Unbeatable!

[PaperAirPlanes]

Gotta tell ya, I don't know if it is easy to jump in on any group activity... particularly if you are self conscious. I don't know, that's probably why I ride my bike as often as I do. I enjoy it, and I can do it alone, nobody to prove anything with but me.

I feel tons better about me now that I've lost weight, but it still isn't easy all the time. I'm just better at saying the hell with everyone else now. You get there eventually...

Thanks! I think you're right, I will get there eventually, I just need to find something that suits me, doesn't have a ton of people but wont be toooo far out of my comfort zones or I need to find something that works for just me. Thank you for your input!

Btw, what's the story with the username? I giggle everytime I read it just because I think of you like fighting a cab, just to stay outta it. lmao.

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Ah today's eating sucked. My sleep was screwed up and I ended up eating forkfulls of cake at like 3am, then had a big bowl of ham and bean soup (boiled diced ham, northern beans, rivels [flour n egg]), then I slept till around 10am, where my Mother and I went to the neighbors to paint/play Scrabble and eat lunch. I had too much pop and too much food!!

I'm gonna guess around 2,200 calories. Eeeeeepers!

My weights been off since I'm being a woman this month, but after I'm done and drop the fun things like bloatedness and waterweight I should be back to normal.

 

[thecabbie]

Btw, what's the story with the username? I giggle everytime I read it just because I think of you like fighting a cab, just to stay outta it. lmao.

Well, I guess in some ways...

I'm a process engineer by trade. But... I have 2 kids in college, and LOTS of bills to go with it....

So I drive a cab on Saturdays in the next city over from me. Reluctantly... 'cuz I sure wouldn't mind skipping out on the second job!

Actually, driving a cab is kind of fun some of the time. You do get your share of drunks and idiots, but most of the time it's actually kind of interesting if you are the kind of person who likes to people watch.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Well, I guess in some ways...

I'm a process engineer by trade. But... I have 2 kids in college, and LOTS of bills to go with it....

So I drive a cab on Saturdays in the next city over from me. Reluctantly... 'cuz I sure wouldn't mind skipping out on the second job!

Actually, driving a cab is kind of fun some of the time. You do get your share of drunks and idiots, but most of the time it's actually kind of interesting if you are the kind of person who likes to people watch.

I'd be terrified!! Driving cabs is like one of top most dangerous jobs! Granted, I guess where the location is, how the city is, etcetc.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Tmi.

My eatings gone to shit. Completely.

Female reproductive part wise, I've been screwed up for years (found out I have PCOS), so I've been stuck on Yaz birth control since May. And there was a month where I bled pretty good for a month straight. Then it went to 3 weeks, 2 weeks, 7 days. But dammit, I'm back to all out bleed a thons, going on my 3rd week.

Why am I enlightening you and reminding myself about this?

I can't get a good reading of weight. I'm getting high numbers, really high. And I hesitaite to record anything because I knw its from this period stuff.

But at the same time, I personally, feel like I'm doing something wrong, like I'm eating and eating and that's why I'm gaining. When in reality, I knw it isn't ALL my eating.

I just wanna normal out




PB sammich on low calorie white bread
Mac and cheese (1% milk and NO butter) but I added sharp cheese to the powdered cheese

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Roar.

Got my car fixed last nite. He fixed my fuel pump (lifting an almost full tank of gas onto the floor is HEAVY!) and then hooked my front washer into my back so that he didn't have to put in another button, he fixed my gas pedal so that it stops sticking.

I didn't eat any candy on Halloween, cept for a carmal apple with peanuts when I got home.

Weight this morning was : 270lbs


Ate today: pizza (homemade), 2 mini snickers, 1 mini kit kat, orange juice, carmel/peanut apple, 2 hotdogs, 1.5 big slim jims, a can of coke, a bottle of dr.pepper, some swedish fish, and a cupcake to die for.

I can't help but laugh, today's eating was like a mini party spread throughout the day. I'mma chalk it up to, this was my own Halloween celebration. I just felt like eating junk food all day long, so, I did. Bad, I knw, but...I'll get back on track.

