Cate's Diary

Hi Kristy-
Isn't it a pain when you do that. My satellite internet connection has been dropping out a fair bit lately with the stormy weather & I often have to start again. Next time- If you arrowed back you should be able to arrow forward to find your post again unless you lose your connection in between.
I found on maintenance if I start with the cookies here & the whatever there that they gradually build up & up & you think it's ok because your weight is stable, but then the weight jumps on & it's hard to cut them out again. The more sweets I have the more I want.This time I'm steering clear & only going to have chocolate and treats once a week.

My dinner last night-
Was beef rissoles, a tomato bake & stir-fried vegies but I shared a bottle of wine, after having some biscuits & cheese just beforehand.

Weight today-
Dropped a kg! So now I'm back to where I was a couple of weeks ago, after 5 days on Cohen's. 2.5kg above GW range!! All of my clothes are feeling comfortable again. I won't wreck this & put it back on again. We will be in Hobart for a couple of days & nights, staying with our son, but I will steer clear of rubbish (he doesn't like it anyway thank goodness) & follow the maintenance guidelines. I'll take some beef jerky with me for emergencies! It is so filling & high protein.

It's almost time to head into town so will go do some dishes etc.
Catch up tonight, xoxo Cate

 
Hi Cate

Thanks for the tip, if it happens again I will try arrowing forward!!! Yes, so true... it is hard to cut them out once you bring them in. I am not going to get into the habit of having them anymore. I did not touch them today which is good, but I did have some pastries for morning tea. I knew the pastry part of party pies/sasuage rolls is bad but I figured it would be better than cakes, least the pastries would not have spiked the insulin and opened the floodgates!

CONGRATS on the 1kg down! Woohoo! Thats awesome. You're doing great and im glad your feeling good :)

I must try the beef jerky. The look of it makes me feel a bit squirmish but maybe it will taste good. Never tried it before!

Have a great night :)
 
Hi Kristy-
There is something in my brain that looks at sausage rolls, party pies & cocktail frankfurts & says "Not food!" Thank goodness! I almost shudder at the thought of eating them. I'm the same with KFC ads or McDonalds. Ugh!!
I wish I felt that way about wine. Well...I probably don't really as it is one of life's pleasures for me. I could give it up if I had to though. Glad you're able to run again. Try to get a good pair of runners when you can won't you Kristy. I was told that cross-trainers were not best for running. Take care & happy maintaining, xo Cate

Yesterday-
Was pretty full-on taking my MIL into Launceston for a CT scan & an ultrasound but all went really well. We both went in & my LH did some golf club shopping as well after dropping us off at the hospital. I got a call to say my accessories for my car had arrived so we went & got them before leaving town. One of my SIL met us at the hospital as well & was in a great mood. I had no idea what it had been about the previous time but it may have been to do with her sister. We had time for a quick bite between tests & got her back home by about 4pm. I read a letter to her from one of her grandchildren who lives in Spain. There has been a lot of friction between both of my LH's brothers & one of them lives O/S & is unlikely to move back to Australia anytime soon. This GD is his daughter & she has not been in touch with her grandmother since not long after it all blew up. I have been the intermediary between my LH's brother, his wife & my MIL. I read emails to her, take in presents they send & read cards out to her, write letters back to them, on her behalf etc. I have never taken sides with either brother & never will. I just see that this is something I can do to heal the rift a little, in my own way & to ensure that my BIL in Hong Kong does not feel ostracised by his family. I don't think the rift between the 2 brothers will ever be healed though & I don't even think my MIL's death will cause them to get together. It is not going to be good.
The letter from my niece was heartfelt & very touching. My MIL was very touched by it. I am calling in tonight when I drop our GS does Taekwondo to write a letter back to her & one to my BIL & SIL in HK. I volunteered to do it because of her Macular Degeneration. When she could see her writing was barely legible.

Last night-
We went out to 8-ball & my LH's team scraped through in the last match to win the elimination final. It was quite an enjoyable evening as the team we played are mostly good sports. Also one of our good friends who had an op last week came along on crutches to support his team & his wife drove him. It was nice to see her, except for the perfume she wore that smells to me just like Mortein. I would have loved to ask her what it was but couldn't have without offending her. I really like her but she drowns herself in perfume & hairspray, even if I'm driving her somewhere. I think most people really think it's that I don't like their perfumes, rather than the fact that I can barely breathe when I react to their perfumes. I still have asthma from it. She & her husband are the 2 that have taken up smoking again & are both very overweight & eat really unhealthily. It's such a shame. They are both such nice people & I hate to see them being this way. Their self-esteem is really low.

