Tamara's diary!
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lovelylilly
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Hey there, have read through your journal and you are doing great!!
I know what you mean about continuing to see yourself as your lighter weight in your head and not fully accepting that you have gained. I was like that and then I looked at my reflection in a window and realised...yep that really is me, and I'm fat! Just like you I was always active, sports were a constant thing for me until I had my babies at...now at 32 I'm looking back and wondering how I let myself go.
You are doing really well, keep up the great work!
Curvie Girlie
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HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! Valerie
Curvie Girlie
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Tamara! Watch this when you get back, this was a clip I took from the Dubstep-12-hour-35-DJ party in San Francisco!
Brat
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oooh thanks so much for stopping by everyone! It's so cool to see that people are interested in me and my story.. very awesome of you all
So, my weight last week popped back up to 209 (ew!) and then this week was down to 208.2 so the holidays did some damage but not so much that I'm gonna have a hard time getting back on the right track.
I can't even tell you the amount of food I've consumed hahah.. my family is ridiculous when it comes to the holdays. On top of that, I made these freaking wicked cupcakes that I couldn't keep my hands off of! I had to add the pictures just to show you how hard it was to keep away! hehe
It's crazy what junk does to my body. I can feel a huge difference since I fell off the wagon. I feel super tired all the time, bloated, headaches.. arghhhh! You think I'd learn right?! Stupid addiction to food hehe
This week my bf and I have decided to sit down one night and come up with food ideas so it'll be easier to stay on track. I hate the whole "ok what are we eating for supper tonight?". I feel like I don't have time for that.. I have so much on my mind already.
Happy New Year to everyone!!! And Curvie I'm gonna check that out right now, THANKS!
So, my weight last week popped back up to 209 (ew!) and then this week was down to 208.2 so the holidays did some damage but not so much that I'm gonna have a hard time getting back on the right track.
I can't even tell you the amount of food I've consumed hahah.. my family is ridiculous when it comes to the holdays. On top of that, I made these freaking wicked cupcakes that I couldn't keep my hands off of! I had to add the pictures just to show you how hard it was to keep away! hehe
It's crazy what junk does to my body. I can feel a huge difference since I fell off the wagon. I feel super tired all the time, bloated, headaches.. arghhhh! You think I'd learn right?! Stupid addiction to food hehe
This week my bf and I have decided to sit down one night and come up with food ideas so it'll be easier to stay on track. I hate the whole "ok what are we eating for supper tonight?". I feel like I don't have time for that.. I have so much on my mind already.
Happy New Year to everyone!!! And Curvie I'm gonna check that out right now, THANKS!
lovelylilly
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Hey there!
Great idea to plan out your meals...it is always when I have no plan that we end up getting take out...when things are planned, it is easy to have a good diet!
By the way, those are delicious looking cupcakes!
Great idea to plan out your meals...it is always when I have no plan that we end up getting take out...when things are planned, it is easy to have a good diet!
By the way, those are delicious looking cupcakes!
Hey Brat! How's it going? I see by your ticker that you are rapidly approaching a significant number in your WL journey. That will be a very happy day for you! I remember feeling very relieved when I made it under that 200 mark.So you guys have been having a cold snap, eh? We in the West have also been getting pummeled lately. First we had a CRAZY amount of snow - then temps shot up to +8 or something and we have had major flooding, avalanches, and mud slides!!! Oh, to live in Canada in the wintertime...
Anyhoo, keep up the great work. I am very happy for you that you have such a supportive BF and that you are able to get together with your family often. I love living close to mine, too. And your cupcakes look mm-mmmm good!
cheers
ABBA
Brat
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Hi ABBA!
Yeah I heard about what's going on in BC. I saw some footage on the news and it's looking pretty horrible in some places. I hope it all gets better real soon.
Yup we're having a cold snap.. VERY COLD! We went out for a walk up the mountain (Mont-Royal) in Montreal yesterday and we were so cold! Even though we dressed very warmly, we were still uncomfortable.
Actually, I have to update my ticker again! On my weight date Friday I was a 204.2lbs!!! I'm SO close to onderland, I CANT WAIT!
