My Story

Nothing to exciting to update on tonight really. On nights when I don't run, I feel a lot more...morose than on nights when I do. I'm convinced I'm addicted to the serotonin high a good, long workout gives me.

Given my TOM started early this month, today was my cheat day. Usually, the fact that I started 10 days early would unnerve me, but I'm actually relieved. If my period was regular this month, it would have landed smack-dab in the middle of my Florida vacation. Now I can be assured of no surprises while I'm away. This is actually quite stress relieving as well, to say the least.

On the second day of my period, I always seem to crave both chocolate and peanut butter, so from 9:50 to 10:00 I loaded up on Dark Chocolate Hershey Kisses dipped in peanut butter, spoonfuls of PB and J, a Dark Chocolate Mint Three Musketeers bar and a little chocolate ice cream mixed with raw cookie dough. I just went absolutely crazy, and you know what, I'm glad I did. This means I won't be craving these foods again until the second day BEFORE my May TOM.

All of this being said, if I exercise more days of the week than I rest, I feel as though I should treat myself. Usually when I do have dessert, I allot it into my daily calorie intake, and then run it off in the evening. Of course, that would mean eating sweets isn't 'cheating' if I'm going to burn off the energy anyway, but the second day of my period is my cheat day. It's the day when I *don't* burn off any of the processed sugar I stuffed into my mouth. Given my appetite isn't what it used to be, this whole month so far I've hardly had one. More days I've gone to bed taking in 1,200 to 1,400 cals then I have in a long while. I figured I deserved tonight's glutenous rage. Being that I run off anything excess I take in lately, I won't be having another one of these 'free cheat' days for a month.

Getting onto other news, I realized something this past week. If I don't see my boys for over four days, I begin to miss them terribly. It's crazy. Everything reminds me of them. They're such a delicately intricate part of my life, that imagining life without my friends is hard. I know I'll have distractions in Florida, but I gurantee you, I'll call them at least twice a week. The sad thing is, I don't think they HONESTLY know how attached I've grown to them. I should tell them I think.

"You know what I realized this week you guys? I have genuine fraternal affection for you and start to miss ya' if I haven't see you for a few days." Yep. That's what I'll tell them. Maybe they'll even admit that they're going to miss me. They tried saying they weren't going to, but I know better. LOL.

Hope all of you have had a great weekend!! (((Big Hugs)))
 
I'm so glad you had such an enjoyable cheat day! It's nice to just let things go every now and again--and then it's so nice, again, when you know you've been working so hard that you can allow that! I'm always so astonished hearing about your runs, and I can't wait until my body is in better shape so that moving it isn't such a chore. But I'm going to stick with it and take all the joy I can from what I have.

Sophie
 
Invariant said:
If I don't see my boys for over four days, I begin to miss them terribly. It's crazy. Everything reminds me of them. They're such a delicately intricate part of my life, that imagining life without my friends is hard. I know I'll have distractions in Florida, but I gurantee you, I'll call them at least twice a week. The sad thing is, I don't think they HONESTLY know how attached I've grown to them. I should tell them I think.

"You know what I realized this week you guys? I have genuine fraternal affection for you and start to miss ya' if I haven't see you for a few days." Yep. That's what I'll tell them. Maybe they'll even admit that they're going to miss me. They tried saying they weren't going to, but I know better. LOL.
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I dont think that you should phrase it like this. It would appear that you have more than a fraternal affection for one of them. He could hear that and think that you were sending him a message that you thought of him as a sister to a brother and nothing potentially more. It would probably deter him from making a move!
 
Omega said:
I dont think that you should phrase it like this. It would appear that you have more than a fraternal affection for one of them. He could hear that and think that you were sending him a message that you thought of him as a sister to a brother and nothing potentially more. It would probably deter him from making a move!
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:smilielol5: Yeah, I figured that out after I worded it. Seriously though, I've no idea what I'm going to do about this. I wish I could be blissfully ignorant of the way he makes me feel, but that would be denying myself the pleasures of innate attraction. That being said, if he does, calmly reject me, the fact still remains that I'll still care about him a great deal.

Yesterday at the park, I hung out with my boys and a couple of girlfriends. I ended up playing goalie (a position I despise) and I told them all to watch me make a complete and utter embarassment of myself. Mr C then procceeds to say "Don't you do that anyway?" and I said "You know what, thank you for that. I appreciate the love." It's just a lot of fun hanging out with everyone on these beautiful spring days, but I realized yesterday, that when I hang out with my boys in private, they act a bit differently. I think it's an impressionment thing. I think men have an urge to beat their chests around other guys and when it comes to an attractive girl, to pee in the corner before another male skitters across the linoleum. You know? I don't know.

