Paroxysm's Diary

Good job!! You'll get used to eating less soon, and might even have trouble getting in enough calories. I'm only on my fourth day and I already don't, lol.

Glad that you didn't indulge too much on the pizza =D Keep it up!
 
It's kind-of weird... Before, I never ate because I was genuinely hungry. I always ate because I was bored or saw something that looked like it tasted good or my parents brought home food, and I never ate breakfast.

Now I'm becoming hungry. My stomach is growling in the morning, when it's about time for lunch, and when it's about time for dinner.. I actually feel like I'm eating because I need to and not just because.

And even though I'm actually hungry, I'm also able to turn down food that I know I don't really need and go grab a glass of water instead.

My stomach is yelling at me right now, so I need to go get a glass of water. That's how it is. I mean, I'm on day THREE, and I'm already seeing a difference in the way my body works.

Just an observation.

Also, to complain, my back's ben hurting a lot lately. I think it's due to the way that I sleep. I sleep on my stomach, with two pillows beneath my head and one pillow beneath my stomach. I don't know why. It doesn't make much sense. But I think the part of my body that comes of the pillow is the part that's hurting (my lower back.) Sooo I need to figure out a different position to sleep in at night. Eh.

And I'm having trouble getting to sleep at night before midnight.
 
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Mmm... Back again. Thank goodness I don't have much homework tonight!

Number of laps (around neighborhood): 2
Time left the house: 4:06 P.M.
Time arrived at the house: 4:28 P.M.
Time elapsed: 22 minutes
Approx. time per lap: 11 minutes

Slightly faster than yesterday, even though I didn't jog very much this time, at all.

Today I didn't feel as good walking. Yesterday I was all happy and into it and jogging, but today I somehow ended up with a horrible headache and didn't feel very energetic.

I was STARVING when I got home, so I got a glass of water and this little packet of Whoppers (the chocolate malted milk balls?) There were like three in it, and they were small, so I figured I'd be okay with them. I'm not as hungry anymore.

So uhh...

Breakfast: one frosted blueberry poptart (200 calories)
Lunch: skim milk (90 calories); 2 pieces of chicken tenders; sliced carrots; a pear; a roll
Snack: 3 malted milk balls

I've yet to have dinner.
 
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wow, whoppers? I haven't had them in years.... didn't even know they were still around.

you should try having a light snack between meals to help keep your energy up... that could have been the source of your headache, or possibly not enough water. At any rate, just thought I'd stop in and say hello.
 
mikelikes2bike said:
you should try having a light snack between meals to help keep your energy up... that could have been the source of your headache, or possibly not enough water.
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Yeah, that's what I was thinking, too. Yesterday I had a glass of water before I went out.

I'm really hungry right now, so I just ate 4 of these little ice cream things, which are like 15 calories each... so 60 calories for that.

I'm just going to assume that my standard lunch each day should be around 650 calories.

So I've had approx. 910 calories so far. Still no dinner.
 
So my girlfriend wanted to actually calculate my lunch and stuff, sooo...

Poptart: 200
Milk: 90
Pear: 100
Chicken: 450
Chili: 350
Bread: 50
Roll: 85
Carrots: 50
Whoppers: 24
Ice cream thingies: 60

Approx Total: 1459

(I had chili and a slice of bread for dinner.)
 
Heya's stopping by to say hi and congrats on the self
control if I came in contact with 1 atleast 1/2 would be gone lol!
Have a gr8 weekend,Tammy:)
 
Thanks, everyone who has posted, for the encouragement.

Right now I'm just focusing on getting between 1200 and 1500 calories in a day and walking at least 20 minutes.

My girlfriend suggested that the cause of my back pain could be my posture at the computer, so I'm sitting at my chair with a pillow now. I'm also going to try going to sleep with only one pillow tonight.

I'm really happy that I've stuck to drinking just water (and skim milk during lunch) for these few days.

No more soda or sugary drinks for me!
 
My back is KILLING ME.
So I'm not going to school.

I don't know what's wrong with it-- if it's been my posture or what, but it's been hurting the past few days, off and on, and last night it started hurting and hasn't stopped all night. It hurt really badly just to shift around in my bed.

So I'm going to TRY to sleep.

I don't know if I'm going to be able to exercise today. If my back continues to hurt, I'll be sleeping all day.

...But it will be easier for me to count my calories. I'll simply eat things that have labels and make sure to eat between 1200 and 1500 calories.

You have NO IDEA how much this hurts.

I don't know if it's the way I sit in my chair, the way I sleep, the way I sit at school, the way I walk, or what... but this is no fun.
 
