Veronique's Diary

chubbygirl said:
That is totally what I used to do too! It's still hard sometimes for me to be assertive because I feel like I'm being bossy or pushy but in reality I'm just standing up for myself.
I have so many B38 bras because that was what I was for sooo long - I even had those attachments because the 38's wouldn't fit. Even now I only try on the 36's and wear them on the tightest strap - I never even thought to try on a 34! Now I'm an A and I only have 3 that sort of fit - they were on sale at Zellers for $10 each so they aren't really nice ones like I used to own from La Senza or anything. I would like to get fitted and told what I should be wearing.
Have a great weekend Veronique - oh how'd the weigh-in go this morning?
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I want to get fitted but I will wait until I am at my goal until then I will just keep fitting myself lol! In my case I am about 36 and according to my measurment I should be a D but most stores I have to go to a DD, it's almost impossible to find a 36 DD they start sometimes at 38 but mostly at 40! I cam't wait to fit into a smaller cup, I keep thinking I should go to one of the place where they make them custom, but I am sure they would cost an arm and a leg! Weight in went great! 174.2lb Almost 2lb
 
Awesome weigh-in! It seems like you have one great week - one not so great week and then another great week pattern going on! Time to change it up and make two great weigh-in's in a row! I know you can do it! Have an amazing weekend!
 
chubbygirl said:
Awesome weigh-in! It seems like you have one great week - one not so great week and then another great week pattern going on! Time to change it up and make two great weigh-in's in a row! I know you can do it! Have an amazing weekend!
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I have noticed that too! Also my good weeks are the ones where I am home alone...once the kids are in bed I fix the next days lunch and then I get things done...when the hubby is around all he wants to do is crash and watch TV. I will have to restart going out for a run get out of the living room when I am alone I only watch tv when I am folding laundry.
 
June 5th 2010

Good Morning!


So it's monday so as usuall I fess up to my bad weekends! Started on friday I got home from worked got the kids ready to go to my sisters for the night, came back home at around 9pm, I still hadn't eaten diner and really wasn't up to cooking anything so I ended up on the coutch with a couple glass of wine some cheese (not the low fat) chips and crakers I don't even know how much I ate, what was I thinking! I stayed up way to late until midnight watching Just My Luck (really I stayed up watching a teen chick flick). I had to wake up at 5 am in order to drive with my hubby to the lazer eye clinic (he got the worst part of the deal he finished work at 4am so he got like 30 min of sleep and decided he was driving! So on the way we grabed coffee and bagels (really wanted a donut but decided for a bagel) found the place easily but parking was a different story we drove aroun for like 15 min then decided screw this will pay more so we go into this underground parking, and we can't find the exit so we walk toward the garage door and it opens we where like ok we get out and we are now like 6 blocks from where we want to be so we get back in and finnally find another exit that is across the street from where we drove in...what the heck it didn't seem like such a walk lol! My hubby is a great candidat for the surgery so we are gonna shell out some mega bucks for it but in the long term his glases cost over 800$ (that is with a cheap frame, and 5 years ago) but now with the job he is at they last only 2 years.so in the long run we will save!

We ate at a roasted chicken place for lunch tasted great but point value bad! then we had diner at my sisters wich was on the healthy side so good!

Sunday I made myself an english muffin egg sandwich. Skipped lunch ate chips on the way to my brother in law's and had 1 piece of KFC and more chips during the afternoon and pizza for diner (I am having the left over for lunch) and two pepsi! Yuck I am discusted at having eaten all that crap but I am not gonna beat myself over it! Today I am finnishing off the Pizza and I will eat healthy after....I am also gonna take plenty of water and green tea try to flush out the salt from my system and be back on track!
 
Forgot to input my food log!

Breakfast
oatmeal, banana, pb 8pts
coffee 2pts (still not able to quit this)


lunch
2 vegie pizza slice 8pts

that make a total of 18pts
I have some apple on me for a snack if I get hungry and I am planning on having a legume salad for diner just to finish up my day on the light side!
I want to be under 174 by friday so I got to kick thing up! I am gonna walk at lunch time alone so that should burn some cals!
 
