Yarm's No More Excuses!

Howdy Yaramiah,
Wow girl you are still rocking over here!!!
Your menue looks gr8 and exersices just sorry to hear about all
the stress and trying to take care of YOU that is hard to do sometimes.
Keep up the gr8 work,Tammy
 
Day 87 (Sunday)

Ok, had to get up for early church today. After church, ran thekids to sunday school, then I ran to get some propane and a coffee. (I dont care how cold it is, I'm grilling so I dont have yucky dishes!). The coffee flavor was Pumpkin spice and was delicious- I bought a bag to brew at home- not like the 500 calorie drink from dunkin donuts lol. Got some laundry done, still more to do. Got to see DD report card, straight A's in all her classes- impressive as this her first semester in middle school, and she is talking all accelerated classes. I should be getting my yougest's report card Monday.

I'm actually looking forward to getting my measurements and taking an updated picture to check my progress- Day 90 is Wednesday!

Breakfast 8:00 AM BEST FOODS, THOMAS' English Muffins, plain, 1 serving 1 132
Lunch 1:00 PM Thai Soup , 1 package 1 190
Lunch 1:00 PM Heath Bar, snack size, 1 bar (0.33 oz) 1 50
Afternoon Snack 4:00 PM Apples, raw, with skin, 1 large (3-1/4" dia) (approx 2 per lb) 1 110
Afternoon Snack 4:00 PM Peanut butter, smooth style, with salt, 2 tbsp 1 192
Dinner 6:15 PM Beef, round, tip round, separable lean and fat, trimmed to 1/4" fat, all grades, cooked, roasted, 3 oz 1 199
Dinner 6:15 PM Potatoes, baked, flesh and skin, potato 1 220
Dinner 6:15 PM Sour cream, light, 100g 1/2 68
Dinner 6:15 PM Broccoli, boiled, drained, cup, chopped 1 44
Evening Snack 8:00 PM Candies, REESE'S PIECES Candy, 10 pieces 2 80

Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 1285
Calories remaining for today: 74
Exercise: 25 min brisk dog walk, 104 calories burned

Sunday stats-
Eating - :)
Exercise - :p
Water - :toetap05:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude - :rolleyes:


Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 1285
Calories remaining for today: 74
 
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Day 88 (Monday)

Ya know, posting this diary the day after it happens maybe is not such a good idea, because days like yesterday are a blur. All I remember about yesterday was talking to my family about the intervention appointment- that failed because my Dad never got back to me- I think he is losing his nerve- but me and my siblings are going anyway on Tuesday regardless. At least I do rembmer to track my exercise and food thru the Selfdiet so I can just copy and paste it. Anyway . . .

Breakfast 8:00 AM Milk - Low Fat (1%), cup 3/4 90
Lunch 12:30 PM Weight Watchers- pot/cheez/brc , 1 serving 1 220
Lunch 1:00 PM Chewy Granola Bar (100 cal) , 1 bar 1 100
Afternoon Snack 3:30 PM Chips Ahoy 100 cal pack , 1 bag 1 100
Afternoon Snack 6:00 PM Candies, M&M MARS, "M&M's" Milk Chocolate Candies, 1 serving 1 103
Dinner 7:00 PM Stromboli , 1 sandwhich 1/4 165
Dinner 7:00 PM Garden Salad, no dressing, serving, 1 cup 2 70
Dinner 7:00 PM Light Done Right! Salad Dressing - Ranch, tablespoon 1 38
Dinner 7:00 PM Chicken Meat - Roasted, no skin, boneless, no bone, 4 oz 2/3 142
Evening Snack 8:00 PM Snacks, pretzels (choc-covered), minisize (3) 1 149

Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 1177
Calories remaining for today: 182
Exercise: Ski machine 32 min, 283 calories

Monday stats-
Eating - :rolleyes:
Exercise - :D
Water - :toetap05:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude -:willy_nilly:

 
Day 89 (Tuesday)

