Relly/Cerella HERE I GO AGAIN...another LB (and hopefully many more) BITE THE DUST!!!



Food Tuesday

a cpl servings of sonny boy with brown sugar

a smokie on a bun

a serving of chips

a glass of reg coke

a nutrigrain bar

3 silohette yoguarts

3 eggs

a glass of milk

a liter of water

I should be less busy now as my fam that was visiting outta town is leaving this am so Im hoping to get my food back on track...My food isnt necessarily really bad but no fruit or veg, LOL!
 
sometimes we have 'days' where we cant be perfect..thats okay...its going to happen. i decided on the 4th that there will always be holidays where i cant make the best choices..how i respond afterward is what is going to measure my success!!

happy hump day!!

me
 


Food for Wednes

A vitmain Water (the vitamin c one)
A whole wheat chicken salad sandwich, was starving on teh way home from work stopped at Chevron to buy food, LOL

Nutrigrain bar

a serving of chips (all gone - YES)

Chinese food, moderate portion of chow mein and chicken things...LOL

Sleep 3 hrs...

Water 1.5 liters

Exercise 60 mins water areobics

 
Wow girl I dont know how you do exercise on 3 hours sleep. If I get less than 7 then I have to blow off any plans to do anything..
 
Wow girl I dont know how you do exercise on 3 hours sleep. If I get less than 7 then I have to blow off any plans to do anything..

UGH I function off of typically 3 hrs a day...It has been really bad lately...and to start posting my sleep too so i can see how bad it is...Im just so use to running off of nothing
 
Ok so, I heard from Jay yesturday, got a text telling me he just got home from the states and is sorry he hadnt gotten back to me adn he is going back there for a few weeks to help his cousin and will talk to me later, lol...whateve...I just thought that was interesting...not sure if i buy it but what reason does he have to lie, he could have just not msgd me right?

I found a few key points to my convo wiht Bal last night interesting...

He quotes Sheryl Crow in reference to me and said "If it makes you happy, It cant be that bad" He was telling me we are hanging out taking things slow and seeing where it goes...He also told me that He loves hanging out with me and that Im a ton of fun...lol

He is playing hard to get, cute...uh huh...I really dont ccare abt going slow but a lil something would be nice a kiss or something, he could hold me/cuddle with me whateve you get the point, lol...

Oh that was another quote too, "good things come to those who wait" HA HA HA

He is happy to hear he is getting to me...

Im not sure how to veiw this...Im guessing he really likes me and is a bit hesitant...and doesnt want to scare me off....I dunno...
 
Relly, my personal opinion is that if he is being a gentleman then let him be. I wouldnt be so quick to rush all of that.... enjoy the fun times and the NO PRESSURE hanging out you have now... all that is to come soon enough so you might as well do as he mentioned and enjoy what you have right now. Rushing things just screws with your head anyways!!! ( and you dont want that again right!?!?!?)


Just go Mini golfing and movies and ice cream and have fun.....


you'll get to the cuddling and all that mushy shit soon enough :) then you will be bored with that and then what hehehe ;)
 
Ok so I have been falling to post, lol, just tired and busy and yadda yadda yadda...

I ate really well yesturday...

lots of raspberries (ate them twice through out the day)
a plum
yoguart
2 servings of crackers with butter
new potatoes from garden
grilled steak
corn on the cob
beats

xl English Toffee....LOL...Bal was telling me not to depress myself by looking at the nutritional value...However, i think it had 50 carbs in it or 50 grams of sugar either or it was ridiculous cuz it was based off of 10oz and i roughly guess that the xl is abt 20...
 
Yummmmmmm corn on the cob sounds delish!!! :)


ps- play farmville.. farmtown sucks donkey dick!!! hehehehe

jkjk

anyways, how are things with your new boy toy going? hope well.


did you start P90X up again? if so how's it going? I saw an ad for kickboxing classes the other day near my house.... i may be joining. hehehe kick asssss!
 
I can check out farmville...I thought they were the same things...

No p90x yet...Im going to the island hopefully thurs morn after work, so it is a bit pointless to start now, i will start on monday at work and do it at work at the beginning of my shifts...

Things with Bal are going well I guess...I think im just a bit confused abt how things are supposta work , I dunno...

What i know is I enjoy spending time with him...and talking to him...I dont really like not knowing what is going on but ya know...here we are...

