Tamara's diary!
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scrambledeggs
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Hi Brat! I'm new here. I'm also 5'5". I'm about 160 now.
Your progress is wonderful, and I'm glad that your boyfriend is so supportive.
Your progress is wonderful, and I'm glad that your boyfriend is so supportive.
scrambledeggs
New member
oh... and I ate chocolate cake... and it was DAMN good!!! It was for my mommy's bday, I'm allowed!!iggy:
have the cake.
Brat
New member
Welcome
!!! 
hell yah!!! I want more now but it's a good thing I didn't bring a piece home. I'd be scarfing it down right about now.
Tonight I have a potluck party to attend so this should be interesting.. It'll be nice to put my willpower to the test. Especially since I'm baking cupcakes for the party....
scrambledeggs
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Thanks for the welcome. Stopping at one slice of cake is good.
Brat
New member
wow it has been really crazy these past few weeks. I started school last Monday. Math and Chemistry...ewwwwwww... hehe.. My Chemistry teacher is awesome but my Math teacher is super unorganized and too quick. That's not good I really need a teacher that goes in depth with their teaching and makes sure that everyone follows. Math is really one of my hardest subjects and I don't catch on quick at ALL hehe..
Both my classes are on the 5th floor of the school so TEN fights of stairs every single day (4 days a week).. ahhhhhhhh!!! The first few days I'd have to take a breather on every floor but now I noticed that I can make it all the way to the 5th without stopping. Yes I'll be out of breath and I'll feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest but I'm sure it'll only get easier
On my weigh day Friday I was 200lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! My little 2 week standstill at 204lbs is no more! That means that by this Friday I should see that beautiful little number 1!!!!!!!!
On Sunday we had a super bowl party and I didn't go too overboard.. I ate more than I should of but I didn't go as crazy as I used to. Had some yummy chicken wings, homemade chili (my bf is the chili king!!) and chocolate cake (with apple sauce replacement) so it wasn't SO bad
My eating schedule is kinda all screwed up cause of school. I have to find something that is going to work for me. Today class was cancelled so I got the day off. I'll probably do some long over due chores.
Can't wait to see my weight on Friday!!!
Oh!!! I joined a gym!! I finally took the plunge.. I have a treadmill at home but my neighbor is giving me problems so I just got the membership. The gym is a block away and right across the parking lot from where I work. I really like it. The equipment is brand new and everything is really clean.
I really need a teacher that goes in depth with their teaching and makes sure that everyone follows. Math is really one of my hardest subjects and I don't catch on quick at ALL hehe..Both my classes are on the 5th floor of the school so TEN fights of stairs every single day (4 days a week).. ahhhhhhhh!!! The first few days I'd have to take a breather on every floor but now I noticed that I can make it all the way to the 5th without stopping. Yes I'll be out of breath and I'll feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest but I'm sure it'll only get easier
On my weigh day Friday I was 200lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! My little 2 week standstill at 204lbs is no more! That means that by this Friday I should see that beautiful little number 1!!!!!!!!
On Sunday we had a super bowl party and I didn't go too overboard.. I ate more than I should of but I didn't go as crazy as I used to. Had some yummy chicken wings, homemade chili (my bf is the chili king!!) and chocolate cake (with apple sauce replacement) so it wasn't SO bad
My eating schedule is kinda all screwed up cause of school. I have to find something that is going to work for me. Today class was cancelled so I got the day off. I'll probably do some long over due chores.
Can't wait to see my weight on Friday!!!
Oh!!! I joined a gym!! I finally took the plunge.. I have a treadmill at home but my neighbor is giving me problems so I just got the membership. The gym is a block away and right across the parking lot from where I work. I really like it. The equipment is brand new and everything is really clean.
Seeking.Balance
New member
Hey there!
You seem really positive and great. From one chocolate lover to another, I have some suggestions for you for low-cal options. Those sugar-free jello packs and chocolate soy milk are delicious options.....yum.
Best of luck on your journey.
-SB
You seem really positive and great. From one chocolate lover to another, I have some suggestions for you for low-cal options. Those sugar-free jello packs and chocolate soy milk are delicious options.....yum.
