nataliejo
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Hey ...
DBSA can be pretty wild.. with all of us having bipolar ...in the community forum they have been good
once in a blue moon there is a flame war... I just stay clear ...lol
ttylater
natalie jo
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Hey ...
DBSA can be pretty wild.. with all of us having bipolar ...in the community forum they have been good
once in a blue moon there is a flame war... I just stay clear ...lol
ttylater
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hello Natilie! Finally found your journal as well
Seems like you are having ups and downs? What is your goal right now?
Hello SirK ...
I am setting my goals every fifteen pounds. Because I know there will be those plateaus ahead... Every time I reach an even number, like 300, 290, I seem to reach a plateau, than I have to step up the amount of exercise or change the way I exercise. Right now I am doing combos of bike riding and walking. But anyway, I have 10 pounds to go until I am 285... and hopefully, just like the doctor ordered, I will be 285. Than my next goal is 270, but first I need to reach 285. But I haven't been 285 for two years now. I went up to 314 pounds, but than I decided it was high time I motivated myself to do something. So with out the forum I lost 14 pounds. Now with the forum I have lost five pounds, which I don't think I could have done with out this forum. Because I had reached a plateau at 300 ...so They offered advice and I took it ...
its all good ..
285 is around the corner, about two months from now... lmao
ttylater
natalie jo
whats your first goal?
Happychubette
Banned
Your ambition comes across loud and clear. Keep it going girl! You'll definitely get there doin what you're doing.
When I first started at 200 I didn't think I'd be able to lose weight because I never have before until I found this forum. My first ticker went from 200 to 180. I was so pleased just to lose twenty pounds. It has made a big difference for me and I'm just going to keep eating this way.
You are smart to break it down in to small tasks. More successes that way, more times to celebrate.
When I first started at 200 I didn't think I'd be able to lose weight because I never have before until I found this forum. My first ticker went from 200 to 180. I was so pleased just to lose twenty pounds. It has made a big difference for me and I'm just going to keep eating this way.
You are smart to break it down in to small tasks. More successes that way, more times to celebrate.
nataliejo
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Hey
Thanks you so much!
Its a real triumph that you have lost 20 pounds ...
I have lost nineteen now... hopefully I won't be meeting up with any plateaus until I reach 290... I know I probably will, but I plan to just keep going. My bf and I tonight are going to bike ride to the grocery stores and shop for this weekend .. He has those huge bags on the sides of his bike and one on top, so it should be fun. I have a bag, but I don't want to use it, because it covers my bike light up .. which really sucks ...but such is life.. I have to get bike lights for my front area ...
hmm
its just so hard to find good lights. I should check the bike shops, but even than I seem to not find proper lighting ..hmm..
well ttylater folks
thanks for stopping in hun ..
always
natalie jo
Hello SirK ...
I am setting my goals every fifteen pounds. Because I know there will be those plateaus ahead... Every time I reach an even number, like 300, 290, I seem to reach a plateau, than I have to step up the amount of exercise or change the way I exercise. Right now I am doing combos of bike riding and walking. But anyway, I have 10 pounds to go until I am 285... and hopefully, just like the doctor ordered, I will be 285. Than my next goal is 270, but first I need to reach 285. But I haven't been 285 for two years now. I went up to 314 pounds, but than I decided it was high time I motivated myself to do something. So with out the forum I lost 14 pounds. Now with the forum I have lost five pounds, which I don't think I could have done with out this forum. Because I had reached a plateau at 300 ...so They offered advice and I took it ...
its all good ..
285 is around the corner, about two months from now... lmao
ttylater
natalie jo
whats your first goal?
Very good to hear. Sounds like you know what you want and your going for ite!
I am more of a lay it all out person. Start to finish as my ticker shows. Not sure I would do well with incriments.
As for first goal? Only thing that comes to mind - hit sub 400. Want to be 399 soon. Hopefully by the end of the month.
nataliejo
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Very good to hear. Sounds like you know what you want and your going for ite!
I am more of a lay it all out person. Start to finish as my ticker shows. Not sure I would do well with incriments.
