The amazing shrinking woman (I hope!)

jjjay said:
As for treats in work...I still take them in and then tell everyone that its part of my evil plan...rather than lose any more weight I've decided to fatten up everyone else around me so that I just LOOK thinner in comparison! That makes them all laugh and then they eat a cookie anyhow.
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HA! I never thought of that! Except that I've already become slimmer than the majority of the people in my office. The handfull of people that are thinner than me don't eat that stuff anyway. In fact, I ran into a couple of the skinny women in my office while in the bathroom last week and they complimented me on how great I'm looking lately. Found out that they are both runners as well. They are both training for a 10K run this fall. I don't think I'm ready for that kind of a run quite yet!

I don't know what's going on this week, but I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 144.8! I was so thrilled!!! It's like my body doesn't like being in the 140s or something. It hovered just at or above 150 for almost a month and seemed to really resist crossing over into the 140s. Now that I've buckled down again and am determined to keep going, my body knows I mean business so rather than try to stay in the 150s, it's flying right thru the 140s as quickly as possible to get to the 130s!

So that means I'm only about 10 lbs away from my goal weight! WOO HOO!!! :hurray:

Except now I'm starting to wonder if 135 is really going to be my final goal weight. 10 lbs isn't all that much compared to the 40 I've lost, and there still seems to be a lot of flubbery parts on me yet (I think more than 10 lbs worth anyway). I'm not sure I'll be happy with how 135 looks on me or not. I was thinking today that I should see if I can find some pictures from right after college to see how I looked in them. I think I should go more for a goal 'look' instead of a number. I don't remember for sure how much I weighed back then though. I know I was 107 when I got married at the beginning of my senior year of high school. As soon as I turned 18 I ran off and eloped with my hubby (he's 12 years older than me) and we moved in with his parents until the house he had bought a few months before that was done being remodeled. I never used to eat breakfast when I was a teen, but his mother was a teacher and she made me eat a big breakfast every day before we headed off to school (I transferred to the school she worked at to finish out my senior year). I started to put on weight and also got into the habit of eating breakfast every day. By the following fall when I started college I think I had probably gained 10 lbs or so.

And as we all know, college students aren't exactly the healthiest eaters. Then we turn 21 and start adding in all those cals from booze. While at the same time our metabolism is slowing down. So of course we gain weight. I just can't remember for sure how much I gained.

So I'm hoping if I look thru all my old photos (they are packed away somewhere) and find one where I think I look nice and healthy (not too skinny, but not fat either) and try to figure out how much I weighed in it that might be the best way to figure out what my ideal weight should be. Or I guess I can just keep going until all the squishy parts are gone and I'm happy with how I look. I'm not sure I trust myself to determine how that looks though because I'm sure there are always going to be parts that will never look good enough again (kid's will do that to you - especially twins!) and I don't want the other parts to look too skeletal and unhealthy before I ever feel happy with those last bad parts.

OH! Speaking of bad parts - funny thing happened today. I was going to the bathroom and as anyone with small children knows, you never get to be alone in there. The twins came in and asked me if I would like some privacy. I said yes please. So they went over and closed the bathroom door - but with them still in the bathroom. I just laughed and said they were supposed to be on the OTHER side of the door for the privacy thing to work. They came over to me and one said "Ew gross mom! What is that?" and pointed to my lap. They were referring to the loose blob of belly skin that kind of lays on my lap when I'm sitting down. It's all wrinkly and creepy looking I guess now that I've lost this much weight. I told them it was my tummy and they said no, your tummy was not ever like that before!!! Then they started daring each other to touch it!

Nothing like being made to feel like a freak when you are trapped on the toilet!
 
