The amazing shrinking woman (I hope!)

Just finished my usual Saturday 7 mile run. Felt great while I was going, but sitting down for the last half hour or so I'm really starting to feel stiff and sore! I'm pretty sure it's because I haven't been drinking enough water today.

We were in town most of the day for Santa Clause day. The local businesses and women's club put on this family fun day every year where they serve lunch and have games (like bingo) where kids can win wrapped 'mystery' presents. They have this rummage sale of sorts where people can bring in their old unwanted Christmas decorations to give as donations, and they get sold to raise money for things for the community like this family fun day. Man, I tell you I have never seen so many hideous, obnoxious, and UGLY decorations! I can't believe people actually bought some of that junk on purpose! And one of the biggest buyers was my mother in law - I just hope she doesn't think that crap is going in my house anywhere! I have boxes and boxes of junk that she has given us, that I have hidden away in the attic. I know she means well, but seriously? The woman has no taste.

So anyway, it's been a pretty fun day. When Santa showed up the twins went running up to him before he could even sit down on his reserved chair. It's the first year that they haven't been terrified of him. When he asked them what they wanted for Christmas they said candy, gum, and a little brother! Half the town heard and were roaring with laughter - giving hubby and me a bad time about getting busy to get them what they want for Christmas. Except that's not exactly possible for me any more, and if it WERE to happen, I'd want a refund of my money for the cost of getting a tubal!
 
7 miles Tiggy??

Where the hell have I been?!?!?! Thats fantastic!
Well done you!

I gotta get my butt back in to the gym. I'm running out of excuses.

And I love hearing about your kids....It also makes me stop and think about mine...which makes me smile :)
Thanks
 
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7 miles Tiggy??

Where the hell have I been?!?!?! Thats fantastic!
Well done you!

I gotta get my butt back in to the gym. I'm running out of excuses.

And I love hearing about your kids....It also makes me stop and think about mine...which makes me smile :)
Thanks
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LOL - You've been busy! Lately I run 6 or 7 miles at an easy pace on Saturdays because that's the only day I have enough time. Mondays I run about 3 miles at an easy pace because I'm usually still pretty sore from Saturday's longer distance. Then on Wednesdays I run with my treadmill at it's top speed for about 3.5 to 4 miles. I'm not sure but I think the top speed is around 6 miles an hour - the computer on the thing hasn't been working completely. About all I can get it to do is track total distance ran. What can I expect for something I got for free though, right?

Today has been a day of weird food choices, sort of. The kids wanted pilsbury toaster strudels for breakfast. I made one for myself (I used to eat 4 of these things at 190 cals each for breakfast several days a week!) and only ate part of it and knew it was going to make me sick. So I made myself an omlette of green peppers, onions and liquid egg whites instead. YUM! Much more filling, and WAY fewer calories. And it wouldn't leave me feeling ill because of all the sugar first thing in the morning.

We went to church this morning and the families of the kids in the Christmas program were supposed to stay and have lunch provided by our paster's wife, then have program practice afterwards. Well, I stayed with my older 2 kids, and hubby took the twins home to get them lunch and put them down for naps. They served macaroni shells and cheese with sliced up hot dogs in it. BLECH! It was HORRIBLE! Like eating cheesy glue. I picked out the hot dogs and my 7 year old ate them (she loves those nasty things) because I just could NOT stomach eating them. I can only tolerate them if they are grilled. I can't stand them boiled. Anyway, my mother saw how little I was eating and how I was picking at my food. She took me aside and said she was getting concerned about my eating habits and how much weight I was losing. She thought I was looking too thin, especially my face. I told her to relax - I'm at a healthy weight for my height, I've been maintaining for about a month now, and my percent of body fat is actually on the high end of normal. She asked why then wasn't I eating? I laughed and said are you kidding me???? That stuff is DISGUSTING!!!

Good ol' mom wouldn't be worried any more if she saw how many peanut butter chocolate chip cookies I scarfed down this afternoon after the older gilrs and I did some cookie baking when we got home! Yum, yum, yummy!!!

By supper time I was really craving veggies, so I made ramen noodle soup (which my kids love) and threw in a bunch of mixed frozen vegetables and a can of black beans. The kids whined that I ruined perfectly good soup by putting in all that gross healthy stuff. I thought it was delicious though! They told me to stop trying new recipes, but I didn't have a recipe for what I made. I just thought it sounded good and threw it all together. Darn kids just don't know what's good!