My bf is definitely a great guy. He's trying to lose some weight himself so we support eachother through tough times. Like when I want a huge chocolate bar and he wants a beer LOL! As for my family, I don't think I'd be able to live far away from them. I've thought about moving but I really don't think I could. My sisters are my best friends and I'm very close to both my parents. (I attached a pic of myself with my sisters and our bf's at the bottom)
I added some pics of our little hike up the mountain yesterday too! My calves are in SO much pain today. We had to walk up about 500 stairs! Some people were running up and down them like nothing and I was taking a breather at each landing. hehe There were actually these two girls who looked like hardcore athletes that ran up and down them FOUR TIMES!!!
Yeah I heard about what's going on in BC. I saw some footage on the news and it's looking pretty horrible in some places.
I hope it all gets better real soon.Yup we're having a cold snap.. VERY COLD! We went out for a walk up the mountain (Mont-Royal) in Montreal yesterday and we were so cold! Even though we dressed very warmly, we were still uncomfortable.
Actually, I have to update my ticker again! On my weight date Friday I was a 204.2lbs!!! I'm SO close to onderland, I CANT WAIT!
My bf is definitely a great guy. He's trying to lose some weight himself so we support eachother through tough times. Like when I want a huge chocolate bar and he wants a beer LOL! As for my family, I don't think I'd be able to live far away from them. I've thought about moving but I really don't think I could. My sisters are my best friends and I'm very close to both my parents. (I attached a pic of myself with my sisters and our bf's at the bottom)
I added some pics of our little hike up the mountain yesterday too! My calves are in SO much pain today. We had to walk up about 500 stairs! Some people were running up and down them like nothing and I was taking a breather at each landing. hehe There were actually these two girls who looked like hardcore athletes that ran up and down them FOUR TIMES!!!
So you guys have been having a cold snap, eh? We in the West have also been getting pummeled lately. First we had a CRAZY amount of snow - then temps shot up to +8 or something and we have had major flooding, avalanches, and mud slides!!! Oh, to live in Canada in the wintertime...
Anyhoo, keep up the great work. I am very happy for you that you have such a supportive BF and that you are able to get together with your family often. I love living close to mine, too. And your cupcakes look mm-mmmm good!
cheers
ABBA
Curvie Girlie
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GORGEOUS! Nice! Glad your weight is going down Here's some more from NYE
Here's some more from NYE
Brat
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GORGEOUS! Nice! Glad your weight is going down
Awesome! Dead Prez and M.I.A! Thanks Val! I'm guessing that's your youtube acct right? Well, if it's not, I just added a stranger haha..
Got any good stuff for me to download? I'm running out of music! hehe
Brat
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Lena, I'm really aiming to be that girl next year! I'm sick of my weight getting in the way of me doing the things I want to do.
Just got off the treadmill.... did 5k.. my pace isn't really great yet but bit by bit I'm running faster! I'm sweating my ass off though hahah which I take as a good sign!
awww my boyfriend just made my breakfast and put it down in front of me on the computer desk as I was writing this. Complete with napkin and multivitamin and all .. hihih..
Everything is going great over the past week.. eating right, doing lots of activities, doing my runs 3 day a week. I'm thinking that within two weeks I'll see my weight under 200! WOWWWW! I am never EVER goin to see the 200's again.. NEVER!
Just got off the treadmill.... did 5k.. my pace isn't really great yet but bit by bit I'm running faster! I'm sweating my ass off though hahah which I take as a good sign!
awww my boyfriend just made my breakfast and put it down in front of me on the computer desk as I was writing this. Complete with napkin and multivitamin and all .. hihih..
Everything is going great over the past week.. eating right, doing lots of activities, doing my runs 3 day a week. I'm thinking that within two weeks I'll see my weight under 200! WOWWWW! I am never EVER goin to see the 200's again.. NEVER!
Curvie Girlie
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YES it's me!
Hmmm I have been laggin' on new music.
That all sounds excellent--what a trooper! And WOW what a boyfriend you haveJust got off the treadmill.... did 5k.. my pace isn't really great yet but bit by bit I'm running faster! I'm sweating my ass off though hahah which I take as a good sign!
awww my boyfriend just made my breakfast and put it down in front of me on the computer desk as I was writing this. Complete with napkin and multivitamin and all .. hihih..
