Risty's Diary (Christina)

So today I am very pleased with myself. Minus the pizza I ate for lunch (only one piece though, and probably only one for supper) at least it's not 3-5 pieces as my old self would eat, lol. But other than that I am so happy! I went for a run for the first time as I was planning yesterday. My sis and I did it before work/school (for her). It was not completely a run as I am not fit enough yet (and neither is she, lol.) We went for half an hour and I'd say about 65% of it walk walking, but hell the running was sooo hard and painful for my lungs, but I survived! Not only that but I did not take the elevator at all today, I went up and down 3 flights of stairs at work 3 times, and then 2 flights at my apartment. I NEVER walk up the stairs and today I'm like, I SHALL walk up the stairs! It felt awesome. And then in 20 mins I have to leave for my cardio kickboxing, so today is an awesome day for me :D

Hey Happy, yeah I hate hot weather and so I don't think I could run in it until I got better at it. It would be much easier to run in hot weather being fit at it, lol. Dpn't get sad looking at my ticker, be inspired! One day you'll be there too. It took me a year to get to this point which is slow, but I started exercising late. If you keep on trying, you'll definately reach your goals as well, just remember it takes time :)
 
My mother-in-law...

Hi Risty,

I laughed when I read about your bf refusing the sweets and then excepting them anyway when his mom insisted - sounds very familiar to me! My mother-in-law is an excellent cook. She cooks a 5-course meal everytime we come over and likes to take us to Costco and buy $100 worth of groceries for us everytime we visit. I love my mother-in-law very much, but she can make it real tough to lose the pounds! She'll be like - I prepared your favorite dish just for you!!! Fortunately she has a really nice vegetable garden, so we can try to push for the veggies instead of everything else this summer.

If I run into you online again, I will have to direct you to my myspace account. Not sure if you have one, but I am trying to keep my page fairly up-to-date.
 
Hey Jogger! Yeah, almost everytime we go, she'' give us some sort of junk food. Hopefully her stash will be almost gone so she won't give us more, lol.
I don't have a myspace account, I've thought about getting one, just never have bothered, lol.

Oh and I went to my CK class and it was such a great workout! My legs are a bit sore from running today, stairs, and my CK class and tomorrow is my lower body day. AHH!!! I hope I survive it, especially since I was planning on raising some of my resistance, lol.
 
Oh, you'll survive, AND be proud of yourself in the process :)

How cool is that? ;)
Hope you have a good weekend Risty!
 
Hi Risty! Your doing so well, I can't believe you walked so much today, GOOD FOR YOU!! I give you major Kudo's for that. You never have to run to burn calories, walking fast is good enough. So keep up the good work, in not time you are going to be one fit little gal!! Way to go!:D
Kim
 
wow you running as well! Thats awesome. My mother is like your mother-in-law i think. She makes everything with salt and oil
I couldnt believe she could make pancakes and scones with flour and oil, then cook them in oil, and offer them to me ... ARG!
Not only did it taste disgusting but she KNEW i was on a diet! Though its normally a power play thing, shes probably just trying to sabotage my diet lol. I have to do lunch at her house tomorrow - but im cycling 90km before i get there *G*

Good on you for running - its hard to get going, but such a buzz when you manage some good distances. Awesome way to burn stuff.
 
Wishes it definately is hard to get through :rolleyes: My lungs felt like I was killing them for sure. I can't believe how out of shape I am. I mean, I've never been in shape and now it's just worse, lol. In gym all through school I was terrible at running and now it's just a million times worse, lol. I really do hope to improve on the running. Right now it was like 30 secs of running and then walking for a min or two, lol. So not so great, but it's a start. My ankles are sore today, I think it's in part from running and in part from CK. We did some diff stuff and I think I was doing it slightly wrong, lol.

About my bf's mom, her digestion is just really weird but cool! She had to have tests done because she just couldn't put on weight for the life of her, and she kept losing and it wasn't healthy. So after all that, they figured she'd need to eat something like 3000 cals a day just to NOT lose weight (and she's thin.) Also, when she eats anything that's meat or dairy her body just doesn't process them or something so in her blood tests and all that they all thought she was a vegetarian but she eats meat all the time. So, for her calories she has to eat a lot and it's a lot of bad things. She can eat all the junk and not have to worry. She bought way too much for christmas which was why we kept getting stuff every time we went. Although, I wish she would have listened and not forced us to take it when we (especially I) didn't want it. Ah well!