I should just have salad for the rest of the week to make up for all the cals over the weekend!
Good for you being so positive this morning and ready to get back on track - it's post like yours that keep me going every week! Keep it up Veronique and enjoy your walk at lunch - I should get out there too!
 
chubbygirl said:
I should just have salad for the rest of the week to make up for all the cals over the weekend!
Good for you being so positive this morning and ready to get back on track - it's post like yours that keep me going every week! Keep it up Veronique and enjoy your walk at lunch - I should get out there too!
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Thanks Lisa!!! What would we do without this website???? So much easier to be good during the week cause everything is structured, but on the weekend I don't even want to remember I am just glad I am not feeling sick today and that I didn't drink the whole bottle of wine drinking alone was kind of boring!!! I need to make new friends! Your journal is such an inspiration to me so I am glad to be able to keep you goin too!!!! We are gonna make this a good week!
 
Ok so far I have drank 86oz of water and there is still 3 and 1/2 hous of work left! I went for my power walk and whoo I am feeling it...I went to change my shoes and realized that I left mu runners on the bus, so I was gonna sit on my behind and sulk , but decided that I needed this walk to I went with my office shoes they are flats but not made for walking the soles of my feet are killing me but it was still worth it, I walked the same distance then usuall when I am alone but instead of taking 45 min it only took me about 38 min so I beat my own record!!!!! Have a great day!
 
I have drank 5 43oz glass of water so 215oz???? How did that all go down??? and 2 green tea! Mabe I will work out again tonight we will see how things go at home!
 
June 08 2010

Good Morning.... you know when I began this journal I said I was a mother of 2 well scratch that I realised last night that I have 3 kids the 3rd one being the hubby! When he got home from work he decided he was taking our daughter to the water sprinkler in the park. It was a bit on the chilli side but I told myself that if he went before supper it would not be too bad! As usuall being someone who can't do a damn thing on his own! He decided to wait for me at his parents,,,,I get there its already 5:30 and still haven't eaten so he says hurry make your salad...if he was in a hurry why couldn't he make it for me you know? So I try to hurry make my salad while watching my son cause by now he is sleeping on the couch by the time I ate and cleaned up it was past 6 and the wind really picked up and he wouldn't wake up so I ask my daughter is it's ok to go home and watch a bit of cartoon instead of playing in the water and she said ok, well then the husband wakes up and start bitching about the fact that he can't see the kids everyday, then he start putting on my daughter bathing suits, then his mom steps in and askes are you gonna stay up all night and miss work if she ends up sick? Of course he listen to his mom we ended up going to the park anyways and we got home late around 8pm for a 3 and 1 yrs old that is late they are in bed by 7pm usually, We each had our cars as soon as I drove in behind him he took off went into the house straight to bed. So he leaves me to deal alone with the over tired dirty crying kids, I just wanted to pack my bags and leave...you are probably thinking what is the point of leaving you are still gonna have to deal with the kids on your own...well I deal with them on my own annyways most of the time it's just that if I was alone no one would break there schedule no one would feed them junk and candy on a daily bases. I love my husband but sometimes I wonder if we still have stuff in comon, it's like he is still the same persone he was when he was 22 I am not that same person. Mabe it's me being overd dramatic or mabe I am just tired I don't know, Even in highschool I like older guys because my personality matched them more, and then I go and mary someone my age. I guess time will tell what happend right? It feels good to get this out!

Breakfast
yogourt, and berries 3pts
12 grain bagel toasted no butter 4pts
coffee 2pts
9pts

lunch
salad with mixed beans and 2tbsp of dressing 6pts
banana 2pts
8pts

diner
don't know depends what the big child decides to make lol!

17pts before diner leaves me with 6 pts
I will drink water at least 100 oz but probably not as much as yesterday that was a lot but who knows!!!
I will go for a walk at lunch!
 