 

[thecabbie]

Female reproductive part wise, I've been screwed up for years (found out I have PCOS), so I've been stuck on Yaz birth control since May. And there was a month where I bled pretty good for a month straight. Then it went to 3 weeks, 2 weeks, 7 days. But dammit, I'm back to all out bleed a thons, going on my 3rd week.

Your not the only person on this forum with the PCOS issue. If you search around, you'll find several others with it. Maybe talking to them might help. doyouknowjello (Lisa) would be one, and she is super nice. You oughtta pop in on her.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 270.6lbs

Bagel: 270calories
Cream cheese: 180calories
Mini snickers: 50calories
Mini hersheys bar: 50calories
Swedish fish: 180calories
Rolls: 300calories
American cheese: 188calories
Sliced Turkey: 40calories
Mayo: 45calories
Apple: 0calories

Total: (so far) 1,303calories

Apple in turkey sammiches is goooood

 

[douknowjello]

Hey Paperairplanes Thought I'd stop by and say hi. I think I've talked to you before somewhere else but this is the first time I've had a chance to come by your journal. As Karl said I have pcos too. For how long I'm not sure but the doctor is betting from symptoms that I went untreated at least ten years. I've always had a weight problem so not sure which came first but the pcos definitely caused me to gain more weight. Right before I was diagnosed I actually gained almost 50 pounds in two months and was terrified since I was trying to LOSE weight at the time.

Anyway I'm still learning about this and I know everyone has different experiences. For me its a battle keeping my testosterone levels down because of the pcos and I'm on metformin for it. When it's under control I feel great and in control of food. Whenever the hormones are unbalanced I have really bad food cravings. It was nice to finally know what was hindering my weight loss and also that it wasn't just a lack of willpower on my part... that there was a reason I sometimes want to eat us out of the house, lol.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Hey Paperairplanes Thought I'd stop by and say hi. I think I've talked to you before somewhere else but this is the first time I've had a chance to come by your journal. As Karl said I have pcos too. For how long I'm not sure but the doctor is betting from symptoms that I went untreated at least ten years. I've always had a weight problem so not sure which came first but the pcos definitely caused me to gain more weight. Right before I was diagnosed I actually gained almost 50 pounds in two months and was terrified since I was trying to LOSE weight at the time.

Anyway I'm still learning about this and I know everyone has different experiences. For me its a battle keeping my testosterone levels down because of the pcos and I'm on metformin for it. When it's under control I feel great and in control of food. Whenever the hormones are unbalanced I have really bad food cravings. It was nice to finally know what was hindering my weight loss and also that it wasn't just a lack of willpower on my part... that there was a reason I sometimes want to eat us out of the house, lol.

Hii! And thanks so much for stopping by!

I only found out I had PCOS back in April, but I was told I was born with it and right now my gyno just has me on Yaz, birth control, to try and regulate my periods (Was only getting them once per every 4 to 6 months, so I'm going through all the icky steps of getting it back on track at the moment).

I can relate on the weight thing, I had an issue with my weight all my life. It never occured to me to think that once I started going through puberty, is when I gained a ton of weight all at once, and ever since then it's been a slippery slope.

I didn't knw the levels of testosterone and such could effect eating. Never looked at it like that.

Like you, I kinda feel comfortable in knowing that there is a reason behind my weight, tho it's not the whole reason, but it is a start. I can't blame everything on PCOS, even if I wanted to. lol. But it's a happy/bitter thing to knw that this is helping keep the weight on, yet I knw it's not me totally failing at trying to get it off.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 273.6/Weight Watchers

I joined weight watchers online tonite. I heard it works for a bunch of people and I'm at my wits end at trying the food things, I've counted calories, I've counted fats, etc. I've been doing this since I was a little kid and now I wanna try something that I know other people have had good luck on! I'm just looking for the one thing that will help me, not work against me. I can keep track of points better than counting calories and such. We'll see how this goes.

I haven't moved from 265lbs since LAST YEAR, I want the number to budge and I've been trying and trying, so I'm trying a different route. I got a 3 month subscription and we'll see how it goes, if it works, I'll keep subscribing, if it doesn't, I'll look elsewhere.