Stress . . Stress. . . Stress. Too tired and did not exercise this am, but don't feel too bad about it- I'm entitled a day off. The days are starting to blur together. I worked, then had to leave early to head for a pre meeting with an interventionist with my siblings- my Dad bailed out. I didn't get home untill 930pm and still had not eaten. Hubby made me feel a little guilty for not spending time with him, as I am consumed with my parents issues. Got a phone call from parents(after 11pm)- Dad in extreme pain- brothers drove an hour+ to take him to ER and they didnt get home till 6am, I didnt fall asleep until 4am. My eating habits are lacking- I know struggling to find time to eat, my stomach in knots from stress anyway. I fogot my water bottle this morning, so I got mostly no water in either. Doing my best- hope things improve soon.

Breakfast 8:00 AM Milk - Low Fat (1%), cup 1 120
Breakfast 10:00 AM BEST FOODS, THOMAS' English Muffins, plain, 1 serving 1 132
Breakfast 10:00 AM Peanut butter, smooth style, with salt, 2 tbsp 1 192
Lunch 1:00 PM Stir Fry - Vegetables, cup 1 100
Lunch 1:00 PM Chicken Breast - Roasted, w/out skin, w/bone, breast, 6 oz 1/2 142
Lunch 1:00 AM Noodles, japanese, soba, cooked, cup 1 113
Dinner 5:00 PM Ice novelties, italian, restaurant-prepared, 0.5 cup 1 61
Dinner 5:00 PM Frozen Yogurt - Fat Free Chocolate Fudge, serving, 1/2 cup 2 200
Evening Snack 9:30 PM Snacks, popcorn, air-popped, cup 7 217

Tuesday stats-
Eating - :eek:
Exercise -:blush5:
Water - :flame:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude -:smash:

Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 1277
Calories remaining for today: 82
Exercise: none

 
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Yarm
I am so sorry that you are having to go thru all this. :(
And I realize that hubby may feel neglected but now is not the time for him to pull the guilt trip on you. Sometimes people unintentionally pick the wrong times to download their feelings. I hope that he will be more supportive of you in the future.
Know that you are in my prayers.:Angel_anim:
 
Howdy Yarimiah,
Geeeeesh talk about stress I am sorry your
going thru all this and then spending time with hubby,I get mad
at hubby for this because I always have alot major stuff going on with
kids,family being sick,and he talks about ummmm you know what it's like
is that all you care about,ok I will quit I rant and rave in everybodies diary
about it lol.I am so proud of you for taking care of you and handling everything else it gets rough sometimes.Hang in there things will get better,Tammy:coolgleamA:
 
HI Yarmiah!!
I am so sorry about the stress you are going through. And I admire you for staying on track and keeping your focus through all this. Now I feel bad whining about my sickness and totally falling off track...while you are dealing with such painful and stressing times. I need to have some of your willpower and strenght girl.
Keep going, you are a great inspiration for me and I wish things get better.
Hajni
 
Day 90 (Wednesday)

SOOOO tired this am, but knew I NEEDED to get on the NT and run off some of this stress and frustration. I was literally crying my eyes out for 1/2 of the session but kept pushing thru trying to find more strength and resolve and I find it truly does help me. My eating today sucked, as you will see from my journal, having consumed under 1000 calories. It's due to 2 things- no time to eat, too distracted to eat. Again, I only got about 1/2 of my water in, same reasons as above for eating so little. I am aware of this and am working this as best I can.

I called a Cancer support group & a kind person there will be meeting with myself and my parents on Thursday. I really think this will not only help them, but help me and my stress, and then allow things to start to get back to normal as well.