As for first goal? Only thing that comes to mind - hit sub 400. Want to be 399 soon. Hopefully by the end of the month.
SirK,
You might want to set your goals a little higher, like twenty pounds less, or fifteen pounds less than today ... for at the end of July. Because if you don't lose those 45 pounds by the end of July, you might become sad and broken hearted and trust me... thats the worst when you are losing weight. Than you have to hold yourself high and tell yourself ... "I can Do It!"
But I lose on average four to five pounds a month. When you are bigger you lose weight faster, it might come flying off...
but as you lose weight your body adjusts and plateaus start showing up and thats where a lot of people get discouraged, but please don't. Keep going. If you don't make your goal weight, or not even close, by the end of July, look at what you have lost and fill your cup of water half full!
ttylater
thanks for posting in my journal.
Keep it up .. I love hearing all your stories..
Keep treaking... You can do it SirK!
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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U+Ur Hand! lol
Hey guys and gals,
I absolutely love Pink's new Album, but my bf thinks its teeny bop .. Oh pAlease, (I know its not spelled like that
) take a wild guess what the title "U+UR Hand" is about ... lol
I think its probably pretty adult......someone facing there issues or running away from them... u know ...
But Anyway I bike rode for about an hour to possibly an hour+fifteen minutes. Its was very hard, and than there were spots that weren't as hard. It was wild... one second I was almost home, but than I remembered there was a street off the street that I was on ...and .. I went for it! Its such a series of hard hills to go up and thats what I did ... I went as fast as I could .. I just charged .. I was charging through most of the bike ride ...making my legs almost jogging on the bike .. I was pulling that bike off the pavement ...lol it was freaking awesome .. I felt so good... I beat another bike up a hill ..someone really fit ... than he tried to race me ..but he gave up ... I just charged up the final hill ...and just jett off ...slowed fast to not get hit by a car ..jetted across the street ..finally on Indigo hill ...swung around and charged onto my street and came to a short stop in front of my step ...
took a deep breath of joy ..and shouted "Yessa!" lol
it was a total thrill ride .. I absolutely loved the extra challenges I took!
tomorrow we are doing a 16-18 mile bike ride and if I can convince him ..a walk on the beach sunday ..lol highly unlikely ..my bf isn't very romantic sometimes ..city folk ...doesn't like the beach! lmao ...but hey .. he does it for me ... so I have lost nineteen pounds and am going down more ... next week I will probably weigh in about two pounds less and that will drive me even more ... goody goody gum drop .. I'm on my way!!
ttylater
always
natalie jo
Hey guys and gals,
I absolutely love Pink's new Album, but my bf thinks its teeny bop .. Oh pAlease, (I know its not spelled like that
) take a wild guess what the title "U+UR Hand" is about ... lol I think its probably pretty adult......someone facing there issues or running away from them... u know ...
But Anyway I bike rode for about an hour to possibly an hour+fifteen minutes. Its was very hard, and than there were spots that weren't as hard. It was wild... one second I was almost home, but than I remembered there was a street off the street that I was on ...and .. I went for it! Its such a series of hard hills to go up and thats what I did ... I went as fast as I could .. I just charged .. I was charging through most of the bike ride ...making my legs almost jogging on the bike .. I was pulling that bike off the pavement ...lol it was freaking awesome .. I felt so good... I beat another bike up a hill ..someone really fit ... than he tried to race me ..but he gave up ... I just charged up the final hill ...and just jett off ...slowed fast to not get hit by a car ..jetted across the street ..finally on Indigo hill ...swung around and charged onto my street and came to a short stop in front of my step ...
took a deep breath of joy ..and shouted "Yessa!" lol
it was a total thrill ride .. I absolutely loved the extra challenges I took!
tomorrow we are doing a 16-18 mile bike ride and if I can convince him ..a walk on the beach sunday ..lol highly unlikely ..my bf isn't very romantic sometimes ..city folk ...doesn't like the beach! lmao ...but hey .. he does it for me ... so I have lost nineteen pounds and am going down more ... next week I will probably weigh in about two pounds less and that will drive me even more ... goody goody gum drop .. I'm on my way!!
ttylater
always
natalie jo
Happychubette
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Wow. That's some pedalling. I'm just gonna go out for a pleasure ride, see the sights.
