Anke Says: Just Do It!

I ran an awesome 10km race on Monday morning! My time was 1:15... same as the last 10km I did just 2 weeks ago. My next race is on the 26th of March, a mere 12 days away... but this time it's a 15km!!!

and then.... DRRRRRRUM ROOLLLLLLL.... less than a week later I will run my first half-marathon, 21.1km!!!!

Ok, so I'm excited bout running, but still struggling to train like I FEEL I should. I am making a point of sticking to my running schedule this week.

On another note, I really should not be left to bake by myself :( I make really yummy treats... the kind that are difficult to eat in moderation, cos, well, there's a tray full of it there, but mmmm, oh so yum!!! Anyway, I have decided that if I am to be at my goal by my 21st birthday, I will need to stop sabotaging myself with binging.

So I will be pledging: NO BINGING TIL 25 MAY (and thereafter of course, but you get my point..)

Oh, my new job is cool, keeps me busy, time passes nicely. I enjoy it :)

Also, a friend and I have been having problems.. (her boyfriend doesn't like me) so she has pretty much just told me it would be better for us to go our separate ways :( pretty sad about it.

Well, I have a Weigh-Less group to go do today after work - hope my ladies have lost weight!!! Plan to go run 5km after that.
 
Ok, I ran my 5km yesterday, and I plan to go straight home and run 12km for the first time this evening.

I came here to write it down so that there will be some sort of accountability... Now I've SAID I'm going to, less chance of backing out :)

It'll be the longest I've run, ever... going to do it in 8 minute run / 2 minute walk segments. I figure to run for about an hour and 45mins... eeee!

Ok, off now! Will be popping round some journeys again soon... I stopped looking at others now they stopped looking at mine :(

sigh.... forum maintenance :p such a chore!!
 
I ran 12km in 01:37. Longest run ever.

Food was pretty good yesterday... But today... ugh... had a lunch binge of sweet and sour pork with fried rice :( Felt so sick after, threw some of it up (WARNING BELLS BULIMIA!!!) I am determined not to let that happen again. It's honestly the worst feeling.

Anyway, ran 5km with intervals this morning... my legs are REALLY sore and tired and need a rest now. Grrrr, I should be stretching more, it's just so, I don't know, such a hassle. But I do actually enjoy yoga, so I think I need to work that in after my 3 longest/ hardest runs each week.

Ok, I am stopping with the picking of my skin. TODAY. I have spots that have been angry and red for months, as I just keep inflaming them over and over :( I am putting a 30 day lockdown on my face (and breasts and shoulders and arms and chest - I know, grossly bad, right?) for the next 30 DAYS.

DAY 1 - All is fine, as I just picked at my skin last night, so it's all relatively smooth... the real challenge lies about 4 or 5 days away... when everything starts coming to the surface and staying there :(

Wish me luck.
 
Ello there, popping in to say hi (despite the fact I actually said ello)

If you take baths, try putting 2/3 drops of tea tree oil in there. Might help with your skin. I used to be big into aromatherapy years ago and remember that being good. Good for your hair also so you get a nice double whammy.
 
Thanks Feenix!

I decided to have a rest day today and run another 10km tomorrow. Then 17 on Sunday, eeek!!

Ok, I'm off to have a fabulous weekend!!! :seeya:
 
Ok, so it was 3 rest days... But today is Monday and I will be running 15km... aaaaaah!!!! Then only 5's until Thursday, with Friday and Saturday off. Then Sunday is my 15km race!

So, weight-wise I am not wanting to weigh in, as I have not been tracking food. But I will be weighing in tomorrow morning for a checkpoint. I plan to start counting calories again soon, like the 1st of May. Until then, I am just focussing on not over-eating and on healthy choices.

Ok, off to find some inspiration on the forum!
 
Heya,
wanted to say thanks for stopping by my diary!

Ankebuzz said:
I ran an awesome 10km race on Monday morning! My time was 1:15... same as the last 10km I did just 2 weeks ago. My next race is on the 26th of March, a mere 12 days away... but this time it's a 15km!!!
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Good stuff! wow, i've never been able to run my entire life and hope one day i'll be able to. you most definitely inspire me in that aspect and CONGRATS on the 10km in 1:15 and the 12km in 1:37 (which i noticed is even better than the time you thought you'd do it in which was 1:45!). i think there's such a feel-good factor from doing better than you thought you could.