Today-
I have to go in early today & pick up our GS from swimming training as he was selected in the team to play in a combined swimming carnival. He'll be thrilled about that. I was meant to pick up his friend & his friend's brother & take them to Taekwondo tonight & also drop them off, but now my OS will pick them up & meet us in there & I will take them home. It's so hard for parents these days. Everything we do here is at minimum a 22km return drive. At least I can help them. I didn't have that when we lived in Melb & our kids were little. I know that our son really appreciates my help. I think my DIL does too as she doesn't seem to be able to count on her mum's help.

I don't think I'll tackle too much as I'm a bit tired from the big day & late night. I won't finish the retainer wall today or tomorrow & then we go away for 2 days.
I have to go now & will pop back later. Cheers, cate
 
Surprise visit-
My son & the 2 younger GK's came up for a visit today, which was lovely, so that my DIL could do some housecleaning in peace. He & I had a game of Snooker & a good talk about lots of things. I'm not very good at Snooker but it was nice. The 2 littlies play well up here & barely argue. He thinks it's because our place is so big & they don't get in one another's way. They stayed for lunch & he left to take them for a drive to put them to sleep. My Lh will be disappointed that he missed them.

Weird confession-
The other day I copied all my daily quotes etc onto little index cards. It took me hours! From now on I'm going to hand write a copy as well. Talk about a time waster. I also had some from the Beck diet solution so I've mixed them all up. If I ever get sick of doing this & need any inspiration I'll know where to go! LOL at myself!!

Almost time to go as I have a car full of stuff-rubbish & re-cycling to take to my MIL's as it's bin night there tonight & I'll put them out, clothes & handbags etc for the op-shop, egg cartons for our neighbour, Taekwondo gear.....a cook's hat to drop off at a friend's place. He's going to a fancy dress party dressed as a chef & needed a chef's hat...... In fact I had better scoot!
Cheers, Cate
 
Hey Cate!!! Missed you doll face!! :grouphug:!!

Way to go on writing all those quotes down!! It's actually a wonderful way to tap into the subconscious mind through writing it out. :) And you definitely have enough motivation for all of us on here on the forum!! :beating:! love that about you!!

I hope that all is well overall...and Congrats on dropping that Kg!!! You always impress me!! Stay sweet Cate!! :D!! Glad I got a chance to come here and tell you that you ARE WONDERFUL!!!
 
Hello you lovelies!! I'm in a hurry as our younger grandson is about to arrive for the day. I had our older grandson for the night last night as we do every Thursday night so he uses my computer when he can. I was tired last night so didn't come in here.
I just wanted to say quickly that I think you are very sweet.
A big Mwah back to you Luvbug and
a big hug to you Alta &
a big hi to you dietgrrl & a humungous thank you to the 3 of you for being so lovely! xoxoxoxo Cate
I will catch up later in the day when I have him to sleep hopefully! xoC
 
Grandson-
It has taken him an hour but I think he's asleep. I'll go have a peek in a minute as I want to go wash my car for the w/e away. Cheeky little monkey. I think he thought he heard me as I heard him stand up in the cot. I crept away again quietly. I had taken my shoes off before luckily.
It's funny what you can't do when you have little ones about. Every Friday is going to be a bit of a pain I must admit. I can't go for a walk with him for example as it's too rocky & hilly up here. Even with a stroller it would be tough on the road. It started out with just being Friday mornings & somehow ended up being until 3-3.30 & then I have my GD & DIL as well for a while. On top of Thursday nights with the older GS I feel a little tied down again. Not as much as when I had little kids but you get so used to being able to do your own thing.
It looks like the car won't get a wash. Maybe I'll just go do it anyway quickly! He's not making a sound at all.
Bye for now, Cate
 
Job done! :leaving:

:auto::willy_nilly::driving:
Speedwash!!

Grandson asleep. :Angel_anim:
Yes!! :D

Now, for a cup of herbal tea. Wrong- just heard him! Be back later!
xo Cate
 
Thanks Geo. I appreciate your concern. I have been feeling very fragile & quite ill because of it. Stress is particularly bad for your health. I must deal with it in the next couple of days or it will only get worse. I deleted my yesterday's post. Thanks for reading it & being kind, xo Cate.
 