Best of luck on your journey.
-SB
Brat
New member
Hey SB! Yes I do eat the sugar free jello packs. As for the chocolate choy milk, well I just drink normal 1% chocolate milk. A glass a day
It was my weigh day today! And I weigh........*drumroll*............... 198!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! I haven't seen that 1 in sooooooooooo long!! Feels amazing to be in onderland and I'm NEVER EVER going back..EVER!!!!!!!!!
I'll write more later.. one of my cats is sick and I have a vet appointment in an hour.. I really hope he's okay. I was up at every hour on the hour to lie next to him. poor guy..
It was my weigh day today! And I weigh........*drumroll*............... 198!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! I haven't seen that 1 in sooooooooooo long!! Feels amazing to be in onderland and I'm NEVER EVER going back..EVER!!!!!!!!!
I'll write more later.. one of my cats is sick
and I have a vet appointment in an hour.. I really hope he's okay. I was up at every hour on the hour to lie next to him. poor guy..
Brat
New member
Wow... it has been a crazy two days.
I noticed my 3 year old male cat (Meowx0r) acting weird two days ago. He wouldn't play with me, he wasn't eating or drinking and he was just sitting in one spot.
I was up with him during the night pretty much every hour on the hour because I heard him in the litterbox and saw that he had pooped but no luck with peeing. I knew there was something wrong and I had called the vet in the afternoon and got an appointment for yesterday at 11am. When I held him yesterday morning before the vet I noticed blood in and around his urethra.
I brought him to the vet and they told me he had a urinary obstruction. They took some x-rays and didn't see any stones or crystals in his kidneys or bladder. But they did show me that his bladder was swollen .. poor guy..
They told me they would have to keep him there and unblock his urethra, put him on meds and wait until he's eating, drinking and peeing on his own which would be about a 3 day hospital stay.
The vet called me around 4pm and he said that they emptied his bladder and unblocked his urethra. He said the bladder was full of blood and the catheter was still leaking blood which they were keeping a close eye on. Meowx0r also wasn't coming out of the anesthesia as fast as they would like and his heart rate went up a bit which the doc said is normal with being put under sometimes.
The doc said it was very blocked and quite advanced and it was weird that he only started acting weird yesterday. The vet also said that maybe this has been going on for a while and maybe he's only been peeing little drops here and there but the thing is, the night before he started acting weird I remember sitting watching tv and going "wow what's that noise??" and I looked over and he was in his litter peeing away a full stream that lasted about 15 seconds. And I called my bf over and said "geez, look at this guy, he's peeing like a man!" So I knew he was peeing freely 2 days ago. It just happened so fast I don't get it...
Vet told me that he can't guarantee me that my cat was out of danger just yet.. that was such a horrible thing to hear
About an hour after the vet called me, he called again and said that my cat still hadn't come to and the doc was worried. He suggested we transfer him to the DMV which is an emergeny vet open 24 hours about 20km's away. He suggested we transfer him there so that he gets supervision throughout the whole night. So my bf and I went to pick him up with his catheter and iv, wrapped him in his favorite blanket and brought him to the DMV. I talked to him throughout the whole ride. He was somewhat responsive, his eyes would open, his ears would flick and at some point he started to stretch his back legs.
When we got to the DMV, the vet told us his levels were all over the place. His potassium numbers and another number (can't remember what they called it) were not good and they want to get them back to normal. There was still blood from the catheter but they assured me that was normal especially since his bladder was so enlarged. They were saying that his numbers were off because his kidneys got poisoned through this whole ordeal. I hated leaving there.. I really did. I wanted to sleep in the parking lot all night.
They said they would only call if something was bad. I was PRAYING that my phone wouldn't ring.
Well...my nightmare came true. Last night at around 11:30pm we received a call from the vet. She was really worried he hadn't woken up yet (~9 hours after being put under) and that his heart rate was very high (250) while lying on his side. She asked for my permission to give him some pain meds and take another xray. I didn't hear from them again which was a good sign although I still didn't sleep a wink all night. I kept staring at that phone praying it wouldn't ring. I think MY heart rate was 250. I couldnt eat anything either cause I was super nauseous.
