Cate's Diary

Thanks Mandy. You are being very supportive to all of us & I, for one, appreciate it very much. Most people get tangled up with their own lives & it's nice to see you visiting the diaries & offering that love, support & humour. Good for you!
xoxo Cate.

Stresses-
I guess you can't feel on top of the world every day. I think the stress of playing 8-ball in the State team try-outs at the week-end is my biggest cause of stress at the moment. I want it to be over. I wish I had never entered. It was a moment of madness. I decided to step outside my comfort zone. All the self-talk in the world is not helping me with this. It makes me feel sick.
The stress with our son & DIL is different. I get annoyed with her often but suppress it for peace's sake. We are looking after the 3 kids for the night tonight &, as usual, it is being stretched out to the limits. Now she wants to drop them off even earlier(mid afternoon) so that she can spend some "one on one time" with her GF before the party. Then she's staying the night at her friends anyway & says she will pick them up tomorrow. Who knows what time. I find this DIL thing quite difficult. I try not to be like mine but it is a hard position to be in. I would have loved to have someone look after our kids when they were young. I just wish she/they wouldn't always stretch it out. It makes me hesitant to volunteer to baby-sit. I guess I'll have to tell them that sometime soon.
Today-
I must go for a walk or we might go get some wood. I need some outdoor time combined with being physical.
Bye for now, Cate
 
cate said:
Red alert-weight shot up!!!!

How to explain it....Could it be the baking-well eating of my baking....or the wine every night lately......or the sneaking of sultanas.....the liqueur last thing at night at least 3 nights in the last week while watching Le Tour De France.......my husband's cooking (eating of it) because he's not been working much lately. Could it be the late nights, stressing about our OS........
It's the sum of the parts.
Back to Cohen's only food today.
Back to taking care of myself, getting to bed earlier, no snacking, no wine etc. I have had a rude awakening!

I admit that I get sick of watching what I eat all of the time & react against it every so often, with the same result every time. No-one's perfect & I'm far from it. I think we would all love to be able to eat what we want when we want but it will never be that way & the sooner we face that the better. It's time to stop the pattern of over-eating/dieting. Only we can do it.
Every time my weight creeps up I feel down on myself & feel stupid. I know I can't eat sweet biscuits, sultanas etc & not put on weight so I must face up to it & stop. Forever! The alternative is go back to being fat again. NO!!!!!!!

So...
Back to Cohen's.

I'm a bit too cranky to say much else. I'll be back later today. Bye Cate
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Hi Cate:)

thanks for letting me know how to change my email etc. So I am back and deciding when to restart Cohens. I like to get my plan out and re-read it before I start. Cate you are right in your quote above. We can not eat whatever we want and once we realise this, then we can move on and start taking care of ourselves properely. But you mustn't get cranky at yourself we are only human and you have put a halt on any further weight gain.

Anyway i will be back once I am ready to commit plan.

Take care and all the best Cate.
Samx:)
 
Hi Sam, I think I have just been cranky with the world. As I said I'm not perfect. Every now & then you just can get cranky for no particular reason. I'm mostly up & cheerful, but I guess I can't be all the time. Look forward to having you back in the forum, revved up & ready to go! xoxo Cate

Grand-kids-
We had the GK's from 3.30 yesterday afternoon, until lunch-time today. The were the best they have ever been. Our OGS decided he would prefer to stay at home with his brother & sister, rather than go to Taekwondo so that made it easier. We had the 2 littlies asleep without any tears by 8pm & no-one woke until 6am when our younger GS woke & went out to the lounge room. I went out & got him, changed his nappy & took him back to our bed where he stayed until 7.30, singing & cuddling up. It was lovely. They never sleep through at home, especially our GD, who usually wakes 2 or 3 times a night.

This afternoon-
We have been gardening & wood chopping & are both thoroughly exhausted. early to bed tonight I think- for me anyway as I am playing 8-ball all day tomorrow. OMG!
Be positive Cate......be positive Cate....have fun Cate.....breathe...in through the nose....out through the mouth.....I can do it! Not embarrass myself would be really good. Win some frames would be good. Enjoy myself & play well would be even better.
I'll pop back later probably, but if I don't I won't be back until Sunday. Big day coming up!
Lots of love to you all, xoxo Cate
 
Just popping in briefly to say I had a good day. I played some good pool & some ordinary pool & some awful pool, but I won 4 frames & had fun. I was as nervous as all hell but I now have the taste for more. I am very tired though. I have never played any more games than 3 in one day, & today I played 28 games. The concentration required is big & I struggled with that. All in all it was good to have done it. I was way outside my comfort zone. I got loads of encouragement, which was nice. It made me feel more like a part of it all, rather than just being the wife/mother/observer of the game.
I'll say goodnight for now as I am well & truly tired, xoxo Cate
 