Everything is going great over the past week.. eating right, doing lots of activities, doing my runs 3 day a week. I'm thinking that within two weeks I'll see my weight under 200! WOWWWW! I am never EVER goin to see the 200's again.. NEVER!
Sweetheart! Reminds me of mine! WHERE ARE YA?!?!?!
purpleshirt
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It sounds like you're doing great! It's wonderful to have such a supportive boyfriend. It's really hard for me, because my hubby isn't really into losing weight. He wants to but can't really keep up with it for longer than a month or so. It makes it pretty hard to stay motivated! Not that it's an excuse, but still Reading how excited you are helps to keep me motivated too!!! Keep up the great work!! Now I want to go for a hard bike ride after reading your journal, and I have a headache!!!
Reading how excited you are helps to keep me motivated too!!! Keep up the great work!! Now I want to go for a hard bike ride after reading your journal, and I have a headache!!!
Brat
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wow I've been soooooo busy! :S I'm really busy with work, had different meetings all week and I'm starting school Monday so I'm getting ready for that.
I'm proud of myself because even being super busy and all I haven't strayed from my exercising. I know that the type of person I've been in the past with a lot of things is the person who just kinda gives up or falls off the wagon after something sort of gets in my way (ie: being so busy) But I've made time for exercise and I keep telling myself that no matter what, this NEEDS to fit into my life..FOREVER!!! No ifs, ands, or buts about it!
hmmm what else happened this week...oh yeah...I was never a huge junk eater but I did enjoy my occasional fast food runs at Mcdonald's. Over the past few months I've had absolutely no desire to step foot in one but the other day I was out shopping with my mom and sisters at a Walmart. Everyone voted to have supper at the Mcdonald's in the Walmart. (boo!) So I thought, "ok..not so bad..I'll be okay.. I'll have what I used to have which is the grilled chicken with a salad instead of fries" Well, it was a small Mcd's and they didn't have any grilled chicken. I asked the girl at the cash why and she said it's because they have a limited amount of grills and keep it for the meats only.. Also, no fresh salads.. Could you make it any harder to eat healthy?!?! heheh So anyways, I had a Mc Chicken sandwich. I screwed up once this week but I'm sure it doesn't put that big of a dent in the work I've done. It's just one meal! Oh, and it SUCKED! I'm glad it did cause if that burger was like heaven in my mouth, I'd probably be craving it all week hehe..
Still having a bit of trouble keeping my paws off of chocolate... God I love chocolate..
I'm going to a potluck party on Saturday and I'm gonna try VERY VERY hard to be good!! This will be the ultimate challenge!!
whoa those are some huge files! I've favorited that and I'll go through it tomorrow once I have more energy.. Thanks for the list!
Yeah the boy -- Markku is his name btw -- is really awesome. Over the past few weeks he's really been interested in doing what I'm doing and he says he's so proud that I'm sticking with it and that seeing me gettin up early 3 times a week and jumping on that treadmill really motivates him. So he said he'd love to go buy a pair of running shoes and run too! So on Sunday we drove to the mall and bought him a pair of running shoes! As soon as we got home, he jumped on the treadmill for 45 mins and he went on yesterday and is goin tomorrow too! WOOHOO!! I'm so happy he's doing this with me! He's always willing to learn about nutrition and following a good diet with me. He'll always ask me what I think about eating certain foods and we're having fun thinking of good meals together. It's really great to have him as a partner through all this.
Oh!! While I was at Walmart *see story above hihi* I bought a bikini! A FREAKING BIKINI!!! I haven't worn a bikini since I was like 15! Always one-piece suits that I can never tan my tummy... but I was looking through the rack and I said "You know what.. I have the confidence that I'm gonna look freakin HOT come summer time and I'm going to look smoking in this bikini!" So I bought it! I tried it this morning and it actually fits and I have to say I DO look pretty darn hot LOL! My boobs are spilling over a bit but I figure I'll lose a bit of them by summer.. (can't wait! I want smaller boobays!) So now I'm thinking since the bottom piece fits now, it might be too big in summer.. oh well.. it doesn't really matter cause it was $2! hehe I'm just happy that I had the nerve to pick it up. I also tried on a pair of tights with a really tight fitting black turtle neck and I couldn't stop staring at myself in the mirror and giggling! Is my ego getting a little too big now? lol My body gets smaller and my ego gets better..