Tigpuppy said:
OH! Speaking of bad parts - funny thing happened today. I was going to the bathroom and as anyone with small children knows, you never get to be alone in there. The twins came in and asked me if I would like some privacy. I said yes please. So they went over and closed the bathroom door - but with them still in the bathroom. I just laughed and said they were supposed to be on the OTHER side of the door for the privacy thing to work. They came over to me and one said "Ew gross mom! What is that?" and pointed to my lap. They were referring to the loose blob of belly skin that kind of lays on my lap when I'm sitting down. It's all wrinkly and creepy looking I guess now that I've lost this much weight. I told them it was my tummy and they said no, your tummy was not ever like that before!!! Then they started daring each other to touch it!

Nothing like being made to feel like a freak when you are trapped on the toilet!
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LOL, I love the things that kids come out with. :D
I wish that I had kept a note book to write down all the funny things that our kids said. All the kids in our family were brought up speaking 3 languages ( English, Spanish and they did thier schooling in Catalan which is the language of the island we live on ) It caused a lot of fun when the languages got mixed up.
 
Hey TP!

Don't fret over the loose flab.....you just lost a huge amount of weight in a relatively short time. You skin will slowly get back to normal but it takes time.

You've done so well....a big inspiration to alot of us here! Keep up the great work!
 
Today has been a busy day! I did a ton of laundry, sorted thru a bunch of the kids' clothes and cleared out too small items and packed them away. I rearranged a couple of my kitchen cabinets to make more room so I could put away some of the clutter on my counter. Then I rearrange some of the rooms in the house. We live in a big old 2 story house, with a full basement under it that's mostly finished. The older 2 girls have had their bedroom on the top floor since we moved in 5 years ago. They also have a huge playroom up there. The master bedroom is on the main floor along with a guest room which has been used as my office/workout room lately. There is a formal living room on the main floor, but with no TV in there, no one likes to spend much time in there. Which is fine by me because then I have at least 1 clean room in the house in case we have unexpected company drop by. Our family room is in the basement and we all spend most of our time down there.

When we first brought the twins home after they were born they had health issues and couldn't lay down to sleep. They had to sleep upright in their bouncy seats. Our family room just sort of became the nursery at first and my husband and I slept on the couches and had the twins in their seats on the floor. I nursed them so they didn't spend much time in the seats actually and I remember spending a LOT of nights sitting upright on the couch with them propped up on pillows on each side of me so they could eat while I dozed.

We have another guest room in the basement and after a while I moved in there with them onto the guest bed. When they got to the point where they could lay down to sleep I found I could get a full night's sleep if I just left my top off and let them nurse when ever they felt like it thru the night. We had the bed turned so that the foot end was in a corner, one side was against a wall, the head end was protected by the headboard, and the other side was boxed in by a couch turned backwards. My husband would sleep on the couch out in the family room, and when I got up to go to work, I'd wake him and he'd go in and sleep on the bed with them. They never did spend a single night in a crib.

Eventually we set up toddler beds in the basement guest room and I was sleeping on the couch in there, while my husband slept on the couch in the family room still. We'd still do the morning swap too. The last couple of weeks I've started putting them to bed earlier by themselves and then I've gone to bed later in the master bedroom on the main floor. Hubby has still been on the couch, but I haven't been waking him up to go in with them when I leave for work in the morning.

Today I moved their toddler beds up to the 2nd floor. The room we are using for the kids' bedroom is huge, so they all 4 are in there now. I've moved my treadmill and office desk down to the basement guestroom, and will convert my old office on the main floor to a guestroom again. I'm back in my bedroom now too finally. Hubby's not sure he wants to move back in though because he's gotten used to getting a good night's sleep on the couch without me snoring next to him all night long.

We'll see how long it takes to get everyone into the new routine. Or if mom goes crazy first and gives up. :)
 
Good luck with that. I hope that the twins decide that they like sleeping up there with their sisters and leave you to get an undisturbed night. I can sympathize with your husband about the snoring. I used to change beds most nights because of my husband snoring but now I use ear plugs and don't hear him at all.
 
eyckmans said:
Good luck with that. I hope that the twins decide that they like sleeping up there with their sisters and leave you to get an undisturbed night. I can sympathize with your husband about the snoring. I used to change beds most nights because of my husband snoring but now I use ear plugs and don't hear him at all.
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I know my snoring must be REALLY bad because my husband is hearing impaired (not complete hearing loss though) and he can even hear me without his hearing aides in! He says I sound like a freight train. I think I'm going to have to try and do something about that before he'll move back into our bedroom to sleep.

