19 With a Dream; The Diary of a Fat Child.

Sitting here on pins and needles wait for a call.
My cousin Gavin is on his way. She's between 3-5 Cm's but hasn't had her water break or any contractions yet. Some pain...but who knows.
I just wish he would hurry up. It's getting later and it's a 30 minute drive to the Hospital that delivers...stupid Napanee and there dumb "no delivery" BS. Oh well. Hurry up Gavin...I want to hold onto you!!!
 
My nana came over today. Haven't seen her in a couple weeks. I had just go out of the pool and she was very surprised to see how I look.
I don't even feel fat anymore. Clearly, I still am, but I am feeling fit and happy.
216 this morning. I don't think I'll update my diet ticker until I hit the 40 pound mark. 2 more pounds!!!
 
wow thas awesome.
And i know how you feel. I have pics of me at much larger weights and i recall thinking 'oh my god, i dont even look fat any more!' and now im slimmer i look back and think 'god was i blind? i was still fairly chunky!'
the funny thing is, even now, i feel skinny, i would swear im as skinny as that chick over *there*, but i *know* im not because the scale doesnt lie :)
 
wishes said:
wow thas awesome.
And i know how you feel. I have pics of me at much larger weights and i recall thinking 'oh my god, i dont even look fat any more!' and now im slimmer i look back and think 'god was i blind? i was still fairly chunky!'
the funny thing is, even now, i feel skinny, i would swear im as skinny as that chick over *there*, but i *know* im not because the scale doesnt lie :)
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Very true. I went to Old Navy tonight! I haven't been able to fit their 20's for about 2 years and I tried on an 18, thinking it would be too tight...but in fact it was too big and I needed a 16!!!!!
 
I really need to start working on my thighs and hips. And I have been. When I'm in the pool I do a bunch of different leg exercises and it really is making a difference. I usually swim everyday...1 or 2 times. Plus walking, which lately I haven't been doing because it's way too hot. The humidity is awful here. It's not possible. I break a sweat in the lab...and the fan is on full. 215.7 today. Good feeling, I updated my diet ticker. Pretty much at the 40 pound mark. Still have a couple week to lose these 15 pounds.
I set a date for my party....I'm hoping to be a size twelve...which shouldn't be too hard as it's only 2 sizes away from the 16 I fit into comfortably last night. Still waiting for my aunt to hatch. I hope it happens tomorrow. Today in history, I'm not to fond of and it would suck for him to be born today because I'll never forget...what I'm trying to forget.
Oh well, if he comes...he comes. I want him to hurry!
I guess that's all from me.
Bye!
 
Thought I would throw up a thumbnail of my cute little cousin.
Last night we were all down at their place and I was holding onto him for quite sometime and his eyes were open, he was awake and they're the cutest brown eyes, ever. He's responding to our voice already, so he can definitely hear.
Weight loss is still going well, I haven't been doing as much as I could be but I'm swimming everyday and I've made up some really cool exercises to do in the pool and they're working.
One of them is like this;
Sit up again the pool wall, using arms to support ones self.
Stick legs straight out while keeping your back straight.
Begin kicking, never splashing any water.
The key to this is kicking under the water, it really strengthen your thighs and hips. After kicking about 100 times, relax and scissor your legs horizontally about 20 times.
Repeat 4 more times. 500 leg kicks.
It's very nice.

I guess that's all from me, should go get some breakfast...I'm gonna do some laundry today.
 

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DeepGreen said:
Oh no, why you say that?

Whenever I told that to my co-worker, she would tell me "Well, Adam, you are awake, alive, out of bed, right". And I would reply "Yes", and then she would say "Well, then its a good day, isn't it"?
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Awww, very true I guess. I was just dealing with a bunch of crap.
But I guess every day we're alive is good day.
 
I'm afraid I'm slipping a bit. The best friend mus be coming because I got in a mood last night and bought whole bag of reese's peanut butter cups...and ate them. Got some fruitopia... I didn't care. I was just pissed. I need to get back into things. I shouldn't let my period make me so anxious and pissy. I'm not one of "those" girls. The chocolate was a bad idea.
I watched big medicine last night...and a girl had gotten gastric bypass surgery done and had lost between 80-100 pounds... she was around 250 when she got it done. The excess skin was absolutely horrifying. When the doctor had cut her open (she was getting her tummy tuck) he was able to put his hands up inside of her skin and stretch it to no end. It was gross.
She lost that weight really fast, so of course it happens. I wanna tone my body as I go, so I don't have a jelly, flabby belly. I can deal with lose skin...but not...that much!
Working again tonight. Tomorrow I have Gavyn from 4:30-6:00. I can't wait. I'm soo taking him for a walk :D
 
I'm in a great mood. It's finally become the time where everything I own doesn't fit....at all. I have an old old old pair of jean on from the 8th grade. They're GAP. So that must say something...as all they make is clothes for twigs.
I watched catch and release this morning with my mom. The guy who she falls in love with is the most beautiful man I've ever seen...ever. WOW.
The only thing else I would like to say...is that I really want to lose these next 15 pounds. *Sigh*. Second week in July?
 
A really good person to talk to about TOM cravings is CYM. She has it down to a science. I think she prepares for the cravings by buying sweet fruits like tangerines and watermelon. Its normal to get cravings but maybe if you have a plan ahead of time you won't reach for chocolate bars. I know, I know, its stress and we all reach for something in times like that. Good luck with that and your continued success.
 
Curvie Girlie said:
YES! You can do it! We all have slip ups, I know I do! Just keep up the greta work, you're doing fabulously! :jump:
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Thanks Curvie! Tonight was great... So encouraging! I'm a 16!!! It's beautiful! I'm back!

Happychubette said:
A really good person to talk to about TOM cravings is CYM. She has it down to a science. I think she prepares for the cravings by buying sweet fruits like tangerines and watermelon. Its normal to get cravings but maybe if you have a plan ahead of time you won't reach for chocolate bars. I know, I know, its stress and we all reach for something in times like that. Good luck with that and your continued success.
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That's a great idea! I've been using Cherry's for a sweet craving.
Excuses aren't something I usually deal out, but that bag of reese's was the only thing that could have made me feel better. Anxiety and Humidty + Your Period = BINGE! I never binge, ever. But I suppose I did there a bit. HAHA
 
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Thrill,

We are neck in neck race for weight loss. We are accomplishing this together! :) (grr, you are ahead of me by 1 lb!!!)

Have a great night.
 
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DeepGreen said:
Thrill,

We are neck in neck race for weight loss. We are accomplishing this together! :) (grr, you are ahead of me by 1 lb!!!)

Have a great night.
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Wow, we really are...I noticed before that it was similar but we both seem to be going down at the same time. We're totally in this together! I haven't updated yet, I should. See if you can catch up! *you've totally lost way more then me! so credit is due...I just mean meet me a 213!*
 
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