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Saving those 89 dollars must be some good motivation! Very glad to hear that no-wine Friday was easier already: sounds like your chances are good for the future.
 
Great news re the gym & congrats on joining it :)
I just thought I should tell you that you (& Hana) have inspired me to cut down my alcohol consumption. Sharing a bottle of wine at the end of the day is a habit we have been in for years. There aren't many days when we don't. I'm going to aim to have 3 days this week where I have none.
 
I went way overboard with the drinking on Saturday. I'm not sure what got into me, but I started drinking and just didn't stop. There are parts of the night that are hazy from blacking out I suppose and I spent Sunday just being so ashamed of myself and having a pity party. If I had to guess, I'd say I had 5-6 glasses of wine, all on a nearly empty stomach (and don't forget I'm pretty small). Now I know that given my new abstinence during the week, I need to be weary of over drinking when I finally allow myself to have some on the weekend. That being said, this is what alcohol looks like for the past 6 days:

6/21 - No Alcohol
6/22- No Alcohol
6/23- No Alcohol
6/24 - WAY too much alcohol :(.
6/25- No Alcohol
6/36- No Alcohol

When you look at it like that, it doesn't look so bad. Saturday was really bad though. Being black out drunk is never a good, healthy, or sane thing to be. I ended up making Sunday a "no" day just because I was so mad at myself for going overboard Saturday.

Oddly enough, it feels like I'm kind of in a groove now during the week where my mind just knows I've made the decision to not have it, so the cravings aren't nearly as strong. And work has been stressful as all get out- which usually just makes me want to bury my face in a bottle of chardonnay. But it's like the devil on my shoulder is respecting my decision? Or something? I don't know. It's good though. Looking at the above stats and seeing I've only drank once in 6 days feels pretty great, I just wish I didn't screw up so sorely on Saturday. My soul still feels bruised from it. It's a terrible feeling to wake up and not remember hours of your life. I can't complain too much though because I did it to myself.

I'll update on weight loss/food later tonight or maybe tomorrow once my self inflicted wounds have healed a bit more.
 
cate said:
Great news re the gym & congrats on joining it :)
I just thought I should tell you that you (& Hana) have inspired me to cut down my alcohol consumption. Sharing a bottle of wine at the end of the day is a habit we have been in for years. There aren't many days when we don't. I'm going to aim to have 3 days this week where I have none.
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So happy to hear that Cate!! You can do it!
 
Sorry to hear about your Saturday mishap. But you are now a person who says: "Urgh, that was terrible decision-making on my part. Not having enough food in my stomach and drinking a lot clearly don't work well for me. Better give my body this week to recover and prepare myself better next time I know I'll want to drink."
Which is a LOT better than: "Urgh, I feel terrible this morning. I need to get through my work day somehow, then go have a couple of drinks."
So go you!
 
Sorry about Saturday - I found little and often worked for me - so instead of a bottle a night I'd make a bottle last two nights and then I'd already cut my intake in half whilst not having to have any no-alcohol days. That worked for me to begin with anyway. Take care and don't be too hard on yourself xx
 
LaMaria said:
Sorry to hear about your Saturday mishap. But you are now a person who says: "Urgh, that was terrible decision-making on my part. Not having enough food in my stomach and drinking a lot clearly don't work well for me. Better give my body this week to recover and prepare myself better next time I know I'll want to drink."
Which is a LOT better than: "Urgh, I feel terrible this morning. I need to get through my work day somehow, then go have a couple of drinks."
So go you!
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That's very insightful Lama and I hope you're right. So far, it seems to be the case, I just hope I can keep it up.
 
Sunflower_ said:
Sorry about Saturday - I found little and often worked for me - so instead of a bottle a night I'd make a bottle last two nights and then I'd already cut my intake in half whilst not having to have any no-alcohol days. That worked for me to begin with anyway. Take care and don't be too hard on yourself xx
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It happens I guess. I'd love to do it your way, but unfortunately once I have 1 glass, I want the whole bottle. So for me I've found that it's easier to limit the days I drink (less days to go overboard) and that way I only have to worry about going nut once or twice a week. And really now that I'm aware of it, I will take extra steps to make sure I don't have more than 2-3 on each weekend day. I think I can, I think I can :)
 
Weight: 126.2
Alcohol yesterday - ZERO

Food:
1 hard boiled egg and 1 egg white - 100
1 small plum - 30
Grilled chicken breast (100g) - 165
Baked broccoli/Brussel sprouts - 100
Avocado (100g) - 160
Veggie stir fry (1 red pepper, mushrooms, onion) - 65
1 mini cheese wedge - 70
Cous cous (1/2 cup) - 150
Mushroom stuffed with crab meat (1/2) - 200
Fresh snapper - 150
Total - 1,190

Exercise:
2 miles on treadmill @4mph

It's funny how this alcohol thing is going. The way the cravings can sneak up when you least expect it. That's why I didn't get too excited last Friday when the urge was extremely low, I had a feeling it wouldn't last. Today at work around 2pm I started fantasizing about sitting on my couch enjoying some wine to unwind after word. I couldn't get it out of my head. I used the rationalization that besides Saturday, I've only drank 1 day in the last week- I deserve it! I think for about 10 minutes, I changed my mind and said ok I can have a few tonight. But thankfully, the angel on my other shoulder talked some sense into me and reminded me that I've been here before and this is how it always starts. I need to stick to my guns, have self control, and make the right choices. There are sooo many people in this world (happy people!) who have stressful lives and don't drink every night at home. They drink during special occasions, weekends, when they're out with friends and family. Not as a crutch at home alone on their couch. I am going to be one of those people. I'm not giving up this time. It's off limits Monday - Thursday, no iffs ands or butts.

My husband and I booked a hotel for the weekend in Miami. The hotel is right near a casino that we like to play at. I also have Monday and Tuesday off work, so it should be a great little 4 day weekend. I'm really looking forward to it. I'm not sure how my plan is going to work yet, but I need to formulate a way to make sure that I have no more than 3 drinks at the casino on Saturday and they need to be at least 1 hour a part. I would like to supervise myself but I've already proved that after a few, my common sense goes out the window in regards to how many more to have because look at last weekend (and many before that!). I will figure something out...just have to get through the rest of this week now.
 
I meant to post these pictures of me from Saturday at the casino. I think I was 125 point something this day and it was the first time in a while I wore anything except work clothes since getting down a few pounds from 132. I definetly felt sexy on Saturday (until I became a drunk mess) and I could tell there were less love handles. Pretty funny (only not at all) that my glass of wine was right next to me..fitting!
 
Noregrets85 said:
I meant to post these pictures of me from Saturday at the casino. I think I was 125 point something this day and it was the first time in a while I wore anything except work clothes since getting down a few pounds from 132. I definetly felt sexy on Saturday (until I became a drunk mess) and I could tell there were less love handles. Pretty funny (only not at all) that my glass of wine was right next to me..fitting!
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A drunk mess....... Hey it happens. Im about due.
 
You look super fit! I know that's the goal of selfies and all but I can't see a trace of love handles. Very well done talking yourself down when the sneakiness started. Every time you succeed in doing so the next time will be a little bit easier.
 
You look very slim hon. I think we all inspire one another. I find having an alcohol-free day easier than only having one glass. Good for you talking yourself out of having one when you got home from work. We are stronger than we think xo
 
LaMaria said:
You look super fit! I know that's the goal of selfies and all but I can't see a trace of love handles. Very well done talking yourself down when the sneakiness started. Every time you succeed in doing so the next time will be a little bit easier.
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Thank you Lama! Appreciate the support!
 
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