Oh, the issues abound!

Oh, the last couple of days were not good. Not horrible but not good. Last night there were baked chips and low fat dip involved and the previous night saw too much taco salad. The rest of both days was very good but I need to try and find some good things to focus on so that I don't totally lose focus.

- We have totally cut down the badness of the salad by using baked chips and no fat faux meat.

- We had the baked chips instead of the "reduced fat" ruffles that I prefer

- I ate very well during the day on both days. Night is obviously my dangerous time.

- And I've been able to walk to work. In the past couple of weeks I really couldn't do anything.

I have to try and focus on the good things because what I usually do when I cheat is start to beat myself up in my head. That's the beginning of the end. I can do this!!!
 
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You have to focus on this, too... You have only been at this about 3 1/2 weeks, most of which you have been unable to really exercise. And yet, you have lost weight! We don't know how much because of your goofy scale, but it's at least 2 pounds and probably more! In 3 1/2 weeks!!! And you haven't given up, even when times were tough. And you are doing better every week! Imagine how great you will be doing in another 3 1/2 weeks! There is a LOT of positive stuff to focus on, so you hang in there and keep smiling. :D
 
Its great that you are up and about again. That will make it much easier. You have made some really good dietary changes too. Well done. Every pound counts.
 
You know what I have found is everyone has a different what I call "initiation period". When we change our eating habits it takes a while to condition our body to accept this. Some people start seeing results right away. I didn't. I took me weeks and weeks to start losing. But I kept it up the best I could for those weeks. I just kept telling myself that my body will eventually adjust and then the weight will start to come off.

Your body is going to do what it wants with what you give it. So your job is to continue to give it healthy food in balanced proportions as well as exercise. That's all you can do. And then over time your body will respond. Just don't give up if you don't see fast results. It takes time and I've said this probably a million times on this forum, but you really do want to lose it slow. That way everything shrinks back all nice and tight. It will be worth it to you in the end to lose it slow....because would you rather lose it ultra fast and then have lots of loose hangy skin?

You're doing so good, you just keep it up. Cuz if you don't we're all going to pm emmcookie and tell her to kick you in your butt!!! Just kidding!!!! Hugs to you!
 
I'm so glad your feeling better. Don't sweat the small set-backs...you are doing great. Congrats on the weight loss!
 
Thanks for all the support guys! It really helps so much.

I think I'm back on track now. Yesterday I ate quite well. Cereal and soymilk for breakfast, a banana, a few reduced fat veggie thins and a piece of ww pita with hummus for lunch, curry and brown rice for supper. I could have had more water.

My back is feeling so much better and it feels amazing to be able to walk to work again! So satisfying it feels like running a marathon. Sad considering it's only about a 25 minute walk!! haha

I'm in a rush but will be back later to read diaries. Feeling good today!
 
Yay Twinmom! I'm so happy for you.

So, I'm posting again today. I might as well go through the whole thing. For breaky I had a banana and some reduced fat veggie thins. I was in a rush. Then for lunch I had a veggie burger and a garden salad (resisted the fries! ).

And then the worst thing happened. Four words: Old Navy and changing rooms. I couldn't fit into the things I tried on and the sight of myself in the full length mirror made me sick. I can't believe I look like this. I wanted desperately to cry but held it together until we left. Trying to fight the fact that so much of my self-worth is tied up in my weight. I'm going to try not to weigh myself for another week because I can't handle any bad news. Hopefully by then the numbers will be moving down. I'm going through so many ups and downs emotionally during this process.
 
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Oh, I know how you feel. I hate going to try on clothes. I went on my birthday - in March, before I started trying to lose weight. I was in Lane Bryant, where the clothes should fit, but everything went horribly wrong! First, their mannequins are headless and my son freaked OUT! He was running around the store yelling, "Monsters!!!! I'M SCARED!!!!"

I got him and an armful of miscellaneous clothes in the dressing room, and he was okay in there. No monsters. Then I started trying on clothes. The cute blouse on the mannequin with the flowing fabric and fun design, well, it had armholes all the way down past the BOTTOM of my bra! I'm okay with a little peek of bra, but not a full view of the whole side of my bra plus some belly down below! I tried on some basic t-shirts in my size, but they were so lycra-ized that I looked like the Michelin Man. Ugh! A couple of items later, I left in tears, on my birthday, with a little man screaming, "I wanna go HOOOOME!"

Okay, it's funny now, but I know how you feel. Don't worry. Keep up your hard work and we'll be in those regular sizes before we know it!
 
Trying to fight the fact that so much of my self-worth is tied up in my weight.
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Why do we do this to ourselves? Because it's so not true. You are not what you weigh. You are going through the most discouraging part right now, but you have to have faith that it will produce results. There is a quote that I like and I think it's attributed to Martin Luther King, Jr. I'm paraphrasing here, but it goes something like...

"You don't have to see the top of the stairway to take the first step."

You've taken the first step, and you will take the next and the next. And in time you will reach a point where you do see the top of that "stairway"...where your goal seems more in a reachable distance. And you will cross over that turning point and know that everything you have done up to that point has led you to where you are. And you will thank yourself. So do not give up, do not get discouraged, do not get down on yourself. No matter what that scale says, either today or in 100 pounds you will always be the wonderful, beautiful and valuable person that you are at this very moment.
 
You ladies are so wonderful! I had such a hard day but you helped a lot. I used to feel so alone when something like this happened. I never knew how helpful it would be to talk to other people who understand.

Emmcookie and I went for a very very long walk tonight, the most I've done since the back injury. I just have to stick with this, like you guys said, and not return to the mentality I'm used to, the one where my inner voice is that of my old dance instructor telling me that I'll never do it and how can I have any self-respect. Now I have to try and hear you guys as my inner voice! :)
 
Maybe we just need to yell louder then your old dance instructor ;)

You are NOT you're weight. You are so much more. The fact that you are losing weight is a testament to the fact that you are the one in control not food.

You CAN do this. One step at a time!
 
inner voice

Inner voice says...

Send me cash, large bills, overnight by Federal Express. You know you want to!

There should be an evil grin smiley. :D
 
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