During the winter months it's hard to keep fresh fruits and veggies around because often times they spoil before they get eaten it seems like. We go in spurts where the kids and I eat tons of fresh stuff, then it seems like we lose interest in it. They like canned stuff, but I don't think it's as healthy for us, plus has a lot more sugar or sodium in it. So I've been trying to buy frozen fruits and veggies lately. They aren't going over so well with anyone except me though. It makes it a lot harder to eat healthy when no one else in the house is interested in eating that way.

I'm workin' on 'em though!
 
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Well CRAP!

Too much salt and too many peanut butter chocolate chip cookies this weekend. Scale said 139 this morning! :willy_nilly:

Gotta hit the water hard today and see if I can't flush some of that out of my system. I didn't drink hardly any water at all over the weekend. Weekends are always bad for me and water consumption though. Now wine consumption is a whole other story!!! :cheers2:

This week is going to drag by ever so slowly. I'm taking off work from the 23rd thru the 29th for Christmas and the time before vacation always drags. My goal for my vacation time is to NOT be a fun sucker when it comes to my kids during that week. When it comes to anyone else, or other activities I'm always up for just about anything. But when my kids ask if they can do stuff at home (art projects and such) or want to play games with me I always seem to be saying no, or maybe later because there is always laundry and house cleaning to do, or else I don't want them doing something because I just don't feel like dealing with the mess.

Well, I went to hear this motivational speaker last week over one of my lunch hours. The topic was how to relieve stress over the holidays, but the main thing that I got out of the whole thing was that I stress out over my messy house too much instead of making memories with my kids. I am a fun sucker. So I am determined to change my behavior. I keep thinking that when my kids are grown and look back on their childhood, are they really going to care that the house was spotless and they always had clean clothes neatly folded in their dresser drawers? Or do I want them do look back and say remember when we did this or that with mom? Wasn't that the greatest?!??! Or what about that other time.... So unless I spend more time actually creating those memories, my kids won't have anything except a crabby mother and clean house to look back on and tell their children about.

So as much as I'd like to just sit on the couch with my laptop in front of me and the kids planted in front of the TV, I'm going to resist. Instead we are going to go sledding! We are going to make homemade Christmas wrapping paper that the kids will paint with poster paints on butcher paper, no matter how messy they get, and no matter how messy my kitchen floor gets! We will bake sugar cookies and decorate them with at LEAST half a dozen different colors of frosting AND sprinkles (I will try to resist eating them though - maybe)! I will let the kids help wrap presents this year, even though it makes a paper mess and the gifts will look all lumpy and it will waste every inch of tape in the house to accomplish it. And.... Even if it kills me or drives me insane, I will sit and play any and all board games that my kids bring before me.

If you don't hear from me after the Christmas holidays you can probably assume they had to haul me off in a stright jacket and I am currently living in a padded room at the nearest insane asylum!
 
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I LOVE this post from you, and I think your plan for the week sounds FANTASTIC! From my experience, I’m guessing your kids will remember both the crazy fun times and some of the “mom’s too busy doing laundry” times, so it’s good to make sure you keep adding to the “fun” bucket whenever possible! You will have plenty of years left to do laundry and clean the house, but how many years will you have being able to play with the kiddos? My mom and I had a blast together when I lived at home, and we both miss those days like crazy now that I’m all grown up and moved away. The memories are priceless, and sure, we may have dealt with a rubber spatula that had a face drawn on it with permanent marker for years after some silly game we made up, and Mom had to deal with a broken toe due to kicking a wall while playing “shoebox soccer” with my brother, but it was completely worth it. We still play when we get together…. I was 24 when I saw my mom last, and she found a package of small, rubbery mice from Wal-Mart that she just knew we had to have. And we discovered they stuck to the wall if you threw them. Even more exciting than throwing them was putting them on the ceiling fan and turning it on full blast! If you start the fun-mom style now, it’ll last for years and years to come!
 
Got hubby and the kidlettes fed tonight, then went to go run. While I was locked in 'my room' the twins came and were banging on the door, yelling something about deer. When I finished running (3 miles - yay!) and opened the door they were waiting for me. They asked me if I could get them a picture of a john deere. Not sure if you city folks know, but a john deere is a big green tractor. I thought it was a weird request, but went and found one on the internet and printed it off for them. When I gave it to them they pitched a holy fit and said "NO!!!! NOT A TRACTOR!!! Mom! We want a picture of a john deere. You know - the kind that pull Santa's sleigh!"

I was going OOOOhhhhh..... THAT kind of john deere. You mean the same kind that the rest of the world calls reindeer? :smilielol5::smilielol5::smilielol5:

Gotta love the stuff that they come up with sometimes!
 