And god the sex life is good.. (am I allowed to talk about that here?!) Whenever I get undressed he compliments how good I look and how he can't get over the way my body looks now and in bed when he cuddles up next to me, he can't stop touching me and telling me he loves my curves. So yeah, needless to say, I'm getting luuuuuuuckyyyyy! woohoo!
Hi Purple! Thanks so much for dropping by and reading about my life and my weight loss journey! I definitely love that my bf has been a huge support for me but you know, it wasn't always like that. I've been struggling to lose weight and get a hold of my life for about 3 years and he tried many times alongside with me and all of those times, he would end up bingeing and he'd kind of coax me into it too! We would say all the time that we were so bad for eachother in that sense. Finally a few months ago I felt enough was enough and I was going to do it whether he joined me or not. After a few months of watching my determination I think he kind of felt left out in the cold and wanted to join me in my journey. I'm sure your husband will come around and until he does, you keep at it girl! I'm so happy to hear that my journal and excitement motivated you and made you want to get sweating!
Geez..I didn't expect this post to be so long!
I'm proud of myself because even being super busy and all I haven't strayed from my exercising. I know that the type of person I've been in the past with a lot of things is the person who just kinda gives up or falls off the wagon after something sort of gets in my way (ie: being so busy) But I've made time for exercise and I keep telling myself that no matter what, this NEEDS to fit into my life..FOREVER!!! No ifs, ands, or buts about it!
hmmm what else happened this week...oh yeah...I was never a huge junk eater but I did enjoy my occasional fast food runs at Mcdonald's. Over the past few months I've had absolutely no desire to step foot in one but the other day I was out shopping with my mom and sisters at a Walmart. Everyone voted to have supper at the Mcdonald's in the Walmart. (boo!) So I thought, "ok..not so bad..I'll be okay.. I'll have what I used to have which is the grilled chicken with a salad instead of fries" Well, it was a small Mcd's and they didn't have any grilled chicken. I asked the girl at the cash why and she said it's because they have a limited amount of grills and keep it for the meats only..
Also, no fresh salads.. Could you make it any harder to eat healthy?!?! heheh So anyways, I had a Mc Chicken sandwich. I screwed up once this week but I'm sure it doesn't put that big of a dent in the work I've done. It's just one meal! Oh, and it SUCKED! I'm glad it did cause if that burger was like heaven in my mouth, I'd probably be craving it all week hehe..Still having a bit of trouble keeping my paws off of chocolate... God I love chocolate..
I'm going to a potluck party on Saturday and I'm gonna try VERY VERY hard to be good!! This will be the ultimate challenge!!
Hmmm I have been laggin' on new music.
That all sounds excellent--what a trooper! And WOW what a boyfriend you have
WHERE ARE YA?!?!?!
whoa those are some huge files! I've favorited that and I'll go through it tomorrow once I have more energy.. Thanks for the list!
Yeah the boy -- Markku is his name btw -- is really awesome. Over the past few weeks he's really been interested in doing what I'm doing and he says he's so proud that I'm sticking with it and that seeing me gettin up early 3 times a week and jumping on that treadmill really motivates him. So he said he'd love to go buy a pair of running shoes and run too! So on Sunday we drove to the mall and bought him a pair of running shoes! As soon as we got home, he jumped on the treadmill for 45 mins and he went on yesterday and is goin tomorrow too! WOOHOO!! I'm so happy he's doing this with me! He's always willing to learn about nutrition and following a good diet with me. He'll always ask me what I think about eating certain foods and we're having fun thinking of good meals together. It's really great to have him as a partner through all this.
Oh!! While I was at Walmart *see story above hihi* I bought a bikini!
