The Spoon, Puck and Me

Thanks for the cheers :) I've had some fairly strict vibes from the FSD, and it's kinda make me think... maybe I don't try as hard as I should, then I feel a bit crappy. But after today, I feel marvellous!

Speaking of before pictures, I found a picture of me in my X-files costume during March filming. It's not of best quality; the film itself was reduced by 10 fold, then whipping out the image, cutting out the rest of the cast (all 2 of them) and expanding it again, it's a bit fuzzy. And could I point out, not one of my better pictures...



On the kcals front, today's been two lots of cereal (322), 1/2 tub of soup (215) apple (50) and goat's milk yoghurt (112) Oh, and a sugar free sweet :eek: at 8 kcals. That's 707 kcals :eek: Not cool. Perhaps chips would do me good tomorrow. I feel fine, though. Not hungry, not craving... Not safe though.

Although I'm not writing myself off entirely, I just don't hold out much hope... that way, if I'm up, I knew it, if I'm down, nice surprise :)

Thanks for dropping by! Best be off to bed now, up early (though you and Top Cat are both up earlier than me; I have no right to complain :p) and the guinea-pigs need feeding and medicine.

Have a wonderful evernooning everyone!

Bronsk
 
Bronsk, you are doing really great!! And you should do whatever works for you. I think that we should still be able to live our lives, and enjoy things that we like. Once again I am making a dessert for my family this weekend, and I will be having BBQ and dessert on saturday. All you have to do is acknowledge the fact that the weight may not come off as quickly if you do this, but if you are good the rest of the time, it will come off. You have already proved this, and you will do it again this week, I am sure. But like you say, be a bit guarded, then on Friday you won't be disappointed. Anyway, you have really worked on your plans for this week, and things are not going to be as bad as you initially thought, I'm sure! ;)

And the low cals today just make up for yesterday. It sounds to me like your body is getting used to less food and less calories, and has actually told you today, I had enough yesterday thanks, I don't need so much today.

And I cannot wait until we get to see a progress picture to compare to your before photo, I'm sure it won't be long, you have made so much progress already!!:)

Keep smiling, and keep making me :D . Lots of (((hugs))), just remember you can do this, and you ARE doing this ;)

Mrs Bear!! :)
 
Awwww, what a cutie pie you are!!! I'm with Mrs Bear..can't wait to see your photo progress. Because you are doing wonderfully.

And what a nice treat to buy smaller clothes!!! I bet you walked out of that store with your feet not touching the ground. So happy for you.
 
My Tamagotchi turned into a penguin! Exciting!

But the real excitment is to follow, as I've already mentioned in the FSD and BA. Today was meant to be a rough day, filled with my favourite foods, like chips, donuts and the like. But I didn't touch any of them. I was very lucky, and my friend opted out of chips, so after a wander, stopped at a small stall which, again as luck would have it, sold cup-a-soups with bread rolls.

No points for guessing what grease-free food I had for lunch :D

I feel fantastic about it, and I feel quite confident about tomorrow. Again, not keeping hopes too high, but I don't feel so "urgh, I'm going to go up 500kg and be fat and awful for the rest of my life urgh" Which is a start :D

I'm just going to reilliterate the fact that the photo from the filming is *not* one of my better pictures. Here's a marginally better one, when I got my hair redyed sometime last yearish One of the nicer ones on photobucket. At some point, like a when they fit me better kind of point, I'll post up a picture of me in those same trousers and we can play spot the difference :D

I've found some low kcal ready meals in Somerfield today, which look really nice! And some weightwatchers stuff as well, it looks fab! I can't wait to try them and have them instead of cornflakes. It's exciting how empty the box is! I'm really looking forward to having, for example, lime marinated kebabs/kebobs, spinach and chicken salad and as above, the low kcal ready meals.

Only problem: there's an extra 40/50 + kcals at teatime. Just need to make sure I exercise more :D No probs since next week, I'm back in the pool! YAY!! Then Cyprus next week, a whole *week* of pool! YAAAAAAY!!

