for an hour or so. We had a big misunderstanding last week, plus the last few weeks has put a big strain on our relationship. She had been avoiding me, but yesterday we were both fine with one another & affectionate. I have never been anything but supportive to her & she knows that. It doesn't mean that I'm perfect or don't have contrary opinions or feelings but I try to keep them to myself. It has been a tough last few weeks but one thing I have not done is criticise her to anyone. She is a great mum & is the mother of our grand-kids.
Today-
I have voted in our federal elections & my LH has gone off to play golf. There is lots of snow on the distant mountains & it looks beautiful. The sun is peeking out from behind the clouds but the air is very crisp & cold. I will go for a walk soon I think & may go down through our bush block. I'll have to rug up first. I hope to see some wildlife today.
It has been quite crazy weather lately with wild winds & lots of rain. While I sit here typing away I see black clouds, blue sky & snow, lots of little wrens-blue wrens, Scarlet robins and daffodils blooming. Ahhh Spring!

Knuckling down-
is so much harder than it should be. In a perfect world you wouldn't let your weight creep up. On Monday it will be exactly 3 years since I finished Cohen's. If that's not the perfect day to go back on it 100% then no day will be.
I'll pop back later. Dishes to be done, walk to be had...
Cheers, cate

 
I must share this song with you as it has been going through my head for days. It's sad but beautiful. I love Leonard Cohen's music these days, but didn't 1st time around. I used to find it too melancholy.
Lyrics-
Leonard Cohen- "Hey, that's no way to say goodbye."

"I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but now it's come to distances and both of us must try,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

I'm not looking for another as I wander in my time,
walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme
you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,
it's just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye."

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I'm now off on my walk with that song still going around in my head.......xoxo
 
& I just got back from a very vigorous 2 hour walk around our bush block (50 acres). I pulled out bracken fern & small trees from the track, saw a pademelon & some black cockatoos( which I tried videoing but they were too busy eating to make their raucous squawk!) I am now officially tired out & will go sit in my chair & read today's paper.
Looking after myself-
I have also shaved my legs today (long overdo) & given myself a pedicure.
Bye, Cate.
 
Today-
My LH & I, just got back from 2 hours wood cutting, carting etc & have at least 3 weeks worth of wood for our son & DIL. It's great exercise. Breakfast today was yoghurt & fruit; lunch a tuna salad. dinner tonight will be steak & vegies.
It's another beautiful day. It's fairly cool but the sun is shining. I love these sorts of days when the sun is shining but you have to rug up & wear a beanie etc. My disposition is as sunny today as the weather. :D
Love to all, Cate.
 
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Today-
Just got home from our trip to the blood bank. We looked after our YGS while his mum & dad had an ap't. We took him on a short ferry ride & had a nice walk. Their ap't went well & they seemed in good spirits. We did some shopping before meeting them as well so we're stocked up with lots of Cohen's vegies :)
We have to go out to a meeting tonight so will have a lazy couple of hours now, have dinner & then out again.
I'm feeling good today & optimistic. Our YS & his GF are moving in together soon which is a huge step for him. Funny thing though- he is a part owner in a house which he shares with 2 guys. His GF & he are going to rent a place as he doesn't want to ask his friends to move out. That is so funny!! Madness(& thinking of everyone else first) must run in our family!
Time for a pot of tea I think. Hope all are well, xoxo Cate
 
Hi Cate, thought I'd pop over and check your other thread out.
My intention was to read it until I saw how many pages it has :) so I just read the last few pages. Sorry that you have been having a rough time lately and hope that things are getting better for you now.
I had a look at your photos. What a great place to live and such lovely walking trials and I am soooo jealous of your beautiful kitchen!!!
Your 'after' photos are really impressive. I think I might put some photos up of where I live as it's equally beautiful but different from yours.
Look forward to keeping up with your day to day life although I know nothing about Cohens at all so have never bothered with the threads about it.
 
Hello Cate

Glad to hear things are falling in place again. Your home and surroundings sound breath taking. I love Tassie and I hope to get back there one day again.
All is going ok with me (slowly) I'm meeting a few more people (from the School) and making an effort to go where I'm invited.
I think I've lost I'm not weighing just going on my clothes.
I am eating real food plenty of green veg and protein and small portions.
It's sort of like Cohens without the restrictions of weighing.
I'm enjoying my yoghurt in the morning as well.

Anyway I though I would update in your diary....and check on you at the same time.
Not use posting in mine if I'm not following the diet.

Well take care Cate and will check back with you later in the week.