Is everyone away?!!!!!
Today-
I got to bed at 2.15am after watching the last stage of Le Tour. We got woken at 7.30am by my MIL, asking for me to take her to an appointment (to have her toenails cut) as the woman she goes with was ill. My husband said "Of course. We'll both go". Her ap't was at 10am. She said she was ready to be picked up when we got there. She could have just left it for the other woman to ring & to change both their ap'ts but, oh no. She's way too impatient for that. We had to go one direction to pick her up (22km return, then 40km return, in the other direction & then take her home (another 22km).
When she had her feet done they asked her if she wanted to make a new ap't but she said she would need to make her ap't same day as the other woman who takes her & they said "Oh yes, she's coming tomorrow". Expletive deleted. *sigh*
Because we had done all of this I made my husband shop with me so that I don't have to on Wednesday.

I changed into my home gear the minute we got back, made us a beautiful big tuna salad & sat in my chair afterward with the papers. I felt fairly lazy, grumpy & tired so hopped on my bike & then did 2 sets of weights-240 reps in all. Now I feel good!!

I have tomorrow free (as far as I know) but will probably go to 8-ball with my LH as the guy in his team who loves Lynx & wears about 5 different fragrances at once says he may not be able to play.

I'll pop back later & hopefully someone is about. Cheers, Cate.
 
Well done on your loss Cate, that is brilliant!! I'm sure you are over the moon about that.

The forum is very quiet, wonder where everyone is??

Hope your day is going ok, seems like you did a lot of travelling, i'm not good with travelling.

Take care Cate
xx
 
& I got that wrong. The middle part of the journey was 80km return!! So 124km all up. Mmm

Hi Angela!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You & me today!!
Absolutely rapt about the weight-loss as it was totally unexpected. I got on the scales telling myself that it was ok if it had crept back up to almost last weeks weight...that I won't stress. Instead I got off & on again & couldn't believe my eyes.
I'm used to driving but we have both been very tired today. I have loved Le Tour De France but I will be glad to get more sleep. I need my sleep! xoxo Cate

8-ball-
My LH rang one of his team-mates to say that he was needed to play tomorrow night but he is interstate. He then decided that I should play, rather than ring 2 guys who haven't turned up at all this year. I'm very flattered & quite excited, rather than nervous. Yes!
Bye for now, Cate.
 
Got a good night's sleep, now that the tour has finished. I have been for a 70 min very hilly walk, also picking up rubbish. Just had a delicious tuna salad for lunch & an orange. Feeling good :D 8-ball tonight (A grade) & it's funny but I don't feel nervous. Perhaps by playing on Sat it has helped me get over the nerves. That would be nice.
Bye for now, Cate.
 
Hi Cate:)

Just catching up on your diary. Sorry to hear about your son and how your dil is off loading the kids on you. Your at that time of life where you and hubby should be focused on yourselves, but I know you love your GK and vice versa it's just the taking of advantage part that is upsetting. Hubby and I never had that with our kids...My mum and dad would only look after the kids for a few hours and I had to book in advance.
Actually hubby and I had our first night away from the kids when my cousin and his wife had them stay at their home overnight. It was so freeing to be able to go out and meet with friends and wake in the morning without the TV or computers on....and hubby and managed to read the paper chat and have a nice breakfast before we picked them up. I really appreciated my cousin doing this for us:).

And well done on your weightloss Cate....you are definitely spurring me on:). I know I should just start but we have a function coming up in August so I am waiting till that is over....but I am trying to eat sensible in the mean time.

Goodluck with 8-ball Cate glad you u feel better about that too.

Have a great day.

Samx:)
 
Hi Sam, I don't feel like I'm being taken for granted & we love to have them. I think that the time won't be stretched out from now on. I had a brief chat to our son about it. I think that all M'sIL & all D'sIL get crabby with one another from time to time. She's a really good mum & has not had much time to herself as she was a young mother (18). We never had anyone have our kids for the night when they were young but we had our kids later than most of our friends & had done lots of partying. I was 27 when I had my first. It did feel strange that they weren't going out together though I must admit. Catch up soon Sam, xoxo Cate.

