Somehow, I feel like I've been here before...

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:)Janez

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God knows how many of these I've started over the years. Anyway, I'm not entirely sure many will remember, so hello to anyone reading!

I've been lurking these parts for the last few months, and have started to feel a bit creepy, so this is me introducing myself again :blush5:

I must have been 16 when I first signed up here, now nearly 18, I'd like to think I've grown up enough to be, erm, a bit more consistent.

I started (or more... stopped, being an idiot that is) 2 weeks ago, by stopping the constant grazing on boredom-food, making better choices, and spending less time on my arse. Believe it or not, I may be on to something here, :rolleyes.

Anyway, I lost 6lbs in the first week, 3lbs in the second, and now onto the 3rd week. A good start, but now is where the work begins...:)


Week 1 (13/07/2009): 249
Week 2 (20/07/2009): 243 (-6)
Week 3 (27/07/2009): 240 (-3)
Week 4 (03/08/2009): 240.5 (+0.5)
 
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I guess my first post was a bit abrupt, and lacking in information, but I got a bit worked up about actually posting it. I don't know why. It feels a bit...demoralising, starting anotherrrr diary. But I don't want to lurk anymore.

Anyway, starting with the basics:

Starting Weight (13/07/2009): 249
Current Weight(27/07/2009): 240
Height: 5 foot 6

How much weight do you want to lose?

I would like to get down to 160lbs. But thinking about how much weight that is makes me feel a little sick, so my first goal is to get to 200lbs.

What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?

In a perfect world, I would like to reach 200 by christmas this year, but I would rather do things properly, and let it take a bit longer if this turns out to be unrealistic.

How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?

Mainly, stopping eating uneccessary food, for boredom, comfort, etc. Exercise some more: Probably walking, and a bit of cycling at first, then build on that.

How realistic is your goal?

I would like to think it is realistic, I'm willing to be sensible, and be patient if things don't move as fast as I would like.

When will you start?

2 weeks ago :Angel_anim:
 
Good luck, Janez!
You are going to do it this time! You are off to a great start and your goals sound very reasonable. Check into the forums often...I find them to be a great source of advice and support!

Again, you are doing great...keep up the good work!:hurray:
 
dilynnlew said:
Good luck, Janez!
You are going to do it this time! You are off to a great start and your goals sound very reasonable. Check into the forums often...I find them to be a great source of advice and support!

Again, you are doing great...keep up the good work!:hurray:
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Thankyou :eek:, somehow it feels much easier this time round. Well controlling the eating is much easier, making myself exercise is a bit more tricky, but I'm working on that.

I'm a bit of a scales-demon. I like checking often (by this I mean multiple times a day) I'm a bit needy when it comes to reassurance that I'm doing things right. Yet another thing I need to work on. :smash:
 
Hi Janez! Nothing to be ashamed about by starting again :) I too have gone through the on/off diet, lost weight and put more back on a few times already. I knew i had to do something since i was about 17 and now finally at 20 i decided enough is enough and this is the last time i want to start this weight loss journey. Its been a rough start, I've probably cheated more than i should have but ive also lost almost 3 pounds in a week and half. Making smaller goals is a great way to go rather than looking at the big picture :) How much exercise do you plan to do a week? What does your daily food intake look like?
 
MicheeH said:
Hi Janez! Nothing to be ashamed about by starting again :) I too have gone through the on/off diet, lost weight and put more back on a few times already. I knew i had to do something since i was about 17 and now finally at 20 i decided enough is enough and this is the last time i want to start this weight loss journey. Its been a rough start, I've probably cheated more than i should have but ive also lost almost 3 pounds in a week and half. Making smaller goals is a great way to go rather than looking at the big picture :) How much exercise do you plan to do a week? What does your daily food intake look like?
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Hey! Thanks for the reply :)
At the moment, I'm trying to walk 45minutes to an hour, every day. Admittedly, sometimes it doesn't happen, so i'm on a bit of a mission to make sure I walk every day this week.

I entirely agree with this: "this is the last time i want to start this weight loss journey". I've wasted too much time messing around, on and off "diets". I don't think there has been a point in all my childhood/early teenage years where I haven't been overweight and unhappy about it. I don't intend to spend my adult years the same way. :beerchug:

The worrying thing about this is, I've said this so many times. It's starting to feel like lukewarm sentiments, straight out of the book of cliches. What I really need is someone there to repeatedly administer blows to my head if I screw up. :smash:
 
:)Janez said:
The worrying thing about this is, I've said this so many times. It's starting to feel like lukewarm sentiments, straight out of the book of cliches. What I really need is someone there to repeatedly administer blows to my head if I screw up. :smash:
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I understand the feeling of the "lukewarm sentiments straight out of the book of cliches". I definitely have felt that way too and am hoping i dont feel like that again.

I disagree with needing someone there to administer blows to your head if you screw up tho. If you are anything like me (which i gather you may be from what i read earlier in your diary), you eat to comfort stress...and constant putdowns and blows to the head certainly do nothing but add to your stress level therefore making it harder to lose weight and keep motivated. Everyone has a bad day here and there and there is no reason to be punished for it. What you do need, is constant positive energy and kind words to motivate you and keep you chugging along on your journey.

Good luck with your weight loss! I look forward to keeping tabs on your progress and being as much motivation as i can be to help you out. :)
 
MicheeH said:
I disagree with needing someone there to administer blows to your head if you screw up tho. If you are anything like me (which i gather you may be from what i read earlier in your diary), you eat to comfort stress...and constant putdowns and blows to the head certainly do nothing but add to your stress level therefore making it harder to lose weight and keep motivated.
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Thankyou! Yeah, stress eating is a big issue for me, I must have gained 10-15lbs over my exams in May. I became such a stranger to hunger, because I ate constantly. Not that hunger is a good thing.

