Cate's Diary

aiminglow said:
I hate the culture which has barraged us and so many others into feeling embarrassed by our good, working bodies - not that anyone should feel embarrassed by a non-working body, either. They're all just innocent bodies
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Quoted for truth.
 
aiminglow said:
And it's not happy that you feel self-conscious about your body either (as I do myself - every time I go swimming, I carefully position my town or wrap or both really strategically close to where I'm going to exit the water). I hate the culture which has barraged us and so many others into feeling embarrassed by our good, working bodies - not that anyone should feel embarrassed by a non-working body, either. They're all just innocent bodies, "soft animals" as LaMa's poem said, or "Brother Ass", as Francis of Assisi said.
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lol to Brother Ass...good one!
Yes too bad so many of us feel self-conscious about our bodies. I love seeing a good variety in shapes and sizes and love when I see everyone going in for a dip in the water whatever their size or type is--it encourages me to do the same! Even when people get to their 'ideal weight' there can always be something telling them they are not good enough. That's why it's good to love ourselves all along the way and to just enjoy all what having a body has to offer. One day we will all have to give our bodies up for good so we should enjoy them while we can!
 
liza said:
Hi Cate,
Well I think it's impressive that you've been on the forum since 2007. That means you've maintained this for the long term. I hope I'll be able to do that. I think that seems fair enough to take breaks from being vigilant on recording foods and actively trying to lose. i think it's just great that you've maintained a healthy lifestyle for all this time!
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Thanks, Liza. I maintained really well until the start of last year when the weight started creeping back on. It may be down to new blood pressure meds. I'm not sure really.
LaMaria said:
Not at the same time, I hope? :D
Catheters aren´t fun but (especially youngish) people learn how to deal with them*. Dialysis would impact your life so much more.
*Gross history fact: Suleiman the Great´s eunuchs were castrated by Coptic Christian priests because Muslims weren´t allowed to for religious reasons. Some of them didn´t just get their testicles crushed or removed but also their penis cut off, after which they would often have to catheterize for the rest of their lives.
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M will have to have a catheter for the rest of his life, which he had accepted quite well. The needing dialysis has really upset him. We weren't meant to know.
Petal001 said:
Ouch LaMa . :oops: Lol
I agree what Liza said Cate . That’s a great long time to be living healthily and to be here on the forum . Have you ever had a long break from the forum Cate ?
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No, I haven't Petal. On holidays I try to check in.
aiminglow said:
I wonder what you did with your free day? Something calming and lovely, I bet!
I'm sorry your brother-in-law is probably getting to end-game - how does he feel about things? Does he even think of it that way, or is he more concentrating on getting through each day? I don't know how I would handle things if I were in your sister-in-law's position - I mean, I think I would just curl up and shut everyone out. Life, hey? No happy endings.
And it's not happy that you feel self-conscious about your body either (as I do myself - every time I go swimming, I carefully position my town or wrap or both really strategically close to where I'm going to exit the water). I hate the culture which has barraged us and so many others into feeling embarrassed by our good, working bodies - not that anyone should feel embarrassed by a non-working body, either. They're all just innocent bodies, "soft animals" as LaMa's poem said, or "Brother Ass", as Francis of Assisi said.
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Thanks, Amy. I actually got quite a lot of housework done, which felt good as it was long overdue, especially the vacuuming. I'm not really sure how my BIL feels about everything, but I know he's fed up with it.
I think I have always felt self-conscious about my body, even when I was slim. It is a shame I know.

liza said:
lol to Brother Ass...good one!
Yes too bad so many of us feel self-conscious about our bodies. I love seeing a good variety in shapes and sizes and love when I see everyone going in for a dip in the water whatever their size or type is--it encourages me to do the same! Even when people get to their 'ideal weight' there can always be something telling them they are not good enough. That's why it's good to love ourselves all along the way and to just enjoy all what having a body has to offer. One day we will all have to give our bodies up for good so we should enjoy them while we can!
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I do agree in theory & tell everyone else that, but when it boils down to it I find it really hard to love my body. I think I have learned to love who I am, but the body I come in not so much.
Thanks for your support everyone! :grouphug:
I think I have decided against the new yard & a dog for now. G & I are at a good stage where we can go away for a night or 2 without worrying about responsibilities & we enjoy that. I reserve the right to change my mind one day. I also don't want to spend any more money than necessary at the moment as our savings are dwindling at a rapid rate. Time to be a little bit more prudent.
Also, time to get moving......
 