Grr Veronique that would be so frustrating!!! How do you even go to bed beside him at night and actually sleep! If something like that is bothering me I need to get it out and make it right before I can even think about sleeping. We have a sign over our bed that says always kiss me good night - I just can't sleep when I am mad. There have been a few times we were fighting and he went to bed first and I sat up on the couch fuming until he woke up at 6am to find me sitting on the couch in the same outfit as the night before - that usually shakes him into realizing he did something wrong. I just feel so bad for you having to live like that. That would be so stressful and my mind wouldn't stop wondering what to do next - how to make it right. I'm so stubborn I would wait for him to apologize and if he turns out anything like my dad I will be waiting a while! Hope your home situation gets better soon - good work not letting it affect your eating!
 
Sorry you are dealing with that kind of stress from you husband. They really just don't know do they? All of us women have those stories. It's good to get it out, and here, we understand, just like our weightloss challenges, work, school, children, everyday things. When I get overwhelmed like that, I have to take a day to myself. For one whole day, there has to be peace and quiet and nothing to bother me, even if I do nothing but sleep, or get a room to myself, and waste a little dough that I don't really have to get a massage. Some people might think that is crazy, but hey, I have to work my butt off to pay the bills anyway, so using a little on myself at least makes me feel good. I've just sat home by myself or in the park. Oh, yeah, and working out! You should get a day to yourself. Tell your hubby you putting your phone on vibrate and to text you only if there is an emergency. Of course you need to keep your phone on, in case there is an emergency with your children, but other than that, just celebrate you for a day. I promise, even though you have to go back to reality afterward, it does help to ease the stress.

I'm rooting for you to get to that 174! You can do it!
 
Verobc said:
I love my husband but sometimes I wonder if we still have stuff in comon, it's like he is still the same persone he was when he was 22 I am not that same person.
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Oh girl, I know how this is. I've been going through kind of the same thing. So big hugs to you! :grouphug:
 
chubbygirl said:
Grr Veronique that would be so frustrating!!! How do you even go to bed beside him at night and actually sleep! If something like that is bothering me I need to get it out and make it right before I can even think about sleeping. We have a sign over our bed that says always kiss me good night - I just can't sleep when I am mad. There have been a few times we were fighting and he went to bed first and I sat up on the couch fuming until he woke up at 6am to find me sitting on the couch in the same outfit as the night before - that usually shakes him into realizing he did something wrong. I just feel so bad for you having to live like that. That would be so stressful and my mind wouldn't stop wondering what to do next - how to make it right. I'm so stubborn I would wait for him to apologize and if he turns out anything like my dad I will be waiting a while! Hope your home situation gets better soon - good work not letting it affect your eating!
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I slept on the couch!!! I was to tired to even care! He woke me up at 3 am when he was getting up to get ready for work all pissed that I wasn't in bed, I just got up and locked my bedrom door and went back to sleep until 5 am, I just don't have the energy to stay up all night and still get to work, tonight we will talk or he will email me at work when he gets home at 3pm......his dad is like that a big sulking baby but my mother in law always had excuses well he is tired blah blah blah well not me he is gonna have to grow up eventually I won't make excuses or hide it! I almost did eat some chips I had the open bag in my hands and then decided I wasn't gonna let that jerk ruin my hard work!
 
njoyabl said:
Sorry you are dealing with that kind of stress from you husband. They really just don't know do they? All of us women have those stories. It's good to get it out, and here, we understand, just like our weightloss challenges, work, school, children, everyday things. When I get overwhelmed like that, I have to take a day to myself. For one whole day, there has to be peace and quiet and nothing to bother me, even if I do nothing but sleep, or get a room to myself, and waste a little dough that I don't really have to get a massage. Some people might think that is crazy, but hey, I have to work my butt off to pay the bills anyway, so using a little on myself at least makes me feel good. I've just sat home by myself or in the park. Oh, yeah, and working out! You should get a day to yourself. Tell your hubby you putting your phone on vibrate and to text you only if there is an emergency. Of course you need to keep your phone on, in case there is an emergency with your children, but other than that, just celebrate you for a day. I promise, even though you have to go back to reality afterward, it does help to ease the stress.