Although.... It IS rather nice having that whole big bed to myself every night.... :reddevil:
 
I'm really REALLY craving chocolate right now (can you tell it's soon to be that TOM for me?) I just finished eating a cucumber for my afternoon snack and the whole time I was munching I kept wondering how it would taste dipped in chocolate?

I have SO much to get done at home in the next week. My sister is having a baby and was supposed to be due the 14th of September. But the baby is apparently really HUGE already (she always has had big babies) and they are taking it via c-section a week early on the 7th. She's having a boy, but I promised I'd go thru all my baby stuff and give her anythingthing that might be considered unisex. I thought I had a bit of time yet, but I guess NOT! I'm also going to give her half of all my baby gear (since I have 2 of everything still) like bouncy seats, exersaucers, high chairs, cribs, etc. with the agreement that instead of payment, she has to let me use her huge (and newly finished) garage to have a big garage sale in, where I will finally get rid of all my baby/toddler stuff. I started going thru all my baby stuff when she first got pregnant, but it just made me sad to think about the fact that I'd never have another baby of my own again (I got my tubes tied last year when I had to have my gall bladder taken out).

I didn't make it all the way thru the baby clothes before I just couldn't do it any more. I never thought it would affect me so strongly like that. So I gave up on finishing. Then a few days later the kids pulled some stunt or other and I was fuming mad. Hubby asked "I thought you wanted to have one more?" I swear I nearly ripped his head off! I told him "Yea, I am SO over THAT!"

I don't think I'll have much trouble getting thru all the baby stuff now. I'm loving the new, thinner me WAY too much to want to undo it all by having another baby. Besides, 4 little hellions is PLENTY for me, thankyouverymuch!

Over lunch today hubby made a comment that I should treat myself to a flat screen TV for my new office/work out room. Then I can watch TV while I run. Man, is that ever a tempting idea....
 
I love your journal! :D
congrats on your weight loss!

I snore as well but the good thing is I sleep alone. lol
how cute it is that you have twins ? that alone must keep you very busy!

xoxo
 
I ran my 3 miles as soon as I got home from work tonight (in my newly arranged work out room) so that after supper I could just relax and veg out on the couch. It's really starting to cool off here though and with being soaking wet with sweat I got chilled. I felt like I could just NOT get warm after that. I put on sweats and warm socks and am now curled up with the heat of my laptop - well on my lap top. I'm finally feeling nice and toasty warm again.

This time of year I always feel like I'm tensing up in preparation for something. And that something is winter. I think it comes from the first 5 years of my career that I had to commute to the city every day for work, rain or shine, blizzard or sleet, thru snow drifts or over icey roads. My commute is 75 miles thru desolate open farm country. And with being a new employee, I didn't exactly have a lot of leave to use for snow days. I think my husband was even more stressed out about me driving in bad weather than I was - so for his peace of mind I would stay with various college friends when the forcast didn't sound too good.

When I got pregnant with my first daughter my employer offered to rent office space in the county courthouse in my hometown so that I could work from there 3 days a week and would only have to travel 2 days a week. But I still had to make it to town to get to my office in order to work - over roads that were at the mercy of county workers with their snow plows.

Then along with the warmer spring weather always came such a feeling of relief - relief that I survived another winter.

The weather and bad roads aren't so much of an issue any more thanks to technology. I can work from home now if the weather is bad and my boss isn't strict about me having to be in the main office 2 days every week. And now due to policy changes in my department I can telecommute from home all 3 of the days when I'm not in the home office.

Now that winter isn't something to be feared quite so much, I still can't shake this feeling of tension building as the weather cools off. Maybe it's just force of habit?
 