I believe he likes me and is trying/wanting to do things the right way, I guess with me personally Ive never done things the right way, LOL...

All i have been doing is the water areobics but i gotta get more in there and i like the p90 and i wanna see some results so I gotta work it ya know...Bal is trying to conveince me to go to a sauna and such but I wanna text p90 and see if you can actually get into shape in 3 months...

Ive just had so much on the go and fitting in Bal and talking to him and such isnt eay, not tha tit is hard bu tit is one more thing that takes me away from home , the kids and everyhtign else.
 
Sounds busy there! Anything happening with the weight or the usual? I just wondered as I figure you may have some of the same issues I was having with the hormones and/or the PH balance alkaline, the need for a liver cleanse, or even the insulin..who knows for sure, though I suspect the main issue was the hormones. TTYS :)
 
Sounds busy there! Anything happening with the weight or the usual? I just wondered as I figure you may have some of the same issues I was having with the hormones and/or the PH balance alkaline, the need for a liver cleanse, or even the insulin..who knows for sure, though I suspect the main issue was the hormones. TTYS :)

Ya my weight has been usual up and down...i was undoing some damage lol....Im sitting at abt 236...

Im at the point where Im gonna go for second opionon on my thyroid...Im ridiculously exhausted and aside from my work, I use to do tons and now it is all i can do to go out for a bit, I have no energy for Taneesha even on my days off:(

Im beyond, being exhausted...with my diet in check for the most part and my water areobics 3 times a week, I should be doing ok...

I think Im gonna break down and go to doc abt sleeping pills also, cuz my quality of sleep is shit...when i do crash usually only for 2 straight hrs and then tossing and turning, i need to focus on better quality, im not even feeling rested on the weekends...I can sleep for 4 hrs and not feel Ive slept at all, Im really battling life over here, lol

I saw Bal on Fri night...we did fine but i was so drained he was really worried abt me...kept asking me if i was ok yadda yadda yadda...You see when I get really run down adn beat lol I am very quiet and it is alarming to those who know me, ha ha ha...Corey picked up on that fast too, when Im so tired and exhausted I get very quiet and dont say much...prob the only time I do...

I actually thought he was gonna kiss me on Fri night...well Sat morning I guess, I was putting stuff in my wallet looking down and he cupped my chin in his hand and turned my face to his too look at me when he asked me if I was ok...LOL...

We are having a disagreement on how slow is to slow and how im feeling things are too slow and that if he is interestedin me he would kiss me or something, cuddle me in the theater I dunno...I think it is obvious he likes me but it is hard for me to desifere whatI am too him, I guess it is my fears kicking in and me looking for stuff...WhenI told him I felt he didnt feel teh same way about me he was a little rattled and upset and blahblah blah...I guess I just gotta sit back and wait it out, lol...My biggest fear tho is the more time I spend with him, the more I get into him and like him and then Im afraid he is just gonna be hey I only wanna be buds...which isnt what i am looking for...but I wont know till i floolow through right...

It couldnt have bothered him too much cuz he wanted to hang out Sunday evening...we went mini golfing and he wanted us to go earlier than planned cuz he wanted more time with me, lol...aaawww...we mini golfed it was fun, it was alot of fun cuz he is just as competitive as me...and then coffee at timmies, on Fri we went to play vid games and went for pho...

 
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Food for Monday

a p/b and butter sandwich on smart whole wheat bread, (YUM)

a cpl handfuls of popcorn

a big nectorine

beets from garden
raspberries from garden
new potatoes from garden
peas/carrots from garden
Grilled chicken breast on barbie

a venti chai tea latte (made me sick)

coke:(All i am craving is sugar sugar sigar...translation POP COKE COKE COKE:(

Liter of water

60 mins water areobics

As we all see this in me as routine , we know how low my energy levels are when I switch back to coke...I gotta figure some stuff out...
It takes all i have to go to water areobics and I dont even have the energy to jump on the trampoline with Taneesha im so angry at myself - Ive gotten so damn lazy...
 
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Relly, as you know from the crazy hours I'm often on here that I have had sleep problems for years right? I am usually such a light sleeper and seem to wake up every time I roll over. Plus I would get up after 4 hours and be up for the next 2 hours, usually around 2am to 4am I wake up. Well since I started the pill, which has a bunch of estrogen and a fake progesterone (progestin) I have been sleeping REALLY WELL. I sleep so deeply now that I dont even remember waking up once all night, like I'm on a sleeping pill (which I actually resorted to only about 6 times though my doctor gave me 2 different prescriptions). Then if I do wake up, like I did last night, I'm able to fall back asleep in about 5 to 10 minutes! YEAH!!!

