Trevor's Journey

Trevor10

Trevor10

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I have been around these forums for a few months and just now decided to start up a journal, mainly to help me keep writing down everything i eat.

A little Background Information:
19(20 in march) year old college student in the great state of Texas!
I am 5'10'' and weigh around 147 pounds.
I have lost almost a total of 100 pounds to date but now in the last stretch is struggling with keeping and even continuing to burn the last amount of fat on me.

I guess i feel as if the diary will help take care of some of the stress i accumulate over this semester with grades, work, and money issues :(

The past few weeks have been difficult and i have succumbed to food late at night which i want no part in, so i made today the first initial step toward what i hope to keep up for the rest of my life.
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Tuesday January 15th, 2008
exercise: 20 minutes on the treadmill (2 miles)
food:
1 cup Fiber one-160
2 cups of non fat milk-160
Kashi Bar-140
Lean Cuisine-290
Banana-150
Double Fiber Wheat Bread (2)-100
Whey Protein (2 scoops)-240
Chicken-200
Broccoli-60

total calories:1500 calories
caloric goal/day: 1800 calories

energy: mild, felt good when i ran
 
What i forgot to mention was that i feel as if i worry way too much about gaining to the point where my roommates joke as if im anorexic which isnt the case. I have been overweight my entire childhood, victim to others and left out of social events. Since my weight loss i have always worried of even putting a pound on and im not exactly sure how much i should be eating because i worry about the amount of weight i will gain from it. Its a psychological problem i am trying to overcome, so hopefully with this journal it will help a bit. I still dont like the way i look and my body fat is extremely high for my weight.
 
Just got back from the gym with my roommates. We did some bench, curls, push ups, and triceps. A moderate workout, nothing too much. I had a protein shake earlier so i don't plan on having one now. Instead i finished the night off with a Fiber One bar. No more food until breakfast tom, and its going to be hard, but i know i can do it. I have before anyways.
 
Overall it was an OK day. School is already stressing me out but im going to continue to work towards my goals.
 
Blancita said:
Hi sweetie, nice to see you started a journal. Are you just working on maintaining at this point?
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I want to say yes, but at the same time my mind is telling me no. i weigh around 150 and my friends and family believe i have lost enough, but im still not happy with the way i look. I want more muscle but im afraid to commit to eating more because im so afraid of gaining back all my hard work. Not to mention i still have a good amount of fat on me.
 
I have a male best friend who struggles with the same exact problem you feel you have with your body. He weighs the same 150 you do! Im 145 pounds and he only weighs 5 pounds more than I do. I tell him everyday he looks great and shouldn't worry about losing more weight but like you he is very afraid of gaining it back by attampting to build Muscle.

He weighed almost 300 pounds 3 years ago , he did atkins hard core for a long time to get the weight off, I am so very proud of him, it makes my 20 or so pound journey seem not so tough!

In my opinion 150 is GREAT if not a little more. At this point you should just focus on maintaining and be PROUD of the weight you have lost! I think by working out everyday and eating good foods the muscle will build naturaly anyway!

;)Don't be so hard on yourself! It sounds like you look great!
 
OneLazyMamma said:
I have a male best friend who struggles with the same exact problem you feel you have with your body. He weighs the same 150 you do! Im 145 pounds and he only weighs 5 pounds more than I do. I tell him everyday he looks great and shouldn't worry about losing more weight but like you he is very afraid of gaining it back by attampting to build Muscle.

He weighed almost 300 pounds 3 years ago , he did atkins hard core for a long time to get the weight off, I am so very proud of him, it makes my 20 or so pound journey seem not so tough!

In my opinion 150 is GREAT if not a little more. At this point you should just focus on maintaining and be PROUD of the weight you have lost! I think by working out everyday and eating good foods the muscle will build naturaly anyway!

;)Don't be so hard on yourself! It sounds like you look great!
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thank you. This is exactly what i have wanted to do but my mind keeps telling me no. I'm going to work on that though, and hopefully through maintaining i can work on some of the flub that i still have left...
 
Woke up today feeling good, just not ready for 5 hours of class. A little sore from my workout yesterday, but nothing a few good stretches wont take care of. Im shooting for 1800 calories today and so far i have had

Fiber One
1/2 cup of nonfat milk

which equals out to about 200 calories and 13 grams of fiber, which is a good start to the day of course!

The only thing that really sucks about this semester are the times of my classes. I have a class from 12-245 and then one at 415, which leaves me not enough time to drive through traffic to eat lunch and come back. I would buy something, but everything is either fast food or overpriced so im forced to bring non perishable foods with me to eat in my car. Dont have much money either right now so im watching how much i spend on groceries, and im running out!!!! I hate asking the parents for help, especially when i know they have already helped me quite a bit. Well i got to go get ready for class.....

be back later

Trevor
 
don't worry so much about the number on the scale - that's just a number - go by what you're seeing in the mirror and work according to that...
 
maleficent said:
don't worry so much about the number on the scale - that's just a number - go by what you're seeing in the mirror and work according to that...
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Im seriously thinking about getting rid of my scale, just because i know its there and i am so used to it from my weight loss.
 
if you're afraid of the scale changing, and it sounds like you are -- you're never going to build the muscle that you want... and probably need as well... Put it in hiding for a few weeks... you have your new habits built - you know what you should be doing and whne you're going off track...

go with measurements instead..
 
Talk about control! WOW.....I B jealous of you :coolgleamA:
seeing what you have gone through, I see how you can get caught up in all the :icon_bs: of every day life of Collage. :willy_nilly: Try to Relax...Breath...You need a break. I'm proud of you, and you are an inspiration. Try not to stress, It's not worth it. But your happiness is-enjoy life. - Yes, I'm from CA. :sifone: LOL
 
Kdel said:
Talk about control! WOW.....I B jealous of you :coolgleamA:
seeing what you have gone through, I see how you can get caught up in all the :icon_bs: of every day life of Collage. :willy_nilly: Try to Relax...Breath...You need a break. I'm proud of you, and you are an inspiration. Try not to stress, It's not worth it. But your happiness is-enjoy life. - Yes, I'm from CA. :sifone: LOL
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thanks!

I try to take a break every once in a while, but i get stressed out if i start to fall behind in something, especially school, where i want my grades to be near perfect.
 
You’re doing great! Try doing one thing everyday, (you can keep it to yourself) like watch the sun set every night, smell the roses...that kind of thing. It could help with stress (I'm trying not to sound lame:coolgleamA:).Or you could go kick the cow! (Texas joke):smilielol5:
 
Im in the middle of classes right now....one more at 415 so i ran home to eat something.

Double Fiber Bread with Chicken 200
And i cup of black beans (My Favorite)100

cals :300 calories
total cals thus far:640 calories, low but i will get it up there by tonight.

Overall today has been pleasant and i feel so much more revived after getting some food into my system.
 
For dinner i had a cup of whole grain rice, chicken, bell peppers, onions and mushrooms. It was around 400-600 calories, but i was too full to finish. That puts me at around 1300-1400 for the day. Here in about an hour i plan on running and then finishing the night with a protein shake (400 calories).

Today was good, school wise and energy wise, but still stress is occurring from my money issue which seems like it wont get any better.
 
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