I called them around 10:30am to find out how he was and if I could come visit. The receptionist said the doc would call me back. Doc called me back about 30 mins later.
She said Meowx0r's vital signs are stable, his potassium is back to normal, his heart rate is back to normal. He was hypoglemic during the night at some points but they brought that back to normal. Apparently he is still very lethargic but not totally out of it like yesterday. He is able to open his eyes and lift his head up. He won't eat the food on his own but when they put it in his mouth, he licks it and swallows it. His urine is back to normal as well. She said he's on a good track to recovery and would probably need to stay there for another few days (at least throughout the weekend).
When I asked her why she thought he didn't come to after the anesthetic she said it was most likely because of all his screwed up levels and the huge ordeal he went through. A huge weight has been lifted off of us.
My bf and I have taken turns bawling our eyes out. We miss the guy so much and we hated coming home to a place without him. Everything reminds me of him.. I just have to keep thinking that he'll be back before we know it and super healthy and back to running around and talking like he always does.
So that's been my whirlwind of a weekend. I can't wait to have my baby back.. I can't stop thinking about him... I attached some pics of him at the vet before we transferred him. It BROKE MY HEART to see him like that.. I wouldn't want anyone to go through what we went through.
We have such a huge attachment to all of our pets but there's something about Meowx0r... I held him when he was only a few hours old. His mother was a cat my ex and I rescued a few years ago.. and he is just the sweetest cat on earth. Always purring which is why his offical name is "Meowx0r McPurr" hehe (we're weird like that!)
I've attached some more pics of my big bear
I noticed my 3 year old male cat (Meowx0r) acting weird two days ago. He wouldn't play with me, he wasn't eating or drinking and he was just sitting in one spot.
I was up with him during the night pretty much every hour on the hour because I heard him in the litterbox and saw that he had pooped but no luck with peeing. I knew there was something wrong and I had called the vet in the afternoon and got an appointment for yesterday at 11am. When I held him yesterday morning before the vet I noticed blood in and around his urethra.
I brought him to the vet and they told me he had a urinary obstruction. They took some x-rays and didn't see any stones or crystals in his kidneys or bladder. But they did show me that his bladder was swollen .. poor guy..
They told me they would have to keep him there and unblock his urethra, put him on meds and wait until he's eating, drinking and peeing on his own which would be about a 3 day hospital stay.
The vet called me around 4pm and he said that they emptied his bladder and unblocked his urethra. He said the bladder was full of blood and the catheter was still leaking blood which they were keeping a close eye on. Meowx0r also wasn't coming out of the anesthesia as fast as they would like and his heart rate went up a bit which the doc said is normal with being put under sometimes.
The doc said it was very blocked and quite advanced and it was weird that he only started acting weird yesterday. The vet also said that maybe this has been going on for a while and maybe he's only been peeing little drops here and there but the thing is, the night before he started acting weird I remember sitting watching tv and going "wow what's that noise??" and I looked over and he was in his litter peeing away a full stream that lasted about 15 seconds. And I called my bf over and said "geez, look at this guy, he's peeing like a man!" So I knew he was peeing freely 2 days ago. It just happened so fast I don't get it...
Vet told me that he can't guarantee me that my cat was out of danger just yet.. that was such a horrible thing to hear
About an hour after the vet called me, he called again and said that my cat still hadn't come to and the doc was worried. He suggested we transfer him to the DMV which is an emergeny vet open 24 hours about 20km's away. He suggested we transfer him there so that he gets supervision throughout the whole night. So my bf and I went to pick him up with his catheter and iv, wrapped him in his favorite blanket and brought him to the DMV. I talked to him throughout the whole ride. He was somewhat responsive, his eyes would open, his ears would flick and at some point he started to stretch his back legs.
When we got to the DMV, the vet told us his levels were all over the place. His potassium numbers and another number (can't remember what they called it) were not good and they want to get them back to normal. There was still blood from the catheter but they assured me that was normal especially since his bladder was so enlarged. They were saying that his numbers were off because his kidneys got poisoned through this whole ordeal. I hated leaving there.. I really did. I wanted to sleep in the parking lot all night.
