nataliejo's diary: Moving, flowing, grooving forward... change is coming...

heathercb04 said:
Hey Natalie! Like you, I've been behind in my diary reading as well. I'm glad to see you're still doing well! And holy crap a 22 mile bike ride?!?! You're awesome! I'm glad to hear about you taking care of your body in the heat as well. What are your plans for summer exercise?
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Hey Heather,
I don't know. I didn't go out today at all, except to sit in the sun chair lol Ugh, I just couldnt motivate myself to go on a wog (jog/walk), well tomorrow is another day, another day to do it right.

and I have been eating badly .. I am back up in weight! I will figure out what to do. Well I threw all of my mom's junk food out, it was almost gone anyway ..

Ate a salad for lunch today ..

Jay's gonna be coming on soon and he and I will be doing a little more than chilling together, at least I will get some heavy breathing, heart muscle work in lol jk ...but really ... I think we are going to have a good time tonight... I have been so reserved/ cold fish around him. He doesnt know me, he knows a cold fish. I am going to let my gaurd down around him. I have been trying to keep myself from a broken heart that I am not even let the romance kick up and bud a relationship lol possibly ...

he is jealous of Derek, had no clue that was going to happen. You should have heard him, holy meow. He was like "I thought you said you weren't interested in him!" and such...
Why does he think I keep Derek around, because I like both of them and have no idea, no inkling what I am going to do? ugh

ttylater
love yas
always
natalie

ok time to catch up on some diaries lol :sifone:
 
Derek, Jay, and I...anyone been through this?

So I dig both guys. I have never been so torn. Ive never had this happen before. I can't believe this. They are jealous of each other. They are CRAZY jealous of each other. I thought I was just having a good time, but their and my feelings are getting involved. Derek is afraid of getting a broken heart from me. I really like him ALOT...

and than there is Jay, who I see tonight and first layed eyes on him before Derek. And he is really good in bed lol sorry girls and guys, just being honest. but anyway he is so respectful, such a sweetie, always nice and kind. He can be loving. Especially when we are cuddling ..

but so can Derek, Derek is a good cuddler. Havent done anything more With Derek, but we kind of set up a day to maybe do something a little more, ok we are going to do more...


this is where I figure out which one I melt with lmao ...

what a damn mess ...a triangle ... they both dig me and I dig both of them. Jay thinks I dont dig Derek, because I had to tell him that to calm him down after admitting that Derek and I had cuddled and I was slightly charmed by Derek. Derek is charming... he was hugging me from my backside, braiding my hair, playing with my hair, caressing my hair and head ... rubbing my back ..he was so sweet... I bike rode 22 miles just to see the guy lol

Well I dont know ...this is getting utterly silly lol
Should I be telling you all this on my diary...
But you all are the ones who give good advice ... I can only come to you guys... I have no one else lol ugh

Well I am wogging tomorrow (walking/ jogging), threw out all the junk food ... and I ate a salad for lunch, among other evil things that will make the scale reflect another gain... I weighed in at 271.2 today ..talk about disappointing ... oh yes I was disappointed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I shall get this back in and do this .. I need to ...so close ... one hundred pounds .. I used to be 150 pounds overweight ... in 71 pounds I will be 200 pounds ..its so excellent .. I am not letting all this hard work go ..never!!

ttylater all
love yas
natalie jo always :seeya:
 
Hello girls,
Well today today, what could have taken place today... hmm ?????
Derek kissed me on the lips ...
I didnt feel a thing... what does that mean?

Anyway so what does that mean if I didnt feel anything?
It did surprise me. Maybe we should try another kiss...

Maybe that would be pointless hmm...

it would be interesting anyway... you know who I really want to kiss ... take a wild guess and almost got one on the lips .. Jay
except I backed off and didnt realize he was going to kiss me at that moment ..darn it ..messed up again ..only partly .. I played it good the rest of the night, we just cuddled in each others arms and watched

the anime film "Howls moving Castle"

its a freaking awesome film, suggest it to anyone, especially if you have a child.... The children will love it ...older children ...there are some scary and spooky scenes, but it is good ...

