Radiant's Diary

sounds like you are doing plenty considering your knee. and am sure your knee will be using enough energy to repair itself so burning calories around the clock.

keep going...you're doing fine

;-)

x
 
Wtf. Calories at 1079... that is messed up. But I checked and everything was right on my counter. I'll make a sandwich or something. I hate that time of month when you are stuffing your face one day then not hungry the next. I want some damn chocolate. Grr.

Exercise today was just my at home stuff and conducting music for two hours... but not two hours straight. More like half an hour or 45 minutes total. But yea, not like that did anything except a slight arm workout.
 
Today has been pretty good.. I don't have a final cal count for the day, but it's been less than 1100 so far.

I only have one pair of jeans that fit right now (fat pants :( ) and I was hoping to have shrunk by the time they wore out, but they've been rubbing on the inner thighs because of my brace, so now they got a hole in them!!! :( I have to be a gimp trying on cloths (god that is going to be so exhausting) plus trying to find a pair that actually looks descent yet again in this larger size. (I'm bigger than a 13 right now .. around a 14/15 which has NEVER happened before). Ugh. I hate not being able to exercise.

Now onto a happier note: I went grocery shopping today, and when I was putting things away, I took out EVERYTHING I owned and did a complete revamp (took like 15 minutes because I'm in the dorms and don't have THAT much stuff).. but I threw out all the crap that was in there for months. I threw away some chips and whatnot... and my cabinets are the healthiest they have ever been.

So basically today is on track for cals, boo on the pants, yay on the cabinets.
 
So cals ended at 1847 which is good for me now. I'm aiming for between 1700 to 1950 as I do a little bit of exercise, but not like I used to.. so I figure if I have lower cals it's okay, but as I'm back at the dorms, walking all around campus, etc. that I need a bit more energy, so I have to eat more protein and whatnot.

So today was fine in that respect.
 
Well my cals yesterday were too low.. at around 1300. Due mainly to the fact that I've been stressed/depressed and just can't bring myself to eat. I'll do better today I hope. Usually it's the other way around and I comfort eat.
 
So instead of posting my exact calorie count from now on, I'm just going to put if it's been good or bad food - wise as I am wanting to take more into account about my food than only my cals.

Today was REALLY good. Stayed in my cal goals and didn't eat a single thing bad for me.
 
Sooo today was a bad day food-wise. I did get told I don't need to wear my knee brace anymore, so that is nice.. however my leg hurts like heck after not wearing it today!
 
Hi Radiant!
I think it's great that you're focusing on eating healthy more than on the amount of calories. This will help you not only to lose but also to maintain when you've lost the weight.

Yay for taking the knee brace away! Don't worry if it hurts, the first days are always difficuly b/c the knee has to learn to work on his own again.
Hope you're feeling better today!

Take care
India
 
Thanks!

I'm still keeping track of my calories, I just don't feel like posting exact numbers on here every day, haha.

I used to take the brace off when I was around home and whatnot (basically where I wouldn't slip on ice or walk up/down stairs), so it's not a huuuuge stress on it, but it is more so than before. It only gets better from here! I am going to ask my physical therapist today if it is okay for me to do the elliptical again.
 
Soooo I have been horrible lately. I've been eating whatever I wanted and not exercising aside from physical therapy. I'm angry at myself. I also stopped posting on here, which I think is one of the reasons that I've not been so motivated. Time to kick my butt back into gear again :(

I am still doing physical therapy three times a week. Today, she told me I am allowed to do the elliptical, and she offered to add that to my pt, so I'll get some elliptical in at least three times a week for days that I feel too busy with other things. That is nice.
 
Keep up the good work, RP. Even three days per week of anything sounds like a lot after surgery. I am sure you will be back in the swing of things by the time it is nice outside. :)

-J
 
hey just dropped in to say hi

i think you know exactly what you need to do to get back on track. you have come such a long way since your operation. keep up the good work. i bet the elliptical missed you.

;-)

x
 
Hi Radiant!
Don't beat yourself up too much, I'm sure you'll make up for the slip-ups.

It's great about the elliptical, it's good exercise and a great starting point to get moving again.

I'm sending you hugs and smiles!
India
 
Thanks for the support, guys.

I'm back up to 192. Blech. But I feel like I have to be honest with myself.. lying and saying that I am lower than I am will only discourage me once I get working hard and don't see a decrease as soon as there technically is one.

I am so incredibly stressed out with all the school work lately. Take my theory class for example. We have assignments due Monday, Wednesday, and Friday of every week. They are analysis of pieces by Mozart, Back, Chopin, etc. Our last one was 17 pages long. It's overwhelming and I am at a breaking point right now. I don't exactly know what to do :(
 
just concentrate on one thing at a time. priorotise and give one thing at a time your full attention. that works for me.. like last week was my last week of teaching practice and i had to more or less get eerything perfect more than teachers even. i gave it my everything and came through. i had put on a couple of pounds at the end of it but at least now thats doen and i can concentrate on losing the weight.

just a thought

have a good day

x
 
Urgh. Two months of neglecting both this site and my body has put me back up to my starting weight. My grandfather died, I got really down about things, and I'm trying to get back into my normal life. I'll keep trying to post. I put my calories into fitday.com today, which I haven't done for a couple months as well. I ate really healthy today so far, but I guess I'll have to see if I can keep it up (at least for a little while) again. Back to the baby steps to get myself on track.

Sooo I just weighed, and apparently I'm ABOVE my previous starting weight. Urgh. Better to be honest with myself though.
 
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