Depending on how I feel, I might make the salad tomorrow :eek: Bron eating salad!? What evil is this!? It just makes a change from having cereal for two meals on the trot. I fancy a change, just try out the new routine. Probably depends if and how much weight I've lost :eek:

Total kcals today is 771. Though because I still feel a bit hungry, I might have a fruit juice, depending. I'd rather not though, so may go animate instead.

Have a wonderful evernooning!

Bronsk
 
Hey Scarlett, you caught me as I was posting! :D

Bless you, thank you for the compliments :) *glows* Before I posted the above, I looked back at that photo and thought "why the hell have I let the whole internet see that!?" :p

It was amazing to walk out with a size 16 skirt in my bag! A bit scary, because skirts and I don't mix, but wonderful to know that the size 18s *are not for me*!

Next step up, size 16 jeans :D

Bronsk
 
Nice picture Bronsk, and I'm not surprised that you are :p ing. I think I would be shocked if you were ever actually serious :D Don't ever change ;)

Bron, eating salad ..... okay, how have you logged on and WHERE IS DUCKIE!!!!!

And you should definitely have another meal today, 771 is a bit low, especially as this will be 2 low days in a row. Remember, you don't want to go into starvation mode.

Good luck for tomorrow ... as if you need it with the will power you have been wielding this week! .... and I will see you in the a.m.

Toodles missus :cool:
 
Moi? Serious? Why would I want to be that :D

And as for who I really am, my name is Erik, the killer phantom teddy bear. I weild knives and chase people. And I've kidnapped the one known as Bronski so I can take over the world through a weightloss forum, merely by forcing people to eat my brand of low fat yet *MiNd CoNtRoLlInG* food stuffs! A better plan altogether, would be to poison your water, MWAHAHAHAHA!!

*ahem*

Down Erik!

On a serious note (noooooooooooo!) the salad is just spinach, chicken and raspberries. Though my version will probably be without raspberries, and with a low fat honey mustard dressing. Tasty good!

I think you're right Mrs B, something else would be a pretty good plan. I'll have another apple with some cheese, that'll boot me up to just over 900 kcals. I don't want to have too much this late before weigh-day.

I'll log off and go get that.

Thanks everyone, and have a wonderful evening!

Bronsk
 
Sorry for the double post, and I'm sorry this one is probably going to be huge, but I have some great things to tell, and some other not so great things...

I was up until 3 AM talking to my dad about stuff last night, and the key thing, the very big important thing that came up was telling him I was ready to move out. I have never been able to talk to my parents about how I feel about a lot of things, and lest of all my dad. And to be able to stay up and talk to him, and tell him things I'd sworn I wouldn't was so relieving. So hopefully, sometime this year, I'll be typing from my own flat, Puck by my side :)

The other marvellous thing was that my uni results came through. For the whole year I got 3 1sts (5% of students will get a 1st) and 2 2:1s (a step below first, still high) I'd like to have done better, and I would have liked to have done a lot better in one of my modules, but I guess with the circumstances at the time I did the best I could.

And finally, my weight has dropped by a massive 2.1kg (4.6 lbs) which, considering the week I was going to have, is a bloody miracle!

Now, this might sound a bit weird, but it's something I need to get off my chest a bit. Last night, when I mentioned kcal amount, I did feel at the time a bit off; light headed, not entirely with it... I am thankful that I ate something else (an apple, cheese and two fat free crackers, which put my overall total to 1018) because after I felt about 50 times better.

My kcal intake for the week has been pretty low. And I'm not happy about that. Thing is, sometimes I just don't feel the urge to eat anymore, or I don't fancy anything else, or it's too late to eat anything else. I spoke to Top Cat about it, and he listened and advised. I'm going to take into account his advice and put it into my eating plan.

