19 With a Dream; The Diary of a Fat Child.

Over the Hill!

So it looks like the scale is saying 198! Haven't seen a 200 in a couple days. I'm so proud to be in the elite club of 100 pounders. I'm looking so great and people are definitely starting to notice...and it's the people I least expect.
I went out last night. So much dancing. It hurts. Normally I can handle dancing the night away...but I decided to be the best dancer there and I'm now paying for it. It was a riot tho! So much fun.
6 days until I move to London. I haven't posted much about anything in awhile. I kinda strayed away from the forum but I thought I would end my silence and speak up about my successes.
Tomorrow is the big "Look at me I'm hot and you're a jerk-off" day. The big reveal. I have these pants that make me look tiny and I'm so excited to just be there. He hasn't seen me in a long time and I always try to hide the weight loss so it can be dramatic like I really anticipate it to be.
The thing is. I'm not just being a b-itchy person. I just recently found out...that after all was said and done and his girlfriend found the proof she had been looking for... he tried to deny it....saying that I was ugly and a whale and he would never think twice. So....this ugly whale is gonna make him jump out of his skin because every thing he said is a complete lie. He was always so intimidated by my beauty and it was my friends and family saying that I was settling for someone way beneath me. So yep. Tomorrow should be interesting.
I hope people are still around! The way the threads go nobody will notice my post and I will have nothing to talk about. :( Okay.
I guess that's all for now. I will update sooner then later this time...probably about what goes on tomorrow.
Lisa. This means you.

BYE!
 
He definitely got a taste of his own medicine. People ganged up on him in the ring and smashed his car to pieces. It was awesome to watch. You know, after all this has been said and done...I could care less about what he thinks of me. It's so over now and I should be happy that I have nothing to do with him. I didn't go near him the whole time but...he did notice me when he was trying to get his car out and he did a triple take. So I guess I didn't bother strutting my new butt off. Oh well. Plenty time for that.
 
Wow that is intense! I'm not sure what's going on, but I hope you continue to lose weight and no one will ever call you a whale again! That's so mean, man, my BF actually made some derogatory comments about this chick, and she wasn't even really very large. Argh I hate the haters!!:mad:
 
Hey there stranger you look amazing!! i'm so proud of you..

I just decided to jump back on today.. I didn't exactly stay with it..

but i just started working out again about 2 weeks ago and decided it's time to get back on here and get back to my goals...

it's amazing how time just goes so fast and before you knwo it's it's been 2 months and you havent' even cared about the scale..

i knwo it's horribe and i'm paying for it alright

anyway enjoy London!! i'm jealous lol
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Wow that is intense! I'm not sure what's going on, but I hope you continue to lose weight and no one will ever call you a whale again! That's so mean, man, my BF actually made some derogatory comments about this chick, and she wasn't even really very large. Argh I hate the haters!!:mad:
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yeah, it's also too bad that his "whale" of a girl friend is pushing 300. She used to be tiny but since she had the baby she let herself go...150 pounds up the scale.
 
AEL33107 said:
Hey there stranger you look amazing!! i'm so proud of you..

I just decided to jump back on today.. I didn't exactly stay with it..

but i just started working out again about 2 weeks ago and decided it's time to get back on here and get back to my goals...

it's amazing how time just goes so fast and before you knwo it's it's been 2 months and you havent' even cared about the scale..

i knwo it's horribe and i'm paying for it alright

anyway enjoy London!! i'm jealous lol
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thank you soo much!!! you know, if you stick to it and really change your lifestyle you shouldn't have any problem seeing the results i have. it's very rewarding.
 
Haven't posted in awhile.
I've finally moved to London and I'm loving every minute of it.
Lots to do, many things to see and the view from my balcony is breath taking.
On Friday I joined Mademoiselle/Premier Fitness. It's right on the major corner, where I live. It's got everything you could possibly imagine. Pool, day spa, 110 Cardio Machines with TV's on every machine. Free classes and personal trainers, a nutrition program and a locker room that will make your jaw drop. It was so cheap to join...and it's very luxurious. I'm gonna be heading down there today. I have a "fit test" tomorrow which I am anxious to see how said turns out. Wow, like I said...it's beautiful here. I miss my parents tho. Thats for darn sure.
 
Wow i'm glad you have loving London!!

yes I know, I bet you have told me about a hundred times to stay positive and I've been doing good :) I feel better anyway...