Breakfast 8:00 AM Bananas, raw, 1 large (8" to 8-7/8" long) 1 121
Breakfast 10:00 AM weight watchers yogurt , 1 container 1/2 50
Lunch 1:00 PM Garden Salad, no dressing, serving, 1 cup 2 70
Lunch 1:00 PM Egg, whole, cooked, hard-boiled, 1 large 1 78
Lunch 1:00 PM Light Done Right! Salad Dressing - Ranch, tablespoon 1 38
Afternoon Snack 4:00 PM Candies, M&M MARS, MARS MILKY WAY Bar, 1 bar, fun size 1 76
Dinner 7:30 PM Pasta Sauce - Spaghetti Sauce with Mushrooms, cup 1 120
Dinner 7:30 PM Pasta - Angel Hair, 1 1/4 cup (3 oz) 1 230

Wednesday stats-
Eating - :cuss:
Exercise - :cry:
Water - :mad:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude - :svengo:

Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 783
Calories remaining for today: 576
Exercise: 30 min on ski machine, 266 calories


 
Bell, Nia and Haj- Thank you so much for your support. The real life drama has got to let up soon, but until then I have to deal with what life is handing me, and having friends like you makes it a heck of a lot more managable. I made a commitment when I started this journey (for the last time) to NEVER give up- and I don't intend to do so, no matter what. That being said . . .

I have now reached the 90 day mark!!! let's see how I am doing . .:

Start 08/07 182 lbs
-chest 42inches
-waist 35 inches
-hips 45 1/2 inches
-thigh 25 inches
-arms 13 inches

Today 11/15/07 168.8 -13.2 lbs.
-chest 41 inches -2 inches
-waist 33 1.3 inches -1 1/2 inches
-hips 43 inches -1 1/2 inches
-thigh 24 inches -1 inch
-arm 12 1/4 inches -3/4 inch

I wanted to post pictures here, but there is "picture icon" to choose, so I guess I'll have to use links instead. The first one is before shot, and the 2nd is now.
 
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Wow thats such great accomplishments,I can see those ab muscles
that is awesome I can't wait to see results like that! Geeeesh thought
I had some knockers lol you are gonna look like a knock out in your
takini this summer heads will be turning!Have a gr8 day Tammy
 
Congrats on the inches lost Yarmiah!! And what a difference in the pictures!!! You are going to be so hot!!! You are doing awesome!! Now only if the stress would let up on you...
Keep on going..
Hajni
 
Day 91 & 92 (Thursday & Friday)

Disaster-
The crisis won't let up. I made an appointment to have some "Cancer Counselors" meet with myself and parents at my folks home Thursday evening. It was easy to see my Mom had been drinking, and Dad confessed that she did not feed him lunch or allow him a nap. (He's 64 yrs and down to 139lbs and about 5' 8''). The meeting went well, was very informative- at least for Dad n me- but the nurse noticed severe swelling in his feet and took a few vitals and urged us to go to the ER. I was there, alone with my Dad (refusing Mom to come cuz she was drunk) till about 2am. It was heart wretching to witness my Dad suffering with so much pain, and not able to do anything to releive him. Obviously, I did not have time to eat(again). I did however get on the NT early in the day before any of this crap unfolded. So I get to bed @3am, only to wake at 5 30am as my hubby wanted to discuss some issues about my folks, and questions about the kids etc.

Now its Friday and am cleaning the house and the sun is not even up. I get the kids off to school, and head back to the hospital over an hour away. When I see my Dad, he is in MISERY. After alot of ranting and phone calls on my part, my Dad FINALLY got some pain meds that would work at about 11 15am. They are still workin on tests to address the swelling, the high BP (which was 178/103 when he came thru the ER), the pain, etc. The good news is the blood tests are coming back good, and the liver and kidney function is good too. On 2 seperate occasions today I had to talk to Mom about her drinking and the effect its having on Dad and his health. I was able to eat a banana and bagle w/ cream cheese, but it took me over 3 hours to eat it, and never got my lunch. Headed to work to help close out the day, picked up the kids and got home. Ate left overs for dinner and am now typing this out. :rant:

Obviously my calories are too low. This is not a trend, however. I am far from starving myself, and my Dad's health is a priority atm and am doing the best I can. Will get back on track as soon as life allows me to.

