Cate's Diary

The food in Sri Lanka sounds amazing and how cool that you guys have brought that 'custom' with you home. Even better if your stomach is happier. That's one of the reasons I love traveling (especially in Asia!) - the food. Curries ARE gorgeous! :)

I love your positivity Cate and I'm sure your son feels your love and support and I hope he continues making progress. Awesome to have someone like CaliGirl to come and give advice too :)

Love and light to you!!!
 
The food in Sri Lanka sounds amazing and how cool that you guys have brought that 'custom' with you home. Even better if your stomach is happier. That's one of the reasons I love traveling (especially in Asia!) - the food. Curries ARE gorgeous! :)

I love your positivity Cate and I'm sure your son feels your love and support and I hope he continues making progress. Awesome to have someone like CaliGirl to come and give advice too :)

Love and light to you!!!
Thank you Delsid :)

I have Insomnia so thought I would catch up with the diaries. I'm just starting to flag though, so will drag my tired body off to bed. Had quite a good day, but it was a long one. I have decided to stay home tomorrow & G is being driven in by a young friend. I'll have a nice quiet day at home & then we're going out to a RocKwiz live show. RocKwiz is an Australian television live music trivia quiz show, focused on rock music and featuring different guest artist musicians who perform live in each episode. We have front row seats & it is our favourite TV show. It's touring the country.
Time for bed I think. It's 2am..... zzzzz (hopefully)
 
The show was fantastic! Brian Nankervis came along the front row seats & asked if anyone had a camera. I said I only had my phone & he asked me to take a photo. He revs everyone up, gets them singing etc before the show. He's very good & very funny. He told me to be ready. Next thing I know he's calling me up on stage. He's handed Brad an audience member the microphone, music is pumping, Brad is singing, I'm dancing, sang very briefly, Brian asks everyone to put their hands up on cue & that's when I had to take the photo. He came & had a look at it & it was a blur. He made jokes about crappy phones & then got the audience to do it again & for me to do another one. Luckily he didn't come back & have a look at that one as it was almost as bad! It was really funny. I was on stage for about 5 minutes. I can't remember why now, but he got me back up quickly. He asked me my name while I was on stage. I think I was so excited & enjoying it so much I forgot to have stage fright! G took quite a few photos while I was up there, but his photography skills are non-existent. Oh well. That doesn't matter. It was a really fun experience.
This is the RocKwiz web-site if anyone wants to take a look-
http://rockwizlive.com.au/
 
Excitement! Sounds like you had a lot of fun. Can we find a clip of you on the site?
I hope not! I think I would rather have the memory of the confidence I felt, without any sort of self-critical analysis if I saw myself on video. I wish G had been able to take a better photo, but I'm not much better. The main thing is that we had a ball & I loved the experience of being up on stage & felt confident enough to actually dance to the music in front of thousands of people. That is such a HUGE breakthrough for me. I would never have done that 10 years ago. There would have been so many people that I knew, even if I hadn't seen them on the night. I actually feel quite proud of myself.
 
My old self would have too! I got caught up with the atmosphere & the occasion & seemed to find that inner me, that just loves music & is almost child-like. I sprung up onto the stage & got caught up in it all. He called me back up again at one stage &, once again I sprang up there & spoke into the mike & felt really confident& almost bounced back to my seat. I didn't know I had it in me! I will have to try to hold onto that confidence. It's usually very tenuous. I also made a new friend- Toni. She loves live music & hates going alone. We struck up a conversation & I sent her some photos. I liked her. I'm much more open to friendships than I was when I was younger. I think I grew up with a skewed idea of female friendships. They used to feel way too demanding & intense for me. I also used to protect myself from hurt to some extent I think. Life is so much better when you are more open to friendship. It doesn't have to be the all & everything it was when I was a kid.
 
I think there´s a reason female friendships carry a bit of stigma. Some of them are, of course... no friendships at all but the good ones are so great! I sometimes feel people used to scare women away from each other´s support and company to keep them in line. Also: people who stop making friends when they get older tend to end up lonely when they get old, even when they have wonderful kids who visit them as often as they can. A lot of people my age around here still have the same friends they know from highschool and think that´ll be enough forever.
 
I find female friendships more difficult too..luckily the few girls I have are all out of my city so they are very low maintenance and relaxed :) Your night sounds amazing, so much fun!!
 
Well all my friends are female; just a better class of people i suppose. I think i had one male friend growing up. We just never were very close. Ah well time for therapy i suppose.
 
I think I have almost always been more comfortable with men than I have with women. I am just not into fashion, makeup or other "girlie, girlie" things. I think also that I have preferred G's company to almost anyone I have ever met so have not needed the company of others much. I have been with him since I was 18 years old. I feel it's more a change within myself in the last few years- a change in my perception of what women want or expect in a friendship & the fact that I am less guarded & more self-confident, that has enabled me to be more open to female friendships. I'm a work in progress :)
Had a good day today. It was freezing though!
 
What an amazing thing to say about your husband :)
"I think also that I have preferred G's company to almost anyone I have ever met so have not needed the company of others much."

I'm not a girly girl either and find girly topics rather tedious. There are some fantastic women out there though :)
 
:D Now I suddenly feel like I'm the girrrliest of girls :D In reality I know all my friends from sports related activities and we don't girl at all. There must be a secret girliness restriction for this forum.
 
Ha, I can relate to the not relating to girlie girls thing. Luckily, I've managed to find lots of female friends who are the same. I think with the weight loss, I'm able to enjoy clothes and makeup a lot more so I don't mind talking about them, but I also want to chat about other stuff.
 
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