Samx:)
 
eyckmans said:
Hi Cate, thought I'd pop over and check your other thread out.
My intention was to read it until I saw how many pages it has :) so I just read the last few pages. Sorry that you have been having a rough time lately and hope that things are getting better for you now.
I had a look at your photos. What a great place to live and such lovely walking trials and I am soooo jealous of your beautiful kitchen!!!
Your 'after' photos are really impressive. I think I might put some photos up of where I live as it's equally beautiful but different from yours.
Look forward to keeping up with your day to day life although I know nothing about Cohens at all so have never bothered with the threads about it.
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Hi eyckmans, You know where to visit if you have hours & hours to spare & absolutely nothing else to do-my diary! I'll look fwd to catching some photos of where you live. It sounds beautiful. It doesn't matter whether you do Cohen's or not. My diary is really more to do with my every day life, rather than what I eat. Thanks for your visit. I've been reading your diary lately but not posting much, possibly for the same reason. We all have our comfort zones.:) I love it that you & Stacy are reading & contributing to the motivational thread as it makes it feel more worthwhile. xo Cate

Nans68 said:
Hello Cate
Glad to hear things are falling in place again. Your home and surroundings sound breath taking. I love Tassie and I hope to get back there one day again.
All is going ok with me (slowly) I'm meeting a few more people (from the School) and making an effort to go where I'm invited.
I think I've lost I'm not weighing just going on my clothes.
I am eating real food plenty of green veg and protein and small portions.
It's sort of like Cohens without the restrictions of weighing.
I'm enjoying my yoghurt in the morning as well.
Anyway I though I would update in your diary....and check on you at the same time.
Not use posting in mine if I'm not following the diet.
Well take care Cate and will check back with you later in the week.
Samx:)
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Hi Sam & thank you very much for checking up on me. That's sweet of you :)
I'm glad you are trying to settle in a bit more & make new friends. It takes a while to do that when you move but it is possible. When our kids were born I had to try to make new friends as most of my old ones were childless & still working. We left Melbourne when our kids were 3 & 5 & moved to Tassie & I had to do it all over again. New friends are not the same & you still have the old ones but it can be done & your life will improve when you do.
I'm glad that you are eating well. I think we both feel much better when we do that. Thanks once again Sam for the visit. I'm trying to go 100% tomorrow. xoxo Cate

Today-
Overcast- Possibly lazy with bike & weights thrown in the mix :)
xoxo Cate
 
Well did I ever get motivated!! 25 mins on the bike-12km, followed by 250 reps weights, logged my day's food & exercise. I feel fabulous! I had better go do the dishes now- whoops!
 
Hi folks, Am having a lovely day today. Tai Chi day *sigh* Love it! I started doing an online log of my food & exercise yesterday & found it really motivational. My exercise yesterday had me ravenous & I ate more than I would have liked to but it was healthy food. It's interesting to see the break-up of the food values though & has made me think twice about what I snack on. I woke up this morning 1kg lighter than yesterday which inspired me to....
Today-
I'm on Cohen's only food(not weighing atm), Cohen's rules etc until I get back to my goal weight range again.
I took my lunch to Tai Chi but ate it when I got home. I am feeling really positive.
It's time to sit in my chair with a book & a pot of tea :)
xoxo Lots of love to all, Cate.
 
I'll go to bed hungry tonight but that won't hurt me at all. Feeling good! I'll hop on the scales again just for interest (knowing that it is possibly counter-productive.) Poured my LH a glass of wine tonight & resisted easily. Light switch is back on- Yes!
'night, xo Cate
 
Thanks Angela :beating: I had a lovely sleep. There was a thick frost this morning & it is going to be a lovely sunny day. It's chilly but I don't mind that. I have my LH home for the day (he's working a lot the next 2 weeks) and I am feeling really good. I have dropped another kg & have lost that bloated feeling already. Nice. I had a mango from the Northern Territory with natural yoghurt for my breakfast & am sipping on a delicious plunger coffee at the moment, still in my PJ's & dressing gown, with a rug over me. What a granny look!
I seem to have got myself back on an even keel again. I will have to try to work on making myself emotionally stronger so that I am better able to cope with bad news. I'm like a human sponge with emotions. Another work in progress.

I'm not sure what I'll do today. I might go for a walk or maybe do my bike & weights. I'll see what the day brings. I must be careful not to get too hungry.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
cate said:
I will have to try to work on making myself emotionally stronger so that I am better able to cope with bad news. I'm like a human sponge with emotions. Another work in progress.

