SOS...I am sinking the boat!!!

I'd be lost without my Ipod...

Good to see you back Kare. I'll be back on a normal (for me) schedule next week an coming to check up on ya...

Don't let me down...:toetap05:
 
hey cabbie

yes..just got off the treadmill..did 35 minutes...a good start. the foot is still a problem but i go to the dr tomorrow. i was not walking at all as to not irritate it..but damnit..if i should be able to at least walk right

so.....tomorrow is official weigh in day for me at WW...I hope I do well...i stayed within my points throughout the week..exercised the last few days.

I am a new auntie..yay...my brother who is 43 and his girlfriend had a little 6 pound baby girl yesterday..I call her my heaven sent little girl..my Dtr loved kids and she would be so happy if she were here...so...my mother and her blasted fukin camera...sometimes i want to break them..she needs to learn how to open pictures and crop them...but no she doesnt think twice about sending out a picture with someone in the background eating...in one she took i look like i am stoned out of my gourd...and in the other i am just fuking big as hell...then the 3rd i am eating a salad and putting the fork to my damn mouth...i tell her not to take pictures but she just does...i am kind of bummed out right now...to see how big i have gotten even since ice show...
 
I am starting to think maybe part of my grief thing has been to eat too..I mean 2 years ago i was twenty pounds lighter...my dtr died in april 2007...I am just now coming to terms with some things and feel anger that i was not able to process before. Sometimes people tell you to feel what you feel but they also want to tell you HOW to feel or not to feel...whenever I have expressed anger toward the driver, people want me to sympathize with her......I am pissed man..especially since she is driving again, and seems to be going out and having a good time...I mean it has been a year and a few months since her sentence and I said I had forgiveness but really..for real...do I ..yes..but I am still pissed off...also I recently did a talk at a church and I didnt specifically use her as the example but damnit why should my dtr be the example...i am mad at myself now for two things..the drinking and driving PSA where my dtr and her friends talk and my dtr's name is basically in there...and then me going and talking at the church..why did i or should I put my dtr out there as the example...so now I wish I would have never done it...it probably doesnt help anyway.....

so maybe the last 2 years that i have ballooned up 20 pounds, has partly been because I am eating my feelings away..and drinking them too...too much booze...thats gotta stop
 
Get to the bottom of it Kare... that way you know exactly what you do and why... that's a great place to start!! Good work with the treadmill, keep up the good work! :)
 
hi all

off to the dr and run some errands

i am weighing in at 5:15...scared to eat until then, though i know thats irrational....gotta eat or gonna crash and burn....

talk soon
hugs all the way around...
 
Hey Girl!

We are on the same team for the 6 week weight loss challenge starting tomorrow!

Go Team 1!!!

Can't wait to see how we all do!!
 
Um..okay..I said 5.4..i meant 5.6...damnit..i forgot 2 ounces...well beat me with a rusty spoon and call me silly...

okay

well
today was very stressful..i had a meltdown at work and cried and cried and cried...i am not very good sometimes when something is bothering me...and i am usually pretty organized but for some reason i have a process at work that i cant get straight and i have gotten called into the owners office a few times....he doesnt take excuses and says i need to take ownership of the task..he is right but i work with someone who doesnt always communicate information needed very well..been his sales asst for two years and its been a process that i have been working through but its like all of a sudden i am fed up...i dont know what to do..i have cried at work a few times lately...i feel like a big ole dummie..even though i am not...

guess i just gotta work it out...i hate crying...

i am within my points today and going to get ready to do the treadmill...etc...
 
Oh no! I can completely sympathize with a situation like that, and communication with some people reaches a point where it is impossible and enough is enough. I hope working out has really helped alleviate some of that stress!

We're on the same team for the 6 week challenge!
 
Well I did a exercise ball workout tape..for toning..using weights...30 minutes..then I started watching the biggest loser..I was very emotional through that too..eek whats going on...at about 9:30 I got a phone call from a lady a good friend from work..she wanted to tell me some scoopy about her and her hubby..he also works there and is one of our best sales persons...needless to say it wasnt great news...then she wanted to talk to me about being upset today..she is so wonderful and has the best things to say. She has been there and worked there a long time and told me that when the going gets tough like this economy..they (the owners) start picking on people....nit picky because they are worried...we talked a very long time...I cried my eyes out again...I wonder if through my tragedy I didnt feel anything for so long that now my feelings coming back are magnified...I am feeling insecurities that I thought I buried...something to think about

Stayed onmy diet plan today..as a matter of fact I have points left over again...I am not hungry at all..so I dont know why this sudden change..I am eating my 3 squares..plus usually some fruit for snacks etc...I dont want to undereat....

After I got off the phone at 10:30 is when I did the treadmill...i am not sure i really liked it that late but I didnt want to let my team challenge members down :)...so this might be good for me

anyway...

time to try to wind down and go to bed....

hugs to all
love kare
 
Hey Sweetie! Sorry to hear about your tough time at work. I can totally relate to all of it. I work in the customer service business as well, have for almost twenty years. There are just days when it feels like no matter what you do its never good enough. I have been working hard on the worry of whether or not the boss thinks I'm doing my job. Somedays I have it whipped I know my stuff I know I'm right on and know he knows that. But then all in a small word or moment, it comes to my attention I am just as insecure as the next. I absolutely hate it. I find on those days, I have to work out. I have to get it out. I think it's partly because I get to listen to my music. But mostly it gives me time to think. Work it out in my head.
Keep the faith you know you're good. Utilize your workouts. It will make you feel better. And kudos to your eating habits not reflecting how you feel. That right there is hard enough. I know you can do it. You're a great girl. Keep it up.
BTW good luck on the challenge. It will be a good way to keep you goin. Not only will you do it for you but you have a team that is standing right there to keep you movin. GO KAREBARE:auto:
 
Biggest Loser was crazy last night! OMG! This season is going to be scary!!

Can't wait to see how it turns out.

Good job with the workout! You go girl!
 
ya i wish i had tivo so i could have seen the biggest loser

i havent done any exericise tonight but the night is young aye!

i am going to watch a little tv and exercise on the exercise ball i think....

maybe a little more on the treadmill.....

hope all is well with everyone

GO TEAM ONE ...ROCK ON!!!
 
How did the exercise go? I know that some people live in the gym, but not me. I have to really make time for it, so 4 hours a week is not a given with me.
 
trops i dont have time to live in the gym

i did my kickboxing bag at home for 20 minutes

then stretch/arms/weights etc for 20 minutes
 
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