Ive watched it with Alex, Derek, Jay, and by myself. Well done. Got all the rounds. I just, this movie is incredible. Now I have to get another anime pic called "My neighbor Tuturo" Something like that lol Derek is getting it from the library for us to watch.

I did see "Spirited Away", which I would love to see again. That was beautiful ...

but anyway enough about the movies ..
I did a 3 and a half mile walk today, consisted of walking over city lines ..it was ..exhausting ...sun burning ..not tanning ..we have come amongst the burns this time ... I just didnt know I would need the damn sunscreen.. my mother was supposed to pick me up ..didnt get my calls ..so I walked ..she finally met me a ways up some of the roads. Past the Wentworth Greenhouse ...

it was interesting .. I hate that road! but oh well!

Well I got pissed off at Derek, threw a tantrum by walking home in the hot sun with out lotion .. I am so horrid, but my mother didnt show up until an hour later close to home ..so it was probably ok to walk home... was just annoyed lol


Derek tried to hug me and I did a "yea right buddy" and dodged him ever so much .. I feel bad .. ugh ...

I am so horrid ...

well the walking was long and a pain, but I am going out later for a real walk, jog included along the way, when it gets cooler and this time the sunscreen is going on and I am wearing a tank top ... ok so I wore a shirt today, but when jogging .. I wear a tank top or thin shirt ... and that is what I will be doing and tonight I am calling Derek and Jay is busy, so thats a no no ..he is not having anyone over ...cars computers .. he fixxes things for people ... its like they sponge off him or something ..massively crazy .. was almost going to see if he would replace the spoke on my wheel, but didnt want to be like everyone else .. u know

so I am getting a bike repair man to look at it and replace the spoke next Tuesday ..so bike transportation is out of the question ... lol

my ped feet will have to do ...going no where this weekend ... kind of a dull weekend coming up ... oh well .. I will wog for the rest of the week ... lets see today is Th and tomorrow is the beginning of the weekend ..

here goes something ... another weekend

love yas
always
natalie jo :grouphug::grouphug::party::party:
 
Sounds like you're getting a lot of exercise dodging the men-folk! And the hardest thing for me is to remember that I always need sunscreen, no matter what. I'm trying to make it a habit, something I do every single day, but it's so hard!

Sophie
 
Hehe, ye, you really are in a sticky situation there, but it certainly happens...

I'd say go with your heart, and try to hurt the boys and yourself as little as possible! :(

Oh, if you put moisturiser on as part of your daily routine anyway, then try get one that include sun protection. Same goes for if you wear make up (foundation/base), some also come with sunscreen in.

Good luck for this weekend, sounds like it could be a fun one!

Laters!
 
jw372 said:
Sounds like you're getting a lot of exercise dodging the men-folk! And the hardest thing for me is to remember that I always need sunscreen, no matter what. I'm trying to make it a habit, something I do every single day, but it's so hard!

Sophie
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Yes Sophie! I am dodging the men-folk! but they aren't dodging me. lol which is a plus. They are making me believe there are good men out there, and one only needs to heal, move on from the past and one day the right one will come along and blow my skirt up as Jay says lol

But anyway they have my heart and it can stink. I think I have fallen in love with Jay and he just wants to be friends and thats it. And I am falling for Derek, but so enraptured with Jay that I cant see past him. But I cant be in any relationship at the moment. I think much therapy needs to be had and I need to be self independent, love myself, and become reliant upon myself and no one else. I need to learn how to be me and not bite people's heads off when they just want to be kind to me and I bit hard .. I bit both Derek and Jay hard last night, because I was in a great manic depression ...and it was horrible, somewhere I dont want to go again, but know I will.... so therapy is good and taking time to heal from past problems with emotional abuse I have had.

but anyway
love yas girly
and yes sunscreen is a must... lol
ttylater hun
love yas
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
Ankebuzz said:
Hehe, ye, you really are in a sticky situation there, but it certainly happens...