LOL it's really funny the things that kids come out with. My daughter was brought up speaking 4 languages which caused some really hilarious confusions when she tried to translate between one and the other. My son only spoke one language until he was 6 but even now both of them occasionally say something completely inapropriate.
When my daughter was very little she hadn't learnt to write in English but decided to write a letter in 'english' for Santa. Instead of writing 'thank you Santa' she wrote 'fuk you Santa.!!!! That is one letter that well never get thrown away.
 
It has been an incredibly shitty day!

On the way to work this morning an oncoming semi truck hit a deer, and it flew into my lane. I didn't have time to stop and couldn't swerve into the other lane because of the semi truck coming at me, so I had no choice but to run over the deer that was now laying right in front of me. It was too dark to see if any damage was done, so I kept going. I was able to get to work (had another 35 miles to go at that point) without any obvious trouble. I did errands over lunch, and shopping and errands after work. I had just come out from my last stop when my car refused to start. No matter what I tried, it just WOULD NOT START!!! I ended up calling a tow truck. While the front of my car was up in the air I could very clearly see all the deer parts stuck all over the bottom of my car - hair, guts, poo - YUCK!

I'm sitting at the service station right now and they tell me that they think the fuel pump is out on my car. They don't have time to fix it tonight, and all their rental cars are gone. Every rental place in town has a waiting list for cars well into next week. So I had to call hubby to tell him to come get me.

Did I mention that tonight is my 2 older daughter's school Christmas program? Yea. So hubby has to feed the girls, get them dressed up, fix their hair and send them to his parent's house so they can take them into school for the program while he drives over 70 miles to get me. So neither one of us will get to be there for their program. :mad:

I'm SO ready for this lousy, crappy, frickin' day to be over already! I wish this place had wine and cheesecake - but alas all they have is lukewarm coffee and free popcorn.
 
Sorry to hear about such a lousy day Tig - sounds like there was absolutely NOTHING you could do to change though. Sometimes life just does that to you heh? I hope your daughter wasn't too disappointed that you weren't there.

I completely agree with your post a few days back about being a fun sucker - so many times I end up saying no or later on because i have work / chores to do or just can't bear the thought of MORE mess (and the place is pretty messy to start with) but really...does it matter?!? No. More important to do painting and baking and fun stuff with my daughter so I think that will be my new year's resolution...to spend more time being a fun mum. Or rather, in the time that I do have, make the right choices.
 
Well, by some miracle my car appeared to have healed itself last night. They were checking everything they could think of and found nothing wrong, then one of the mechanics hit the key just for the heck of it and it started right up. They tried turning off again, and it started right up again! Over and over it behaved just fine. WTF??!?!?!

So hubby was just pulling into the parking lot when they came out to tell me they couldn't find anything wrong. He was NOT happy about making a wasted trip to come get me.

We left and broke major speed records trying to get back home in time to catch part of the Christmas program. We walked into the school just as they were singing the last line of the very last song. We got to see the girls take their bow as the audience applauded, but that was it. :mad: My oldest daughter's teacher video taped the concert though, so hopefully can get a copy from him to watch it.

When we got home it was well past everyone's bedtimes (I don't know why they have school concerts so late at night and on school nights too!) so we got everyone into bed. I had been grocery and Christmas shopping and still had to unload all that crap from my car and put everything away.

Hubby left to meet a friend in town at our local bar and after he left I was SO tempted to plant myself down on the couch in front of the TV with a box of honey buns that I had bought for the girls and drown my sorrows in sweet yummy delicousness. What I SHOULD have done is work out and do some strength training (been really slacking in that area lately) but I just could not seem to make myself get up and do it.

I did manage to resist the box of honey buns and had a small glass of wine instead. Did I mention I got my period last night while I was at the mechanic's shop? And had nothing with me to take care of that, and they had nothing in their ladies bathroom either. :banghead: So I was pretty crampy from that starting and the wine helps ease the cramps so I could sleep.

So.....

Today is a new day! And it HAS to be better than yesterday, right? RIGHT!

I'm having a hard time laying off the holiday treats lately and gained back a few pounds I think. I really don't want to officially track food and calories like I was before because most of the treats are home made and I can only guess at their calories. Besides - I don't really want to completely cut those things out of my life forever. I just need to exercise some self control and only have them in moderation. So to do that I have decided that I am going to list any treats that I have during the day as a way of keeping myself accountable.

