2694 calories - low for an exercise day, 93g fat, 273 g carbs, 200g protein
There's my food log today.
Random ramblings.
I read in lots of journals around here about women choosing new clothing, looking at what they want to wear as a reward etc. Most men's journals don't really talk about this so much. We can go on for days about the inherent differences between women and men regarding clothes shopping etc... whatever... I'm a pretty happy guy with a black T-shirt and jeans most of the time.
That being said - I wanna look good. I have hated the way clothing fits me for years. I'm tall, so combined with the weight, I end up needing some pretty big sizes. If you look at before my pic in my profile, that Patriots T-shirt was probably a 4xl. My gut fills it all the way out, but my chest, shoulder and arms swim in it. Throw a table cloth over me, you'll get the same effect. I have never worn form fitting clothing - ever, because even when I was a skinny teenager, I was a skinny weakling teenager, no musculature to speak of.
I'm tired of it. I want clothing to fit, and look good. I don't own a suit, because I don't want to spend money on a set of clothes that I'll only use rarely, that might not fit me the next time, or look good.
I wanna buy a suit, and have it tailored, and have it tailored to fit an "Athletic cut" I want to go out some night with my wife to a very nice swanky restaurant in the city, wearing my tailored suit and feel good doing it.
Even the T-shirt and jeans look. I want to be able to wear a black t-shirt and jeans, a pair of dark sunglasses and stand next to my motorcycle, looking like a badass because I have the chest and arms to pull it off.
Shallow? Maybe - but screw it, it's what I want dammit!
I have to say, Right now I am currently fitting in 2x -3x shirts depending on the manufacturer/cut. My gut still fills them out, although noticeably less than before. What I'm liking though, is the fact that my chest is starting to fit them more snugly. The sizing can be based for me more now on my chest size (the way it is supposed to be), than my waist size. I've also noticed that a lot of my shirts have become downright snug around my biceps/triceps and shoulders.
I'm still a work in progress... a LOT of work... I am seeing some light though. I feel much better about my strength than ever before. I can actually see the shape of the muscles in my upper body now, albeit, under an insulating layer... I don't expect to ever have chiselled six pack abs, that ship sailed long ago (not without surgical intervention anyway). I just want to be me... only hotter.
