Reaching For the Dreams....

squidney101 said:
Congrats on the running and the parish BBQ, sounds like youve been doing great.
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Ha, until today. Ohmygosh... i was soooo bad. I'm rather ashamed of myself. Had waaay too big of breakfast, had a hamburger for lunch, and a hot dog for dinner. plus some unhealthy snacks in between. I also haven't been running in a few days, and I feel like the bandwagon has kicked me off, then up and left me standing alone in the desert by myself. Not good. Not good at all.:( :(
 
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Everything is falling apart. I can't seem to stop myself from eating unhealthy foods, I'm not running anymore, and my emotions are haywire. (probably PMS) *sigh* Everything just isn't going right at the moment. and I'm falling farther and farther behind the bandwagon. I'm rather down in the mouth at the moment, especially because I feel like I let my team down in the weight loss challenge. Nothings working for me. sorry guys. :(
 
xorie said:
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Everything is falling apart. I can't seem to stop myself from eating unhealthy foods, I'm not running anymore, and my emotions are haywire. (probably PMS) *sigh* Everything just isn't going right at the moment. and I'm falling farther and farther behind the bandwagon. I'm rather down in the mouth at the moment, especially because I feel like I let my team down in the weight loss challenge. Nothings working for me. sorry guys. :(
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OMG xorie, the same exact thing has been going on with me lately. I've actually been kind of ashamed to show my face around here for the past few days because of it. I've gone on total binge mode. We're just going to have to get back on track no matter what it takes. We didn't come this far just to give up now, right? I'm there for you, girlie. Let's take back control.
 
Thanks Image. I too have been avoiding the site...But we're all in this together. Thanks again for the support. It feels good to know that there are people out there who are going through the same things that I am going through. *hugs*
 
Wow... The last time I update this journal was back on August 11. It is now September 10th.

It was hard coming back. personally, I feel as though I have failed myself. I went on a horrible binge mode, and I gained back 10lbs! It was horrible. I ate nothing but crap for 3 weeks, and I felt awful. But nothing I could do would get me back on track. I was ashamed to come on the site, and I probably did the worst thing by not sharing my problems and trying to deal with it myself.

I went to tryouts, and made the varsity team. But even that wasn't really enough to get myself back in gear. I did stop gaining though. Finally, last week, I made a resolve to fix my problem. I wrote myself a contract, that in my personal journal, (in a notebook on my desk where I can see it all the time) that I would NOT lie, cheat, or make excuses for myself and what I ate and did. so far it's worked. I have moved down from 209, to now, 205. I want to get back into one-derland. I must say, it was a wonderful place to be in. :)

I'm sorry that I pulled away. Hopefully now, I can finally continue with my weight loss. I really do want to lose it.
 
well, was good today too! I'm back on track! finally!

I had a piece of cheese toast for breakfast.

A PB&J sandwich and a banana for lunch. I don't know what i'm going to have for dinner. Maybe some spinach raveoli. mmmm....:)
 
YEAH!!! Welcome back and I'm glad that you feel like you've regained control. Keep up the good work! :)
 
I got to move my ticker again. I'm now at 203. I can't wait to get back under 200. I really liked it there. Was good again! only, i don't get to play volleyball because we had a bomb threat at our school. Oh joy...
 
Xorie,
I am *so* glad to see you back!!

Good for you for dusting yourself off and jumping back on the wagon - it sure beats getting rolled over by it ;)

Congrats on making varsity, and it's terrible to hear about a bomb threat at your school :(

Check out the Club section girl, there's a halloween challenge about ready to begin - I'd love to have you on my team!
 
I'm glad to be back. And i did check it out. I'm doing it! The challenge starts on my birthday! Go me! 17 here i come!
 
we're not gonna let you leave again.. it's that simple.. :D sit your behind it the chair and stay put.. oh wait.. exercise too.. maybe a big bungee cord we could attach to you so you'll always find your way back...

well done on making varsity.. booo on the bomb threat...
 
heehee... i was recently playing with a bungee cord too! :D Thanks. I'm glad to know that I can easily get the support i need while here!
 
Well Had a good breakfast. Then a lock down at school...*the popular thought is that tomorrow it's either going to be an earthquake or an air raid :D) Lunch, went to Taco bell... had a beef and potato burrito (but not the whole thing) and a part of a chicken quesadilla. Dinner's gonna be small. I did have 3 hours of volleyball practice today, and we did a leg and abs workout too. fun fun...:rolleyes:
 
OMG XORIE!!!!! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH. YOU WERE LIKE ONE OF THE MAIN PEOPLE WHO KEPT ME GOING ON HERE AND AFTER YOU LEFT I WAS JUST LIKE...NOOOOOOOO! Don't do that to me no more ok?

Yea. I'm tryin to get back in the groove though.

Remember like I always used to say, we're gone handle our bussiness, whether it be now or later. Preferably now ofcourse.
 
Woohoo! we won tonight! Against rival school Cascade! (I go to Everett High, on the other side of town) I didn't have the best of games, but wasn't too bad either. The only crappy part was when I rolled after trying to get a shanked ball, someone in the cascade crowd yelled "nice roll fatty" ...*sigh* I HATE dumb teenage boys who think they're cool by insulting the fat girl who, if they were close enough, would make them take their words back! oh well. I want to get the weight off more than ever now.

but, didn't do so well eating wise today. I had cheese toast for breakfast. a pb&J for lunch. chili for dinner. (high in protein and stuff for volleyball energy) then, after the game, I was STARVING seriously, i drank a ton of water, but my stomach wouldn't stop growling! argh! so i went home and had another pb&j (i know, i'm addicted) and two glasses of milk. (oops)

I hope to do better tomorrow! And i'm excited for the starting of the halloween challenge! what a great way to start my b-day! (which is tomorrow!)
 
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