my journey seems like the neverending story....

So I have been kinda down.. Maybe I had a lot more time to focus on my losing weight before and now it's been kinda hard.. I have been focused but not 100% on cohen like I should be.. I don't know but I really need to start focuising again big time.. Fuck this weight shit is so hard... I can't stand it.. I wanna be skinny so bad... I really want to be in a bikini by this summer but my goal still seems so damn far away.. Oh well it's one of those nights...........:reddevil:
 
He enters wearing his philosophers robes.

The things that you do that are really really hard are the things that you will most value.

Aint easy is it little sister?
 
I must admit that this losing weight journey for me is really really hard!!! I am so proud of myself though cuz I see it happening and I here complements but I'm still so far away from my goal...:ack2::ack2: Oh well that's life and that's why I'm logging back on cuz I need to get refocused... I have two more body bag sessions left and there done........:cry::cry: So now I can still do saunas and get wrapped but they will be a little different.. I joined the gym today with a kids club for my son so I can't use the excuse that he's not getting taken care of...:iagree: Well regardless I followed cohen today to the dot...:party: :party: It's pretty easy now I'm use to it.. I just need to start drinking more water for sure.. Well everyone thanks for the motivation.. It starts in your head.... :hurray::seeya:
 
Hi Ivette-It looks like we've both been a bit down. Thank you for visiting me in my diary sweets. It is much better if we can focus on what we have achieved & are capable of, instead of being so hard on ourselves.(I am my own worst critic). You are doing really well & it is hard but if I can do it so can you. It gets harder as you get older as your bad habits are well & truly entrenched & I wish I had taken control long ago but at least I did. You are doing it Ivette. You are taking control. Baby steps....... baby steps. We don't change our mindset overnight.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels" and nothing really worth doing is usually easy unfortunately, xoxo Cate.
 
So hey tomorrow is my first soccer game let's see how that goes. Today I went to an energy healer and got an awesome deep tissue hot stones massage boy was it amazing... I loved it!!!!! wooooohoooooo!!!! iit was good.. i had a fantastic day...:iagree: Lately I have been so so at peace with myself..Regardless I have problems but lifes about getting through them... :cheers2: I think this journey is truly becoming a reality and little by little people are starting to notice.. My energy is always positive and it just comes out.. I am so happy to be where I am at today.. I'm pretty far from my goal but shit once i get there I will need a new goal so go figure!!!:) Well today in the middle of my energy healing I just came to so many realizations about life... It was weird.. I noticed that relaxing and being calm is so so so hard for me... I just can not relax. I feel I need to control the world when the world will keep on going . I need to learn to take care of my body.. :iagree:
 
Hey girl!!!!!


what a good post that you just made! :Angel_anim:

The hardest thing i think for me to do is RELAX. i am guilty of being SUCH A WORRIER!!!! i worry and stress about everything.... and i mean EVERYTHING.

relaxing is good for the body and the soul though... we HAVE to learn to do this.

you also have made me remember that i actually have a gift cert for a spa and I WANT A MASSAGE TOOOOO!!!!!:sifone:
congrats on your epiphany! hehe


keep up the hard work woman!!!



ps

DONKEY DICK!!!
 
It starts in your head..
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THATS IT! GIRL YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH. Now listen up my good friend. It was you that got me going way back in january when I was just starting to be at the point where I had always fallen off the wagon. Your little challenge kicked me in gear. So now we gotta get back on a roll. We havent gained any..Yet...but we gotta head on down on the scale. Dont worry about how long it will take to totally reach goal...just tell me what you are gonna do this week.... We didnt eat this elephant all at once...we did it one bite at at a time and thats how we will get it off..a little each day...How about that rant...did ya like it?
 
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AngelicaHope said:
HEY! =P
i missed ya girl!
how have you been?! ^^
seems you are doing pretty well
soccer!!! whoooh!
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Ivette8uNOmore said:
So hey tomorrow is my first soccer game let's see how that goes. Today I went to an energy healer and got an awesome deep tissue hot stones massage boy was it amazing... I loved it!!!!! wooooohoooooo!!!! iit was good.. i had a fantastic day...:iagree: Lately I have been so so at peace with myself..Regardless I have problems but lifes about getting through them... :cheers2: I think this journey is truly becoming a reality and little by little people are starting to notice.. My energy is always positive and it just comes out.. I am so happy to be where I am at today.. I'm pretty far from my goal but shit once i get there I will need a new goal so go figure!!!:) Well today in the middle of my energy healing I just came to so many realizations about life... It was weird.. I noticed that relaxing and being calm is so so so hard for me... I just can not relax. I feel I need to control the world when the world will keep on going . I need to learn to take care of my body.. :iagree:
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Ivette WOW you have such a positive attidue its radianting all over ur diarie. Its like ur a diferent person keep it up Ivette ur doing great! Not only is ur body showing this healthier side of you but your attitude reflects the positive change you have made. Take care Ivette!
 