THURSDAY
Breakfast 9:00 AM bagel- mini , 1 bagel 1 100 20 1 0
Breakfast 9:00 AM Peanut butter, smooth style, with salt, 2 tbsp 1 192 6 17 8
Morning Snack 10:30 AM Bananas, raw, 1 large (8" to 8-7/8" long) 1 121 31 0 1
Lunch 12:45 PM Weight Watchers- pot/cheez/brc , 1 serving 1 220 34 6 9
Lunch 1:00 PM Fruit snack- Cranberry Crunch , 1 pouch 1 80 17 1 1
Lunch 1:15 PM Jello sugar free choc pudding , 1 container 1 60 14 2 2
Evening Snack 1:00 AM Pretzel - hard, salted , 1 pretzel 1 90 18 0 2

Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 863
Calories remaining for today: 496
Exercise 33 min ski machine, 292 calores burned

FRIDAY:
Breakfast 10:00 AM Bagel (3 oz) - Plain, w/Cream Cheese (2 Tbsp), bagel 1 340 46 12 12
Breakfast 10:00 AM Bananas, raw, 1 large (8" to 8-7/8" long) 1 121 31 0 1
Afternoon Snack 4:30 PM Chips Ahoy 100 cal pack , 1 bag 1 100 18 3 1
Afternoon Snack 4:30 PM Sandwich Cookies - Chocolate, 3 cookies serving size 1/2 80 12 3 1
Dinner 7:00 PM Pasta Sauce - Spaghetti Sauce, cup 1/2 60 9 2 2
Dinner 7:00 PM Pasta - Angel Hair, 1 1/4 cup (3 oz) 1 230 43 3 9
Dinner 7:30 PM Rice Cake- mini, ranch , 10 mini cakes 1 70 12 3 1

TOTALS FOR FRIDAY, 11/16/07
Recommended calories: 1359
Calories consumed: 1001
Calories remaining for today: 358

Thursday & Friday:
Eating - :willy_nilly:
Exercise - :willy_nilly:
Water - :willy_nilly:
Multivitamin - :willy_nilly:
Attitude -:willy_nilly:
 
I am so sorry for the both of you!!!!!
What a stressful/painful days your dad and you are going through. And having an irresponsible mom makes it even more difficult.
I am not good with words, just know I am thinking of you.
Hajni
 
Yarmiah~
What a loving daughter you are:Angel_anim:
So sorry to hear that your dad is suffering thru all of this and that your mother is failing to be there for him. What an awful situation you have been thrown into.
Know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
 
I am so sorry for the both of you!!!!!
What a stressful/painful days your dad and you are going through. And having an irresponsible mom makes it even more difficult.
I am not good with words, just know I am thinking of you.
Hajni


HAJANI said it best!!:iagree: your a loving daughter and a tough 1 @ that and may I add a busy 1 to lol! I know by seeing your menue your calories are right on the money so no need to worry you'll make up for the ower cals later.Have a gr8 day Tammy
 
Day 93 (Saturday)

Got up early for work today- just love that on a Saturday. Was gonna head up and see Dad, but he was released from the hospital and other family was to be on hand so I ate lunch, headed home and took a well deserved nap. Ended up taking care of a few more chores around the house afterwards. Dad is doing better, but not near where he needs to be as far as pain management. I'll likely be contacting his Dr.'s and the support nurse to help address his meds. Some water, but not all and food much better today.