My kids have been complaining that the only thing around the house to snack on is healthy stuff. They want sweets once in a while (like brownies or donuts or cupcakes or cookies), but I never make or buy them any more because I can't seem to control myself if they are in my house. But I've been doing pretty good lately with treats that people bring to the office (I didn't have a dilly bar yesterday when someone brought some after lunch) and have been able to stay strong.

So I've decided to test myself. I bought 2 small bags of Dove dark chocolates, one plain and one with almonds. The package says 5 candies are a serving, and they are 210 cals. Which makes them 42 cals each. So I'm going to allow myself to have one a day for every day that I actually do my planned workout, except for rest days - then I get the chocolate anyway. :drool5:

We'll see how I do. I figure since they were small bags they won't do too much damage if I cave in to a binge. And I seriously LOVE these things. And I miss chocolate. I want there to always be room in my lifestle chocolate and wine. Otherwise what's the point of going on living, right?
 
The next couple of days are going to be stressfull around here. My father in law went in to his doctor yesterday for his annual physical. They called him this morning and said that they wanted him to come right back to the hospital due to something they found on some test results. Apparently he's got 90% blockage in one of the arteries of his neck, and for some reason his kidneys are starting to shut down and he may need to go on dialisis. He got bumped today due to someone else having a higher emergency than him so tomorrow morning he will have surgery to have a stint put into his neck to open the blockage.

I just hope and pray that all goes well. He and my husband fight like cats and dogs, but if something happened to his father, I don't think he'd handle it very well.
 
Hope everything works out well with your FIL, Tig. At least they caught it now before it really caused a problem.

Also, that is a good plan with the chocolates if you can make it work. I think we all need a little treat sometimes and there should be plenty of room for 42 calories. Plus, it'll help motivate you to do your workout.
 
What a day it's been!

Thank you everyone for your well wishes for my FIL.

Just got home not too long ago. They tell us the surgery was a sucess, though it took much longer than they said it would. Also, they had a hard time waking him up from anestesia, so that also took MUCH longer than it was supposed to. They are letting my MIL stay with him tonight in the hospital and should get to come home sometime tomorrow.

And since we were all at the hospital anyway, my sister was kind enough to go into labor early and have her baby today as well. Another nephew! I now have a grand total of 20 nieces and nephews (at least that I know of).

And since my daughter has been nagging me and asking me for about a week now if she could take my monthy progress pictures, I now have updated pics to share as well. Like last month I only lost 5 lbs since the last photo update. Only 10 more to go!

Hope everyone is doing well. I'll try and catch up on your journals tomorrow because tonight I'm so drained that I can hardly keep my eyes open any more.
 
Gosh what a day. Really glad to hear that your father in law is on the road to recovery - my dad had a similar procedure last month on one of his heart arteries and it is such a worry to sit there at the hospital...waiting...

Nice of your sister to provide some distraction though - talk about timing!! I thought she was having a c-section due to the size of the baby? Or did she go into labour and then they did a c-section so it just brought it all forward by a few weeks?

I think after all that, you deserve a 42 cal piece of chocolate!!
 
Congrats on the new family member. Family gatherings must be chaotic in your family with so many children between you. I've only got 8 neices and nephews living in this country and it's bedlam when they all get together even now that they are grown up and getting ready to have kids of their own.
I'm glad to hear that FIL's op went well.
Like I said in your other thread, impressive photos.:)
 
20 nieces and nephews????

WOWIES!!! Thats a huge family!!! Almost unheard of nowadays up here!
Congrats Auntie!

And again, your photos are clearly the result of your effort! Well done!!!!!

Have a great day and enjoy your long weekend!!!
 
Glad to hear things went well with your FIL. And I'll second the "wow!" on having 20 nieces and nephews, holy cow! I don't have any on my side and three on my hubby's side.

And a big wow on those pics! There is such a difference! I really wish I had taken good before pics like that. I planned on it, but I never did. I have a few fully clothed, but it's not the same. Great job and keep it up!
 
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