Cate's Diary

I'm sorry for your loss! It sounds like you have a lovely evening ahead. I'm mildly religious but I don't go to church as I don't believe all of that is necessary. I hope G is alright, he can't be held responsible for a group of people's collective views.
 
I'm sorry to hear about your friend :grouphug:
Used-to-be-catholic: the little room is made up. Probably a heresy. And the woman was most definitely not a priest (I assume she was whatever a prayer-helper is called in Tasmania). I wrote a letter to the pope when I was a kid to make absolutely clear if he could make an exception for me to be a priest and the response was... absolutely clear :rotflmao:
 
She called herself a priest. I thought it was weird & she certainly was very weird. I'll do a little homework into her credentials. I know that I have a bias against mumbo jumbo, but I also have to admit I have a stronger bias towards religious mumbo jumbo. I never say anything in other people's diaries about it, because "each to his or her own" but I try to avoid religion if I can. It's another thing that my Mum passed down to me (& my siblings).
G has just got home & he had a very weird day. The co-captains had held a half hour meeting before golf & then they organised to play with G & his golfing partner & they were super nice to him all day. He got home in a strange mixed-up mood. He was warned by a friend this morning that the meeting on Monday night could get very nasty. I said if it does & nothing is resolved we will move on & we will.
 
cate said:
The co-captains had held a half hour meeting before golf & then they organised to play with G & his golfing partner & they were super nice to him all day. He got home in a strange mixed-up mood.
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I don´t like that at all. I think they may be trying to break up your united front through his known tendency to be nice and assume the best of everyone. But then again: I´m a suspicious bitch :D
 
Ooh, so am I! I am quite sure they were up to serious mischief. That word is not strong enough. They are devious, nasty little f*^#ers!
 
It must have been a Church of England ceremony then I reckon. That was my grandmother's religion & it was really full on. I was made to go until I was about 14 & I hated it. The same stuff was repeated over & over & over & never made any sense to me. My Mum begged me to get confirmed (the white gown- the works) to appease my grandmother (her MIL) & said I could then make up my mind afterwards if I wanted to continue on with going to church. I said "But, Mum getting confirmed means that you believe in all that & I don't.....& you don't go to church!" To which she begged me to please just do it as my Nana & great Aunt were putting so much pressure on her. I agreed, but with the proviso- "So, once I'm confirmed I am allowed to make up my own mind whether I go to church or not?" She agreed. I went through all the rigmarole, along with a group of other girls. We had to stick together as he was a dirty old man, who always tried to get us on our own & managed with one & tried feeling her up. We made a pact to stick together. I got confirmed. A week later on Sunday morning, Mum suggested I had better start getting ready for church & I told her I wouldn't be going. I reminded her that had been the proviso. I never did go again, except for funerals & weddings. Nana & Aunty Mary got over it.

I mentioned in another diary that I went out last night & had 4 glasses of wine. In my head, if I don't have to drive home, which I almost always do, then I can drink more. This has to stop. I think I have to try to switch my brain around somehow. G & I have shared a bottle of wine almost every night since forever. It's a habit. Habits are hard to kick. I know that is why I am about 7-8kg overweight. I don't think to have one glass of wine each day is physically bad for me, but I think having an emotional dependence on wine is not good for me. Then, when I have too much, like last night, I feel like I have let myself down & that is worse. I need to find a way to permanently change my way of thinking about it. I may talk about it with a therapist when I eventually go back to see one. I'll try to work something out for this week. I'll start with today. Today I will have no wine.

I am logging everything I eat & drink starting this morning on My Fitness Pal. I have opened up my diary again, so those who are "friends" with me on there can see everything I consume. I need to give my butt a kicking. I am also not moving enough! I wish I could get my fitbit to buzz me more often!

BTW- I'm CateAussie on MFP if you want to add me. I'm not really 100 years old :)
 
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BTW- I'm CateAussie on MFP if you want to add me. I'm not really 100 years old :)
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Habits ARE hard to break. But you can do it. Does it help to remember that your average dry red wine has 85 kcal for 100 ml? Assuming you drink half the (0,75 l) bottle that´s almost 320 kcal/day you´re consuming extra. Which may or may not be worth it for you; that´s not for me to judge.
 
You're right LaMa. It's too many calories.
I am really noticing the not having a glass of wine. I am going to keep telling myself that it will mean I can eat some more healthy food. I'm glad I made the statement this morning, otherwise the bottle would have been opened already.
It's Sunday & every Sunday night after dinner we have a fruit platter with some "treats", usually about 4 squares of chocolate, perhaps a sweet biscuit & tonight I'll add some raisins & some ginger too. We also have some really good quality Turkish Delight & we'll have one little piece each.
No wine. I can do it. I'll go make another pot of herbal tea. I think that will be the 3rd one for the day, not counting the pot of espresso 1st thing this morning :) I'm hydrated. It's quite cold today & G & I haven't moved far from the fire.
 
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It's so difficult to shake a habit, especially when it's a bonding experience with a partner.
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You hit the nail on the head Jess!
I did it.
We had our Sunday night "treats" platter after dinner. Oh, my. It was 466 cals. Our roast lamb dinner was less than that!
 
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We had our Sunday night "treats" platter after dinner. Oh, my. It was 466 cals. Our roast lamb dinner was less than that!
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I hope you loved every bite. I think 466 kcal for treats would be a lot if you had it every day, but for a weekly thing? That´s less than 70 kcal/day!
 
The wine habit is a tough one to break - glad you managed last night! I don't miss it after a few consecutive days but I always look forward to it. Would rather have wine than chocolate or anything else so guess I see it as my "treat" now. Treat platter sounds fabulous!
 
I prefer wine to chocolate etc too Hana & may have to switch my thinking around to treating it as just that- a treat, rather than a staple. :blush5:
I was brave this morning & hopped on the scales. I was exactly what I thought I would be......I think I'll redo my start weight with MFP to what I am today, rather than what I was back in 2007. What I am now is my "I am not allowed to ever go above this weight & this is when I knuckle down" weight. I'm OK with what I weighed this morning. It looks like I picked a good time to get back on the train!
 
Thanks hon. That was perfect timing! We're about to go to the Special meeting at the golf club & some people could get nasty. I hope not. I'll hang onto the thought that I am strong & determined.
 
Not so strong, not so determined!
Feeling quite despondent & can't get to sleep. Most of the vets will be happy as the guy they wanted to get rid off has quit, but so has one of the best committee members. G has gone back on committee & so have 3 other vets( until the AGM in October). I'm glad I didn't put my hand up too! The captain was so aggressive & nasty. He's a horrible piece of work & most of his nastiness is directed at G. I think he really does think G covets his job.
I'll stop ranting & try going back to bed. I'm so tired. I hope I feel a bit better in the morning!
 
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