Project C

Congrats on the cami! :D I totally agree with your quote. I don't think it should be about proving to others as much as to and for yourself.

Hope you are having a great day :D Keep up the great work, C :D
 
Hi I

First of all great job on your cami, I remember doing that with a few of my shirts and it's such a great feeling, you feel like screaming at the top of your lungs. LOL (well at least I did). So happy for you, and remember you did this!

I agree, we have to lose weight for ourselves not others, my mom was constantly making comments about my weight when I was heavier and it was extremely hurtful, especially considering she'd battled her weight since she was 18, so she you would think would know. I lost the weight for myself because I was sick of looking in the mirror or seeing pictures of myself, now my mom is telling me that she thinks I don't need to lose anymore, I just think pffffffffffffffffffffffffft, this is my deal not yours!! LOL.

take care girlie

cheers
michelle
 
Thanks for the support everyone. :) I had to just... get it all out. Cause it just irritated the hell outta me yknow what I mean? It just had to be said!

Anyhoo, yesterday, I went to a buffet dinner with my friends. Not the best restaurant to frequent I know but I had a 20% discount card that my Mom got for free cause she won something else at the local Chinese radio station. When she went to pick up her free gift, they gave her the buffet discount card too. I used one of them and went out with some of my friends. Cause one of them, Brian, is leaving for Paris tomorrow. I'm so envious of him. I backpacked in Europe a few months a few years ago. And Paris was one of my favourite stops. Sigh. I'd love to be back in Paris. Everything about the culture I just love.

Anyhoo, running off topic... Buffet dinner. I was horrible. But at least I didn't order any special drinks and just drank water. I had peking duck which was bad but I did supplement with some sushi. Lots of actually. And I had alot of fruit for dessert. I had a bite of almost all the dessert but I didn't eat alot of it actually. Much less than what I used to eat at a buffet in general though. I practically kept telling myself, "All You Can Eat does NOT mean Eat All That You Can."

It's been hot and sticky these last couple of days. Going as high as 39C (about 102F) which is unusual cause I live in Toronto and that's north enough that we don't experience that kinda heat until at least August. But it finally rained yesterday. Thunderously and thankfully. And it's cooled back down to low 20s (around 68F). And it's gorgeous, so I went for a nice walk today around the block and back again. Afterwards, my brother and I went to Futureshop cause he wanted to buy a videogame. He decided to buy some Felix & Norton cookies (ie: pricey buttery gourmet cookies). I think it took every fiber of my willpower not to eat those cookies. Not even a bite. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. And I was starving at that time too. In fact, still am. But I'm waiting for dinner. So I'm guzzling water down right now.

*guzzles*
 
That Was A Awsome Editorial And You Are Doing Great!
 
Don't worry about the buffet, as long as you don't do it two days in a row you shouldn't really gain much weight at all, if any.

Did I read that right? Chinese food buffet? My favorite. Yum!!! I would have inhaled any egg rolls in sight. haha Watch your fingers peeps. jk
 
wow, I agree with JB- I would seriously go crazy with eggrolls...mmm... anyways~ hope you have a fantastic weekend, I'll see ya later :D
 
mmmmmm, chinese buffet!!!! My fave! :D Just don't do it often :)

Have a great day (and great job on no cookies!)
 
I'm with everyone else, I love them all you can eat buffets, especially chinese:D but don't worry today and tomorrow and the next is a whole new day. You'll be fine just drink lots of WATER :D have a great weekend and stay POSITIVE
 
Chinese buffet, I love spring rolls with tons of plum sauce. YUM is all i hafta say. Glad you had a good time.


cheers
michelle
 
Wow! Great willpower with not eating those cookies! In my family, it seems like the first day of any diet I start, Someone brings something really tasty home-Fresh baked cookies from the bakery for example. This past Monday when I started MY FINAL diet, my little brother baked a cream pie! :eek:
I did have some but still managed to lose. As long as you keep goin you will be fine. Just don't do what I used to and say "well, I messed up, I might as well eat the rest of the weekend and start again Monday!" That would be BAD!
 
hey guys, gotta make this short. but saw this and thought u guys would love it.
definitely do NOT exercise like this. ;)

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more later!!
 
LMAO!!! Brings a whole new meaning to " reward yourself for your hard work" !!!! LOL

Hope you have a great day :D
 
heh. so I finally have a lil more time to visit the boards... and recap how things are. wow. guess everyone here likes egg rolls. I'm more of a spring roll fan myself. I don't do Chinese buffets very often... I do alot more sushi buffets... O=) ...which is only SLIGHTLY healthier. heh. But it was a good meal. I DID eat fruit! Though... if I thought Wednesday was bad...

My family went out for dim sum Friday morning cause my brother took a day off from work. I had to REALLY struggle not to eat any off the shrimp spring rolls which I adore. And they also had alot of other yummy foods I loved. But I only ate the stuff that was steamed. There was fat... sure. But it wasn't deep fried at least.

