cut all ties with him -he's not healthy for you - you need to do what's right for you right now and he is not right...
move on -and don't look back...
move on -and don't look back...
Read that regularlyI don't think it is healthy for me to talk with him .. I think I need to take a step and get rid of people who don't believe in me and he is a big factor in how I thought of myself. He made me feel like crap over our relationship ..
Read that regularly

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<------why would you even update him via email?
Move on...
What do you expect to get out of continuing contact with him? he has NO RESPECT for you - have some for yourself...
good for you for calling the crisis line...
now i hope that you will be deleting the ex's email address from your address book as well as his phone number.... Why do you want to keep in touch with him?
There's not a better place for you to walk than outside in them iserable weather? A mall perhaps? or spend sometime doing stuff inside? you want to get healthy but you also want to be safe as well...
Hi, sweetie! 

Hi, sweetie!
Just wanted to stop by and see how things are going. You've been having a hard time lately. NatalieJoe, I totally admire you for really wanting - and working towards - a better life. Reading self-help books is a GREAT start! Likewise chatting with a counselor to help you gain a proper perspective. You have been dealt some extremely difficult cards with regard to your emotional health, I.e., having bipolar disorder. Many folks would give up, BUT YOU ARE NOT MANY FOLKS!
I hope you can grasp how truly worthwhile you are, and that you will show yourself some grace (ie. forgive yourself) when you need to. You are so much stronger than you even know! I think you are proving this to yourself, bit by bit (and pound by pound
Anyway, just wanted to make sure you know that you have many, MANY friends on this site. You are important to us, and we all want to see you succeed in your life, with losing weight and everything else that success means to you.
Wishing you many blessings,
Your friend
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Hey, NJ.
I'm sorry you've been feeling so badly lately. I hope you have come to the solid conclusion that Alex is a toxic force in your life. I know it's hard to say goodbye to people, especially when you're dealing with someone who may have been your best friend for a long time. Keep in mind, though, not all "friendships" are healthy.
I'm glad you made it out to walk, even in the slush covered streets.
You're in school full time, in an undergrad program. Doesn't your school or university have a gym? Most colleges have gyms or if they are too small for one, they usually have relationships with other nearby institutions that do have gyms. Just a thought.
-Tamara
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. "
~Eleanor Roosevelt
Hey NJ,
It's been a while since we've posted in each others diaries but I just wanted to give you my support.
You are right when you say you are better off without him. Why add misery to your life? You're working so hard to improve your health why do you want to allow someone in your life that finds enjoyment in tearing you down. You need people in your life that will provide you with positive support. If right now the only people you can call friends are here on this forum that's a positive start. You can lose weight. You will lose weight. I think dropping Alex completely from your life will be a huge weight loss for you.
A person's weight should never be a deciding factor in a relationship. When Rob and I broke up there were so many things gone wrong in our relationship that we didn't deal with. It had become so much easier to ignore the issues and pretend. But I've discovered that doing things the easy way can make it harder in the long run. Yes I was fat and he found that unappealing, (I found myself unappealing) but at the time I was unmotivated, miserable, had low self esteem, lost all focus on what was important to me and focused only on him. I wasn't interested in anything, had no hobbies. I could sit for hours in front of the television while he was in another room on his computer. We didn't communicate anymore and grew apart.
When he left it made me realize I needed to reevaluate my life and renew my focus. I reconnected with old friends. I picked up my camera again which was an old hobby of mine. I became more social. I joined Jazzercise and made a lot of friends there. My weight loss didn't start with me just wanting a better body. I wanted a better life for myself.
Yes Rob and I are back together and yes it is because I am Hot. But losing weight didn't make me Hot. I am Hot because I am confident, interesting, motivated, focused, positive, fun, smart…etc. There are so many things about you that make you Hot as well and if a guy can't see that it’s his issue, not yours.
I posted things I am thankful for in my diary and I keep the list handy so when I'm feeling down about my day I can look at it, add to it or change it up for the day. Make a list of your own. Post it in your diary, post it in mine, post it everywhere.
We are here for you.
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Today was a hard day! But I didn't call Alex! I am moving on, or trying to anyway. It is very hard to get someone out of your heart or your mind after four years time.
He tore me down a lot. Telling me he would only marry me if I was thinner, not completely thin, but only a little junk in the trunk and what not.
I don't know if any men would take me at the weight I am, and I don't think so, but maybe I need this time alone; however, I find it difficult to fill my time completely, just enough to stop thinking about someone I love for four years, but its something I must do. I have to get offline early to study for my quiz tomorrow. I plan to do very well!From what you have said i think Alex is bad for you he brings you down, you need to show him what a great person you are what he has missed out on and not call, mail, etc he will hear on the grapevine how good you look what your up to he will learn not to treat people badly and you will prove you can do sooooo much better than him, it is hard i know but you have to think about this HUGE change your making in your life and you need the people around you to like you for you and not what you look like.
You may be better on your own for a while get fully over alex and achieve your goals (or get darn close) you will be a happier person ready for a relationship and one will happen when you least expect it
How did you do in the quiz?
Just take one day at a time
Sarah
Today was a hard day! But I didn't call Alex! I am moving on, or trying to anyway. It is very hard to get someone out of your heart or your mind after four years time.
He tore me down a lot. Telling me he would only marry me if I was thinner, not completely thin, but only a little junk in the trunk and what not.
I don't know if any men would take me at the weight I am, and I don't think so, but maybe I need this time alone; however, I find it difficult to fill my time completely, just enough to stop thinking about someone I love for four years, but its something I must do. I have to get offline early to study for my quiz tomorrow. I plan to do very well!From what you have said i think Alex is bad for you he brings you down, you need to show him what a great person you are what he has missed out on and not call, mail, etc he will hear on the grapevine how good you look what your up to he will learn not to treat people badly and you will prove you can do sooooo much better than him, it is hard i know but you have to think about this HUGE change your making in your life and you need the people around you to like you for you and not what you look like.
You may be better on your own for a while get fully over alex and achieve your goals (or get darn close) you will be a happier person ready for a relationship and one will happen when you least expect it
How did you do in the quiz?
Just take one day at a time
Sarah
Hey Sarah...!!! lol
The quiz is scheduled for next Monday, the Monday coming up. I have good news I went on a 50 Minute WALK!!!lol
I am so psyched. I actually got out there and did it. Now I need to read more for my quiz. I found some valuable info online about The Odyssey... but now I want to apply it to what I am reading and really prepare for this quiz. The prof says it is simple, and that maybe so, but I want to score high on it ..
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo![]()