Medication that makes you gain weight is such a bummer. I gained thirty pounds in a month once. My highest weight was 220. Your mobility is going to increase.
Cheerybye.
Medication that makes you gain weight is such a bummer. I gained thirty pounds in a month once. My highest weight was 220. Your mobility is going to increase.
Cheerybye.
nataliejo
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Hey Kelly and Misty...
Kelly I noticed my weight gain from meds, I have been on so many meds for my bipolar disorder .. its mad ...now he has me on meds that don't make you gain weight, some of them help in losing weight. So I am set there.. I hope things get better for you .. its gonna be tuff working off the med weight, but we can do it!
Misty thanks so much. I know somedays will be off ...but I know I can do this ...and so can you ...we all can!
always
natalie jo
Kelly I noticed my weight gain from meds, I have been on so many meds for my bipolar disorder .. its mad ...now he has me on meds that don't make you gain weight, some of them help in losing weight. So I am set there.. I hope things get better for you .. its gonna be tuff working off the med weight, but we can do it!
Misty thanks so much. I know somedays will be off ...but I know I can do this ...and so can you ...we all can!
always
natalie jo
2Skinny
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What a nice bunch of posts I've been reading in here... NJ, you lost 19 pounds already? Sheesh, last time I was in here it was half that...you are doing so GREAT. I love the "Rocky" moment you had, cycling up the hill. Put a big smile on my face. I just saw a heavy gal jogging the other day and I turned to my 19 year old sons and said, "see, that's what I respect" and my son JJ said, "yah, I respect that too".
I'm real glad you and Kelly have met. Weight loss with the extra challenge of meds...and look at you both, with success like the wind on your back. Beautiful ladies...you inspire me and make me want to do better.
Hugs,
Anna
I'm real glad you and Kelly have met. Weight loss with the extra challenge of meds...and look at you both, with success like the wind on your back. Beautiful ladies...you inspire me and make me want to do better.
Hugs,
Anna
nataliejo
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20-25 mile bike ride, killer on the knees! lol
Hey everyone,
I did a 20-25 mile bike ride today. Just returned, haven't changed yet. I am rewarding myself tonight. Alex and I are going to have a couple pieces of broiled steak with carrots cooked in a pressure cooker with 1/3 cup of water and a tsp of maple syrup. Pure maple syrup. lol
Than I have white potato for him, and I might have a couple spots of it. I never have any white potato, or even sweet potato, although I have heard some great things about sweet potato. The potato fills me up so I am not hungry later.
I have worked off probably a ton of calories.. I was ready to ... well my bf was falling out of my good graces sometimes ...lol
He took me through roads full of rocks, mud. I went through huge mammoth puddles that took up the whole rd. Than there was the REAL roads as Alex put them, just dirt and some rocks, the pavement is the normal rd. But the ultimate driving forces to make my knees killing me right now ...is the rock road and sandy .. muddy rd. At least I have a rd bike which was able to get through, sometimes we had to walk around the puddles or go into the forest to go around the puddles, because there was no room to get by. A couple times I just bike road through the puddles, my bf didn't want me to, but I was starting to be up for the adventure and take on the trails ...but in the end, when we reached pavement .. I was thrilled ...cause I slid a few times while bike riding on the sand ...
by the end of the road, I was just about a snail and than we hit the part where it was all ...all and I mean all down hill .. I went flying, did not put on the breaks down into NH from Maine and it felt wonderful just to be fifteen minutes from home ... we bike rode home .. I was a little slow, but I arrived behind Alex ... I feel proud, but my body is in soooooooooooo much pain...