Plus, I'd be completely embarrassed if I had to post something like this:

On the 12th day of Christmas I did eat these things
- 12 chocolate fudge bars
- 11 sugar cookies
- 10 peanut clusters
- 9 gooey gumdrops
- 8 chocolate truffles
- 7 rice crispy treats
- 6 frosted gingerbread men
- 5 carmel squares!!!
- 4 santa shaped cookies
- 3 big cinnamon rolls
- 2 gallons of egg nog
- and a cheesecake the size of my head! :piggy:
 
Tiggy, you have such colourful posts! Love em!

Good to hear bout the car....could have been espensive.

And your 12 treats for Christmas was funny.
<and I love cheesecake!>

Have a great <at least better than yesterday> day!
 
Love the 12 treats of Christmas! Am now starving though. Sorry you hit a deer :( I'm the sort of person that would rather serve into a tree than run over an already dead pigeon!!! Poor deer :( Poor tigs :( *cuddles*
 
Today hasn't been too bad for holiday treats. So here's my naughty list...

-roughly a total of a foot long piece of slim jim (from a meat and cheese sampler someone brought)
-2 small pieces of chocolate

I wish the kids would hurry up and eat the honey buns they asked for because every time I walk thru the kitchen I'm tempted beyond reason to have one. So far I've been able to resist.

We'll see how long THAT lasts!
 
Geez Tigs! It must be 'shitty day' week or something! So sorry to read of such events! Well done on resisting the honey buns and what not :)
I would have hooked into some wine too!

I'm so glad the car came good too, even if hubby was a bit crotchety for the big drive. Hope you can get a copy of the concert from the teacher, that would have sucked to miss it :(
I'm like Sunflower about the deer, you must have felt awful! I would have cried for sure!

Sending you a :grouphug:
Lucky we're strong women hey? lol Keep on truckin' Tigs xx
 
Here in Canada, hitting a deer is grounds for a day off work. All the hardship of dealing with the towing, mechanic, the insurance, let alone the psychological aspect of the poor animal. But the real stress is skinning and gutting the animal and trying to find a butcher to process it out of season...then trying to decide if you should have more burger or more chops...now thats tough. And what if your freezer is already full from your recent year's hunt....well there goes the day tring to find a buddy who you'll trust with your booty of fresh venison.

Some people don't know how easy they have it.


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Mmmmm slim jim! Somehow those became a holiday tradition in my family. I just sent out stocking stuffers for my parents and brothers and each one got a little canister of slim jims!

Hope the week ends on a high note! The deer story was awful, but glad to hear the car is ok.
 
WHY??? WHY??? WHY??? WHY??? WHY????

This is the question that has been repeating over and over again in my mind all day long. I got up this morning in a great mood, expecting a great day. I had a meeting scheduled this morning with a group of people that are really fun to work with, then my project team was ordering in lunch (stuffed baked potato bar) and we were going to decorate our cubicals for Christmas. This afternoon was supposed to be another meeting with another group of great people.

Instead, shortly after arriving at work, the secretary at the front desk (which is right next to me) got a phone call with some bad news. One of my coworkers committed suicide last night. Everyone was in shock because it was so unexpected. She was in her early 30s, married with 2 little girls aged 7 and 3. They had just bought a new house and she had just gotten a big promotion. She always seemed so upbeat and happy to everyone.

I had trouble focusing in my meetings today. I kept looking around the table at the people and wondering how many other people, friends and aquaintences, that I saw all the time, and were suffering inside so badly that they felt their only option was to end their life and I had no clue. I couldn't help but wonder if any of us could have said or done something to help, to make a difference.

I keep thinking about her little girls - so close in age to my own girls and my heart just breaks for them. With Christmas next week I can't help but wonder what kind of holiday they will have this year, and for every year to come? The holidays will never EVER be the same for them because of this.

I've never really been able to understand people who suffer from depression. I think it's because the whole concept is just so foreign to me. Sure, I have bad days where I'll be crabby or short on patience - but I'm never sad and don't ever feel like things are hopeless or that there's no purpose to my life. And there is no way I would EVER think of ending my life - there are just too many great things in life that make it all worthwhile. In fact, some people have said I suffer from the opposite of depression and am in way too good of a mood all the time.

So our cubicles will go undecorated - at least for now. No one felt much like celebrating or decorating today.

And so all I can do is ask myself why? Why on earth would someone do such a thing????
 
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Tig - what an awful day. I can't imagine being hit with such news. Like you, I can't fathom anything so bad as the only alternative is ending my life.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better for you and you can put this week behind you.
 
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