A brand new start

ahhh a family walk, thats so sweet :) we did that....once lol now its more of a mom+kids walk...sometimes the dog lol ....your doing great scrappy :)
 
It’s good to no that you are well mate I think of you often, you should join the 2 week challenge (that way you will have to drop in). It sounds like the move has turned out really well and your exercise is awesome.
 
You guys are so sweet! Here I logged on to tell you what a horrible time I am having and you cheerleaders are already here with the pompoms!
I'm in a serious funk where I can't keep anything going for any length of time... no consistency. Last week I got the exercise up, but where is it now? I can't seem to eat right or exercise with any consistency and I'm not drinking enough water. I tried to read my whole diary yesterday (I know that helps when I hit a plateau) and I've been reading your diaries for inspiration.
The situation here is taking it's toll. I love our new house, the church is nice, Aaron's school is fine, I seem to be making friends, but we are struggling to make ends meet. The money, gosh I hate worrying about money! I feel so much pressure to get a job (so we can pay the bills), but I don't want to and I can't find one that pays well enough to afford day care and pay a few bills!
I know my husband is really struggling because my working has never been something either one of us wanted. When I worked to get us through his schooling I thought that would be the end of it. Now we are on the other side of the schooling and we were better off back at school! (There was a food and clothing co-op on campus and childcare was pretty much free for students)
I've been feeling low about the job thing and I've been self-medicating with food and couch-sitting. I've put on weight. I stepped on the scale yesterday and it was at 187. I hate it. I feel my butt up against my clothes. Shorts that I was so proud that they were loose no longer are loose. I feel my saddle bags a bit more saddled. I hate it. I'm disgusted!
Now that I look over my whiny paragraphs I know I just have to do it! I know what needs to be done and I need to do it!
This morning has been different. Hopefully this is the beginning of a rededication. I ate half a whole wheat bagel with cream cheese and I've been drinking water. I've got plans to do my 2 mile dvd today.
Okay. What is the 2 week challenge? Help me get my butt in gear!
Totallyscrappy
 
totallyscrappy, huh? To me that name brings to mind someone who will get up and fight for anything they believe in. So, I guess it's time to get up and be totally scrappy!! I've got the same problem here. Hubby works very hard, but it just barely covers it. As soon as we get back from his fishing tournament, I have to go back to work. He wants me to go back to driving a school bus. I love the job, but it really doesn't pay much. He just wants to be sure I have the weekends off and that he can talk to me on the phone throughout the day. I'll try it, maybe that little bit extra will be enough. Mainly, I've got to make enough to support my own wants and to feed my zoo! Get back up and start fighting. You can do it. You've been doing it so far, don't sstop now
 
me too.... hubby works his behind off. Yesterday he left here at 4:30 am and did not get home until after 6 pm... I miss him... Now that we live in this house, the rent is $250 more, the electric bill is higher (dishwasher and C/A, never had b4)...
And Allyson wants everything her school has to offer... So I HAVE to get a job too... I really do not want to, but with x-mas comming, <sigh> I could drive a school bus here, they start at $13.00 per hour... but I have to get my CDL and that scares me. I dont want to fail!
 
You ladies are so brave driving school busses! I taught kindy and preschool for almost 10 years and I can put up with a lot of noise, but I can't do it if itthe noise is behind me. I think I would die if I was a school bus driver! My ears are swelling just thinking about it!
Texas, the Totallyscrappy has everything to do with my over indulgence in my scrapbooking addiction, I mean hobby, but you are right! I want to be thin and healthy and if I want it I'm going to have to fight for it! Off to walk my 2 miles.
Christina, I hear ya about the failing thing. I had to take my driver's test three times before getting my license (and that was three years ago when we moved to Indiana), I'd have to do some work to take a bigger test!
Thanks, ladies.
 
I no you can do it mate just take one day at a time, money is one of the biggest pains in the bum ay cant live with it cant live without it bit like kids really lol
 
Rosered,
You are too funny! Yes, a bit like my kids! (I didn't know you'd met them! :))
Still a huge struggle...
(talking about healthy eating and exercising, but I guess the kids are a bit of a struggle, too!)
We all know that men think about sex something like once every 10 seconds or something, but I always thought that was a those thoughts were active thoughts, or ones they tried to bring up. Last summer I read a book about men and the author said it was more like pictures on a rolodex. Every 10 seconds a "picture" (whether it be a naked lady, a memory of an "encounter," etc.) "pops" up, whether the guys want that to happen or not.
Ladies, this is my brain. No, no, not sex... food. Every 10 seconds a food-related "whatever" pops into my brain. A candy bar jingle, an image of a donut, a memory of a delicious dinner, the smell of a yummy homecooked meal... I am constantly having to do something with these images. Sometimes I go down that path and enjoy every tantalizing detail of the memory, sometimes I choose to knock it out, sometimes I choose to replace it with an image or mental note of something much healthier, but it feels like such a battle.
Anybody else feel this way?
Totallyscrappy
 
Ohh yesss but im getting better. Every second day if there is something I really want I have it, like if I want chocolate I have it but just a small one. If I feel like a hamburger I have it but I make my own (ww recipe) same with pizza and that, once a week I go out to dinner or lunch and have a healthy meal but add one thing I really want from before I changed my eating habits. Truthfully I am looking for that stuff less and less and the things I really want are healthy. It really has stopped me from thinking I am missing out on something. I hope this helps mate.
 