I'd say go with your heart, and try to hurt the boys and yourself as little as possible! :(

Oh, if you put moisturiser on as part of your daily routine anyway, then try get one that include sun protection. Same goes for if you wear make up (foundation/base), some also come with sunscreen in.

Good luck for this weekend, sounds like it could be a fun one!

Laters!
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Hey Ankebuzz,
Thanks for stopping in. You are so right about the sunscreen. Lotion is definitely important this time of year and even in winter. However by Mid December the tone of my skin calms down after summers retreat. I have a tan through Winter. ITs funny as hell lol but hey whatever fits ...lol maybe I am collecting all the vitamin D I can for the winter months .. lost twenty five pounds over winter, not bad, but I need to get motivated to do more lol

I dont wear make up. I go all natural. During winter I put make up on, but I dont like what heat and sweat can do to make up when you go out. Plus I am really not going out, just enjoying time with my boy toys lol

well ttylater hun
Take care
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
Where do you live? Where is all this sunshining?!?!?!

hahahahaha...thanks for stopping by my journal.

Losing 25 pounds during the WINTER couldn't have been easy---congratulations to that. ;)
 
laureelee07 said:
Where do you live? Where is all this sunshining?!?!?!

hahahahaha...thanks for stopping by my journal.

Losing 25 pounds during the WINTER couldn't have been easy---congratulations to that. ;)
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Well, now there is rain... I will be stopping by your diary now. I am so behind in diaries its crazy... lol And I am behind on mine, which is why I am on now. Been a little busy with Derek.."ho hum" lol at least I am getting some exercise in! lol lol lol

yea I know I worked hard in winter, been slacking these days! lol

ttylater hun
love yas
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
Hey Natalie! I hope you're doing well. :) Still enjoying the boytoys? Hopefully you've been staying cool in this insanely hot weather!
 
heathercb04 said:
Hey Natalie! I hope you're doing well. :) Still enjoying the boytoys? Hopefully you've been staying cool in this insanely hot weather!
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Hey Heather,
Well Jay has taken the back seat, and I only have one boytoy lmao
I chose Derek and its been nice, really nice. Hope I don't mess things up, which I have this great tendency to do.

He's found a wonderful spot for making me :jump: - my bellybutton, of all things...:eek2:

love yas girly
always
natalie jo
 
Ankebuzz said:
Hey chicka!

We need a new installment of the chronicles of your life! Hope all is well :)

Later!
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Hey AnkeBuzz, Hey everyone else!
Well things are going great so far with Derek and I, bumpy start, but we seem to be getting along.

He painted my back lmao.. never had that happen before! and it was awesome! I loved all the attention!!

Anyway done a little exercise, but I am down in weight to 261.8. which is good. Happy Joy joy, Happy joy joy!!

well ttylater girls
I have the 200 club to catch up on and all your diaries

ttylater buzz
ttylater girlies
love yas
always
natalie jo :party::party::party:
 
Hey there gal! Glad to hear that you're still getting your thang on. ;) And glad to hear that the scale is being kind to you!! That's awesome :)
 
heathercb04 said:
Hey Natalie! I hope you're doing well. :) Still enjoying the boytoys? Hopefully you've been staying cool in this insanely hot weather!
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Hey Heather,
My boytoy is all boytoy. lol He is excellent. lol in every way (hint hint) a little TMI There...He was a virgin, so there had to be patience and a little teaching upon my part and it was hard to do.
and he was the one getting impatient and frustrated... I have been trying to calm him down he is so mad at his own capabilities lol

but anyway, the weight loss is going well, almost down nine pounds since May 28th!! yea!! must be all the exercise (hint hint) seriously! I have not been walking, too busy with Derek. And I am leaving Jay alone. His cat got run over and his greatgrandfather died. Very sad! oy vey!

well ttylater hun
love yas
nat:cheers2:skie
 
I'm so glad to hear that things are going well and that the pounds are falling off! Huge congratulations, sweetie!

Sophie
 
Natalie, I miss you - come back soon! Hope you are busy enjoying Derek and continuing all the fabulous work you have been doing :)
 
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