I get to do this all over next weekend ...lmao oh ..but on a different route.. I think I am going to start bike riding in Maine, bumpier and more treacherous hills ..it will get me ready for the next bike ride on the weekend ...
goody goody gum drop!!
ttylater guys
always
natalie jo
Hey everyone,
I did a 20-25 mile bike ride today. Just returned, haven't changed yet. I am rewarding myself tonight. Alex and I are going to have a couple pieces of broiled steak with carrots cooked in a pressure cooker with 1/3 cup of water and a tsp of maple syrup. Pure maple syrup. lol
Than I have white potato for him, and I might have a couple spots of it. I never have any white potato, or even sweet potato, although I have heard some great things about sweet potato. The potato fills me up so I am not hungry later.
I have worked off probably a ton of calories.. I was ready to ... well my bf was falling out of my good graces sometimes ...lol
He took me through roads full of rocks, mud. I went through huge mammoth puddles that took up the whole rd. Than there was the REAL roads as Alex put them, just dirt and some rocks, the pavement is the normal rd. But the ultimate driving forces to make my knees killing me right now ...is the rock road and sandy .. muddy rd. At least I have a rd bike which was able to get through, sometimes we had to walk around the puddles or go into the forest to go around the puddles, because there was no room to get by. A couple times I just bike road through the puddles, my bf didn't want me to, but I was starting to be up for the adventure and take on the trails ...but in the end, when we reached pavement .. I was thrilled ...cause I slid a few times while bike riding on the sand ...
by the end of the road, I was just about a snail and than we hit the part where it was all ...all and I mean all down hill .. I went flying, did not put on the breaks down into NH from Maine and it felt wonderful just to be fifteen minutes from home ... we bike rode home .. I was a little slow, but I arrived behind Alex ... I feel proud, but my body is in soooooooooooo much pain...
I get to do this all over next weekend ...lmao
oh ..but on a different route.. I think I am going to start bike riding in Maine, bumpier and more treacherous hills ..it will get me ready for the next bike ride on the weekend ... goody goody gum drop!!
ttylater guys
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey Anna,
glad to see you stop by my diary... I love your avatar! lol
I am starting to feel beautiful, I truly feel like I am conquering my weight problem ...
ttylater
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hello Rah,
Thanks for the kind words.
So .. I rode a 16 mile bike ride the day after I did the 23 mile bike ride. My legs and hands were killing me. It was worth it, but my bf says I shouldn't do anything today. I am mighty tired. We bought a canoe today to surprise my mother and step father with. I am happy they will finally have a canoe.. their last one was stolen in the middle of the night, but they didn't have it locked. So we bought a lock for this one. Hopefully with luck by our side we will be able to present to them a canoe tomorrow morning.
So far I have cheated on my diet. Had a Blt And I had some onion rings ...not all the onion rings ...but some ... However I am going to go for a walk right before the thunderstorms come, when it has cooled off and the sun gets covered by some clouds, when the wind whirls around the trees and catches my hair.. I will walk than ...
I am 6 oz smaller than I was friday, but I think I am going to stay at this weight for the rest of the week. U never know, it might go down ...but we will see ...
always
natalie jo
Thanks for the kind words.
So .. I rode a 16 mile bike ride the day after I did the 23 mile bike ride. My legs and hands were killing me. It was worth it, but my bf says I shouldn't do anything today. I am mighty tired. We bought a canoe today to surprise my mother and step father with. I am happy they will finally have a canoe.. their last one was stolen in the middle of the night, but they didn't have it locked. So we bought a lock for this one. Hopefully with luck by our side we will be able to present to them a canoe tomorrow morning.
So far I have cheated on my diet. Had a Blt And I had some onion rings ...not all the onion rings ...but some ... However I am going to go for a walk right before the thunderstorms come, when it has cooled off and the sun gets covered by some clouds, when the wind whirls around the trees and catches my hair.. I will walk than ...
I am 6 oz smaller than I was friday, but I think I am going to stay at this weight for the rest of the week. U never know, it might go down ...but we will see ...
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey guys,
Well I am taking a break for a week and weekend from my bf, because one reason: He will only marry me if I lose the weight. He has control over me somewhat, but I decided its high time I take the lead for myself. Still going to go bike riding this weekend, but for as long as I want and enjoy my bike ride fully ... I enjoy it with my bf, but he pushes me too far ...and than he lets me down by telling me I didn't do it good enough, I wasn't fast enough.