Imaginary report from Ivettes soccer game:
"There she goes sports fans sprinting like greased lightning down the field!. SHE COULD GO ALL THE WAY! Wait where is she going? Is that her hugging the water bucket?"
Just kiddin girl! How was it?
 
brawny77 said:
Imaginary report from Ivettes soccer game:
"There she goes sports fans sprinting like greased lightning down the field!. SHE COULD GO ALL THE WAY! Wait where is she going? Is that her hugging the water bucket?"
Just kiddin girl! How was it?
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BAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! You so funny, Brawny!! How did it go chicky??? we all want to know!
 
:smilielol5: :smilielol5: :rofl: :rofl: Ok so how did it go is such funny funny shit... I decided that I don't know at what point last week did I figure I knew how to play soccer.. I have never played soccer in my life and damn these people were good.. I sucked.. I mean it was bad.. When I was in the field I decided that soccer is not really for me.. I think I'm gonna quit.. All the other girls are pretty good and I have never ever played.. It actually made me feel like shit last night because I didn't know what the fuck I was doing.. I joined the gym and I think I should just do that instead.. I need to crawl before I walk.. I have always had two left feet. The team we played against was college professionals wtf.. and then came Ivette!!!! Ugggggggghhhh actually this weight loss shit has been so unmotivating this week too.. My problem is that when I start working so fucking hard.. I eat more.. I notice.. Not real bad stuff but shit who cares...Like today my menu is a big crab salad with avocado .. 4 crackers a chicken breast a big one.. with salad from pollo loco.. and everything had avocados.. I don't know I feel like a fat ass.. I really do and last night that shit sucked cuz I got so so damn intimidated.. and I became so negative.. I hated feeling that way..:( :cry: and I laughed it off but I was mad cuz I wanted to be really good.. I was even mean to my boyfriend and told him he sucked cock at soccer but he's really good.. I was being a hateful mean person..So there goes soccer ivette.. it wasn't fun for me..
 
But I have come to a realization that this is what life is about.. sometimes I feel I have to live others lives and I can't.. I just wanted to be a part of the group and join the team because it is a lot of couples.. but soccer is not my passion and it never will be.. I'm not losing nothing by giving up soccer.. and tomorrow I'm going to practice but truly I feel in my heart of hearts I'm not gonna do it.. Why am I going to try so hard to do something that gave me anxiety... i will still go with my man and my son to the park cuz it's a beautiful park.. I can go on a hike go to the dog park.. shit theres so much relaxing stuff I can do and not panic... So Soccer is over for me really.. I wish I would've been good but oh well fuck it.. in a perfect world I would have scored 10 goals but I don;t care I'm over it.... Therefore..

Brawny your right I have lost a lot of motivation lately.. I don't know why?? yeah let's do some shit next week.. I joined the gym so I will go to the gym 3 times next week and do 2 hours... and I will wake up 2 times next week early and run around the block 3 times.. big blocks..... Ok that's my challenge and I will follow cohen starting tomorrow sunday....Thanks Brawny!!! Sometimes I wonder what the hell I would be doing if not logging on right now trying to figure it out.. I really want to lose more.. I was on a roll for a minute...:sifone:

Hey kc how are you?? your the best!!! your wonderful ... let's do this chickee. we can we can.. i know we can... it's all in our heads.. we just need to do it.. :Angel_anim:
 
M_Marie said:
Hey girl!!!!!


what a good post that you just made! :Angel_anim:

The hardest thing i think for me to do is RELAX. i am guilty of being SUCH A WORRIER!!!! i worry and stress about everything.... and i mean EVERYTHING.

relaxing is good for the body and the soul though... we HAVE to learn to do this.

you also have made me remember that i actually have a gift cert for a spa and I WANT A MASSAGE TOOOOO!!!!!:sifone:
congrats on your epiphany! hehe


keep up the hard work woman!!!



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DONKEY DICK!!!
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Thanks girly!!! Yeah go for that massage it feels amazing... I know I have to stop worrying.. I think I might take up yoga or something.. I need to learn how to relax the brain your right... were all right.. let's do it..or meditation or something.. hah??
 
AngelicaHope said:
HEY! =P
i missed ya girl!
how have you been?! ^^
seems you are doing pretty well
soccer!!! whoooh!
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Hey angelica!!! your back.. no soccer sucked it went bad.. I just didn't like it I have never played and everyone has.. My boyfriends says that it's because I always wanna be the best at everything.. and maybe he's right.. Why the hell am I going to play something were I feel I'm the worst.. I can practice and get better I know but I don't even like the sport.. I hate it even more now.. and yeah I like being the best at everything.. I'm very competitive.. Even in business I have to be in the top 10 or I feel like shit but oh well.. I have always been that way my whole life.. So do you guys think I should just give it up and try something I like better??
 
PEP TALK FROM Coach ALTA!!!

YOU ARE DOING AMAZING!!! :D!!!

....remember that!!! About soccer,...I am so proud of you for enrolling first off, and for actually WANTING to do it! :hurray: You can tell a lot already in your mentality, and the way you think about things now, that you REALLY REALLY want this!! The fact that you want JJ to have an athletic mom is AMAZING!!! That's the best gift you can ever give yourself for him!!!...

