Hi Bex

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Looks like you're pretty motivated. I see you have a bit of problems with people close to you and how they are 'sabotaging' you. I've had troubles with this myself, getting given food from my relatives because 'I'm a growing boy', well Spoiler Alert: I've stopped growing taller, if I eat that all I'll grow is wider

. What I did was just be honest with them. Tell them that regardless of what they think that this is very important to you and you would really appreciate it if they would just support your decision to lose weight and get healthier.
Also I have a question about this:
"my bf told me last night that he doesnt fancy me the same as when i was 170lbs"
Just to clarify, he fancied you more at 170lbs? I don't see why. Unless he is attracted to fat and the risk of death at an earlier age I don't understand why he would say that. Does he struggle with his weight as well? Perhaps he is worried that you'll become out of his league. Regardless, weight loss is hard enough on your own, it's insane when you have people trying to drag you down. Address the issues you have with your family and boyfriend and make sure that they support you.
It seems like you have some good motivation, keep those binges to a minimal. Looks like you're doing well so far, keep it up. Good luck on reaching your goal, I know you can do it!