I'm sorry you miss your parents, When I moved from Jerzey to Florida by myself I was home sick for a while.. but it gets better :) Good luck on your fit test!! Keep us posted :)
 
Hey! long time no talk! I'm glad you are having fun in your new place. Homesickness is completely expected and understandable. I leave for Scotland tomorrow and I can already feel the homesickness lol. Anways, you are doing GREAT, you really made things happen!
 
Thanks Lisa and might I just say, you're doing amazing yourself. I hope Scotland is everything you dreamed of. Here's to skinny us's!
 
A month later.... still sitting at the same weight. I'm happy but I'm afraid I'm losing some control in the food department.
The wedding is next weekend.... I'm a size 16. I would love to be a 14 :(
Anyway....Life has just been so hectic and there is just so much going on so yippers. But I'm happy!
 
Hey All

It's a boring Sunday afternoon, the clouds are out and the City of London looks so depressing. Which brings me to why I am writing. I have so much amazing stuff going on. I feel as if I've found my soul mate. It's kinda great except there is stuff in the way that really, majorly sucks.
As for the "weight" I guess I'm still the same, I'm fitting in my 16's and Lg's just fine. I'm starting to notice my butt again which means I should probably start exercising it. I might be 200 pounds but nothing more then that.
I'm sad tho, everything is amazing and for some reason I'm really bummed out. It's most likely because I have no control over what happens. I'm a small voice. Or at least I feel like one.
Then again, life is lead in my eyes one day at a time. So I'm thinking I should start setting some goals again. I liked how I was with goals.
So here's the goal. Weigh 175 pounds by January 12th 2008. That gives me two months to shed a good 30 pounds, but that's been done before. I wanna look even better. My life has changed so much since the weight loss. I feel even better about myself and self confidence was something I never seem to lack.
But I guess that's it. I should start being active in here again. I wanna start a challenge or something. For December tho. I'm going to challenge myself to lose 10 of these pounds by the months end. It's do-able... 19 days, 10 pounds.
Until next time,
)ess
 
It's been awhile...

I forgot I had this thing and as I am reading it, it all feels so surreal.
I started this journey at 254lbs. My lowest was 180lbs.
After being in London for about 8 months, my home sickness and lack of interest in the program prompted me to return home and go back to work.
Once I was home, everything was fine until I fell down my swimming pool ladder and tore the ligaments off my ankle bone in three places. I was not mobile for over 2 months and I had a couple beers, eat the wrong foods and I found myself back at 232. I stayed that way for a couple of months until I really looked in the mirror. After that, I felt like crap. I decided that I would try to lose weight this year and at new years, I weighed in and started a new.
Start weight: 232lbs. It is now June and my current weight is 200lbs.
I decided to buy the Slim Quick Cleanse. I have never cleansed my body before, I am now 21 years old and now that I haven't been losing as much weight as I could, I have decided to get rid of the crap in my body and start a fresh slate. I am hoping to lose at least 10lbs this month.
Since I have been home, I have had my ups and downs but now that I am back in the right mind frame, I am ready to finally finish what I have started.
I am now equip with a Wii Fit, EA Active and Jillian Micheal's FA. I plan to incorporate each one of them into my plan along with my old eating patterns. I have also entered competition with a good friend and I want to prove that I can hold my own.
So with all being said and done, I am going to start my cleanse and normal diet and exercise program plus stuff on the Wii and hopefully I will be reporting good news daily.

)ess
 
Day One

Today is the first day of my cleanse. I have been drinking lots of water like it says to. I worked out, babysat and ate properly. I weighed myself this morning. I'm now at 199lbs. I took measurements of my waist to see if by this time next week a few inches are gone. I haven't cleansed, ever. They say a lot of the excess bulge comes from your intestines. If I clear things out maybe I will get smaller.
I have tones of skin everywhere. It drives me crazy. I can pull it on my stomach and on my hips. It's the least sexiest thing ever. I can't stand looking at it. It just makes me wonder what it's going to be like when I get down to my goal weight. It's going to be even worse than it is now. Oh joy!
Hopefully Day 2 won't be uncomfortable, it has been fine so far but I doubt that after two doses it's going to be too bad. I'm used to shitting anyway...

)ess
 
Hey there Jess, just wanted to pop in and say hello and see how you are doing. I have never been on a cleanse, I hope it works out for you... good thing you are used to shitting..lol
Thanks for popping into my diary and giving support... It is hard when all you know is fat, but I can see you are working hard at changing that in your life
As for the skin ~ I totally understand how crappy that feels, I have been over 200 pounds over the weight i should be
My opinion is... I would rather live longer and be annoyed with my lose skin than die young and have no thoughts at all ~ take care
Michelle
 
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