Breakfast 8:30 AM Bagel - Plain, bagel 1 335
Breakfast 8:45 AM Donuts - Plain, donut hole, 0.5 oz 2 118
Lunch 1:00 PM Broccoli, chinese, cooked, cup 1 19
Lunch 1:00 PM Chicken Meat - Roasted, no skin, boneless, no bone, 4 oz 1/2 108
Dinner 6:00 PM Beef, average all cuts - Cooked, no added fat, lean & fat, 1/4" trim, small serve, 3 oz 1 260
Dinner 6:00 PM Potatoes, baked, flesh and skin, potato 1 220
Dinner 6:00 PM Sour cream, light, 100g 1 136
Dinner 6:00 PM Spinach, cooked, boiled, drained, with salt, 1 cup 1 41
Evening Snack 8:00 PM Candies, M&M MARS, 3 MUSKETEERS Bar, 1 bar, fun size 1 71

Recommended calories: 1355
Calories consumed: 1308
Calories remaining for today: 47
Exercise: none

Eating - :)
Exercise -
Water - :eek:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude -:sleeping:
 
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Day 94 (Sunday)

Got up and headed to church. Hit the grocery store before getting home. Relaxed and did some laundry. Of course a few calls regarding Dad, etc. Almost took a nap, but too distracted with chores.

Breakfast 10:00 AM Chewy Granola Bar (100 cal) , 1 bar 1 100
Lunch 2:00 PM Garden Salad, no dressing, serving, 1 cup 2 70
Lunch 2:00 PM Egg, whole, cooked, hard-boiled, 1 large 1 78
Lunch 2:00 PM Light Done Right! Salad Dressing - Ranch, tablespoon 2 76
Afternoon Snack 3:00 PM Candies, M&M MARS, MARS MILKY WAY Bar, 1 bar, fun size 1 76
Afternoon Snack 3:00 PM Cheez It - Reduced Fat, cracker 10 50
Dinner 6:30 PM Pizza - Cheese, medium, slice 2 330
Evening Snack 9:00 PM Rice Cake- mini, ranch , 10 mini cakes 2 140

Recommended calories: 1355
Calories consumed: 920
Calories remaining for today: 435
Exercise - none

Eating - :confused:
Exercise - -
Water - :cuss:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude - :sleeping:
 
Day 95 & 96 (Monday & Tuesday)

Things have remained about the same. Mom & Dad continue to be a concern and focus for me. The biggest problem I am dealing with now, is what very little time I have to do all there is I have to do. I spend so many hours on the phone with Dr.'s, & family members, time spent on the computer reseraching and emailing, that it leaves less time to take care of things at home like cooking, laundry, etc.

The good news is that I am not using food as a coping mechanism.

The bad news is, because I cam crunched for time, I have not been keeping up with my food journal. Also, I have been making "quick" food choices, not having time to cook lately. I have not been exercising as much as I had becuase the lack of sleep is catching up to me as well. Forget the water intake. Grrr . . .

So, in a nutshell, I am doing OK but not 100% on track. I refuse to be derailed! For whatever reason, I am being tested right now and I won't fail. I hope to find the strength and resolve to pick myself up by my boot straps and straighten out.

I apologise to my friends for not having alot of time to stop by your diaries, for the reasons above. KNow that I think about you guys and hope you have a Great Thanksgiving (but dont overdue it!!!) :coolgleamA:

Eating - :piggy:
Exercise - :confused:
Water - :cuss:
Multivitamin - :)
Attitude -:icon_bs:
 
Yarmiah~
You are doing a wonderful job with a the situation you are in. You have conquered your biggest obstacle........USING FOOD AS A COPING MECHANISM!
Please don't feel guilty for not being able to keep up with everything else. This time right now is more for your father and that is okay.
Just knowing and being aware of the choices you are making and not going into a mindless automatron mode is the best thing you can do for you at this time.
And please don't feel bad that you can't get to our diaries. We all understand just how busy you are. If anything (at least for myself) we look forward to hearing from you in your diary so that we can encourage you during this most difficult time. It's you who needs to lean on us, not us leaning on you my dear!
So please know that we all love ya and look forward to hearing from you but that if other things need to come first than that is okay. We will be here waiting for you.
Have a nice Thanksgiving Yarmiah and again know that you are in my thoughts and prayers always.
:beating:
 
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