Thanks M2M, I'm sure I'll survive. I was hoping my less would be less sore today, but no! Lower body day is hard enough when your legs aren't pre-sore! However, I have no choice but survive! lol
 
Morning Risty! I think with your strong will and determination, you will reach your goals in no time!! I can't believe your still working out with hurt ankles and soar legs, you are one tough cookie!!:) That just shows how bad you want to get fit, I'm proud of you and you should be also!! Have a nice day today! :)
Kim
 
My ankles still really hurt (the right more than the left) and the lower body class wasn't too bad for them because it's the bands and not a lot of kicking and jumping like the cardio kickboxing. Today I had to do my CK class (cause I took my day off on weds instead of today) and I didn't know how it would go. I couldn't do the boxer skip and that's a big part of it. I just stepped back and forth instead but it's not as great of a workout. And some things you had to boxer skip with the punches (you couldn't just walk back and forth because it would throw the whole thing off, it's too slow, etc etc) so I just stood and did those punches. Plus some of the things where you have to pivot I couldn't do either.

I was really upset this morning. The scale still shows my stupid 167 and I'm getting so angry and upset about it. It's been that way ALL of April and it feels like I'm failing. But to be honest I do know I'm stronger, I can use tougher resistance bands, I can do more pushups, and I can even bend this metal bar thing my bf has (I can now bend it halfway whereas before I couldn't bend it whatsoever). And I KNOW that muscle weighs more than fat, and I'm sure I gained some muscle but it's still so upsetting to not see the scale move in almost a month. I even cried this morning because I was so upset with everything. My bf was supportive and that helped. But all through my CK class not being able to do some of the really good workout stuff made me even more upset. I know I couldn't help it, I'm injured, but I still felt like I was wasting my time. I almost went home at one point. I was trying not to cry in the stupid class. And I know I did the best I could with my injury and I did get at least part of a workout.

I think my hormones are getting all bent out of shape, TOM is next week and this is when I can be more emotional than usual. So knowing that, I think that's what's upsetting me because I know that my muscles are improving and eventually my weight will follow, but it just really hit me today and I think it is cause of my hormones.

Anyways, sorry to ramble on, I'm usually not negative and upset like this. But everyone has their moments and today is one of mine.
 
Thats weird about having to eat 3000 calories - man id love to be her! :D
Stay away from the moody TOM eating!
Dont stress to much about the weight thing, or the exercise thing. The main point is that you are working your hardest, and you are not morbidly obese by anyones standerds, just slightly unfit and chubby at most, and injured of course too :)
Though admittedly sometimes it helps to just sit down and have a cry about it, get it all out.
*hugs*
 
Hey Risty, I can totally sympathize with you, I'm having the exact same problem. My scale hasn't moved in 4 weeks. Arrrrrrrrrrgh! How annoying. Its almost as if its broken or something..I get that fleeting thought but my scale is one of those doctor's scales and its probably at least 30 years old (my boss gave it to me about 10 years ago) and has always worked reliably. I've decided to try eating at maintenance level for a few days and do more weights and see if that does anything. I'm not as disciplined when it comes to making it to the gym as you but otherwise I'll do a higher intensity cardio workout on my elliptical. Good luck with the scale tomorrow :).
 
Thanks you guys, it really helps. I know I'm improving in many ways, cardio wise, strength wise, which if I'm gaining muscle would be why the scale isn't moving. It's just hard to not see it move for so long. But, I won't give up. I've come this far and it would just be a waste to give up and get back to my old ways. I never want to become like that again. I want to be what I never have been and that is fit, thin and toned! I can't wait for the day I reach my goal, if I'm heavier because of muscle that's totally fine. I just want a lower body fat percentage so you can see some definition (I would just love a flat stomach and nice thighs/butt), and be able to do things that active/fit people do such as playing sports and go to the beach.

Talking about my goals and why I want them makes me feel better too because now I'm looking forward to it all over again. You know, when I was 216 pounds all I wanted was to buy clothes in a normal store, clothes in the mall! Now, I can do that for shirts, but pants I still can't buy in all stores, so I still have that same goal but I also want so much more! I just can't wait to go into one of those popular thin people stores and be like, damn I look hot in these jeans!