They said they would only call if something was bad. I was PRAYING that my phone wouldn't ring.
Well...my nightmare came true. Last night at around 11:30pm we received a call from the vet. She was really worried he hadn't woken up yet (~9 hours after being put under) and that his heart rate was very high (250) while lying on his side. She asked for my permission to give him some pain meds and take another xray. I didn't hear from them again which was a good sign although I still didn't sleep a wink all night. I kept staring at that phone praying it wouldn't ring. I think MY heart rate was 250. I couldnt eat anything either cause I was super nauseous.
I called them around 10:30am to find out how he was and if I could come visit. The receptionist said the doc would call me back. Doc called me back about 30 mins later.
She said Meowx0r's vital signs are stable, his potassium is back to normal, his heart rate is back to normal. He was hypoglemic during the night at some points but they brought that back to normal. Apparently he is still very lethargic but not totally out of it like yesterday. He is able to open his eyes and lift his head up. He won't eat the food on his own but when they put it in his mouth, he licks it and swallows it. His urine is back to normal as well. She said he's on a good track to recovery and would probably need to stay there for another few days (at least throughout the weekend).
When I asked her why she thought he didn't come to after the anesthetic she said it was most likely because of all his screwed up levels and the huge ordeal he went through. A huge weight has been lifted off of us.
My bf and I have taken turns bawling our eyes out. We miss the guy so much and we hated coming home to a place without him. Everything reminds me of him.. I just have to keep thinking that he'll be back before we know it and super healthy and back to running around and talking like he always does.
So that's been my whirlwind of a weekend. I can't wait to have my baby back.. I can't stop thinking about him... I attached some pics of him at the vet before we transferred him. It BROKE MY HEART to see him like that.. I wouldn't want anyone to go through what we went through.
We have such a huge attachment to all of our pets but there's something about Meowx0r... I held him when he was only a few hours old. His mother was a cat my ex and I rescued a few years ago.. and he is just the sweetest cat on earth. Always purring which is why his offical name is "Meowx0r McPurr" hehe (we're weird like that!)
I've attached some more pics of my big bear
Brat
New member
well what a weekend!
My cat came back from the hospital yesterday. I'm keepin a very close eye on him because it reoccurs very often within the first few days/weeks. It's so stressful because I have no idea if he's okay or not. I called the vet and asked her a few questions. She eased my mind a bit but she told me to bring him in if I see him straining to pee. So far he's very tired because they have him on these pills that are like Valium to prevent muscle spasms in his urethra.
I feel so bad for the little guy. I wish there was more I could do...
I haven't been to the gym in a little bit. For about a week now I've had a pain in my big toe on my left foot. Just the tip of it and then I started getting a pain in my heel on the same foot and it felt swollen and bumpy. It was REALLY weird. Something I've never had before. Anyone had this or know what it might be? It feels a little better now although still somewhat sore.
Also, I guess all the stress caught up with my body and around 6pm yesterday I started to get the most horrible backache. I get these once in a while but I haven't had one in over 6 months since I started to exercise. It's my lower back and it hurts so much that I have a lot of trouble walking, sitting and sleeping. Everything is just uncomfortable. I've been to the doctor a few times and nothing seems to help. They don't seem to take me seriously. They tell me "oh it's a muscle spasm, take some pain killers" I think I'm going to go to the hospital and ask to see a specialist once and for all because this is unbearable.
Hopefully all this passes soon. I want to get back to my normal routine of eating, sleeping, exercising..
My cat came back from the hospital yesterday. I'm keepin a very close eye on him because it reoccurs very often within the first few days/weeks. It's so stressful because I have no idea if he's okay or not. I called the vet and asked her a few questions. She eased my mind a bit but she told me to bring him in if I see him straining to pee. So far he's very tired because they have him on these pills that are like Valium to prevent muscle spasms in his urethra.
I feel so bad for the little guy. I wish there was more I could do...
I haven't been to the gym in a little bit. For about a week now I've had a pain in my big toe on my left foot. Just the tip of it and then I started getting a pain in my heel on the same foot and it felt swollen and bumpy. It was REALLY weird. Something I've never had before. Anyone had this or know what it might be? It feels a little better now although still somewhat sore.
