Reaching For the Dreams....

well, I behaved myself today. I had a big breakfast, thinking that I was going on another 5mile hike... j/k. my dad decided not to go because he and my brother had to try and anti-rust the car because my brother was in a minor car accident. So, I skipped eating lunch, minus an apple, which was yummy by the way. :D For dinner. Had a turkey sandwich, and I might have a naughty little piece of carrot cake my mom made from my nana's "secret" recipe. She added cocount and pineapple and something else, I don't know what to it to make it taste really yummy. :)

For my final weigh in though for the halloween challenge. I think I may forsee a problem... TOM... *sigh* I do believe that I will have TOM bloat for the final weigh in. Drat. :)
 
TOM just ruins everything doesn't he!! Who came up with this rotten TOM thing anyway?

*dodges the lightening from the heavens* Just kidding!
 
Kaitie said:
TOM just ruins everything doesn't he!! Who came up with this rotten TOM thing anyway?

*dodges the lightening from the heavens* Just kidding!
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:D!!!!! That's great! I think that god did it as punishment for Eve for biting the apple. Then, he planned it to be punishment for the men as well....They have to deal with the women! :D:D
 
wow... I just went running for 20min...

at 4:30 in the morning. I must be crazy! :D lol. But, it did feel good, and now i'm more awake. So, another week of waking up in the morning before I go to school and It'll be a habit! Fun!
 
xorie said:
:D!!!!! That's great! I think that god did it as punishment for Eve for biting the apple. Then, he planned it to be punishment for the men as well....They have to deal with the women! :D:D
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ayup - they don't call it the curse for nuttin' :D

(wonder what story athiests use... :D

Well done for getting up and running this morning.. on a good morning ican walk to the kitchen for a hot beveredge
 
well, i got to move my ticker again today! I'm happy. It wasn't much of a weight loss, but hey, it moved on my scale, letting me see, 191. That's what made me to a loud and crazy happy dance that had my dad raising his eyebrow at me! :D
 
ha, just kidding on that last post. PTOM has decided he wants to move in this week, so I'm totally holding a bunch of water weight. at the moment, I'm at 194... that's 3lbs heavier than i was 2 days ago. *sigh* oh well. But, I really really really really really really really really really want to lose this weight... Oh my gosh, it's horrible actually. I want new clothes for christmas so badly, and a lettermans jacket. But, I don't want to get the jacket too big if i'm still losing weight. I'll probably end up getting one around spring time.

Though, i think i'm hitting a dead spot in my motivation.. i know it seems weird saying that because i seem so upbeat, but.. i don't know, everyone around me is skinny. (that would be volleyball people) It was so hard today at the "team dinner" seeing everyone there being able to pig out without a second thought. One player even ate THREE big slices of the carrot cake that I made... THREE!! :eek: It also got pretty bad when another player said something about her being fat... (she's actually tiny), and i just, i don't know, became even more self concious about my weight, and the fact that i'm still one of the biggest players there are in the school leagues... volleyball is a sport for skinny people.

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sorry. I just had to get that out, it's been bugging me for a while, being the only larger person on my team, and I needed a place to be able to rant about it. Especially because i know that some of you will understand, if not all of you. It's not the same as when I talk to my best friend, because she's ALWAYS been skinny, and a wonderfully nice and popular person at school. So, talking to her doesn't always work for me.
 
xorie, congratulations on doin so great!!! I wish I could get up at 4:30 in the mornin and go run, but it is waaaaayyy too cold and waaaaayyy too dark. lol
 
I kno how you feel babydoll.

My weight is one thing that's always held me back from playing on any kind of sports team.

It's also the main reason I didn't take gym until my senior year.... :eek:
I was embarrassed.

You remind me so much of my own best friend though.

She was always chubby like me, but one day she decided she wasn't going to have that anymore.

She joinded the volleyball team as well, and at first was of course very self- conscious. But the more she played, the more weight she lost.... I literally watched her disappear before my own eyes. I think she went from a 16/17 to like a size eight in what seemed like a matter of months.

She got discouraged at times, but she did it. Just like you.

You're doing it.

I kick myself everyday for not getting involved in something like that.

I let my own self-esteem issues hold me back from doing a lot of things I know I would enjoy.

Don't be like me, when it comes to this.
Keep going. I know it's tough sometimes, but your more than halfway there.
 
*runs to hug Jen*

omgosh thank you! I so needed that today! Thank you thank you thank you!

anywho, was good. Had cereal for breakfast, (though maybe a little too much) a PB&J sandwich with "good for you peanut butter" and then a cheese quesadilla for dinner. with a whole wheat tortilla, and only about 1/4.5 cup of cheese, which is like, 120 calories. :D Then, i'm done. And we have our last vb game of the season today, so there are some major calories burned for me!
 
Oh Xorie,
It is so hard when we compare where we are to where everyone else is...but they are not you.

You are dong SUCH an amazing job - I can't tell you how proud I am of you and how hard you're working to make this change NOW! I wished I had done it at your age! Not only will you get this weight off, you'll be better suited and ready to handle the tough times of the Freshman 15. You'll know what you need to do to maintain your weight when your friend's eating habits start catching up to them.

I know I would have loved to figure that out at 18 instead of 40!

Girl, you have come so far and less then half way to your goal!! Be proud of who you are right now, for all that you've done and for where you're going!

Hugs,
 
Thanks m2m... I did need those words of encouragement. *hugs*

Thankfully, I did do better today than I thought I would. After the game, (which we won of course:D) I had a few animal crackers, and maybe three dark chocolate hersey's kisses. That was pretty much my only sin today, minus the extra 1/2 bowl of cereal I ate this morning. :D
 
Isn't it amazing how one bowl of cereal is rarely enough to be satisfying!!

I was STUNNED to find out a serving was really only one cup! LOL!
Congrats on the Volleyball game!
 
M2M said:
Isn't it amazing how one bowl of cereal is rarely enough to be satisfying!!

I was STUNNED to find out a serving was really only one cup! LOL!
Congrats on the Volleyball game!
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omgosh yes, i was shocked as well, thinking, wow... i've been eating A LOT of servings of cereal then... lol

but... the good news is, *drum roll please*

189.4!!!

I made it! I'm only .4lbs off of the goal of 14lbs gone by halloween! I am in a kind of shock that I was able to do it! I'm so happy for myself! Great job everyone who participated in the challenge. You all did wonderful!
 
Woo Hoo!!! You are OUT of the 90's!!!
CONGRATULATIONS Xorie :D I so look forward to following in your foot steps :D
 
Yay Xorie! I'm doing the happy dance for you!

It also got pretty bad when another player said something about her being fat... (she's actually tiny), and i just, i don't know, became even more self concious about my weight, and the fact that i'm still one of the biggest players there are in the school leagues...
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I hear you there...when I hear someone skinny complaining about what a cow she is, I look down at myself and think, "so what does that make me?" I've said that to friends; they always backtrack, and say I look fine, but I know what they really think. They just don't want to hurt my feelings.

K, rant over. Really, congratulations!
 
oh yeah, i'm well...

districts were today... annnnnnnnndd.... WE'RE GOING TO THE CHAMPIONSHIP GAME! if we beat Shorecrest, the we go to state! I'm super excited. This would be an amazing thing to do, since 8 seniors are graduating this year, and we will have a totally different team next year! Cross your fingers everyone! the next game is next saturday!

p.s. I gained about 3.5lbs today in water weight... who knew anyone could drink that much? :D I had about 8 total nalgeens today....wow...
 
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