Anyways, again, thank you guys, you really helped cheer me up.
 
Stick to the plan... everything will work out eventually. You've taken care of a big mental part of it by appreciating the other improvements. you're soooo close! i still have like 2 years to go!
 
Yah Risty, that 167 is reflecting your muscle...I think you're in for a nice surprise of weight loss around the corner. You'll be in one of those skinny people stores by summer if you keep up with that exercise and eating healthy!
 
Virtual hug

Hey Risty,

Do you know - you're sooo right. When I first saw your ticker I was like "Am I ever going to lose that much?" But I guess it's steady progress like you've made over a year!

God, you are sooo good. All that activity in a day. Sometimes I get bursts of activity like that, and then I feel so virtuous! It's a great feeling though. I'm sorry you didn't register any loss - I know you've heard this loads of times but there's loads of reasons why. As you said, you're going through a hormonal phase. When it was my TOM eating I got really confused and angry because the scales kept saying I'd put on weight, but once it was over I found I'd actually lost a couple of pounds. Don't worry too much about it yet - just focus on getting through the TOM and getting better. You'll be back to peak shape in no time at all.

I agree with 2skinny - even if it's not water retention, it'll turn out that you've gained a load of muscle, which means you're due for some weight loss. Just stick with the programme (although I'll say chill out as you get through your TOM - it's not easy dealing with all the hormonal changes). You're so close to your goal - don't be discouraged, ok. :)
 
Any change on the scale today Risty? Wouldja believe mine went up a 1/2 pound??!! But no, we're not failing because we're still trying and its not our fault if our bodies our not cooperating. Its just a shame summer's so close as I really wanted to hit goal by then.
 
Howdy risty,
Your doing so good and you are having gr8 progress!
As for the clothes I hear ya I am a size 13 because a 12 is TIGHT and a 14
is loose a 13 is perfect well this store I walk by called "DEBS" have a ton
of cuite stuff they had a pair of angel jeans sizes 0-8 I found 1 size 13 and
the jeans wern't my style but over 1/2 their clothes were 7's and below geeesh I have a while!! I don't want to go back to the 200's again so much
stress and depression with that,do you ever ask yourself will I ever be happy
with myself and the way you look? I know I look way better now than I did
but I still see FAT and BLAH when I look in the mirror,I sometimes change
my clothes 3-4 times a day.
Well continue with your success and you totally ROCk girl,Tammy
 
hey!

i'm sorry i have sucked at being supportive lately!!

as frustrated as you are for being stuck at 167, just know that you are still doing your body so much good! you are stronger, leaner, and healthier than before!
 
Hi Risty

I'm with everyone else, I'm absolutely sending you a virtual hug right now. Please do not feel discouraged. I feel intimidated by the amazing workouts you endure and subject yourself to every single day. You don't even grumble about it, which is beyond my comprehension! This positive attitude of yours is so inspiring, but you're no less inspiring when you have a down moment. I just feel for you. Because you're working so hard to see no change on the scale, and like everyone else said already of course, it is muscle. It absolutely is! I cannot wait for your glorious moment when you can see the results. It's going to be soon and I also am in agreement with you about your goals changing. I am wearing a really really snug size 12 pants in stores like Express and the Limited. I had a really horrible experience 3 months ago when I decided to get an extra job at the mall that was right by my school for some extra cash. I got the job at Express and for our orientation we had to try on some of the clothes in the store to get an idea of the fit and material and such and I was so humiliated when the gazelle-like tall blonde thin chick asked how I was doing, and since I couldn't even fit the slacks over my thighs, I had to force a weak "erm I can't fit into these, I'll just skip this part." I mean it doesn't sound that bad I guess but it really hurt. I too aspire to be looking hot in those jeans, and I have complete faith in you. Really. Don't worry about that pizza either Risty, because it's over, and you actually didn't do anything terrible at all. It's so sick really, because you're exercising your ass off (literally) eating healthily, performing both cardio, strenth training, and you have a slice of pizza and feel guilty. When like you said (and the same goes for the "me" I'm trying to eradicate) the old you would have had 4 times that. You're a different person and your goals are in the forefront of your mind and that's beautiful, so I promise to be good to myself in all ways if you promise to do the same. Keep it up Risty, you're doing a fabulous job.
 
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