A FREAKING BIKINI!!! I haven't worn a bikini since I was like 15! Always one-piece suits that I can never tan my tummy... but I was looking through the rack and I said "You know what.. I have the confidence that I'm gonna look freakin HOT come summer time and I'm going to look smoking in this bikini!" So I bought it! I tried it this morning and it actually fits and I have to say I DO look pretty darn hot LOL! My boobs are spilling over a bit but I figure I'll lose a bit of them by summer.. (can't wait! I want smaller boobays!) So now I'm thinking since the bottom piece fits now, it might be too big in summer.. oh well.. it doesn't really matter cause it was $2! hehe I'm just happy that I had the nerve to pick it up. I also tried on a pair of tights with a really tight fitting black turtle neck and I couldn't stop staring at myself in the mirror and giggling! Is my ego getting a little too big now? lol My body gets smaller and my ego gets better.. And god the sex life is good.. (am I allowed to talk about that here?!) Whenever I get undressed he compliments how good I look and how he can't get over the way my body looks now and in bed when he cuddles up next to me, he can't stop touching me and telling me he loves my curves. So yeah, needless to say, I'm getting luuuuuuuckyyyyy! woohoo!
It sounds like you're doing great! It's wonderful to have such a supportive boyfriend. It's really hard for me, because my hubby isn't really into losing weight. He wants to but can't really keep up with it for longer than a month or so. It makes it pretty hard to stay motivated! Not that it's an excuse, but still
Hi Purple! Thanks so much for dropping by and reading about my life and my weight loss journey! I definitely love that my bf has been a huge support for me but you know, it wasn't always like that. I've been struggling to lose weight and get a hold of my life for about 3 years and he tried many times alongside with me and all of those times, he would end up bingeing and he'd kind of coax me into it too! We would say all the time that we were so bad for eachother in that sense. Finally a few months ago I felt enough was enough and I was going to do it whether he joined me or not. After a few months of watching my determination I think he kind of felt left out in the cold and wanted to join me in my journey. I'm sure your husband will come around and until he does, you keep at it girl! I'm so happy to hear that my journal and excitement motivated you and made you want to get sweating!
Geez..I didn't expect this post to be so long!
that's accountability. you are in control of your life and your actions. stick with this attitude
and remember it when you feel down. That is freakin' awesome. he loves you so much that he dedicates himself to your hobbies. you probably show so much satisfaction after running that he wants to join in lol.
I bought a bikini!
this is really great. your happiness is inspiring and motivating to me. And god the sex life is good.. (am I allowed to talk about that here?!) Whenever I get undressed he compliments how good I look and how he can't get over the way my body looks now and in bed when he cuddles up next to me, he can't stop touching me and telling me he loves my curves. So yeah, needless to say, I'm getting luuuuuuuckyyyyy! woohoo!
hell yeah you're allowed to talk about it. you should see val's diary LOL
my bf is the same...he loves every single change on my body and notices everything. and then he just can't keep his hands off. i love that
Muggwuffin
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just stopping by too say hi, its great too see your kicking ass
Brat
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haha lena, that's good to know that I don't need to hold back when it comes to talking about the naughty stuff! *RoWrRrr!*
And speaking of naughty, is that your ass?! Hot DAMN GIRL..
So yeah, my bf has been running for a week.. I'm SO happy that he's taken an interest in my new found hobby...but get this.. today, we weigh ourselves. He started at 209 and his number today was 205! He lost 4lbs in a week.. WOOHOOO! I was so happy I high-fived him.. Then it was my turn to get on the scale... I GAINED 0.6!!! GRRRRRRRRR!!! I know that fat usually melts so much faster off men but I really have to try not to get discouraged when seeing his numbers hehehe... I haven't lost a single pound in two weigh-ins!!!! AHHH!!!
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And speaking of naughty, is that your ass?! Hot DAMN GIRL..
So yeah, my bf has been running for a week.. I'm SO happy that he's taken an interest in my new found hobby...but get this.. today, we weigh ourselves. He started at 209 and his number today was 205! He lost 4lbs in a week.. WOOHOOO! I was so happy I high-fived him.. Then it was my turn to get on the scale... I GAINED 0.6!!! GRRRRRRRRR!!! I know that fat usually melts so much faster off men but I really have to try not to get discouraged when seeing his numbers hehehe... I haven't lost a single pound in two weigh-ins!!!! AHHH!!!
Hey Muggster
Thanks for stopping by, I love visitors