Thanks CaliGirl. I just don't want to stop doing the squats but maybe my legs do need a rest. I'll do some more homework & maybe have a day off them.
I don't feel up to typing in diaries today. I think most of us have similar struggles & some days you can help & some you can't. It requires a certain amount of oomph & I don't have much in me today. G thought we may go for a drive. (He left a couple of things behind at the other golf course yesterday)
I really struggled with my fast day yesterday & maybe went over my 500 cals by 50-100. I was so hungry!
This morning I weighed & I have gained 1kg since the start of the month, instead of losing my hoped-for 1kg. Now I can talk to myself & say it must be fluid, but maybe I am eating over my TDEE on the 5 other days each week. I don't know really as I have not been keeping track. I looked in the mirror this morning side & front on & thought how much slimmer I look. I am actually quite happy with how I look. I know that if I stop "dieting" I would quickly put 7kg back on again, so I won't give up, but I think it's time for a change.
I think I will have this week off fasting. I will weigh myself every day & if I gain one more kilo I will have a fast day that day. I won't weigh myself Wednesday as fasts & golf would not go well together.
It doesn't matter how long you have been doing this there will always be struggles. It's not easy, but we mustn't give up.
I went out & had a good practice at the golf course yesterday(there were only 2 others out there on the whole course!) & feel I may have ironed out some of my recent faults, especially with putting. I'll go to get fitted out for new golf clubs soon I think & I may have a couple of lessons. I have never had any one on one coaching at all & only started 3 & 1/2 years ago. I would like to get better at it.
We are having a very old visitor soon.(96?) He blasted the rocks so that we could get level "ground" to build our house & is the FIL of one of the older golfers who visited us recently. Apparently he was excited to hear we had built our house out of rock off our land. I'll share a photo of a part of our house, seeing as photos have disappeared from the forum.
If you wonder how on earth I manage to keep a house this big clean. You have to lower your standards! I love living here though, but wonder how long we can stay here as it's on 50 acres. I have been having some anxiety lately about how long we can live here, as it will be heart wrenching to leave it. We built this house & so much of us & our personalities are in it.
Better scoot xoxo