We'd gotten into a conversation about attraction, my girls and I, and Mr C's bro hears us, and illiterates our suspicion that if a guy likes a girl, he'll say he doesn't, especially in front of his friends. He assured us this is, in fact, quite true. In the meantime, I'm thinking how wonderful it is to have this information, because now, perhaps, the mixed signals Mr. C is sending me, aren't all that mixed. In front of our hang, he says he'll never go for me, but when it's just my bro, his bro, him and I, he flirts with me mercilously, to the point of saying I'm the woman of his dreams. I can't figure him out, and it's driving me nuts. I'm going to have to talk to him alone here shortly, and then report back.

The good news is, if I make a complete and utter embarassment of myself in front of him, at least he won't be surprised. :smilielol5:

Wow, okay, all this being said, just a little update on the weight loss scenerio. My girls and I went for a long walk yesterday and given it was past seven, and I couldn't get home in time to eat more carbs and cals, I didn't run last night. I do feel a bit awkward, if I don't run for two days straight, but I certianly got in enough exercise yesterday to compensate for the 1,300 cals I took in. I'm assuming that maybe, at the end of the day, provided I expelled as many cals through exercise as I figured, I took in about 1,200 yesterday. Given that I didn't wake up today feeling bloated or relatively large, I know I took in a low amount of cals. Tonight I have to work from 6-8 and usually, that's the time I load up on carbs so I'm hoping I can sneak some in for a run at 9. I have to keep up with Trever now, that boy's going to smoke me if I don't get back to my training. LOL.

I hope all of you are having a wonderful Tuesday morning!! ((((Big Hugs))))
 
Man, I totally would love some of that chocolate you were craving, although I'm not craving so hopefully I don't start now.

Hopefully you and MR. C get that talk soon. It definitely should be done though. =) Good luck when you do!
 
Woohoo! Trevor the Tiger! I like that. :D Meow--says Kimberly the kitten. I can be very catty. :smilielol5: I think you are Rae the Racehorse the way you run so darn much. :D

I would just tell your boys that you'll miss them while you're gone. It's the truth without making it any more or less than you want to. You could maybe give MC a little look while you say it. :Angel_anim:

I also have to say that your little pb and chocolate party made me :drool5:
I actually got up and went to the office kitchen and ate 2 of the choc chip cookies one of my co-workers brought in. :blush5: You're a girl after my own heart. :D My :reddevil: is due Saturday, so that may be why I have such a sweet tooth atm. :banghead:

So will you have internet access while you're in Fla, or will we have Rae withdrawal while you're gone? :nopity:
 
If I do say so myself, there's an impressive update tonight. For some reason, I was FULL of energy today.

Here's the 411 on my cardio for this BEAUTIFUL Wednesday. For forty-five minutes, I played basketball with my boys and my girlfriend. Afterwards, I played soccer with my bro for forty-five minutes. I've guesstimated this exercise burned roughly 200 cals, it's probable that I expended more energy than that.

Drumroll please...here comes the best part...I started working out earlier tonight, and ran for an hour and a half instead of just an hour. I accomplished 8 miles and burned 910 calories.:party:

This is by far THE MOST energy I've ever expended on a run. I think I might be hungry right now, but I really don't know. If my stomach starts roaring too much, I'll prolly have an orange or something.

I was actually, really, really impressed with not only my amount of energy, but the fact that I was able to run 6.3 miles an hour for a few minutes. I'm thinking when I get back from vacation, I may up my ante with Treadmillio. I'll switch between 5.8, 6.0 and 6.3, to slowly build up my speed.

I'm riding on cloud nine right now, you guys. I feel so amazing.

To update you all on the priors of my week, yesterday I spent ALL DAY in the car with my father and brother. We traveled eight hours round trip to pick up an organ that was given to us. It's a beautiful instrument, yes, but man is my butt sore. I think I've stood all day long save for right now. Perhaps that's why I've had so much stamina today, because I was frustratingly sendentary yesterday and there was nothing I could do about it.

