One step at a time...

Hey everyone,

I've just posted on Holly88's diary and brought up something that gave me a bit of inspiration for a post. I want to talk about the things that really get to me about being overweight and in turn, the difference it would make to my life to rid myself of these issues.

1. My arms. This is what I wrote about to Holly. I have huge upper arms, really flabby and just huge. The worst thing about this is summertime, when all I want to wear is a vest top or summer dress. I don't want to wear a cardigan when it's hot. However I have to, there's not a chance I'd go out without one. It's a small thing but I realised just now quite how much it affects my life. I own about 10 cardy's, most tops I buy have sleeves and I often find that I can't buy shirts or whatever that would otherwise fit, as they can't fit over my upper arms.

2. Thighs. This isn't a vanity issue so much as a physical one. My upper legs rub together when I walk. I'm sure most overweight people have experienced this. How it manifests itself in my life...when I want to wear a dress I have to wear leggings or tights with support shorts thingy's. I don't EVER wear skirts (the current fashion is for short, tight skirts - big no-no) but I'd like to be able to wear a classic black shift dress to work with normal tights. I actually have one upstairs in a Primark size 18 which is realistically a size 16/17 and it is nowhere near fitting. But it's waiting for me when I do fit into it.

3. That gross bit of a ledge where your nicker line is...anyone? Just me? Ok.....lol. Nah I hope you all know what I mean. I can tell when I lose weight from my tummy just by looking at this ledge (btw...it's not huge, it doesn't overhang or anything lol) and I cannot wait for it to shrink and disappear.

Right that's enough for now, but I thought I'd put some pics up so you can gage what I look like.The first one was when I was 17 and a size 18 but with smaller arms and face. The second one is when I was 18 and pretty much the same size as I am now...5 years on. How depressing. And the third one is the most current...
 
Pip, what a uber pretty face! And you look like you have a great shape in that last pic. That's something I often notice: big or small, people either have a set of curves or what I call 'box-y' shape and you definitely have the first! Curves in the right places I guess is what I'm getting at!

PS I know what you mean by the ledge just above the bikini line, I have one of those. Boo hiss!

Also ... if there is such a thing as diet depression then I definitely have that too. I wonder if there's a treatment. I'm guessing the treatment is getting off my ass and putting some effort in - something I'm totally devoid of at the moment.
 
Oh, oh, I have the ledge! The dreaded ledgeeee *sobs*

You're so pretty! And agree with Hol, you have a lovely figure!
 
Awww thanks girls...I have my moments like everyone else but generally I look pretty pale and uninteresting hehe. But thanks, I am lucky to have a shape, I'd hate it if I was all the same measurements up and down. I've had a good diet day and tomorrow I intend to have another good day. Last night I quit the gym...I haven't been in ages and really, I don't like it. I'm gonna start a Zumba class or Karate or something like that which hopefully will get me excited about going...not dreading it each time. I just hate paying £36 per month and never using it! Silly! Right, night night ladies, bedfordshire is calling x
 
I agree with the others. You have a beautiful face and a proper womans body. You are the sort of person that I have always been jealous of that still looks good with a bit of excess weight.
 
Hey Pip :)
Funny how we never see the good things sometimes (well most of the time!) - I think you're beautiful! I really love the dress you're wearing in the last pic, it's just the perfect shape and length. I am trying so hard to be more feminine and am really going to be brave and when I get to my goal I'm buying a dress like yours!!!

Best of luck with finding the new activity, that's the hardest part of weight loss, finding exercise that you actually enjoy...
 
Thanks so much ladies...and Val LOVE you for saying 'a BIT of excess weight' lol. Understatement of the millenium but thank you hehe. Well I feel spoilt with compliments and honestly don't deserve them. I'm kinda good looking, sometimes, in the right light lol but it's my body that lets me down. I've been scouted for plus size modelling twice in the last few years but was told I'd need to be a size 14-16. They left it saying...give us a call if/when you shift the weight lol. Yeah cheeeeeers. So anyway the point is, I have no confidence issues about my looks so to speak, just about the fat that encases them lol.

Diet wise...gonna have to wait til the morning to see where I am weight wise...although I think I'm at 17st8 down from 17st12...good, but not good enough yet hehe, these 3 pounds to get back to 17st5 are proving very tricky to shift! Damn them!
 
:O Pip you are GORGEOUS!!!
:)
You have such an amazing shape, I would NEVER in a million years have guessed you weigh over 17st!! You must be crazy tall :p
 
LOL thanks red, yeah I'm 5ft10 so not crrrrrazy tall but tall enough. Thanks for the compliments everyone, I feel very honoured.