I am forty five pounds above what I was when he met me. I looked pretty good. But he still thought I needed to lose weight. In the first year he beat me up with all his spokens words that I left him the first year. We have broken up three or four times, always me. I need to make a step toward investing in me.
And I am taking a week and weekend off ... for me
and I think I will know than what I want. I am going to put myself before him for once ...
hmm ... ok ...well thats it ... thanks
always
natalie jo
Well I am taking a break for a week and weekend from my bf, because one reason: He will only marry me if I lose the weight. He has control over me somewhat, but I decided its high time I take the lead for myself. Still going to go bike riding this weekend, but for as long as I want and enjoy my bike ride fully ... I enjoy it with my bf, but he pushes me too far ...and than he lets me down by telling me I didn't do it good enough, I wasn't fast enough.
I am forty five pounds above what I was when he met me. I looked pretty good. But he still thought I needed to lose weight. In the first year he beat me up with all his spokens words that I left him the first year. We have broken up three or four times, always me. I need to make a step toward investing in me.
And I am taking a week and weekend off ... for me
and I think I will know than what I want. I am going to put myself before him for once ...
hmm ... ok ...well thats it ... thanks
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey everyone,
Anyone who could possibly reading and thinking, "damn, she always has such negative posts!"
Well ... I dumped my bf of three and half years, after all the jerky things he has said to me. After the way he has treated me, over my weight and among other things, I dumped him.
AND I FEEL so free from, a onslaught of words, heated words, unkind words, break-my heart and make me feel ugly words and not worth it words....
I feel like a new woman. Found out I don't owe the school any money. I have a credit and can attend school in the first term from Sept -May 4th...
I will take four months off to work three days a week at the library. During the year I will work at the library once or twice a week ... I feel so damn good!
I feel beautiful again. Like the world is my oyster and I am going for it. I am going to lose all the weight desired, but I will never put up with the treatment I have put up with from this man, who only qualifies as a bully of words. I am better than all the awful thoughts he has put in my mind about my body ...
I will not deter from this statement or from my goal. I am fully going ahead with a time or two of single life. Going out on Thursdays and Saturdays with my friends, but no hooking up here. I am going to lead a life of joy, sure there will be bumps and pit stops, but I need to focus on me, my weight, my career, my school assignments and I have done so far a good job with the weight, but I really slackened from school ..had to take a w for the last class, but I still have a 3.008 and it will get higher. Because over the course of this year I have raised it from a 2.75 from all my As and Bs to a 3.008..
I am so proud of my courage ..
and I just want to let every guy or gal out there, that you should never feel bad about your weight and your better than all the people and all the crap they shove you!
love always
natalie jo
Good for you for what's doing what's rightt for you you should be so proud of yourself, young lady well done for having confidence in yourself...
you should be so proud of yourself, young lady well done for having confidence in yourself...
nataliejo
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To be honest Mal, He tore my confidence from me. This was survival. I needed to get away from him. He is a bad element for me. There are so many things him and his family have said to me. Like "Your fat" "You will never be able to meet a guy who will want you." "No one will ever be able to live with you or stand you (because of my bpd)"
They have really dug a whole for me. Granted I let him, but somewhere in my head I believed Alex, was ...the "one" hush ..did I say that... and that I fell for the old lies in the books and every lie he told me. But he didn't completely lie.. he told me he wouldn't marry me unless I was reduced in size ..below 200 ... like 160 ... pounds... and that he wanted me to be working a full time job...
to be honest. I have a lot at stake ... I am on ssdi. I volunteer, or am beginning to volunteer at the library once again. I am going back to school in Sept ..to finish seven to eight classes. I WILL get my degree, but I can't work until I have that bachelors. According to federal and state, the only way I am going to get this education is if I am determined to work and go to school .. But I can't work right now. I have to get my head screwed on straight .. I fell for a creep ..and there are a lot of creeps out there, but he believe I was ugly as hell ... and I hated that and hated myself for being "ugly". I was disappointing him I believed. I was brainwashed... and now I have to walk forward and get my self confidence back ..get back on my feet and take control over my life. I am going to stay single until I am completely over Alex .. I don't think it would be fair for another guy to bring so much baggage in and I don't go for running off into another guys arms, because than one doesn't become independent, only needy and desperate..and I have learned all this through time ...