I hope this works, I'm crossing my fingers.




My daily allowence is 34points, weekly remaining is 35points.

Today, I ate 63.5points.

My points start over tomorrow since I set it for starting Tuesday.

I've been playing with recipes and I LOVE making homemade pizza, and I got it down to 6pts a slice so I don't have to give that up. YAY!!!

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 272.2lbs

Just when I thought my "female issue" was over with, after 18 loooooooooong days, I woke up this morning and I was W-R-O-N-G! I suppose I'll call the gyno sometime tomorrow. They never seem to think it's a big deal? They're all "spotting it okay, bleeding isn't" yet I say it isn't spotting and they go "just wait it out", maybe the receptionist is a bit dumb??

I <3 weight watchers online. I like that I can make receipes and add everything that goes in and then see how many points it is per serving. I made a bunch of cookie dough yesterday and was kinda bummed I couldn't eat it then today..but I found out, per cookie, it's 4points.


Goal points: 34
Weekly extra points: 35

Points used so far: 53.5
Points over: Too many
Extra points left: 15.5

Chocolate chip cookies are the devil

I love that it factors in fat and fiber and calories, cause that's where my downfall came from, trying to figure it all out in relation to one another.

I wonder if my weight would be less if I weren't bleedin?? Probably. Ugh. I'm tired of feeling yucky.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 272.2lbs

My Momma and I went to lunch at Reb Lobster. I've dying for a grilled chicken caeser salad. I was looking up their menu online and they had an apple chicken walnut pepper thing...and I didn't want that. N Momma wanted seafood, obviously. lol. I hate seafood.

So.....I asked the woman for a plain grilled chicken caeser salad with ranch dressing. (grated cheese, croutons, grilled chicken, tons of lettuce)

However, I didn't think the salad was gonna be that big so I got an order of fries that I ate first. It was only about 30fries, of the shoestring kind, but I shouldn't of eaten them, next time I'll knw.

I ordered a glass of raspberry lemonade...gahhh, I need to remind myself that Minutemaid ANYTHING is too strong on sugar. I woulda got water, but uhm, you ever taste restaurant water? Ew...And I had wanted a refill of something, less, sugary but she whisked my glass away before I got to ask Oh well.

I also ate 2 cheddar bay biscuits.


Allowed points: 34
Total points used: 35
Points over: 1
Weekly left: 14.5

I'm STUFFED, but I knw I'll get hungry later tonite so I'll eat an apple, which is .5 of a point, so I'll just be 1 point over.

MUCH better than yesterday. But next time I go to Reb Lobster, I'll skip the fries, get something different to drink, and maybe have one biscuit.

It's a big point meal regardless. I'd prolly pick a different dressing, maybe. I rarely eat Ranch Dressing anymore anyways, I'm a vinegrette fan now a days. Actually, I'd be okay with plain vinegar.


I've been wondering tho. Are the 34 points allowed daily a very low caloric number? And the 35 allowed weekly, a caloric number that brings the 34 up to normal? *shrugs* I've got no clue...so, using the extra 35 wouldn't put you over the top and make you gain weight?


On a less than wonderful note, I lost a bestfriend due to this election He no longer wants to be friends with me since I don't support Obama (my friends black, and supports Obama and thinks I'm racist for something I said that I TOTALLY didn't mean in a racist manner and I even tried explaining. I've knwn my friend for almost 7yrs now, I never once cared about his color. I wouldn't start now.)

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 272.6

Okay. So being new to Weight Watchers, it's not going too well so far. Maybe next week it'll be better I'm having a hard time tearing myself away from sweets, so that's REALLY putting a dent in my plans. I'll get it worked out!

Points allowed: 34
Points consumed: 45
Points over: 11
Weekly left: 3.5

 

[Phoenyx]

My Momma and I went to lunch at Reb Lobster. I've dying for a grilled chicken caeser salad. I was looking up their menu online and they had an apple chicken walnut pepper thing...and I didn't want that. N Momma wanted seafood, obviously. lol. I hate seafood.