What was really terrible is that Saturday night, I was helping my parents at our bakery (I made 486 walnut cookies that day). Yes, I am a baker's daughter. I hadn't really eaten anything and I ate 5-6 little butter cakes (About the size of a bottle cap). I also ate a dinner roll while I was there and a walnut cookie. Usually, when I'm there, I'd have nothing at all. Maybe a dinner roll at best but Saturday I was starving cause I hadn't had anything all day and it was like 6pm. We didn't leave the bakery til around 11 at night and since we were all too tired to cook... We went out for a late supper at a Chinese congee restaurant. Congee is Chinese rice porridge. They serve also fried noodles, fried rice and fried rice noodles and the like. We ordered 4 dishes and I basically chowed down on a HUGE plate of fried rice... which wouldn't be SO bad except I'm diabetic. I'm only supposed to have maximum 2 servings of rice per meal (about 0.75 cups of rice). I think I must have had... At least 5 cups that night. EEEP!!

So I'm trying to be VERY VERY good right now. I haven't been watching my portions as closely as I should. Two servings of starch. Three oz of meat. No more than that. Meat must go with every serving of starch. Gah. I know it in my head... But I just... seem to forget during dinner time. I think I need a refresher course with my nutritionist or something. :(

In other news, I realize my appointment with my endocrinologist is coming up soon (July 12th). That's only FIVE weeks away. This is what I've been trying to lose weight for ladies. This is like D-Day. I've been taking diabetic pills twice a day for the last 5 months or so. I was told if I lose some weight, I MIGHT be able to stop taking them or at least cut back to once a day. So I'm hoping I make enough progress for this to happen. I don't want to take this medecine any longer than I have to tell you the truth. Not only is it expensive and I'm not insured but it's bothersome. I'm really hoping in 5 weeks, I can be 260. That's about 14 pounds away. The endocrinolgist saw me last time when I was about 292. I'm kinda worried with all these restaurant meals that I'm not gonna make a significant enough of a change. Moreover, I'm worried that the 20 some pounds I've lost since I last met her won't be enough. Or worse... What if the 30 pounds lost won't be enough either? I am going scale crazy and I keep weighing myself and it keeps saying I'm 276 and not even 274 anymore. And I KNOW cognitively, it's water retention due to salt intake... But I'm going outta my mind here!! GAH!!!

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Although, I am eating more proportionately these last few days, I haven't really exercised. I'm feeling very... down. About everything. The more I think about my current situation the more depressed I get. I don't wanna get gluacoma or have my legs amputated when I'm older. I'm really worried. And I haven't really told anyone personal to me that I am. I'm trying to be brave and lose the weight and just be healthier. But it's really... Well, hard. I mean, I'm thankful I don't have cancer or whatever. But still.... I never really thought I'd be here. I really thought I had all the time in the world. Sigh.
 
You're amazing!

You have made a lot of changes. Don't underestimate that. :eek: You've had opportunities to binge and you have consciously done what you could to minimize the badness. PAT YOURSELF ON THE BACK!! If you're having trouble exercising start with something small. Turn on some music and dance around the house. Start with a song or two several times a day. It will boost your spirits and I'll bet you'll find yourself on a treadmill before you know it! :p

Drink water, be good to yourself and be PROUD!
 
Try to stay positive! I know it is soooo hard to not be able to see changes over night. We are such an "immediate gratification" society that we hate when anything takes too much time. I have a HUGE problem with wanting to be smaller TOMORROW and the long haul...just seems tooo long in comparison to the immediate gratification a bowl of ice cream will give me. BUt really try to focus on positive thought...every time you hear that little voice saying those negative thoughts.....just shut it down, push it out, and quickly replace it with a positive thought. I really think we have to learn to like ourselves ...no, love ourselves...to finally make this weight thing change for the good! You can always come to the boards and read posts for encouragement ...if not to just get your mind off of eating, food and EVERYTHING ELSE!
 
Come on, C

Come on, C, you can do it! Those diabetic complications don't happen overnight, and you have already lost a significant amount of weight...

According to my calculations, if you were 292, and you have 14 pounds to go to reach 260, then you have lost 18 pounds. 18 divided by 292 equals 0.06164...

Girl, that means you have Already lost 6.2 % of your TOTAL WEIGHT!!!!!!!! I'm not talking 6.2% of the amount of weight you need to lose, I'm talking 6.2% of your WHOLE BODY! Now, come on, that is something to be proud of. You can't stop now!!! When you have lost down to 262, Just 12 more pounds, you will have lost over 10% of your total body weight! YOU CAN DO THAT!!!!!!

And, BTW, according to the calorie usage calculator, dancing slowly for 30 minutes burns more calories than going for a walk for 30 minutes, so Sillygirl is right on. Shake your groove thing, baby!
 
C, you have come a long way and are going to go farther!! DOn't give in to the negativity in your head!!! YOu can do this!! Be proud of how far you've come and every now and then assess how far you have to go to keep you focused. YOu are doing so well and you can make your goal by your appt. NOTHING is impossible unless you don't try! So try really hard and enjoy your successess!
 
I agree with everyone else.. You came so far and you just can't give up.. At your rate now you do have a long time to live and you have enough time to loose that weight... You are not sitting around doing nothing about your weight.. You are getting uop and being active and eating right. Don't put yourself down for your accomplishments now. It takes time and you have to accept that... We care for you, and don't wanna see you quit on yourself..

Have a WONDERFUL Day and DRINK that WATER!!!:D
 
It can get overwhelming sometimes hun but all you can do is take it one day at a time. Tomorrow is a new day and you don’t know what wonderful things could come along and help you on your journey. Put a smile on your dial and start fresh.
 
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