You know what, you guys, I love ALL OF YOU. I'm not kidding. The first thing I do every morning is come on here to be greeted by all of your posts, and I love it. You guys make me feel like awesome. I really, really couldn't imagine *not* being part of this community. You guys rock.
Great update for this dreary yet wonderful morning! Last night, for the first time, I worked out for 7 miles and burned 810 calories. Given it was an hour later than I usually exercise, I was dead tired, but I had an amazing amount of stamina, if that makes any kind of rational sense. A half hour before I ran, I scarffed down a HUGE bowl of chocolate ice cream mixed with raw cookie dough. It was SO GOOD you guys, and I was going to use yesterday as my cheat day, but because I ran off so many cals, I'm going to say I most probably easily ran off all that dessert.
Before I treated myself, I'm pretty sure I only took in somewhere around 1,700, so I know for certain that I can't honestly say I backfired on my food plan yesterday. If I didn't have the ice cream, I wouldn't have been able to achieve my new milestone of seven miles.
Needless to say, I'm rather proud of this accomplishment. I'm not going to try and run that far and long every workout though. My goal is still 5.5-6 miles a night, but every once and a while, I may go 7 now that I know that I have the ability to and not kill myself. Haha.
Kimmy honey, don't worry. I'm not planning on loosing much more weight. That would be extremely unhealthy for me. At the moment, I'm focusing on losing the bit of belly that I have left and then simply toning myself up for summer sports.
Now, on to what Marg is saying, I totally agree with you. Kim, my best friend, she's voiced to me a million times that I need to just 'talk' to him, face to face and alone. That's fine and dandy and a wonderful idea, but contrary to popular belief, I'm rather shy, well...when it comes to me personally and the possibility of rejection. At this point, to be honest, I'm extremely suspicious that he may like as me as well, but again, I'm not positive about it. It is true, however, that it's becoming ALOT easier to talk to him. He was over yesterday and we just eased into conversation before he had to leave abruptly.
It's been suggested to me that I just pull him aside and MAKE us be alone and then tell him. Of course, given I know how I am in tense situations, I'll probably end up spitting out something like "You know I'm digging you, don't you?" Of course, then he'll probably give me 'a look' in which case I'm going to have to tell him I've become enamored with him even though I've tried everything in my power NOT to be.
Truth be told, my attraction to him has been going on for six months and by this time, I'm usually over my crushes. This particular one however, is not slowly allieviating itself, it's festering and getting much, much more overwhelming. I've been told that's a sign.
Eye contact is what started it all, honestly. I never saw him differently until we started locking eyes for seconds at a time. And you know, usually you'd think this would allieviate itself too, but it hasn't. It too, is growing to a point of suffocation.
My thoughts are these, I have a suspicion that he likes me and it's why he's always sure to look at me too. If this *is* true, than there's some kind of wordless understanding that something is *happening*between us, and *eventually* we're going to do something major about it. I'm thinking now, given my emtional frustrations, I'm going to have to call him on this rather soon, or forever regret that I never talked to him genuinely about it.
Ah well, everything in due time. Most probably he'll be over here next weekend, so I have a whole week to prepare myself and work up the courage.
All of this being said, I'm riding on cloud nine today because of my accomplishment last night. I pushed myself through my sleepy haze, and now I've got something to write home about. I love the euphoria a milestone gives me.
I hope all of you are having a GREAT weekend! You guys always have the ability to make mine wonderful!! (((Big Hugs)))