Hi Kristy-
Thanks sweets. There's no point boring you with all of it but thanks for the offer. My MIL has seriously upset me & let me down so much so that I shook for hours on Friday night & cried & felt like staying home all w/e, instead of going to Hobart to see our son. My husband got a letter from his work on Friday that had a similar effect on him so we were both a mess on Friday night.
We decided to go to Hobart & deal with it when we got back so we tried to put it out of our heads over the w/e. We had a good but very tiring w/e. Our son would like us to come down more often so we will try to. Thanks for being so sweet, xo Cate

I don't feel up to much I'm sorry. I cancelled Tai Chi & a doctors ap't today & instead am staying home with my LH. We have some things we must do today to deal with these problems so that we can both move on. I feel very down & hopefully will feel better when they're dealt with, although I don't think it will be very pleasant.
Bye for now, Cate.
 
dietgrrl said:
Aw, Cate. So sorry to hear that you had a rough week. :( **hugs**
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Thanks sweetie. We're starting to deal with it so that's good. Thanks for the hugs. I needed them! :) xo Cate

Dealing with stuff-
Is always a good idea. Anger makes you very ill. The letter we did today was really good. My husband is demanding an apology & that the letter gets removed from his file. If he doesn't get an apology he will most likely quit.
We are both fine with that. I have worked out how I am going to talk to my MIL so that she & I should be still ok. I'm glad I've calmed down enough to be able to have a reasoned conversation with her.

I'm going to cut down the time I'm spending on the forum for a while. I have also halved my Facebook friends & will spend barely any time in there as I feel I need to do more physical stuff & be more sociable outside my home. I felt like I was losing touch with reality a little. I want to feel more grounded.

Today did me good though. We both stayed home. It was my decision not to go to Tai Chi. If I had gone into town I wouldn't have been better off, even with TC, as I would have had to have seen my MIL today when I was still angry. Instead I got lots of things done which made me feel much calmer.

I won't be back today as it's 8-ball night, xo Cate
 
Hey there Cate,

I'm sorry that things have not been good for you over the past week or so. It sounds like you have been extremley stressed out and it is taking its toll on you completely. Im glad that you had a day at home with your LH and you are feeling a bit better as the days pass.

We will always be here on the forum (well I know I will be!) when ever you are able to drop by and give us an update on how you're going :) sometimes it is good to get away from the online world and do more physical things. Just do whatever is going to make you feel better Cate, that's all that matters! Just concentrate on yourself for awhile maybe, you deserve it!

You rock, thanks for being here for all of us so much all the time & just always remember we're here for you too!

Take care Cate.
Kristy xxxxx
 
Hi Kristy! I have probably spent too much of my time online & neglected some of my friends over the past few years. I have also made some very good friends through the forum that I would never have known otherwise. The forum & typing in my diary really helped me get through the program. I had so many adjustments to make with my life & made so many changes that it helped me to think them through. I also thought that friends & family were so sick of hearing about Cohen's.
I feel it's time to spend more quality time in the real world. I still want to type daily & I like to think that I can help others commit to a healthy life but I confess to getting a bit frustrated at times. I could not be a consultant. I will stay here for a while & see how I go but please don't expect too much of me. I'm not trained. I just try to provide moral support & hopefully some common sense. I think we have a good mix of people at the moment & everyone is trying to support one another. That's what life is all about I think.
I don't think that I am depressed. I know how that feels. I just need to take extra care of myself for a while &, as Kristy says, do the things that I know make me feel better. Exercise is the key for me plus dealing with problems as soon as I am able to. I do not like being angry or reacting when I'm angry but I need to deal with problems as soon as I have calmed down enough to be rational & cool. That time is now. Problems usually grow when they are not dealt with. Anger makes me ill.
We both feel better when we deal with things. By now my husband will have given his letter to his immediate boss(who wrote a report on him) plus copies to 4 other relevant staff members including the union rep. I hope he gives me a call to let me know how it all goes. He may quit today depending on what happens & if he gets an apology. We are quite sure that the incident that was mentioned happened while he was not at work. The way they have gone about it all is so unprofessional & incompetent. He finds it very frustrating & irritating. He loves his actual job & the pay is great. Until this woman came along he had no problems. It's not personal as all the kitchen staff are having problems with her. Trouble is they're stuck with her. Ahhh Public service. I remember it well.

Enough of that. I won't go back & read any of this post as I have been deleting most of them lately. Just put it down to gremlins in the air or something. We'll get stuff sorted & I'll be back to my usual self very soon I promise. Meanwhile I send you all lots of love, xo Cate.

 
Sending you lots of love as well, Cate :) Just wanted to let you know that I have read this.. not feeling like I have very many words at the moment. I had such a flat out day and have been so busy... just wanted to let you know you always have my support and I'm happy if you're happy! =o)

K xoxo
 
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