Ankebuzz said:
On another note, I really should not be left to bake by myself :( I make really yummy treats... the kind that are difficult to eat in moderation, cos, well, there's a tray full of it there, but mmmm, oh so yum!!! Anyway, I have decided that if I am to be at my goal by my 21st birthday, I will need to stop sabotaging myself with binging.
So I will be pledging: NO BINGING TIL 25 MAY (and thereafter of course, but you get my point..)
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i don't know why we have to do these things to ourselves! i myself also have my good days, then my bad days, and i feel absolutely horrible when i binge. i usually have one cheat day in the week, but instead of just eating something i like sensibly, i eat like an idiot which takes me back to square 1! so for now i've told myself no cheat days for me for 2 weeks.. I've managed one straight week so far,...hoping for another. Wish you luck too with that!

KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK GIRL! all the best xoxo
 
Good luck on the race. It's cool to have a concrete goal to aim for. Have you anything else lined up after the race or is it a once off type of deal?
 
Hey there! Thanks so much to both of you for stopping by!

Well, this is my BIG goal right now... the half-marathon. I plan to run a few more half-marathons for about 5 months while training for a WHOLE marathon (42.2km) in November.

Then there is this Ultra-Marathon is South Africa that a lot of my uncles and an aunt has completed, The Comrades. It's about 89km long and takes place in May. This year's one is up and coming at the moment. I would like to start training for the comrades in November, giving me a solid 5-6 months to train for it.

So I think I have "turned into" a runner now :)
 
So, as some of you know, I am a Group Leader for Weigh-Less (similar to Weight Watchers), and I run 4 groups a week for ladies losing weight. They weigh in once a week and I teach them the principles and guidelines to eating correctly to losing weight.

(Oh, I became a group leader because I lost 15kg on their program - really just a healthy eating plan with some support)

So yesterday my "Area manager" needed all of our start weights, goal weights and current weights, plus our height. In order to be a Group Leader you have to be within 2kg of your goal weight. My goal is 75kg (165lbs), and my current weight is 84kg (181lbs). I told my manager that I weigh 77kg (169lbs).

So I need to lose 12 lbs to officially still qualify as a Weigh-Less Group Leader, eeeeek!!!!

Talk about motivation.

Anyway, yesterday I went for my run... was wanting to do 15km, but was not enough time before dark, so I did 10km. Wow, what a run! Did it in 01:19 (4 mins slow, but eh :p )

Today I plan to run 5km if possible, if not then tomorrow morning.

I've packed a salmon and brown rice salad for lunch, will eat healthy today!!!
 
I am fed up with the cycle of on and off loving myself. Everytime things are going well, I feel the urge to "ruin it all"... not sure why...

I'm still trying to figure out my exact reasons for the sabotaging myself, and thus far I've come up with:

- I have never been slender, what makes me think I can really do it?

- I have failed so many times, it's just a matter of time before I give up again anyway.

- I don't like the creepy stares I get and sometimes feel unsafe when I'm at a more "attractive" weight.

- Things are going really well, I'm finding it easier to live healthily and follow my goals... something MUST GO WRONG... aaaah, can't handle the suspense, I'll just stuff it up myself!

Anyway, I have decided I will never see myself as "off track" or "given up" again. Even if there are slip-ups, I will make compromises to be sure I am the healthiest, happiest person I can be. I will not deprive myself of anything, but I will also put thought into what goes into my body and how it will affect me.

See my next few weeks' goals in my signature below.
 
- I have never been slender, what makes me think I can really do it?
I failed at least 50 time before I finally managed to lose 50lbs. I lost and regained the same 20lbs at least 10-15 times. But this time has been my best effort....Gotta Gotta Gotta keep going!

- I have failed so many times, it's just a matter of time before I give up again anyway.
But what if this was the time you got it done? Even if you fail arent you better for your effort? Did you learn anything from past failures that you can modify to give this time a better chance of success?