I believed he was the one ..we were going to be in heaven together one day ..it was meant to be ..
no .. I am not overly religious, but while being in this relationship I became religious...because I wanted to believe there was an eternity and he and I were going to have our bodies emblazoned in it ..
me ..romantic ...gets dumped on ..wears heart on sleeve! GUILTY!
so I need to find me ...
there is one guy I regreted losing the chance to be with, and he is still single. But I don't want to jump in so quick .. I don't need to deal that card for myself again ..but everytime I saw him at karaoke ... and I was with Alex , he would get this sad face ..and I would get a sad face ..but butterflies ..than I would look over at Alex and realize I had made a huge .. Mammoth mistake .. I ruined my .. well u know ...
a great guy .. he never is able to hook a woman ...and he is overweight ...but he can sing so awesome ..he does MEN IN BLACK ..lol to the tee ..
but I will be hanging out with him and Teresa and my friends .. I am going naturally ..as a solo element ...
I may get butterflies with him around ..I may look or get a catch in the eye ...but I am going to plan for me and not fall so easily ...
I have learned! uhhh yes I have!
and I hope everyone on this forum is being treated with the highest regard and your all beautiful people... remember that in your journey ..
don't take anyone's crap!
All of you Rock and deserve the best ..as I do ..as we all on this forum doo ..
love you all
love natalie jo
They have really dug a whole for me. Granted I let him, but somewhere in my head I believed Alex, was ...the "one" hush ..did I say that... and that I fell for the old lies in the books and every lie he told me. But he didn't completely lie.. he told me he wouldn't marry me unless I was reduced in size ..below 200 ... like 160 ... pounds... and that he wanted me to be working a full time job...
to be honest. I have a lot at stake ... I am on ssdi. I volunteer, or am beginning to volunteer at the library once again. I am going back to school in Sept ..to finish seven to eight classes. I WILL get my degree, but I can't work until I have that bachelors. According to federal and state, the only way I am going to get this education is if I am determined to work and go to school .. But I can't work right now. I have to get my head screwed on straight .. I fell for a creep ..and there are a lot of creeps out there, but he believe I was ugly as hell ... and I hated that and hated myself for being "ugly". I was disappointing him I believed. I was brainwashed... and now I have to walk forward and get my self confidence back ..get back on my feet and take control over my life. I am going to stay single until I am completely over Alex .. I don't think it would be fair for another guy to bring so much baggage in and I don't go for running off into another guys arms, because than one doesn't become independent, only needy and desperate..and I have learned all this through time ...
I believed he was the one ..we were going to be in heaven together one day ..it was meant to be ..
no .. I am not overly religious, but while being in this relationship I became religious...because I wanted to believe there was an eternity and he and I were going to have our bodies emblazoned in it ..
me ..romantic ...gets dumped on ..wears heart on sleeve! GUILTY!
so I need to find me ...
there is one guy I regreted losing the chance to be with, and he is still single. But I don't want to jump in so quick .. I don't need to deal that card for myself again ..but everytime I saw him at karaoke ... and I was with Alex , he would get this sad face ..and I would get a sad face ..but butterflies ..than I would look over at Alex and realize I had made a huge .. Mammoth mistake .. I ruined my .. well u know ...
a great guy .. he never is able to hook a woman ...and he is overweight ...but he can sing so awesome ..he does MEN IN BLACK ..lol to the tee ..
but I will be hanging out with him and Teresa and my friends .. I am going naturally ..as a solo element ...
I may get butterflies with him around ..I may look or get a catch in the eye ...but I am going to plan for me and not fall so easily ...
I have learned! uhhh yes I have!
and I hope everyone on this forum is being treated with the highest regard and your all beautiful people... remember that in your journey ..
don't take anyone's crap!
All of you Rock and deserve the best ..as I do ..as we all on this forum doo ..
love you all
love natalie jo