2 or 3 times a week I'm going to up my intake a bit more. Not by masses, but just have something extra with meals or allow for a substantial snack. I'm going to do this on fridays, mondays and wednsdays, or change round depending on exercise. Friday doesn't collide with the weigh in, and I think wednsday can be far enough away to not upset it either. I'm definitely going to aim for 1000 kcals a day, and still have the max of 1200 there as well. As well, I may actually consider talking to my doctor, and seeing what he'd recommend. I'll do that once I get back from Cyprus and Belgium.

OK, rant over. Time for a refreshing shower, me thinks. Have a wonderful friday to all that pass through, TGIF!

Bronsk
 
Wow--what a day you had. You're intelligent, independent, and getting to be a mean lean animating machine. Keep it up--you are doing so well!
 
Thanks Cannon, it has been a pretty amazing week, what with bombing about the place, then all this good news today (technically the moving out part was today, just at 2 am. I have fantastic timing...) I worked out the mean average for my results, and that was at a high 2:1, which is still good, but an overall 1st would have been nice. If anyone's interested, this site tells you about the grade boundries just if my own explanations are a bit brief and not too sensical :)

No one is going to believe this, but I, Bronski, have just eaten a SALAD!! A wild rocket, spinach and water cress salad! And I quite enjoyed it (dun dun duuuuuuun!) I was going to have a yoghurt with it, but having a fat free cracker instead; it's been a very late lunch, and I'll be having tea around 6/7 ish.

I'm going to have a bread roll with my burgers tonight, that'll be my bit extra. Without them, I'd be at just over 800. They're fresh rolls, so I'm not sure how many kcals they have (doesn't say) Guess at about 200 each (other brands were at 164 kcals) which boots up to 1020 if I have one between the two burgers. Will research first.

Thanks for dropping by!

Bronsk
 
Hey lady, sorry its so late that I have got to the forum and to hear your exciting news. I am so glad that you have been able to have a long talk with your dad .... communication is really important.

How exciting, your own flat!!! And there will be no-one trying to boot you off the computer either!! (yeah for me, more time to chat with you ;) ) And great exam results as well, I do hope you are getting enough partying in, lady :D

I am glad that you ate more last night, 800 cals is really low. You have to look after yourself missus. It is great that you lost over 4lbs in one week (once again CONGRATS!!!!:D ) but it wouldn't be good for you to do that every week. I do get what you mean though about not feeling hungry. To be honest, I don't really feel hungry much at the moment. I think now that we are listening to our hunger rather than eating for the sake of eating, our appetites are actually being suppressed by the heat. We just never noticed it happening before ;)

Congrats again for everything and have a great evening, see you in the am.

PS, can you remind me when you set off on your hols, I have a memory like swiss cheese ..... mouldy and full of holes ;)
 
Hey, Bron. Great job with the studies. Congratulations. Thanks for sharing the photos. Who is the Giant Dude in the first one that you cut out of the picture. Are you tiny or is he huge? It must be really nice to have a heart to heart with your Dad like that.

I think you have a good plan about getting the extra cals in on the days you are low. I have read some people say don't eat if your not hungry, but I don't trust myself not to swing into some other kind of eating disorder so I like your plan.

Have a great weekend and Congrats on the weight loss too!
 
Hey everyone, thanks for all the congratulations :) And thanks for understanding the whole eating-a-little-extra plan; I was frightened that you'd all think I was being daft :eek: But thank you, all of you, for the support with that.

OK, I feel a little bad because I haven't got round all the diaries yet, but I'm out in about 10 minutes to our village day. Joy. That was a sacastic "joy" by the way :p I have to parade around the village with my little Brownies. Ah well, it may even be fun... :D

Mrs B, I've always agreed that communication is important, but I've just never taken heed myself. Again this morning we were both laid on the bed just moaning about how none of our friends have noticed we've lost weight, and not wanting to do any of the things we have to do today :D Not exactly deep...

I've been looking for flats online, and there *were* some about a month ago, but there's very little now. I'm going to have to find a little person to talk to. It shall be done though!