Hah, can we modify it to a gentle push back on track? :blush5:
 
Ahhhh! I think i've fallen in love with fitday...I love all the calculations, and mood/food/calorie/activity logs :) *grins manically*

According to that I should be eating 2,123 calories a day, to reach my general target of 200lbs by christmas/new year. Any my intake for the day was 1,881, but I'm sure ive underestimated on a few things, so hopefully i'm about right.

I'm a bit of a geek about organising and planning, so i'm quite excited about it :) Maybe more than it is healthy for me to be. :biggrinjester:

Wow, even now i'm cringing slightly at what i've just written.
 
Your doing great so far, keep it up! :D If you keep at it, you will definitely achieve your goal. Just take it one day at a time. I've also been there the on/off again thing. Last summer I lost like 40lbs, then, for some reason, gave in to comfort eating during the winter, and am back to losing it (started back in June)... planning to keep going through out the winter this time though.
 
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tamwalt said:
Your doing great so far, keep it up! :D If you keep at it, you will definitely achieve your goal. Just take it one day at a time. I've also been there the on/off again thing. Last summer I lost like 40lbs, then, for some reason, gave in to comfort eating during the winter, and am back to losing it (started back in June)... planning to keep going through out the winter this time though.
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I did something very similar! I went from 220lbs to 175-180lbs...which was my all time low, at christmas time (2007 I think), then through all the holiday food, I gained a load back, and it snowballed...leaving me a year and a half later 20 pounds above my previous starting weight. :banghead:

I was thinking about how I lost the weight last time which was:


Spending most of my time on here, rather than eating, cutting out most bad food, (letting myself have it occasionally) and walking the same route every day, without fail, all weathers, with some cycling mixed in there.

Thankyou for the reply :D Hopefully I will still be with you still through the winter. I do like mince pies though :(

I've been a bit hyperactive with the posting today, but I'm feeling rather positive about it all :D
 
Victory of the day: I had to move the seat in the car further foward than usual in my lesson , which I'm hoping is due to a slight size reduction :)

However. I did commit my first roadkill, so it's swings and roundabouts. :eek2:
 
Ahh, I've started counting calories for the past 3 days. I probably won't keep doing it, but it was more to show myself how easy it is for the calories to add up.

My weight is being crazy and erratic over the past few days, :banghead: But I guess thats the danger of weighing in everyday.
 
So, my weight is pretty much on a standstill, and has been for the past 3-4 days. This is annoying but, I still feel pleased with my progress so far though, I feel generally a bit better about myself, plus I've managed to keep with the healthier eating for nearly 3 weeks now (unless you include the biscuit I had this afternoon, but I don't feel so bad about that). I just wish my weight would do...something, to tell me I'm doing this right.

Anyway, soon as the weather has cleared, I'm going cycling, or at least on some longer walks.

I will show this weight who's boss :Angel_anim:
 
I finally decided to read my original diary, which I kept on here. But deleted out of embarrasment? I dont know why I did. Anyway, I saved it onto my computer...Its still rather embarrasing to read...I clearly couldn't spell. Anyway, 2 pages in, and this comment I made sort of struck a chord:


" i dont think i realised before how much i ate, but the other night, i felt disgusted with myself, so i went to get more food, i felt slightly sick, but i still ate, its ridiculous, i get worked up for being overweight, when its my own fault. Im stabbing myself in the back here. I seriously must have no self respect, if i did this to myself. I just want to be able to be around my friends and not feel inferior, i know that im not, but i always feel it, so i think i also need to adress that, that being overweight doesent mean your lower in the hierarchy that thin people. Im 15, im going to college next year, then after that hopefully uni, i want to go and not be judged straight away because of my weight. "

Pretty depressing stuff...especially as things haven't really changed...I thought I was older than 15 when I joined here. Wow. Its pretty emotionally draining reading through this...and theres another 184 pages of it. I/m going to have a good read though. I probably need the wakeup call.
 
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oh...oh...

After a dissapointing weigh in this week, and some paranoia about getting lots of loose skin, I sort of knew its time to kick up the exercise. I dont want to be losing muscle, rather than fat.

I've been sticking to walking as often as I could...Wait thats a lousy excuse...

I've been walking every other day, and kidding myself that thats going to cut it on its own. Its not. I know that. You know that. So I pretty much forced myself, against the will of my overweight, lazy legs out of their comfort, and got my bike out.

I was out for about 45minutes, and now i'm dog tired and my legs hurt...:angelsad2: Cycling shouldn't tire me out like that, but I took myself on a route with quite a few uphill bits.

All the more reason I need to be doing that more often. *Apoligises to legs*:ack2:
 
Anyway so, bit of a cathartic post.

I'm so close to going eating loads of junk its untrue. The last week there has been little to no progress, and its just frustrating, and i'm cranky.

Anyway, I figured if I wrote this on here, and said that I wasn't going to eat it, then I can't really go back on my word.

Ahhh man, :(
 
Progress Update:

Week 1 (13/07/2009): 249
Week 2 (20/07/2009): 243 (-6)
Week 3 (27/07/2009): 240 (-3)
Week 4 (03/08/2009): 240.5 (+0.5)
 
Bread and butter craving. BREAD AND BUTTER CRAVING. BREAD AND BUTTER CRAVING.

I just ate a slice, and could quite literally eat masses of the stuff right now.

Argh.

This.
Is.
Ridiculous.

And probably very mellordramatic.
But, I just want to go eat. :(:banghead::banghead::banghead::banghead:
 
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