Yes, that's really freeing, to be able to go away for a night or two without worrying about the hens, or the dog, or the cattle or anything! A very significant positive. (And if money's possibly tricky in a few years' time - the things I hear from friends about vets' bills... wow.)
About bodies... I like this little film (a bit under seven minutes) not only for the true-to-life mother-daughter interactions - but for the daughter's beginning to be comfortable with her body, and the footage of the mother, who's overweight, sure, but also looks perfectly fine in bathers! A real body-positivity film.
 
I also think it's fine to NOT love your body to pieces - as long as you treat it well and don't (secretly) call it names. Sometimes acceptance is the best we can do.
 
We used to watch a show called how to look good naked . Made people more positive about their bodies . I think we need to be more grateful for our bodies and thank them for all they do for us . Look at how hard your body works Cate . Out hiking and working im your garden , taking you around the golf course . Celebrate it x
 
I've seen that show. It wasn't bad overall but they had an extreme fixation on making everyone look as feminine as possible and 95% of the women was put into spanx for the end result which to me undermined the premise of the show.
 
Thanks, Amy , LaMa & Petal. I will pull myself up & give my body the credit it deserves. Sure, it's far from perfect, but it serves me well. Thanks, Petal. You're right, xo
 
Petal001 said:
I think we need to be more grateful for our bodies and thank them for all they do for us . Look at how hard your body works Cate . Out hiking and working im your garden , taking you around the golf course . Celebrate it x
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I think that's more how I love my body. Not so much for how it looks but just for all it does. I love being able to walk and work in the garden etc. I also appreciate the senses--what the eyes see, the nose smells etc
 
aiminglow said:
About bodies... I like this little film (a bit under seven minutes) not only for the true-to-life mother-daughter interactions - but for the daughter's beginning to be comfortable with her body, and the footage of the mother, who's overweight, sure, but also looks perfectly fine in bathers! A real body-positivity film.
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I felt that one so hard! All the horror of being 13 and the joy of having a baby sibling...
 
I just watched that video. If I feel self-conscious about my body now, it's nothing to what I felt as a teenager. I am going to try to go swimming this summer in the sea. It's high time I got over this. It has been so long!
I'm off to golf today. We are very lucky that it is not stinking hot here like it is on most of mainland Australia. I'm glad I live in Tasmania.
 
I have family in Sydney, currently a bit stunned by the smoke from the fires is making the air bad to breathe. :( Though if that situation gets a bit of national consciousness going about the needs of the environment, the smoke pollution will be worth it.
Great about the good weather where you are - hope it makes for a good day's golfing. And definitely great about swimming in the sea - the most blissful kind of swimming. (unless jellyfish, of course - or sharks, as Flyer helpfully reminds us!)
 
aiminglow said:
I have family in Sydney, currently a bit stunned by the smoke from the fires is making the air bad to breathe. :( Though if that situation gets a bit of national consciousness going about the needs of the environment, the smoke pollution will be worth it.
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I think most city people have no idea what life is like in the country, bad fires everywhere but only becomes a problem when Sydney gets covered in smoke lol
 
Cate I too avoid swimsuits and swimming as I was too ashamed . However I am going to a spa soon and I have tried on my swimsuit and am already to use it . I would have sadly refused to go this time last year . However I think yep no matter what we must rejoice in being well enough to have a swim .
I didn’t realise the fires were still going on Aus but I have not been watching the news lately . I must again .
 
Cate said:
I am going to try to go swimming this summer in the sea. It's high time I got over this. It has been so long!
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I was not willing to go swimming for a time, but long ago just gave up on it and went in, even when real fat. No one noticed, or let me know they were noticing anyway. Good for you, have fun in the water!

 
Keep reminding me if you haven't read about me swimming. It's not warm enough yet in Tassie to go swimming in the ocean, but after Christmas, it should be.
I played golf yesterday & was absolutely exhausted. My BP was really low the day before (92/70) & I am looking forward to seeing the cardio next week. If I had crisps, or raisins or ginger in the house last night I think I would have stuffed them in my face. Instead, I ate 2 oranges & then a stick of molasses licorice. Later I ate a small bowl of nuts. I really needed something salty. They were very satisfying & I ate them super slowly.
I have only ever owned one bikini & that was when I was a teenager. It was a very modest bikini, compared to the bum floss ones around these days. I actually have a swim dress, with their own swim tights. It's very bright.
 
I haven't been swimming in years either...maybe next summer (my summer is in about 7 months) I will join you all!
My reasons for going isn't just body-shame but also other anxiety issues, so I'll have a few things to work on...
Nothing like floating in open waters under an open sky.
 
I hope you´re feeling better by now :grouphug:
 
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