That's exactly it, LaMa. There seems to be a simple solution... eat healthy and you will be healthy. But then there are all these fads and diets that make it confusing. I suppose it is like anything in life-- CONFUSING! I guess the bottom line is that one must learn what is needed for one's own body and that is all. The hard part is that there are so many factors to be considered so it takes a lot of time, energy, and perseverance to figure it out.
Today I'm feeling pretty good. Yesterday it was so hot out and I'm happy that it was a step day. Before step, I arrived at the gym early and did 10 minutes on the stair master to pass the time. I was dripping in sweat. Luckily the step room is air conditioned so it wasn't torturous. The class felt great but I was dead at the end. I didn't stay for the last few minutes of stretching and abs. I regretted it afterward but sometimes it gives me anxiety and I'm not sure why.
Today it is still quite hot out, but I think I will attempt to run in a few hours. I think I last ran on Monday so it's been a few days. I am a tad sore today but nothing too bad. I think I will go the long route and aim to run a 5k and then walk the rest. Who knows with this weather, though! I am looking forward to getting a good sweat in.
Tomorrow morning I am getting some blood work done at the endocrinologist. The doctor told me that she thinks she will put me on a certain medication but she wants to just check in with hormones and things first, just to make sure. I am excited to get the ball rolling on managing my PCOS. I'm interested to see if it affects my weight at all. I have done some poking around on the internet and it seems that the side effects are all over the place. Some people gained weight, some people lost weight, some didn't notice any loss or gain at all. Either way, it is just one more step in the right direction of having a healthier body.
Tomorrow I am headed down to my friend's beach house (rented) for the day. I don't think the weather is supposed to be all that good but we could end up going to the beach. You know what that means... bathing suit. I used to be so self-conscious in a bathing suit. Now, I am just SLIGHTLY self-conscious. I used to wear tankinis (bikini bottoms with a long tank top-like top, aka covered stomach), now I wear tops that don't cover my stomach. The last time I did that was probably my freshmen year of high school. Not that I have my dream body or anything, but I feel more comfortable in my skin. I don't think I look like a beached whale any longer. I think I will feel slightly uncomfortable but I am not letting my weight hold me back any more. That is my bathing suit and that is what I am going to wear.
Of course, being away from home for the day (and probably the night) comes with a few stressors. Firstly, I will most likely be drinking. I will be sure to purchase alcohol from the store for myself so that I can control what I am drinking. I will also try and alternate my alcohol consumption with water consumption. I don't drink a lot, or frequently for the matter, but I have noticed some issues the last few times I've been drinking. These issues include throwing up and also blacking out. I am guessing it is because I am not eating as much, not as many carbs, and also I weigh 30 pounds less than I used to. I don't want anyone to get the impression that I have a drinking problem, because I certainly do not. I am strictly a social drinker... I don't ever drink in my own house. When I am with friends, I like to kick back a bit but I need to adjust my habits now that I am smaller. I never even realized what was happening until the third bad experience with drinking. I don't think I would even mind not drinking at all, but I kind of want to find the balance and better understand my body. I can't just cut out every single thing that needs adjusting. Oddly enough, that would be taking the easy way out.
Aside from the drinking, I'm sure there will be non-healthy food options at the house. I will be arriving tomorrow at about lunch time so I will be sure to eat breakfast and either eat lunch on the road (about an hour to get to the house) or bring it with me. I'm sure there will be snacks around and I'm sure the dinner options will be less than desirable, but I'm confident that I can try and pick the best option for me. In all honesty, I don't want to be arriving to the house with hoards of healthy food, looking like a weirdo. I want to be a functional healthy person who doesn't appear to be obsessed or judgy about food. Just another thing that I need to figure out how to navigate.
141.9 on the scale this morning. That's where I was before the holiday weekend. I am getting close to being out of the 140s and it is getting me so excited for the 130s. My next mini goal is 137, because that will be 35 pounds lost since I started this lifestyle. 5 pounds to go until I reach that. I think getting back to work these past few days has helped me with my eating, but not so much with my exercise. Although I'm only working 4.5 hours per day, the work is tiring and draining. It has also been an adjustment waking up at 6am and getting myself going so early. Like I said, it has helped me to be less of a picker and boredom-eater, but also made me more tired and slightly less motivated to work out. I still have managed to work out every day, but I haven't felt as strong as I usually do. I'm hoping that it's just taking a few days to get adjusted and I will be better next week.
Tomorrow I will likely take as a rest day. I think my body needs it. For now, I am hearing some rolls of thunder outside so I'm hoping that passes quickly so I can go out for a run. If not, I will make myself go to the gym (even though I don't want to go). Have a wonderful night everyone!