Before we left, I made my father promise we'd find a Starbucks to stop at. I have a confession to make, Starbucks is my guilty indulgence on road trips. Thankfully, they have a great choice of low cal drinks. A venti skinny mocha or light frappachino only packs 130 cals. The Grande iced coffees are only 110 each. I think it's great how they compensate for those of us watching our sweets intake. This means I will be getting a Grande Light Vanilla Frappachino when I get to O' Hare airport on Wednsday morning, and have to try and survive checking in my luggage and getting frisked. I will GLADLY suck that baby down before my plane leaves land and I will be the happiest passenger on the plane.

All of this being said, yesterday I took in around 1,400 cals which is pretty impressive for being sedentary, and proves I'll be able to maintain on days that I cannot run to expend my excess caloric intake.

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday are all a blur, but I know for sure I didn't run on those days. I'm so thankful I was so active today. I was starting to get extremely cranky. The good news is, all this week, I've only taken in around 1,300 to 1,500 daily, which meant I didn't *have* to run. I know Monday it was BEAUTIFUL outside and I walked a few miles with my girlfriends. I love this newly arrived sunny weather. It alows me to enjoy exercise that doesn't consist primarily of a treadmill.
 
Yes, this update consists of two posts. I wasn't done yet but couldn't post anymore in one entry.

Today, the high was 70 degrees, and as I mentioned, I spent the majority of the day outside. For the first time this year, I was able to leave the house in denim shorts. It was SO NICE.

Also, I realized, the fact that my legs go up to my neck has a rather nice effect on my ability to play basketball. I found out today that I hold the power of distraction in my hand. I was set to guard my girlfriend's brother, and threw him off his shot because he decided he wanted to notice my most prized physical attributes. When he missed, my girlfriend laughs and says he was too busy staring at my legs. Now, I am humble, ya'll know this, but I'm not far from admitting that this was a rather flattering happenstance, particularly because he's quite a good player and I hold the power to whack up his A-game simply by throwing on a pair of denims. Thankfully, I won't allow this attention to get to my head and make me conceded, but I take pride in the fact that my short shorts are *not* short, I've simply discovered, through my running, that my legs are rather long. Yep. If I sit down and they don't ride up and I bend over and my tidy-whitey's aren't showing, then I consider them fine. I WILL NOT allow anything to be seen. That doesn't sit well with me. Not only is it immodest, it's disgusting, imo. My father has well informed me that if they're too short, he'll gladly let me know. This I take comfort in. So far, I've come home with good picks.

This rises another issue for me, I've four pairs of shorts that cost my mom 8 dollars, which she bought only three weeks ago, and already I've gotten to small for them. I own a pair of shorts that are 7's which I bought for myself and they're honestly the only ones that are going to fit me correctly when I get to Florida. I've decided I'm not going to mention to my mother that eight dollars of her well earned money has been whisked away on the treads of my treadmill. Today, I wore a pair 9/10's with which I had to wear my belt on the very last hole and STILL had to pull them up every two minutes during the game. When I get back from vacation, I'll break the news to her. Until then, my dad will be the only one who knows. LOL.

Wow, I've written ALOT tonight. I guess running so much gets me EXTREMELY chatty. :smilielol5:

I'm wishing all of you a WONDERFUL Thursday. I hope all of you will wake up as happy as I will. Big hugs and much love to all of you!
 
Wow! I'm still astonished at how fast you're going through clothing sizes. Seventeen pounds down and all my clothes still fit me. Then again, I wear skirts with elastic waistbands chiefly, which have a lot of give built in. And I think that the differences probably reflect more in smaller sizes--something to look forward to! Anyway, so glad to hear about all your wonderful games and running!

Sophie
 
Well done on some great running.

I am pleased that the weather has been your friend. It is always nice to be outside in the good weather. This is definitely the most enjoyable way of getting the exercise done.

Like Kimberly - I also hope that you will have internet access while you are away.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hi Rae,
I guess you're in Florida right now. I hope you're having a great time, and that your Gran was pleasantly surprised at her gorgeous granddaughter's appearance.
 
I hope the super hot long legged goddess is having a blast in Florida.

Kimmy, now that Rae's gone, we should dirty up her diary with all kinds of nasty filthy talk! Downright dirty stuff...:reddevil:

Have fun Rae!!!
 
Sorry that I didnt get the chance to wish you a great holiday before you went away. I hope that you are having a wonderful time - running in the good weather. I am sure that your grandmother would be stunned when she saw your transformation in real life. The impact is so much greater than she would appreciate from photos.
 
I totally would love to have legs up to my eyeballs. I can't believe how quickly you are dropping clothing sizes too. That's just amazing. Are you still trying to lose more weight? Or are you almost to your maintaining weight?
 
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