I go to Cyprus very early Sunday morning. I'm pretty nervous about it; it's the first time I've flown since I was a baby. I just keep imagining all the awful things that could happen (crash on a magic island and get eaten by a polar bear) although risk of DVTs might have dropped a tad with the weight loss.

Pinster, the huge guy is pretty huge, but I'm also pretty short. How many times have I said pretty today :confused: Pretty pretty pretty. Out of my system! Anywho, I'm about 5 ft, 5 ft 1, so not that big :eek: I don't mind, I like being little!

twinmom, you can't really see in the pictures, but my hair is a very dark blue. It shines blue in the light, but looks dark the rest of the time. Sorry if I disallusioned you :D I wish I could have it bright blue, but my hair's already dark so won't take. So once I hit 85 kg, I'm going for bright blue hair extensions! :D

Last night, I have just over half of a bread bun with my tuna burgers (my mate *loved* them, by the way!) so I reckon yesterday I was about 1200, which I'm pleased with, though I don't want to keep going up in kcals, incase it messes my body too much. I'm sticking to 1000 today, and proper food now, my cornflakes are pretty much gone!

Right, time to go and finish getting ready, and see if my jeans are dry.

Have absolutely splendid days, and thank you all for your kind words :)

Bronsk
 
Apartment vaccancies come and go in sporadic fashion. Keep looking and you'll find a flat you really like. Just don't jump at the very first one you see. Moving is such a pain--I don't like don't like doing it every year.
 
Hopefully there's just not a lot of variety online. Like I said, I'll probably find a little person in a shop to talk to. That way I can find a place to suit, in one of the nicer areas.

The village day wasn't that bad. We had to march with cheerleaders and a marching band. I bet the band hated the cheerleaders at the back chanting out this incecent little verse. They spelt out the name of our village, ended on "--- day, hey hey, coming your way." How inspiring.

Wasn't too bad though, and it did give me the chance to speak to an Arkalah (Cub Scout leader) about joining a cub pack. Plus I saw one of my little friends from high school. There were some cool stalls on as well, so I bought quite a bit of random junk :D I enjoy stuff!

Bronsk
 
Dont worry about DVT, if you read the inflight magazine, somewhere it in usually has the exercises that you should do... and honestly if you just get up and take a lap around the plane every 30 minutes to an hour you will be fine.. The exercises are really just extend your leg in front of you and rotate your ankle several times...

Drink lots and lots of water on the plane... the worst part of flying is the dehydration (and it makes you tired adding to the jetlag) and carry some moisturizer or a mister water bottle for your face...

Have a FABooolus time in Cyprus... i"mso jealous it's a place i've always wanted to go... take lots of pictures and enjoy some lovely mediterrean cuisine..
 
Hey Mal! Thanks for the tip, I'd read that if you're on a plane for more than 4 hours (I'll be on for 4 hours 40) then get up every so often for a walk. I'll probably look crazy getting up and walking up and down! I should take a stepper with me and aim to do 10,000 steps during the flight :D

Reading back what I've posted, I said I was flying Sunday morning. That's *next* Sunday! I'm still here for another week (thank goodness; I haven't got any clothes to take!)

My plan for Cyprus is to leave my jeans at home. I am not going to cover my legs, I'm going to show as much flesh as I can without cringing to build some kind of confidence. Hopefully I won't be leaving the pool :D

Next week, I swim! For definite.

Bronsk
 
Bronski said:
I'll probably look crazy getting up and walking up and down
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Honestly you wont... because most people with any sense will be doing the same thing... and the flight crews don't mind, the only time you may get thwarted is if you are in mid air turbulance... but the pilots are good about avoiding that... or during meal/beverage service... (try to get an aisle seat if you can... there's not much to see out the window anyhow ;) Even if you just get up in your seat and stand in the aisle and do some stretches... you'll thank yourself..

One of my last trips to Australia.. (which is a brutal 19 hour flight) I think I logged over 20000 steps on the plane... I and I got in a bunch of actual stairs as well because I was seated on the upper deck o fthe plane... It passes the time better than an inflight movie
 
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