It's strange to say, but since I've joined this forum I don't FEEL fat anymore. I feel prettier. I feel like I'm losing / have lost weight, even though I probably haven't or at least don't know that I have if I have.

I'm not sure why, though.

I mean, I look at myself in the mirror and just see a pretty girl.

But I've been kind-of depressed thinking about how other people see me.
 
Don't worry about how other people see you! That is my number 1 rule. People will pretty much see you how you see yourself. If you think you are pretty and great chances are someone else will too! But if you put yourself down someone will help you do that too! What other people think is NOT important. It's what you think of you!! Have a good day, you are beautiful!!:)
 
Thanks, but it's hard to try and ignore other people sometimes.

I know that only what I think should matter, but I've loathed myself for so long that actually being comfortable with how I look seems strange. It seems almost wrong.

Really, I'd mostly like for my girlfriend to be genuinely pleased with the way that I look. I know that she loves me either way, but I feel horrible. I compare us to beauty and the beast. Guess who's who?
 
6 peanut butter crackers: 180 cals
5 tortilla strips: 78 cals
2 tablespoons of salsa: 10 cals
a burrito: 350 cals
sugar-free strawberry jello: 10 cals

628 so far
 
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Hi, thanks for posting in my diary! You look like you're doing great. Here are a couple of things that I tell myself to remember, don't push yourself too hard in the beginning or you wont stick to it, this is a lifestyle change, not a diet!. and focus on getting healthier, not skinnier! good luck and I'm sorry your back hurts, I hope you get feeling better.
 
Hey! just stopping by to see how your doing. I'm glad your girlfriend is supportive of your efforts. As for the back pain, that sucks, back pain is so debilitating isnt it? I don't sleep with pillows at all, I was in a car accident when I was in college and screwed up my neck and sleeping with a pillow now gives me a migraine. I hope your back feels better soon. Keep up the good work, your food looks good and balanced and I'm proud that your a teen and YOU EAT VEGGIES! how rare is that? pretty rare.
 
Iwan naloseit said:
Keep up the good work, your food looks good and balanced and I'm proud that your a teen and YOU EAT VEGGIES! how rare is that? pretty rare.
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Ohman, you have NO IDEA how much I ADORE veggies.

Akfjaskgjakgjag. -Mouth waters.-

Yeah, anyway...

My back feels a little better now. It's been hurting off and on, but this morning it was EXCRUCIATING, and I didn't want to walk around school, being in pain and wincing.

I've been mostly sleeping all day. I was pretty depressed last night and into this morning. I couldn't stop crying... But that stopped sometime nearing the afternoon.

I haven't really been hungry, but I ate this morning out of boredom, mostly. It was breakfast and lunch, though, and it wasn't a lot, so I should be good eating another light snack later and then having dinner.

Because I'm starting to get hungry now.

Since my back isn't killing me, I might go downstairs and use one of my Walk Away the Pounds videos.

I'm so glad it's Friday, just in case my back does something funky again later tonight or tomorrow! I'm fifteen. I'm not supposed to have back pains. -Pouts.-
 
I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. I can relate to the back pain and the depression. Both suck. Anyway, I'm not a doctor, and I don't even play one on TV, but I do have some suggestions. Listen or ignore as you see fit. *grin*

The back pain -- Are you wearing good shoes when you walk? Supportive, comfortable shoes can make a huge difference.

The depression -- I've struggled with depression before, and I've found that drinking enough water, exercising and eating healthy have made a huge difference for me. Not everyone is the same, though. I'm gonna post a bunch of stuff in my diary about my battle with depression...please feel free to stop by and read. I don't want to post it here because I don't want you to think that you are doing something wrong, or that I am some know it all with a magical cure. Just like weight loss, there is no magical cure.

You are doing great on your journey to be healthier and lose weight. I'm so proud of you for your accomplishments so far. And I'm really glad your girlfriend is supportive, too. That can make a huge difference.

Sorry for being so long winded and serious. Hope you are having a great day!
 
Thanks for dropping by, blackwdw.

I'm pretty sure that the back thing has nothing to do with my shoes, although I still don't know what it is / was.

I feel fine now, mentally and physically.

I just ate half a bagel (155 cals) and one... and a half eggs, ish. I just kinda threw them in a pan without adding anything and cooked them. I'm lame with cooking, but I was really craving some eggs. They + the bagel was really good.

Not sure how many calories the eggs are, though. Hnn.

But minus the eggs, I've had 783 Calories so far today.
 
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Have you checked out Sparkpeople.com or Fitday.com?
Both have really good calorie counters. Thats what I use & rarely have to look stuff up.

Keep up the great work!! :D:D
 
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