I'm rooting for you to get to that 174! You can do it!
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This morning I really really wanted to drive the kids to daycare and then call in sick and just spend the day at home giving myself a facial and take an extra longue shower, and exfoliate and shave and have a good workout mabe at the play ground all alone! I couldn't my boss will fire anyone who misses work without proper documentation, even if you just miss 2 hours of work to for a DR appointment he needs a note! Hubby is working on Sat and Sun so no breaks for me....I had a couple of hour last friday and on June 19 my sisters in law and a friend of the familly are taking my mother in law out to a male strip club for her 60th bday!! Talk about weird but it should be fun it's her first time in one of those places she probably has never even been in a bar!
 
Ok so didn't really walk at lunch (strolled around for like 10 min)

My walking buddy is leaving! She is just waiting to sign the papers with her new job and then she is gonna announce it to the boss. I am so happy to see her leave this hell hole but at the same time sort of sad cause she was the only person that I can really talk with over here. The other are nice but very judgy (is that a word?) and they all go out to eat at lunch time who can afford that? I am gonna be eating alone every day at lunch the only good thing is that I will be able to power walk almost everyday depending on weather!
 
Aw that sucks about your friend leaving but it sounds like it's a good move. I didn't get to go for my walk at lunch either because it's raining - hope it doesn't keep up for my baseball game tonight.
Oh well there is always tomorrow for a walk.
Hope your night tonight is better than last! I would have slept on the couch too! Take care.
 
chubbygirl said:
Aw that sucks about your friend leaving but it sounds like it's a good move. I didn't get to go for my walk at lunch either because it's raining - hope it doesn't keep up for my baseball game tonight.
Oh well there is always tomorrow for a walk.
Hope your night tonight is better than last! I would have slept on the couch too! Take care.
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I think if my night doesn't improve I may go to my parents for a few days. Give me and the hubby time apart, to cool down. I think we needs some hobbies away from each other all we do is home work and once in a while play ground we hardly have any adult company outside of eachother and our parents and in my case anyway I need that. Relationship are hard! A relationship with a deaf person is a bit harder....I deal with the kids at all time day and night it's always me...I deal with the phone all the time too. Call here Call there and that gets annoying. I knew about the phone thing before we started dating, but I tought he would make more of an effort when it came to the kids. I know I am PMSing this week too, and I don't feel well that is all part of being a woman!!
 
June 09 2010

Happy Wednesday!

Ok so today I am still exausted but not frustrated! Hubby and I talked for a bit yesterday and he apologied and said he would help me more with the kids especially when we came home later he would get my daughter all ready for bed I will still have to read her the bed time story but only cause she always aks for me.......it's our thing she is daddy's girl but only mommy can read her bedtime story and do her hair! When she is a bit older I want to make girlie time for her and me like go and get our nails done, this summer I saw a mommy and me ballet class I have never really done ballet but it's for 3yrs old so I think I want to try it I just have to find someone to babysit my son on the weekends hubby is working! I spend a lot of time arguing with her I just want some of our time spend to be fun you know! Plus dancing is exercise mabe work on my flexibility it like 120$ for 10 clases so it's not too bad! Hubby doesn't want her to take ballet but he is not the boss of me lol!
other then that yesterday I went over by about 2 points I ate sme pb at work cause I was starving and out of snacks, and then I ate popcorn the plain kind about a cup and a half, I just needed something crunchy and didn't feel like peeling!

Today

Breakfast

egg sandwich from timmies on a 12 grain bagel 9pts
coffee 2pts
11pts

lunch

blue menu chicken Bancock 5pts
2 cups of berries 2pts
7pts

18pts wich leaves me with 5pts for diner and if I get hungry I will have an apple of banana . I have been eating lots of fruit lately cause I crave surgar big time I still consume a lot but a least it's natural and not refine! I hope it won't affect my weight loss, I am pmsing this week so I have no will power when it comes to cravings but instead of chocolat and pop and chips I am trying to go for fruits and fizzy water with lime and pop corn in small doses, hopefully I still get results this week! I am gonna go walk at lunch it the weather permits! Drink lots of water!
 
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