The last few days-
Not sure what happened there.
Tues night-played one frame of 8-ball only (no nerves but played only ok) as our player turned up. I was happy about that. We lost on the night.
Wed- Tai Chi & then a book launch in the evening.
Thur- read a book, housework, gardening, Taekwondo with our GS, early night.
Today-
GS off to school, LH off to work.
We have our YS, his GF & a mate up for the w/e so I have to get stuck into the housework....soon....I'm having a pot of herbal tea first.
We will be gone for most of the w/e as both our sons are playing in the State team 8-ball finals all w/e. It will be a big day tomorrow & usually goes until late. I usually have a quick look when I get home Sat to see if anyone's about.
Hope you all have a good w/e, xoxo Cate
 
Hi Georgina- I have missed you!!!!!! Mwah!! Hope the head-aches disappear my friend, xoxo Cate

Quick report as our YS, his GF & 2 friends are about to appear any minute.
Today-
I cooked vegies, ready for dinner, made beds up, vacuumed(ugh!!!), cleaned bathrooms- did about 4 hours non-stop housework and-

Rode my bike & did my weights. YES!!
Bye for now folks, xoxooxo Cate.
 
Cate you always so busy, lol, ppl think staying at home is easy but I think you can vouch that it's not always!!

Have a great weekend Cate and thank you for all you support, it is really helping me get through this. Hoping to reach my 10kg mark on Monday haven't weighed all week and think I've pretty much done it but will report back on Monday.

xxx
 
Angel_sa said:
Cate you always so busy, lol, ppl think staying at home is easy but I think you can vouch that it's not always!!
Have a great weekend Cate and thank you for all you support, it is really helping me get through this. Hoping to reach my 10kg mark on Monday haven't weighed all week and think I've pretty much done it but will report back on Monday.
xxx
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You're very welcome Angela xoxo Go the 10kg mark!!!
 
Hi folks, It was a very full-on 8-ball week-end. Our YS & 4 others were equal top qualifiers. This year we will have a very strong, even Tasmanian team. There were the usual dramas & politics involved. Our OS didn't make the team as he had a bad day Sat but played much better yesterday. He wasn't going to go anyway but would have loved to have played better. He takes it in his stride though. I enjoyed the company of our YS's GF once again. We did a bit of shopping together. We get on very well. She is a little negative I find though & is a little inclined to expect others to solve her problems. Life does not work like that.
Eating-wise I did ok. Cohen's breakfast every day. We had Chinese Sat lunch (small rice-2 dishes, nothing fried & no extras) Sat night I had a gluten-free gourmet chicken burger. It was really healthy. There's a place called "Burger got soul" in Launceston that does great burgers. I suffered a little yesterday as even GF bread clogs me up a bit. Yesterday was sushi for lunch & West African chicken, a little rice & vegetables. I took apples with me & ate them over the w/e.
I haven't weighed this morning but am going to in a couple of days. I don't want to know just yet as we still have sushi in the fridge & some of the WA chkn etc. I am not going to drink wine during the week from now on & only a little at w/e's. I think that will make a few kilos difference to my weight.

Today-
Ahhhh. A home day. It's cool, sunny & windy. I may just go for a walk to the letter-box & do my bike & weights today I think. I don't like walking in the wind, especially under gum trees.
It was so nice to spend a w/e with both our sons so I feel pretty good today.
Time to catch up on some chores. Less time spent on the computer would be much better for my health I think. Best to keep on the move. :)
I'll pop back later today, xoxo Cate
 
Hi Cate,

Your weekend sounds good :) What is 8 ball? Sorry if that is a bit of a dumb question, only ever heard about it here.

My weekend was good, Saturday very busy, Sunday very chilled so a nice weekend all in all. I had the most unbelievable cravings and to make it worse I was hungry all the time. I did mess a lot with my meal times compared to the week and maybe that contributed to the hunger most of the times, weekends can be more testing especially when you sleep late and your whole day starts late.

Didn't reach the 10kg mark, 600grams off, not too bad eh? No upset about it as I know I can get there quickly this week, so right now my first goal is to get to the 10kg and then I will focus on the 100kg which will hopefully be in mid September.

Hope you having a great day Cate.

xxx
 
Hi Angela. I always found if I stretched out my meal times too much that I would feel ravenous for the rest of the day (still do).
8-ball is pool- you know, like snooker or billiards but on a smaller table. Glad you had a chill-out day on Sunday, xo Cate
Today-
I went for a 5km, very hilly walk before lunch, ate a too-big tuna salad for lunch & now feel like a nanna nap! I might just have one as I'm going out to yet another 8-ball comp tonight to watch my LH this time. I think I may just go sit in my chair right now & have a snooze as the thought of it made me yawn. Nothing against the 8-ball..I'm just tired...zzz
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
Friends, I'm taking a few days off the forum. I have had some very bad news which has me feeling shattered & I need some time to myself. I'm not up to helping anyone. I have to try to pull myself together somehow. I'm a wreck.
Love to all, Cate.
 
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