On the pursuit of happiness... <3

Thanks for checking in Mandy! I'm doing alright :p After all that back up out of one-derland :(

Sucks especially after my "goodbye 200s forever" post but its an ongoing battle right?

I got my drivers license suspended for 3 months so I've been walking everywhere which may help! I do so good with my eating and then I have one bad day where I cheat and it feels like it does so much damage... I need to consistent every day .... NO CHEATING.

Weighed in at 200 today so hopefully back in one-derland tomorrow......

I feel like I'm so close yet so far to a weight which I look "normal" to society and I want that so bad so why do I sabotage myself?

On the bright side, I have been feeling a lot better about my breakup. I used to have random days/times where I'd feel so sad and now that doesn't really happen....

And now we've been apart for awhile and I'm outside of the situation I'm really starting to realize that he wasn't that great... he was kind of a dick alot of the time and he never treated me that great and I am better off... for realz not in what your friends tell you to make you feel better kind of way lol.
 
Great to hear you are feeling better about your breakup! As for the sabotaging... personally I think I have sabotaged in the past because part of me doesn't feel I deserve to be happy and feel good about myself. It's stupid and hopefully I'm past those feelings, but perhaps something similar is going through your head? Or you don't think you can actually reach and sustain your goal so you sabotage to avoid failing when actually trying.

Or I could be way off.
 
194.8 Today! So that is a record low for 2013 and also I'm officially past the 30 pounds lost mark wahoooo! :jump::hurray::willy_nilly::jump::hurray::willy_nilly:

Been doing well with clean eating. I've 'cheated' a couple of times, but I'm getting better at being like its ok to enjoy life a little and deviate from my plan as long as i follow it the majority of the time, and telling myself its ok to indulge a little within reason has helped me from crazy junk food binge attacks.

So lots of chicken, green veggies, egg whites and low fat cottage cheese!

Being back at school full-time combined with work helps keep me busy and from eating out of boredom. And I have been getting more exercise now that I'm walking everywhere. 2 months till I get my drivers license back!!! 1 down, 2 to go.

I'm off to the gym. Happy losing everyone!
 
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Dang girl!!! You're cruising right along!!! I agree that it's ok... maybe even good... to cheat once in a while. We just need to retrain ourselves on how to go about it correctly and not to over do it. It sounds like you're on the right path and judging by your weight loss I think it's clear to see you're on the right path. Keep up the great work! :)
 
189.8 today! :D Broke into the 180s. It's a a pretty big drop since yesterday so its probably partially fluctuations but still great to see that number.

Yesterdays food:

1. Smoothie - 1 cup spinach, 1 cup kale, 1/2 cup blueberries, 1/4 strawberries
2. Egg white omelete with 10g low fat cheddar, green onion, srarachi
3. 3 cups coffee with 1 cup 2% milk
4. Oven roast chicken breast, 90g baked sweet potato, 1 cup broccolli
5. Oven roast chicken breast, large salad 1 tbsp organic balsamic dressing and 15g low fat feta
 
Back again... it has been a hectic year. Broke up with who I thought was 'the one' but turned out to be a big jerk, cancer scare, got a puppy (the bestest puppy in the whole world who makes me insanely happy), depression, 40 pounds lost and then unceremoniously regained... but now I'm feeling good and ready to get healthy and get this journey rolling in the right direction again.

Weighed in today at 231.

Food for yesterday:
1 - 1 slice silver hills mack's flax bread with low fat cheddar cheese melted on, 1 omega 3 egg
2 - 1 cup coffee with 2 creamers
3 - chicken breast with baked with EVOO and spices, 85 grams baked sweet potatoe, 1 cup brocolli
4 - Salad (lettuce/spinach/tomato/pepper/cukes/black olives) 1 tbsp italian salad dressing
5 - 1/2 cup (dry) whole wheat rotini, 6 lean meatballs, homemade tomotoe sauce, 2 tbsp light parmesan cheese

Here's some pics of Branson if anyone is interested #obsessedmommy hehe

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229.6 Today

Food for yesterday:
1 - 1 omega 3 egg and 1/2 cup egg whites scrambled with pepper and dill
2 - homemade clean turkey burger on whole wheat focaccia bun, dijon mustard, tomatoes lettuce and sweet onion
3 - small chili from Wendy's with a bit of low fat cheddar melted on.
 
WELCOME BACK! Sorry to hear about the ex and the cancer scare and everything. But YAY A PUPPY! So exciting :) I love my dog SO much and she is always doing something silly to make us laugh. It's great!! Your puppy is so freaking tiny and cute and OMG those big puppy eyes and cutie ears!!!

Glad you are back and working towards a better you again. Looks like you are off to a great start with the food!
 
Thank's for dropping in icychic! Appreciate the support <3 Scale is broken currently but I'm not in a big rush to replace it because I tend to obsess over the number and my doctor recommend I only weigh in once every 2 weeks or month.

Food for today:
1/2 cup coffee with 1 creamer and a dash of sugar
half whole wheat bun with spicy seasoned chicken breast, 1 slice provolone cheese, lettuce, tomato, red onion, pickle, and a side salad with 1 tbsp balsamic dressing.
small chili from Wendy's.

I'm supposed to be going to the indoor trampoline and a foam pit park which is a great workout but now my friends aren't responding :( I'm phoneless at the moment so only using facebook and email to communicate. so hopefully someone gets back to me otherwise I will probably just take my pooch for a brisk walk.
 
Welcome back! Your puppy is adorable. :D

I wish we had a trampoline park where I'm at. That'd be a blast.
 
I didn't end up doing the trampoline park but I'm glad I now know that there is one so close... and they offer fitness classes! So I think I'll check that out next week. I'm sure it will be painful I am in bad shape right now. Really need to improve my cardio I'm doing a 10k at the end of April.

Food for Yesterday... started out great but then ended having a late night junk binge :(. Woke up this morning and felt so dissappointed and frustrated at my weak willpower.

1 - egg white omelette with low fat ched chz & smoothie with spinach, 1/3 cup blueberries, 1/3 cup strawberries, 1/3 cup peach/mango/pineapple mix, 1/2 tbsp chia seeds, 1/3 cup vanilla soy milk
2 - oven roast chicken breast made with some EVOO and spices, 1/2 whole wheat bun, mustard, dijon mustard, tomato, onion
2 - home-made baked mushroom caps - used my mom's recipe but swapped some things out to make it a lighter. First time making these and they turned out great!
3 - fast food fries with ketchup and chicken strips with plum and ranch sauce, Mr. Noodle Bowl

Today I waaay over slept and woke up at the time I was supposed to be starting work. Booked it to work to make it in half an hour. It was super busy so I didn't have a chance to eat anything tilll I got home around 8:45 PM.

I had a subway 6-inch sweet teri chicken on italian herbs and cheese. Lots of protein, but also a little steep in fat and carbs. Should've chose whole wheat bread and nixed the cheese, I just love cheese. And that bread and I almost always do whole wheat figured I could probably a few extra cals as it was my only meal for the day.
 
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Ah, looks like we both have had a similar experience, losing weight, maintaining it for about a year then letting the weight come back to haunt us.

Don't beat yourself up over the bread and cheese, lol. You are doing really well on your diet :)
 
I get the same sub as you (though generally on a flat bread)! If that was the only thing you ate you should have made it a footlong!
 
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