So.....I asked the woman for a plain grilled chicken caeser salad with ranch dressing. (grated cheese, croutons, grilled chicken, tons of lettuce)

However, I didn't think the salad was gonna be that big so I got an order of fries that I ate first. It was only about 30fries, of the shoestring kind, but I shouldn't of eaten them, next time I'll knw.

I ordered a glass of raspberry lemonade...gahhh, I need to remind myself that Minutemaid ANYTHING is too strong on sugar. I woulda got water, but uhm, you ever taste restaurant water? Ew...And I had wanted a refill of something, less, sugary but she whisked my glass away before I got to ask Oh well.

I also ate 2 cheddar bay biscuits.


Allowed points: 34
Total points used: 35
Points over: 1
Weekly left: 14.5

I'm STUFFED, but I knw I'll get hungry later tonite so I'll eat an apple, which is .5 of a point, so I'll just be 1 point over.

MUCH better than yesterday. But next time I go to Reb Lobster, I'll skip the fries, get something different to drink, and maybe have one biscuit.

It's a big point meal regardless. I'd prolly pick a different dressing, maybe. I rarely eat Ranch Dressing anymore anyways, I'm a vinegrette fan now a days. Actually, I'd be okay with plain vinegar.


I've been wondering tho. Are the 34 points allowed daily a very low caloric number? And the 35 allowed weekly, a caloric number that brings the 34 up to normal? *shrugs* I've got no clue...so, using the extra 35 wouldn't put you over the top and make you gain weight?


On a less than wonderful note, I lost a bestfriend due to this election He no longer wants to be friends with me since I don't support Obama (my friends black, and supports Obama and thinks I'm racist for something I said that I TOTALLY didn't mean in a racist manner and I even tried explaining. I've knwn my friend for almost 7yrs now, I never once cared about his color. I wouldn't start now.)

Wow, sorry you lost a friend over the election. That's a bummer. I know that political differences can really put a strain on relationships. My dad is a Republican, and while I tend to vote Democrat, I am registered as 'decline to state'. I have a solid mistrust of both sides. So my dad and I get into a lot of political discussions. He isn't so much a Republican as he hates the Democratic party for the way they screwed up Viet Nam (his words). We've gotten to a point where we can listen to each others' sides, and come out of it without ill feeling.

Ok, policial stuff aside...


Fat and high calorie pitfalls...
salad dressing
cheese
oil (french fries!!!)
cheddar bay biscuits (soooo yummmy, sooooo fattening)

Asking for salad dressing on the side is a good way to cut back on calories (use as little as it takes to give it some flavor without drowning it). The cheese and the croutons are other little bombs of calories (croutons are often sauteed in oil or butter) and empty carbs.

And yes, ONE cheddar bay biscuit. Or even half of one so you can enjoy a few bites and not feel deprived. I know how good those are... but which do you want more? That biscuit, or to lose the weight?

A good thing to order to drink if they have it is unsweetened iced tea. Even if you add regular sugar it won't be nearly as much as the presweetened crap. Less high fructose corn syrup exposure too.

There's a book out there called "Eat This, Not That", and it has a lot of great info on healthier alternatives in eating out, grocery shopping, snacks, etc. I highly recommend it for a reference. The book "Calorie King Calorie, Fat and Carbohydrate Counter" is also an excellent portable reference. I think if you can get a little better understanding of where the calories are hidden in 'healthy' foods, that will take you a lot farther than WW. But you may find that WW works for you, and I say more power to ya!

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Wow, sorry you lost a friend over the election. That's a bummer. I know that political differences can really put a strain on relationships. My dad is a Republican, and while I tend to vote Democrat, I am registered as 'decline to state'. I have a solid mistrust of both sides. So my dad and I get into a lot of political discussions. He isn't so much a Republican as he hates the Democratic party for the way they screwed up Viet Nam (his words). We've gotten to a point where we can listen to each others' sides, and come out of it without ill feeling.

Ok, policial stuff aside...


