bluehats diary

[bluehat]

Weight-
248lbs
Same anyway whew

 

[bluehat]

Foods-
Homemade meatloaf with mayo in to make it softer

2 Nutritional drinks

 

[bluehat]

I guess the meatloaf was a bad idea.
My gums aren't ready yet.

 

[Cate]

That's a shame about the meatloaf hurting your gums, Blue. They're taking their time healing xo

 

[bluehat]

That's a shame about the meatloaf hurting your gums, Blue. They're taking their time healing xo

I've been wondering if it's due to being diabetic. The slower healing thing they get. I'm not sure why that is though. Why the slower healing but I might have it. Just a thought.

 

[Cate]

I think your theory might be right, Blue. I just googled it & found this-
"Oral wounds under diabetic conditions display a significant delay during the healing process, mainly due to oxidative stress-induced inflammatory status and abnormal immune responses."

 

[bluehat]

Well wish me luck or pray or whatever your thing is.
In a few hours is my phone
specialist Dr appointment.
Hoping to get the hunger causing meds straightened out. Before I'm back to 300.
I don't relish the thought of having to starve the rest of my life to keep the weight down. Or feel like I am.

 

[bluehat]

I think your theory might be right, Blue. I just googled it & found this-
"Oral wounds under diabetic conditions display a significant delay during the healing process, mainly due to oxidative stress-induced inflammatory status and abnormal immune responses."

Yep. Sounds like it.

 

[bluehat]

Well I bet anyone can guess how it went!
Yep not good.
Just thinking on what I'm going to do about it now.
Very upset.

 

[bluehat]

Food-
2 cups lentil soup
I hope it wasn't more than my goal of 1500 mg. I forgot to check. O well. A new day tomorrow.

 

[bluehat]

Goals-
2 songs a day
2 cups of food
245lbs

 

[bluehat]

So I did 2 songs anyway so partway there.
Weight 247.

The food will be the hard part and i don't even know if I want to fight the meds.

 

[Cate]

Yay for doing 2 songs again xo

 

[bluehat]

I'm hoping I can cope with 1200-1500 calories a day. Then decide what amount depending on where the weight goes. It's so much more flexible.

Weight-
250lbs
Yikes hoping that's just one of those fluctuations things.
Exercise-
Hoping to still do 2 songs.

With the pet death today I'm not sure I'm up to the 2 songs.
But I will try.

 

[bluehat]

It's all pretty useless.
I'm expecting that I can fight med side effects. I've tried .
Time to stop. It's too hard on my other systems.
I guess I've been given my choices. I can only hope that weighing 300 won't kill me time.

 

[Cate]

Oh, Blue
Keeping doing the best you can xo

 

[bluehat]

Having some sort of device or internet trouble. I will be back to posting when I can.
Thanks everyone.

 

[bluehat]

Whew fixed faster than I thought and easier too.

Weight-
244lbs
Idk how it is . It seems to be jumping all over the place. Idk what I really even weigh anymore.

So currently I'm on a eat once wait 12 hours eat once plan.
I believe today is my second day.

It's been hard to find something I can live with and stick with.
Part of it having to eat to the food sales and partly being so hungry from meds.
But I had to solve the meds thing myself. There was no medical ears listening to my concerns. So I just stopped the one causing the problem.
And now there hasn't been a food 'sale' for many months so
what I eat is hit and miss sort of thing. But as long as I can have at least something to eat every day I'm doing better than alot of people as sad as that is.
I will try to post weight and food if this device/internet thing stays fixed.
And if I'm really lucky maybe some exercise. Yay!

 

[Cate]

I'm glad that you're continuing to do the best you can for yourself, Blue. We are our own best support xo

 

[bluehat]

Food today-
1.5 cups canned beans baked style with 2 cup sized nutritional drinks
Pretty stuffed and bloated.
Not sure what to have later
When the 12 hour is up.
Likely 1 nutritional drink.