Time's a Wastin, and I'm Still Fat.

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I think it is a struggle for most of us Mystic. I am currently struggling too with motivation & like LaMa, I too, am about 5-6kg less than I was 6 months ago, because even though I at times get heartily sick & tired of having to be so careful most of the time, I keep going. I don't ever want to be that fat woman again. I just won't let that happen. Never give up Mystic!
 
Are there other things you like besides running? Maybe you need to mix things up a bit. If not a class at a gym there are plenty of YouTube videos you could try. Thank your mom for being your motivator when you need one, that's great that you've got her to keep you going a bit.
 
Do you have a gym membership again Mystic?? Maybe try getting back into weightlifting, I've always found that it grounds me more than any other form of exercise and my opinion of my body has changed so much... it's great seeing what I can do and how far I've come when the scale is working against me. Gives me something else to focus on.

All you can do is continue to try, even if you have zero motivation those sporadic days when you do get up and exercise add up and will become more frequent!
 
Hello. It's been a very long time since I have been on here. I would love to say I had good news, that I had made it to my goal, was super fit, and feeling confident. That unfortunately is the furthest thing from the truth.
I now weigh almost 200 pounds, which is the heaviest I have ever been in my life. That was scary to write even though I've weighed this much for a while now. I am super unfit, aside from walking my dogs I get no exercise at all. Doing a 2 min jog at agility class gets me totally winded. I can't fit into any clothes so spend most of my time in sweat pants and sweaters.
I am showing my standard poodle now and it makes a much less pretty picture when I'm jiggling around the ring with him looking horrible (crammed into spanx). My mom is taking the family on a cruise next January, and I live in a lake community so would also like some confidence to go swimming and just wear tank top and shorts.
I no longer go to Meetups because I was pretty known at the time as being the 'fit girl' and could not face seeing the same faces now that I'm the 'obese girl'.
So I'm here trying to get started again. I managed some slight self control today in my eating, and even though I felt tired I made myself take the dogs for a walk. Tomorrow I think I'll try to do a Jillian Michael's DVD and again try to limit eating. I'm not sure if I'll immediately start on myfitnesspal again or if I'll just try to cut back on snacking and bad food first to get things going, then once I'm in the groove more I can be a bit more restrictive. Since I have so much to lose now I have more leeway to not be exact with my cals, which I will need to be as I get closer to my goal and have less to lose.
Tomorrow morning I will try to weigh myself to get an exact weight, and I will also take pictures. I will absolutely HATE the pictures, but I remember last time I lost weight I didn't take pictures of my before and I did regret it later cause I couldn't see my whole journey and how far I had truly came.
It may take me a while to get into it enough to start responding to other people's diaries, but hopefully once I'm really committed I can start checking on other people's progress. I already was happy to see some familiar faces still around (or having come back). I saw that MrVee hasn't come on in a couple months and hope that he is going well still!
 
Hey Mystic and welcome back here :grouphug: Sorry to hear you´ve been struggling hon, but you´re on your way again now!
 
Thank you.
Unfortunately haven't had a strong start. Did not do any exercise today. I was quite tired. In fact I fell asleep while on the computer, but I didn't even walk my dogs not to mention do the dvd. I also did not eat as well as I had hoped. Days where I don't do anything have definitely always been the hardest because I eat out of boredom. Will try again tomorrow. I need to go grocery shopping and make some meals to take with me for lunches next week. Partly to try to eat better, and partly cause I really want to start budgeting my money better.
I weighed this morning and was a whopping 198.2 pounds. If I get myself on track by the end of february I owuld probably be down at least 10 pounds (sodium/water weight plus a bit of actual fat loss)
 
Well, you caught yourself before you hit the 200. That´s worth getting on track for. You can do it, you know how it goes, but the beginning is never very easy.
 
Welcome back, lovely lady. Sorry to hear things haven't gone well with the weight.. I'm back as well so hopefully second time will be a charm for us!
 
Welcome back Mystic. Have you settled in well in the gated community? I'm sorry you have been struggling, but glad you have decided to get back on track. You can do this Mystic. You know what to do. I know it's hard, but it's worth it. I just reread your opening post. Sometimes it helps to remember why we are wanting to be slim & healthy. Glad to have you back xo Cate
 
Thanks guys. It's great to see familiar faces.
I did a little better food wise today. Not the best for sure. Definitely ate too much but a but less snacking and at times I was able to convince myself I didn't need to eat something. I went grocery shopping and managed not to buy any junk food which was a good thing. No wait. I did buy one Oreo creme egg but I forgot to eat it haha.
I didn't do the DVD again today but I did take my dogs for a walk. It was so nice out here.
I think I will try to weigh every morning and chart it and see if I can get things rolling.
 
Hey welcome back MR! Sorry to hear about your struggles. The good news is that if the pounds got on quickly, they'll leave quickly.
 
Welcome back Mystic!!!

Sorry to hear about the struggles, but one of the best parts about struggling for a while is that when you get back on track, for a week or two you lose weight more quickly than any other time. Sure it's a lot of lost fluid, but seeing the scale move can be motivating.

I gained some myself (190 this AM), but I've managed not to completely lose the plot just yet. Fingers crossed!
 
Thank you everyone! I hope soon to make it to everyone's diaries and see how you are all doing.
Had a long stressful day today. I did good not to go next door and get a Pepsi. On my way home I did eat my Oreo creme egg. I ate ok. Had a big pasta dinner (which def could have been smaller) but I was ok with that but I had bought cashews for a different dish I had planned to make soon and I ended up eating too many of those. But a hair better eating so gonna keep workin on it.
I didn't do any exercise. I was quite tired after work. I ended up falling asleep on my couch at probably around 9 and slept til 10:15. I crawled upstairs to bed but didn't have the energy to shower.
I actually have been thinking about going for a physical. Partly cause I have only had a physical once in my adult life and secondly just to make sure I don't have an issue with my thyroid or maybe mild depression. I'm sure that being tired and such is just a by product of eating too much/poorly and not exercising but just to be sure. I wouldn't have called myself depressed before but I read a thread somewhere about a person who was felling similar to me and someone suggested depression and some of the symptoms fit though not all.
I'm still absolutely exhausted so I'm going to go back to sleep now.
 
Having a physical can't hurt Mystic. Don't worry about everyone else's diaries. It's nice to have you back. Take care of yourself sweets xo
 
Thank you.
Today was decent. Ate fairly well. For supper I made enchiladas. I should have just had one (I made a bunch to freeze to have for lunches), but I had 2. They weren't even that good and I was fairly full after one. But otherwise it was a good day food wise.
I didn't do the DVD but I did do a walk with Asher (my standard poodle), not a long walk, maybe 20 mins, but a walk. I then had agility class in the evening. It isn't much exercise but it's not sitting around.
The scale said 197.4 this morning so starting to head in the right direction.
 
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