Fat and high calorie pitfalls...
salad dressing
cheese
oil (french fries!!!)
cheddar bay biscuits (soooo yummmy, sooooo fattening)

Asking for salad dressing on the side is a good way to cut back on calories (use as little as it takes to give it some flavor without drowning it). The cheese and the croutons are other little bombs of calories (croutons are often sauteed in oil or butter) and empty carbs.

And yes, ONE cheddar bay biscuit. Or even half of one so you can enjoy a few bites and not feel deprived. I know how good those are... but which do you want more? That biscuit, or to lose the weight?

A good thing to order to drink if they have it is unsweetened iced tea. Even if you add regular sugar it won't be nearly as much as the presweetened crap. Less high fructose corn syrup exposure too.

There's a book out there called "Eat This, Not That", and it has a lot of great info on healthier alternatives in eating out, grocery shopping, snacks, etc. I highly recommend it for a reference. The book "Calorie King Calorie, Fat and Carbohydrate Counter" is also an excellent portable reference. I think if you can get a little better understanding of where the calories are hidden in 'healthy' foods, that will take you a lot farther than WW. But you may find that WW works for you, and I say more power to ya!

Normally, at home I use straight vinegar or vinegar and olive oil as a dressing. I'm a vinegar junkie so the oils usually less. I used to eat Ranch dressing like it was going out of style but got out of that habit, I think thats the first time I've had ranch in months!

I've been counting calories since I was little and I never knew how to get the right fat/calorie ratio and all that. And I felt like I needed more of a structured way of counting calories, so I joined WW's. To me, it simplifys things, without going overboard.

Sad thing is, my eating is better now then what it used to be two years ago. I used to be HORRIBLE! And now that my friend moved outta state, I no longer spend every nite at fast food restaurants eating junk food to pass time in a small town.

I'll def. look into the book. I like eating healthier foods as it is, but sometimes I get into funks where I completely disregard everything. But I'll get there!

I didn't knw that about the sugar, but I guess you're right, I dont knw how much they put in presweetened stuff, but when I have control over it, I knw exactly how much is going in.

I think I might start buying bottled water before I walk into a restaurant and then drink that since most water in restaurants is horrible and everything else is absolutely sugary.

I walked into Red Lobster knwing I was going to kill those cheddar bay biscuits, lol. Bad, I knw, but I hadn't eaten there in forever and knew I wouldn't be back to eat there in forever. (Is that a lame excuse or what?! but it is true, I can find salads cheaper n such other places but I took my Momma there cause she loves it there so, we'll go back to eating our subway when we're out)

 

[FatPanda]

PaperAirPlanes,

Thanks for the reply, no one loves a sadpanda . Sounds like your on the right path, I know exactly what you mean about friends that goto fast food restaurants every night. lucky hyper metabolism bastards lol.

Adam

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 272.2lbs

I've held fast to 272 for four days now, yaaay!! Usually I'm all over the place.

Funny thing about weighing yourself. I weighed myself nakkie, I was 271. I put on undies and PJ pants, 271.6. I put on a bra and a tank top, 272.2lbs. lol. I took the last weight because I normally weigh myself wearing that. And it'd be unfair to put the 271 since I don't weigh myself nakkie anyways.

My Llama (short for: Momma Llama) has to pick up Pizza Hut pizza for the neighbors scrapbooking get together and I was gonna get some Pizza Hut pizza, but after pouring over the calories in it all last nite, I decided to get subway instead. SO, Momma and I are gonna go to Subway for lunch and I'll eat something else for dinner.

Oh, I got my subway club down to 18pts. That's, hearty italian bread, the three meats, light mayo, lettuce, pickles, banana peppers.

18pts is still high, but dammit, I love my subway and that still leaves me 16pts for dinner and such.

In gross news, I'm still having girlie issues and I have a rash under my wound (aka, the wounds at the VERY end of my tailbone [BUTT] and the rash is below that, so it's safe to say...I have a big ole red mean rash on my butt ) It HURTS!!! But I rather have the rash, then think the issue is starting again. Two surgeries one year after the other was enough for me. Soo, I folded up some gauze, laid it over it and pulled up my undies like the big girl I am. (Now I only whine and complain when I sit down, ) It'll go away...I think it came from cleaning the area using a scented soap, and the leavin's from scented soap are okay on skin tha's in contact with air, but under the wound, it's kinda trapped between where the skin is, then the clothing. I shouldn't say wound, the wound has healed, but I dunno what else you call it...buttscar? lol.