...Personally though, ...you always motivate me to believe in myself....so here goes....I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD QUIT!!!!! For a couple reasons:

- #1 -You enrolled...--Satisfaction comes from FINISHING things...not quitting..
- #2 -This is obviously a challenge for you- and since you ARE competitive, this might be just what you need to really keep you motivated at trying this extra running around the blocks more...(I think you probably went around the block to run more, cause you might have been tired throughout the game, intimidated by the other people's skill, forcing you to want to improve yours. That's Great!
-#3- To really show yourself CONTROL. -to show yourself that you have control over the situation, and that NO ONE IS JUDGING YOU BUT YOU!!!..YOU CAN CONTROL THE ANXIETY, with more Practice.
-#4 - To do this as a Family with Sean
-#5- To take it back to Old School kid days when being part of an exercise team was the ISH!...
-#6- Because you don't like it....(just like running...I hated it at first...now I love it....gee why...because I got better at it...then I didn't suck as much)...with time...I think you'll like it!! Give it a chance though...
-#7 so that Sean won't say you are a quitter, and so you won't resent him and treat him mean for being better than you...
"The mother of skill is REPETITION"...you know this already....:iagree:...

...how scarred were you when you first started Real Estate and going on appointments by yourself at first, and whether or not you were going to make it right?.....BUT LOOK AT YOU NOW!!! You are doing AMAZING!!! YOU JUST CLOSED 5 ESCROWS!!!....but what got you there?.....

.....REPEATING the same tasks daily, ....prospecting...talking to tons of people, not stopping and DOING IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER...til you were one of the best!!!! :cheers2:...did it happen over night?.....HELL NO!!!....did it take hard work?........HELL YES!...is it stressful?.......FUCK YEAH!...are the results worth all the stress and anxiety at the end of the story? HELL YEAH!...do you feel so proud of yourself....? MORE THAN EVER!

....things are difficult in life....YES,...they are.....BUT really Ivette....think about it....those people you are playing with...didn't get GOOD and PROFESSIONAL overnight!!! They worked hard at it, and did just as you are doing.....THEY STARTED!...that's the MOST important step....You have to start somewhere...You can't be the best over night,....you have to work hard...and YOU KNOW THIS BETTER THAN ANYONE!!!

...I say take the CHALLENGE...don't let yourself down....and RIDE IT OUT!....FINISH IT! Yeah, you could do a lot of things that are less stressful, but really though,.....are they going to challenge you to become better?

..Are they going to give you the same satisfaction as getting to know all these new people on the teams and having yourself earn your own respect and theirs for putting in all your hard work and dues, and showing improvement...?

....You are your own worst critic....Believe me....You can't get worse...you can only get BETTER!!! You always motivate me not to quit things...and I actually learn a lot about FINISHING things from you....

....Motivation for me wavers too....but it's easier when I don't focus on weight loss, and I focus on DAILY ACTIVITY instead...or being part of a team, club or doing things not for just loosing weight.

....I know you just called me and told me that you were QUITTING...but DON'T BE A QUITTER!!! BE AN INSPIRATION TO YOURSELF!!! :D! :rant:

...I love you a lot....and I know you are very very AMAZING...I haven't ever known or thought of you as a quitter....DON'T START NOW!!!! :reddevil:
 
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:grouphug::beating:Awwwww.. thanks!! no your right maybe I shouldn't quit.. I can only get better.. Wel I'm gonna give it one more try and practice my ass off this week.. more reasons to go to the park and I'll go to the game on friday.. and try one more time but If I get real anxiety and shit and really negative then I will have to rethink it... I know what you mean though... about not quitting!!! Your right I can only get better and fuck it if I'm not as good I will see... Regardless I will practice...and practice.. And about the Santa monica race are you gonna do it? in may? I think I'm down for that... the 5 mile to start sounds okkkk... yeah I will sign up...Thanks I needed that I think... :gnorsi: love ya bitch your awesome..and you look fucking amazing!!! my mom even told me today.. puta la alta que adelgazo.!!!!!!!!!!!!!! esa huevona se ve estupenda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..:party::party:
 
:smilielol5:!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! YOU NOT QUITTING JUST MADE MY DAY!!! :party: :party:

...and that comment from your mom....my FREAKIN CHERRY!!! :D!! :party:...she's so blunt ya know....so that really makes me happy...!!

...thank you so much!...you inspire me all the time...:grouphug:!!! I have to tell you the truth...a couple weeks back when you were losing a lot and I was stumped and feeling negative, I started to spiral down mentally, not that I was jealous of you, just that I admired you for being consistent about your Sauna and that you weren't looking at it like losing weight...and I WAS...:( ...and that was why my efforts had slowed down ..

...and when I changed that..and I was like WHO CARES if I never lose a pound, but as long as I eat healthy every day like her, and I go consistently every time like her, then I will get results like her!!!

...I am sooooooo PROUD of you Ivette!! Don't quit!! Love yourself enough to ride it out! I wish tweedy would do some game stuff like that with me....you are really LUCKY!!! Know that! :D!
 
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