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You sound very like me Cate. I suffer so much for other people. You know I even worry about the people that suddenly dissapear from these forums incase anything has happened to them or that they are unhappy if they haven't succeeded in getting healthy. Because of my empathy with people I find that everybody turns to me for solutions and I spend many sleepless nights because of the pressure of coming up with an answer to their problems.
I'm glad that you are feeling better now. One less person I need to worry about :)
 
eyckmans- That's really sweet of you. Yes, I do that. Worrying about everyone else doesn't actually help them usually anyway. It's hard to toughen up! Thanks for visiting & thanks for caring :) xo Cate

Exercise today-
20 min walk & 2 hours of wood gathering. We got our older son a couple of loads & 1 for us & also have a small dry tree, ready to be cut up & collected on my LH's next day off. It will be a nice surprise for him in a couple of weeks when he runs low. We've managed to get him (& us) through this Winter, supplying him with wood. We have more spare time than he does & we like doing it. It's great exercise.

Food today-
All Cohen's :)

Mood today-
Really, really good. Happy :D

Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Wow! I finally found your diary! heheh I was looking in the diary section but found it here in stead. :)

The exercise looks great! You're an active woman! :D I know from experience how exhausting it can be gathering wood.

I'm so happy to see that you're in a great mood today! :)

XO
~Stacy
 
Luvbug said:
Yayyyyyy!!!! :D :D :D

So glad to read that Cate.. I've been missing you, sweety!
So happy to see that you are doing well :)
Mwa!!!!!!!
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You're a darling Luvbug. It is so nice to think that people care about me. Thank you. I heard that Yayyy all the way down here in Tassie, Aus!! Mwah back to you my friend & a big hug! xoxo Cate

Stacy said:
Wow! I finally found your diary! heheh I was looking in the diary section but found it here instead. :)
The exercise looks great! You're an active woman! :D I know from experience how exhausting it can be gathering wood.
I'm so happy to see that you're in a great mood today! :)
XO
~Stacy
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Hi Stacy- My mood has def. lifted thank goodness! I feel really good today too. :D Things can go belly up at any time but I am going to live my life as best I can & that means doing what makes me feel happy & trying not to worry about everyone else's problems. I am so lucky.
Re: the wood gathering. My LH cuts it with the chainsaw & I gather it up, load it on to our ute (read pick-up) & drag all the small branches onto a pile to be burned later. It's great exercise & it's something that we both love doing together & it also is on our land which we love. We usually see(read disturb) at least one native animal, usually a wallaby. Thank you my friend for seeking out my diary & me :beating: You are very sweet, xoxo Cate

Today-
Still 2kg down since Monday. :D
I am going to see a podiatrist today to get fitted for orthotics. I have put it off for years but am developing a hammer toe & a bunion on my right foot. I have enough trouble buying shoes that I can afford as it is in my size(10-11) & usually end up with men's! They sell some really nice shoes there but they are $230. OUCH!! I'll have a good look around for some black sandals today as I need some before we go away in Oct. Plus I need some Summer clothes. Adelaide will be HOT. It's a beautiful city.
I had better scoot & do my dishes before I go. I'm going to be a hermit at the week-end.
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
That reminds me of my husband and myself. We have had lots of work done on our house and to save money we did a lot of the work ourselves including shifting rubble. We have spent months of shifting rubble from one part of the garden to another. I really enjoy it when we work together and as you say is a great workout.
Those shoes are expensive but my mum always said to me that as you get older you should always buy the most comfortable shoes that you can afford. She suffered really badly with bunions. My sisters have them but I seem to have been lucky. Have a great weekend.
 
Cateeeeeeeeee!!!! :grouphug:!!! Goooosh!!! I missed you!!!! Awwww...you are SUCH A DOLL!!!! I am so grateful to have you!!! It's so amazing to have friends all over the world. Sometimes, only until one is taken back by the overwhelming "companionship" that one feels by souls, JUST LIKE YOU, is it then, that we can...truly....Understand the meaning of life. The meaning of love. The meaning of friendship. The meaning of extending one's heart out without the expectation of the extension back to them. You are so AMAZING!

Cate! Thank you!!! I love you my friend. I know I can always find you, and that is so wonderful!!!! It's just so warm and welcoming to know that I can from my seat right here right now, extend my hand out all the way around the world and touch you and your screen....RIGHT NOW! :D! :jump:! Cate....how incredible is that right?! :beating: It never ceases to amaze me how I can truly love people whom I know online, like you! My soul is regenerating and evolving around YOU, Cate!!!

I can only wonder how many generations this has been so already.....:)
 
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