- I don't like the creepy stares I get and sometimes feel unsafe when I'm at a more "attractive" weight.
Okay Im male 6'1" and a former colege football player so I am only guessing on this one but maybe its a confidence thing. Maybe if you incorporated some strenth training into your plan and got stronger along with fitter you would feel better about being more physically attractive? Also it would take anyone time to get used to big physical changes. Sorry if I am off the mark here. Im just supposing

- Things are going really well, I'm finding it easier to live healthily and follow my goals... something MUST GO WRONG... aaaah, can't handle the suspense, I'll just stuff it up myself!
Keep your eyes on the prise. No self fulfilling prophesy. Things wil happen...thats life...work through em...adapt, modify and push on.

So I figure that as long as you keep coming back with renewed vengeance, the battle will eventually be won!

Thats my story and Im sticking to it! Thanks for your thoughts here..They helped me with my refocus!
 
Some how the beginning of that post was lost but I found your post on another thread and it got me thinking about what you said so for mostly my own good I took a crack at answering your comments
 
Anke panky,
I am back (once again, second hiatus in a year...) and reading how incredibly awesome your running has been. Wow girl, you rock! I can barely run to the busstop... well trotro stop... well in Ghana running makes no sense you just dehydrate in 20 seconds flat.

Anyhow those problems you are dealing with, the selfworth problems, are so common and still so difficult to deal with. Some days I look at myself and I feel incredible and beautiful and amazing and then the next day I wonder how anyone wants to be my partner or friend if I look like a freak, fat and deformed. But it has more to do with what I feel than how I look. You are still so young as well... I cannot imagine being so determined at such an early age!
I also failed a ton of times before the right time just happened. But I am confident i won't gain it all back, at least not soon because I have changed how I eat, how i perceive food and how much and what food I like/need/eat. And from what I read about you, so have you. Sure there is still the bingeing every now and then, there is still the guilt when you eat something you consider "bad", but you know what you eat, you know how much your body needs and this will be a tool forever in your life. Knowledge is power! And you have the power to be thin, you have the power to look great.

I was never as slim as I am right now (not as an adult, never been this light since the age of 14 I think) and still i am now. So never having been something doesn't mean you can't be it!
have a wonderful rest of the week, lots of love, Camy
 
Thanks, Brawny, for the different perspectives there. Hehe, I feel like I re-focus once a day! Not a bad thing though, right? :p

Well folks, my running this week has been shifted aside a little due to... well, my own laziness. I did a good 10km on Monday, then nothing until today. I want to go do a 5km today and a 5km tomorrow, then I'll feel ready (as ready as I can) for Sunday's 15km!!! My goal is merely to finish. The longest I have run before is 12km, so yes, it's more of a training race... leading up to my half-marathon on 1 May, just 10 days later!!!

Ok, so today I'm trying to eat healthily and make the right choices. I will run today.
 
Hello Ankebuzz, I was just wondering at about what your starting runs were like when you first began?

WoW I can't wait till I can reach a goal of running a good 10k/day, I am working on my pacing, as I tend to sprint first off, and have to remember to slow it down if I want to go longer and further. :)

Anyways just wanted to pop in and learn a bit aboutcha!! :seeya:

Take Care
 
Thanks for stopping by!

Hehe, I've only been running seriously since january... my times are still really slow!

I run 5km in 40 mins. So it's like 8mins per km.
I run 10km in 1hr 15mins (5mins faster than my 5km x2... must be the rhythm I get into on a longer run!)
You may have heard of people running 12 minute miles (average). 9 minute miles are people who've trained themselves up to be a bit faster. I am currently doing just under 13 minute miles.


I still find runs hard. I am doing my best to turn it into an addiction... working well so far :)

Right now I am focusing on distance, that is running more and for longer. I want to do this until I run my first marathon (42.2km). Then I'll start incorporating speed workouts and tweaking my performance.

I do feel a need to play with my numbers though, so I have decided upon a certain stretch of road in my neighbourhood that is half a km long. I will run down and up it once a week doing repeats with rests in between. I will be timing these and trying to improve them each week.

How about you?? :sifone:
 
Hehe, just looked at my post again and it seems like I do a lot more running than I actually do!

I have been averaging 2 runs a week the past 4 weeks... not so good! Anyway, it's all about sticking with it!!! :smash:
 
wow, again i say this is pretty amazing stuff. when i grow up, i want to run just like ankebuzz...lol!

seriously though, one of the things i'd like to do in my life is run a marathon. when i see how much you run, and the times you make for each run i'm left lost for words. :eek2: your doing great, keep on going girl! xoxo
 
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