How are things going? I've skimmed through your posts and it looks like you've been going through a lot. Lots of ups and down, but good job for getting back up and trying again!
I don't know what your body frame is Like, but I'm 5'2 and feel 115 lbs would be either ok or too low for me. My goal is 129 and then see where I get there.
How are you doing with the b/p? You are not weak if you seek help. It actually shows your strength and knowledge that you can't do everything yourself and sometimes you need to seek some help. If you aren't ready to get help that's ok too, the fact you've acknowledged the issue is a huge step in the right direction. I think focusing on what you eat and exercising is most important right now. Once you're eating better you can slowly adjust portion sizes. Don't stress so muh about losing weight too quickly either, usually you'll gain it right back. Working on more permanent changes to your eating habits and focusing on a more gradual loss, especially since you are so far from your goal weight, is a better way to reach it.
Good luck!