Sorry, too much info =P

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Weight: 272.8

My eating has been SUPER sucky these last two days, so sucky in fact that I'm embarrassed to even post the POINTS values. I'm not gonna post but I have it tracked on WW's website, so it's still there staring me in the face.

I'm still amazed that my weight has sat at 272lbs for almost a week now!! This somehow must be working, I can't remember the last time I had a week of constant whole numbers. But if I keep eating like I had been, that . of a number will turn into a whole one and I don't want that!!

Next week, I hope to follow the plan a little more sticter and get down to 271 or 270.

It's a little disheartening to see the 270's again, but I gotta keep reminding myself "You're eating, not starving it off", and that I'll get back into the 260's again, it'll just require honest effort not just "eh..I'm not gonna eat really for two or three days".

Points allowed: 34
Points eaten so far: 40.5
Points left: 00

SO! I decided to look up how many calories 40.5points was. It's roughly, 1,500calories. (I entered todays food into fitday.com) Which means 34points, I'm guessing is somewhere in the 1,300 range?

That makes me feel kinda better, knwing that high points doesn't mean like 2,000calories.

I'm NOT going to keep tracking calories using fitday because I DO NOT want the notion that "34points is only so many calories" or else I'll start over eating. But I got curious so.

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Just For My Own Information

Bra Size: 44D/DD (it varies depending on the bra)
Shirt size: 2XL/1XL/XL (it varies depending on tshirt/tank top/where it came from)
Jeans size: 24W. (I HATE jeans, I need the waist 24W, but the butt and thighs are always TOO loose!!! errrg!! Whoever invented butt/thigh/waist ratio in jeans was an idiot)
Shoe size: 10/9 (10 in sneakers/9 in heels)

My Dad brought home a zip up hoodie the other day from work, it's an XL and fits me perfectly. I'm proud of that. Dunno why....just am.

I'm hoping to get down to a 36D..however I think it'll turn into a 36C. Call me vain, but I want my boobs to stay, cup wise, the band size can go ahead and change tho.

I want to get down to a good solid XL in shirt.

I'm not sure about jean size, 14/16 maybe?

I mention shoe size, because I used to wear a size 11. Apperently my feet shrunk...cause 11's are waaaay too big and all my pervious size 11's are too big. *shrugs* Didn't knw that could happen.

 

[FatPanda]

Bra Size: 44D/DD (it varies depending on the bra)
Shirt size: 2XL/1XL/XL (it varies depending on tshirt/tank top/where it came from)
Jeans size: 24W. (I HATE jeans, I need the waist 24W, but the butt and thighs are always TOO loose!!! errrg!! Whoever invented butt/thigh/waist ratio in jeans was an idiot)
Shoe size: 10/9 (10 in sneakers/9 in heels)

My Dad brought home a zip up hoodie the other day from work, it's an XL and fits me perfectly. I'm proud of that. Dunno why....just am.

I'm hoping to get down to a 36D..however I think it'll turn into a 36C. Call me vain, but I want my boobs to stay, cup wise, the band size can go ahead and change tho.

I want to get down to a good solid XL in shirt.

I'm not sure about jean size, 14/16 maybe?

I mention shoe size, because I used to wear a size 11. Apperently my feet shrunk...cause 11's are waaaay too big and all my pervious size 11's are too big. *shrugs* Didn't knw that could happen.

herrrroooo,

Just thought I would pop in and see how you doing? I see you are wondering a lot about clothing sizes. One of my biggest goals is to actually be able to wear a regular pair of pants without having to worry about them being too small or too big. I have no ass, I swear to god, it's like the coneheads. So if I get a pair big enough to fit my wheel barrow of a stomach then the back falls off and I look like I'm trying to sag past my knees.

It's really good to have clothing goals, and your going to nail yours too.

Adam

p.s. none of those bra sizes are a bad thing