In addition, what's changed about my weight SO FAR (still not confident this will keep up but very hopeful) is that if I have a few great days I lose weight, then if I do a re-feed which isn't too over the top (say around maintenance or a little higher like 1900-2400 calories) I haven't been putting on the weight I lost, or the scale only goes up one or two pounds and then as soon as I eat low again, it drops off and goes lower. That is how its SUPPOSED to be with weightloss, how it was for me when I dropped my 30 lbs before I hit my plateau. You're NOT supposed to go up and down, but never below your low, just cuz you ate one bad thing. That's what's been happening to us and its not normal.

So I have learned its not just the thyroid that effects us so deeply. The sleep and weight gain problems are classic symptoms of hormonal imbalance. So dont forget to check your other hormones, your estrogens and progesterone. What I learned from my bio-identical hormones book I only read a few chapters from (I need to finish it ASAP!) it said the blood tests are useful but they dont tell everything because EVERY PERSON is DIFFERENT and needs different levels of hormones. How tall are you? He said shorter big breated women usually need way more hormones than a taller smaller breasted woman. I should tell you the name of the book. Anyway, he does not believe in taking chemicalized hormones that are not identical to the hormones produced in our body, which makes perfect sense. So I plan on getting off the fake estrogen/progestin in my birth control that is now giving me my needed hormones. But GOSH I feel better on my hormones, I was obviously low on them since I gave birth 3 years ago when our systems can change. Also I was put on an IUD that emitted fake progesterone and I believe that may have had a hand in killing my natural hormone system. So easily and cheaply fixed with bio-identical hormones you simply rub on your skin every day.

Please please look into your hormones, and ask them to test them all including your thryoid and your 3 estrogens, your testosterone and progesterone. I really think you could possibly be having the same problem as me (same symptoms for sure, and same body type I think).

Something is OFF and that is a fact. Eating one bad thing out of all the low cal days you have, plus all that exercise, makes no sense whatsoever. Luv ya girl :).
 
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awe relly being a single mom is exhausting work..i was fortunate to have my hubby around and i was still pooped out all the time....

take care of yourself girl.....
 
Thanx Babe, I know and agree, somethign isnt right, I think it is time to get something done here...

Im 5'3 1/2 and big breasted as we all know!!!LOL
 
Thanx Babe, I know and agree, somethign isnt right, I think it is time to get something done here...

Im 5'3 1/2 and big breasted as we all know!!!LOL

5'1 and 1/2" and double D's here hehe. That means we need a lot of estrogen, according to the doctor from my book, so if your test results are on the lower side, even if in the normal range, you are likely estrogen deficient. Easiest way is to take some and see if you get results, like I have gotten, if not, you just go off them and they leave your system quickly (the bio-identical kind, not the pill which has fake hormones in them and dont exit the system quickly). I will stay on the pill till I finally get my appointment with my mom's endocrinologist in Sept (he's been booked up for months), then I'll switch to the bio-identical hormones and see if I feel even better! Easiest thing for you may be to just go on the pill and see how you feel, since any doc will prescribe the pill (I'm taking the YAZ). I felt a little nauseaus for about a week but I didn't care cuz my weight started budging.
 
5'1 and 1/2" and double D's here hehe. That means we need a lot of estrogen, according to the doctor from my book, so if your test results are on the lower side, even if in the normal range, you are likely estrogen deficient. Easiest way is to take some and see if you get results, like I have gotten, if not, you just go off them and they leave your system quickly (the bio-identical kind, not the pill which has fake hormones in them and dont exit the system quickly). I will stay on the pill till I finally get my appointment with my mom's endocrinologist in Sept (he's been booked up for months), then I'll switch to the bio-identical hormones and see if I feel even better! Easiest thing for you may be to just go on the pill and see how you feel, since any doc will prescribe the pill (I'm taking the YAZ). I felt a little nauseaus for about a week but I didn't care cuz my weight started budging.

Im DD'S TOO!!!

40 to be exact...always the same reaction from men, holy shit they are HUGE!!!LOL

Really just start with BC?YAZ?Maybe I will talk to doc abt that...going on BC
 
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