Also, I guess all the stress caught up with my body and around 6pm yesterday I started to get the most horrible backache. I get these once in a while but I haven't had one in over 6 months since I started to exercise. It's my lower back and it hurts so much that I have a lot of trouble walking, sitting and sleeping. Everything is just uncomfortable. I've been to the doctor a few times and nothing seems to help. They don't seem to take me seriously. They tell me "oh it's a muscle spasm, take some pain killers" I think I'm going to go to the hospital and ask to see a specialist once and for all because this is unbearable.
Hopefully all this passes soon. I want to get back to my normal routine of eating, sleeping, exercising..
Curvie Girlie
New member
Your poor baby!!!
Awwww, I'm so sorry to hear all that--BUT I'm stoked you made it to Onderland!
Keep it up, Tamara. Life is tough, and the tough get tougher--don't forget that!
Take care
Awwww, I'm so sorry to hear all that--BUT I'm stoked you made it to Onderland!
Keep it up, Tamara. Life is tough, and the tough get tougher--don't forget that!
Take care
Brat
New member
Ah!!! Haven't been here for like 3 months!! Work has been so insanely busy! I finally have a few minutes to relax and write a little update hehe..
So I got down to 193 two weeks ago! But then went back up to 195 and have stayed there for a week!! When I weighed myself this morning I wanted to CRY!! I know that I really shouldn't look only at my weight number but it's hard not to get frustrated. I took my measurements a few weeks ago and since December I have lost a total of 18.5"!! I'm very happy about that!! My body looks completely different and I fit into clothes differently. My jeans don't fit me and I had to buy some new ones last week because they were literally falling off.
I have a question though! I started weight training last week. Could this be why my weight sort of stabalized at 195? Because right now I've gained a little muscle?
I'll try to get on a little more often. The season is starting in the car industry (SUMMER soon woohoo!!) so it's really insane at work.
Thanks for reading guys and gals!!
So I got down to 193 two weeks ago! But then went back up to 195 and have stayed there for a week!!
When I weighed myself this morning I wanted to CRY!! I know that I really shouldn't look only at my weight number but it's hard not to get frustrated. I took my measurements a few weeks ago and since December I have lost a total of 18.5"!! I'm very happy about that!! My body looks completely different and I fit into clothes differently. My jeans don't fit me and I had to buy some new ones last week because they were literally falling off.I have a question though! I started weight training last week. Could this be why my weight sort of stabalized at 195? Because right now I've gained a little muscle?
I'll try to get on a little more often. The season is starting in the car industry (SUMMER soon woohoo!!) so it's really insane at work.
Thanks for reading guys and gals!!
Brat
New member
Went to gym last night and did about 45 mins on the treadmill.. ever have those days where your body just doesnt want to?! I was out of breath and my legs were aching.. it just wasn't going as well as it usually does hehe..
I'm currently doing the coolrunning couch to 5k running program and I love it. I can really feel my endurance and strength building up over the weeks. I LOVE running so it bothered me at first that I couldn't run continuously. But now I understand that it can't just happen like that for me. I have to condition myself properly. I'll be sooooooooo happy when I can run a 5k without walking.
Well, tonight I have a supper with the inlaws and I'm super exhausted I have no idea how I'm going to be able to stay awake. We were at work last night until 1am!!! aghhh.. I guess that's the way it is when you first start a company. I just don't have a life anymore hehe
I'm currently doing the coolrunning couch to 5k running program and I love it. I can really feel my endurance and strength building up over the weeks. I LOVE running so it bothered me at first that I couldn't run continuously. But now I understand that it can't just happen like that for me. I have to condition myself properly. I'll be sooooooooo happy when I can run a 5k without walking.
Well, tonight I have a supper with the inlaws and I'm super exhausted I have no idea how I'm going to be able to stay awake. We were at work last night until 1am!!! aghhh.. I guess that's the way it is when you first start a company. I just don't have a life anymore hehe
Brat
New member
Hey everyone!
I haven't posted to my diary in over a year!