Thanks for posting, Rosered! You make me feel that there may be hope yet!

Up late working on resume... finally got it to where even I would hire me! Now I just have to fill out the online application, but I think that can wait till tomorrow morning!

2 mile dvd today!!

1/2 cup yogurt
1/4 cup cranberry almond cereal
water
bowl (lg) of taco soup
serving of light tortilla chips
shredded cheddar
15 M&M's
water
peanut butter/M&M cookie dough equvilant to two cookies
diet pepsi
4 coconut shrimp
2 cheddar biscuits
salad with "forkdips" of honey mustard dressing
vegetables
frozen bahama mama (the food was good, but the drink was the highlight!)
1 valomilk candy cup (featured in Steven Almond's Candy Freak... fun read! ...found 'em at Cracker Barrel)
diet pepsi

Gotta get some sleep...
 
Phil just updated his Resume, not like he needs to I think he is at the last job he will ever have.... then he looked at mine, and couldnt help but chuckle... I know my resume sucks, but hey, I did not go to college.... ( 2 months does not count I guess).... anyway.... I'll get a job soon enough..... WE ALL WILL......
What if we opened a business together... "Around The World Diet & Fitness"....... we would all be part of it...... I sure do dream alot dont I?
 
I have those feelings too but I made a decision to start off with that I wouldn't completely deny myself the things I love. I have a terrible donut weakness, so once a week when I do my grocery shopping I buy ONE donut from the bakery. I used to get 1/2 dozen saying I'll spread it out over time, but by the end of the day I had eaten them all. Same with a full dozen. The one donut does it for me and doesn't hurt me at all in the long run.
Getting your CDL is actually pretty easy. Most school districts will provide your training for you. It usually only takes a few days to be ready to test. If you do, take plenty of time to work on backing up because getting used to the length of the bus is the hardest part. All you need is a Class B with a passenger endorsement so it's not like trying to get a truck drivers licence. Now that's hard!!! I've done all the training for that and I've done my written tests. Now I just have to do the driving test. I'm a little nervous about that. I may not do it at all because the reason for it was to be able to drive with hubby. He's talking about coming off the road and working locally so if he does I don't need to.
 
Oh man, I love your "every ten second picture of food" idea. I think it's totally dead on. Although I think with me its every ten seconds food, then some sex, sleeping, and random weird things in there somewhere...Like "chocolate cake...muscular arms....ice cream....sleeping....potato chips....kissing....that one episode of Seinfeld where they make the bet....pizza....doing it....pancakes...." You get the idea. :) This weight loss thing is rough and no one ever said it would be easy. Anytime you feel like you're in a rut or self medicating just hop on over to the forum and get inspiration. I think you're great!
 
Oh... the resume is done, the job ap is sent... In fact, I called the hr person to make sure it came across the way it was supposed to. she said it looked just fine. Yes! Now hire me!
The interesting thing about the job is... I would be a coordinator for a weight loss program for kids. I'm pretty reved up about the job. I'd be talking fitness and healthy food choices with kids (and the adults that love them)! I'd be helping children achieve the weight loss goals that you gals have helped me do! Of course, I've been kinda hard on myself over this because the last few weeks eating right and exercising regularly has been difficult. I just know I would be a perfect for the job! I've been there! I am there! Plus, I'd get to workout!!! Couldn't be eating Lil' Debbie snack cakes on the job!
Anyway! Thanks for all your support! And thanks for saying your mind works like mine!!! What a relief it is to know that you struggle with the constant barrage of pictures inside your head, too! I'm making a real decision that when those images come dancing across the radar screen I will replace them with images of my sweaty body burnin' fat!
Today's food
1/2 whole wheat bagel and cream cheese
orange juice
water
tortilla soup with a crunching of light chips
cheddar cheese
diet pepsi
12 whole wheat ritz crackers and 5 cubes of colby jack
water
2 coconut shrimp and dip and 2 biscuits (leftovers from Red Lobster Date!)
homemade chicken pot pie
cucumbers and light ranch dressing
diet pepsi
2 peanut butter M&M cookies
Need more water!

walked in the park today pushing David and Sam in the stroller... SWEAT!
Yes!

Have racked my brain... is the bet the one where they bet not to, em enjoy themselves???
 
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