P.s. weighed in this morning 17st9...damn it! down three pounds from wednesday though so that's good I guess...but was really hoping to see 17st8. Tomorrow my friends! x
 
Quick thought...would like to start next week (i.e tomorrow) as 17st 8, would like to finish at 17st5. Those that regularly read my diary know that this is the lowest weight I have reached so far, then Xmas happened. It's nearly March for Christ's sake...time to blast past that! x
 
I began to read your diary a while back but I don't like to post until I'm up to date, so yesterday I sat down and read the rest.. Which was about 11 pages :p
You can get get to 5 :)
I know you can!!
 
Oh my gosh - you're sooo pretty!! I've had to get caught up on your diary as well, but I'm sure you can lose 3 lbs in a week if you put your mind to it! Good luck :D
 
Red - I'm the same, the time I spent reading people's diaries from start to finish is phenominal. Thank you so much for taking the time to read mine. Means a lot. I have a few loyal readers and I feel a real connexion with them, especially Holly, she's been with me since day one. And Val of course, the Yoda of WLF. Haha. Yours is a name I see popping up quite a lot, so I'm sure you offer support to many many forum users, I feel lucky to have you!

Lochmond...stop disappearing on me woman, I miss you on here! How are you hun? Thanks for the compliment...I will try my best this next week, may have to put in some gym visits as I have the membership up til the end of march.

Didn't have the best day today really but not the worst either, we will see how the weight looks tomorrow, I think it will stay the same, but that's ok I think x
 
Lochmond...stop disappearing on me woman, I miss you on here! How are you hun? Thanks for the compliment...I will try my best this next week, may have to put in some gym visits as I have the membership up til the end of march.
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Sorry!! I'll try to stop going so incognito all of a sudden :D I'm doing fine, but february has been such a slow month for me, I've stayed at the same weight for the whole month... :( oh well - march can be better for both of us!
 
Good work getting back on track lochmond, that's what I'm trying to do. We can do it...together!

Hols, thanks so much once again for your compliment. I have indeed joined the spring challenge, but I think I've been ever so slightly optimistic with my weight goal...30lbs in 3 months? Who am I trying to kid lol? That's more weight than I've lost in it's entirity hehe. Ahwell, good to aim high. I'd be happy with 20lbs though, that would be roughly 2lbs a week which is more achievable. I would then be 16st3, close to 15st something....whoaaaa, yeah that's where I wanna be. Let's do it Hols!

Had a good day today, calories are too low really but don't feel hungry and really feel I needed to make up for a not so great day yesterday. Had half a bowl of soup (112 cals) and a bagel for early lunch due to shift pattern. Now am about to have a tuna nicoise which I imagine will be about 500cals, so probs in total about 800-900 cals or thereabouts. Gonna head to the gym in the morning also as I'm not in work til 5! X
 
Morning everyone. Today marks the start of March, a month that I am determined will be a successful healthy living month pour moi. It's been a great start as I weighed in at 17st6 just one measley pound away from my lowest weight pre-xmas! I'm so freakin happy about this, if I can get that down to 17st5 by tomorrow morning which I damn well hope I can it'll mean I've lost a whopping 7lbs in a week. Yup...last Wednesday I was weighing in at 17st12...ewwww.

I hope to see some of you in the Spring Challenge (3months) which Holly invited me to. I have decided to put my weight loss goal as 10%, which is 24.4lbs, but 25 for arguments sake. This would make me an amazing 15st9 which for me, is totally unimaginable. Anywho, may March be successful for everyone, wishing us all the best of luck xxx
 
Just wanted to add a quick note as I have just got back from the gym where I did a 2k run/walk. I ran for about 1.75 kilometres and walked for roughly .25km. I'm just really proud of myself cos I haven't run on the treadmill for ages cos I got so disheartened by my weight gain and lack of progress. As I already told y'all, my membership runs out at the end of March so I have up til then to make use of the machines. Then...I am going to try my best to brave the outdoors. My friend Sam will come with me to the race course which has a running track around it. It's where they hold the race for life....so perhaps eventually I could do that. Anyway that's very forward thinking...I'm just happy about my day one efforts hehe x
 
thats great you did 2km well done. how addictive is running lol i really love, it fills my mind and heart with new dreams like i was 16 again. then all you have to do is keep it up and you`ll improve, its almost as good as losing weight. a running track sounds great to run on btw, wish i had one near me.

so far i`ve bought a gps running watch, a running book(which is exellent) running trainers and i`m now looking at a hi viz jacket(seems like the cool thing to wear lol)..:sifone:

good luck and keep it up.
 
Hi slimpip - I saw a comment you posted on scottblue's journal about not running outside 'cus you're worried about being laughed at. I am a relatively slim woman & if I saw someone large running outside, I'd respect them for trying to get healthy. It'll make a difference in the resistance on the ground running or even walking outside (if it's hilly) so try to work up to it if you can.
 
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