But I have been lurking around for quite some time. I guess the main reason I was M.I.A. is because about a year ago I started a really stressful and time consuming job. I stopped going to the gym and I stopped losing weight
But thankfully I quit that horrible job a few months ago and I'm back on the right track with weight loss and exercise!
About a month ago I started eating better and my boyfriend has been joining me as well. He's not a big guy, 6'2" and about 195 lbs but he has a gut that he desperately wants to get rid of and he wants to bulk and cut from there. So it's always great to have him around for motivation!
We go to the gym 3-4 times a week at 6am and I've been doing ~45 minutes on the treadmill, jogging/walking intervals.
I weigh myself every Friday morning. First week I lost 3 lbs, second week I lost 2.5, third week I lost 2. Now we get to last Friday, I didn't lose anything. I was discouraged because I had really worked super hard and I was eating well. So I tried to shake it off and continue working hard which is what I did this week. I weigh myself this morning and I GAINED 1lb!
I don't get it!
I started my weight loss journey about two years ago at ~240lbs and within about 8 months I lost a total of 50lbs. I did pretty much the same thing, 45 mins cardio 3 days a week and my eating wasn't even as good as it is now. The only difference is that I was doing some weight training at that point too.
I know people hit plateaus but I didn't think this would happen 4 weeks into it! I'm using "My Fitness Pal" on my iPhone and it's got me set up at 1200 cals/day (non workout days) and when I workout, I input my exercise and additional calories are allocated.
I can't figure out what is the problem, or if I can even call this a "problem" after two weigh-ins. Maybe I need to keep doing what I'm doing and it'll pass.
Otherwise, should I eat more/less calories? Should I start weight training right away? I was going to give myself at least a month or two doing just cardio and then start mixing in some weight training but I'm thinking maybe I should start it right away.
I'm really not the type of person to dwell on things but this has really bugged me the past week and today when I weighed myself and saw a 1lb gain I was just shocked.. I know that obsessing about it probably isn't the best thing but anyways I thought coming on here and putting it out there would be my best bet. And I'm open to any suggestions/advice!
Thanks!
I haven't posted to my diary in over a year!
But I have been lurking around for quite some time. I guess the main reason I was M.I.A. is because about a year ago I started a really stressful and time consuming job. I stopped going to the gym and I stopped losing weight But thankfully I quit that horrible job a few months ago and I'm back on the right track with weight loss and exercise!
About a month ago I started eating better and my boyfriend has been joining me as well. He's not a big guy, 6'2" and about 195 lbs but he has a gut that he desperately wants to get rid of and he wants to bulk and cut from there. So it's always great to have him around for motivation!
We go to the gym 3-4 times a week at 6am and I've been doing ~45 minutes on the treadmill, jogging/walking intervals.
I weigh myself every Friday morning. First week I lost 3 lbs, second week I lost 2.5, third week I lost 2. Now we get to last Friday, I didn't lose anything. I was discouraged because I had really worked super hard and I was eating well. So I tried to shake it off and continue working hard which is what I did this week. I weigh myself this morning and I GAINED 1lb!
I don't get it!I started my weight loss journey about two years ago at ~240lbs and within about 8 months I lost a total of 50lbs. I did pretty much the same thing, 45 mins cardio 3 days a week and my eating wasn't even as good as it is now. The only difference is that I was doing some weight training at that point too.
I know people hit plateaus but I didn't think this would happen 4 weeks into it! I'm using "My Fitness Pal" on my iPhone and it's got me set up at 1200 cals/day (non workout days) and when I workout, I input my exercise and additional calories are allocated.
I can't figure out what is the problem, or if I can even call this a "problem" after two weigh-ins. Maybe I need to keep doing what I'm doing and it'll pass.
Otherwise, should I eat more/less calories? Should I start weight training right away? I was going to give myself at least a month or two doing just cardio and then start mixing in some weight training but I'm thinking maybe I should start it right away.
I'm really not the type of person to dwell on things but this has really bugged me the past week and today when I weighed myself and saw a 1lb gain I was just shocked.. I know that obsessing about it probably isn't the best thing but anyways I thought coming on here and putting it out there would be my best bet. And I'm open to any suggestions/advice!
Thanks!