My Big Fat Journal

I just wanted to say how great you are doing, especially as you are giving up smoking aswell!!! That is a tall order.:eek:

I was a latch key kid aswell, and I used to sit in the kitchen with the telly on after school and just eat. And that is still my main problem now ... boredom. That is why I find this forum so helpful, it fills up my days ;)

Keep up the good work!
 
Hi Pineola,
I just read through your journal - and I was a latch key, over fed kid as well and at my lightest grown up weight, I was 30 pounds over my goal.

The really cool thing, is that we CAN change. We can look at what we want out of life and for ourselves and MAKE it happen.

Congratulations on reaching the 10 pound mark!! Being here at the forum, staying focused is such a huge step towards reaching our goals :)

Keep up the good work (I know how HARD it is!)
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Thanks for stopping by everyone. Val you are so funny. I am totally thinking about my (and your) boobs when doing bicep curls now. Mrs. Bear and M2M do you feel you lack discipline because you didn't have a lot of parental guidance during your free time as a child?

Mal, Thanks for all the great recipes you leave around the forum. I have not tried any yet, but I am saving them to do so. Cannon and Cecilia---thanks for the encouragement as well.....looking back at that day (Thursday) it was not bad at all compared to what I did to myself yesterday. I am embarrassed to say I must have eaten over 3000 calories. I couldn't stop--did a big binge of pistachios, popcorn and chocolate. The chocolate bar I purchased to eat for the rest of the week is gone in one sitting. I don't know what happened. I took my sister to lunch, had a lovely meal--very healthy and some new fangled type of martini. Was doing great until I got home. I have been trying to rack my brain to see what it was....I don't think it was my sister. We don't see eye to eye on things sometimes, but I don't stress about her or anything. I love her. I could have been the drink. I got quite relaxed afterwards....maybe it made me goofy in the head. I don't know. The only good thing about yesterday was that I went to the gym.
Today is fine food wise. I am not over-eating and I went to the gym. I am a little emotional about my set-back. I had an argument with my boyfriend...only about the 3rd or 4th one in 7 years....probably over something that was exaggerated in my mind due to my sensitivity today....oh, well...were over it.

Thanks for listening.
 
Hi pineola. First and foremost, congrats on your weightloss so far. I have been coming here several times a day since I registered to stave off bingeing but not everyday is going to be perfect. Today is behind you and tomorrow we will start again.
Oh and I was reading in someone elses journal and I love your explanation on how you approach food and I will be keeping that thought in my head often. :)
You really are doing a good job and we all know you can reach your goals.

Add: I just saw your response and encouragement on my journal and want to say thanks.
 
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M2M do you feel you lack discipline because you didn't have a lot of parental guidance during your free time as a child?
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I guess I would answer that question differently, at different times in my life. There was a time, during early college, where :::cough:::cough::: I was a bit undisciplined ;)

And since then, there's my weight, and eating habits that are undiciplined (correction - WAS undiciplined) ;) But overall, I feel that the lack of parental guidance during my free time as a child gave me independence, capability and autonomy that our overly scheduled and chaufered children of today lack. I worry that our kids (speaking generically here) will not know how to really handle themselves once they get alone time as they move into middle to late teens, because they were so coddled for so long.

It's a tough, catch-22 situation.

My mom died when she was 48. I would have given all my independence, capability and autonomy away in heart beat to have had her in my life more then snippits in the evenings and weekends.

I am one of those over scheduling, chauffering, stay at home, homeschooling moms because I would have wanted my mom there before she died, discipline or no discipline.

(sorry for rambling on so!)

And Pineola, let go about the day you over did it - put it behind you and move on, each day is a brand new day to make healthier choices that bring you closer to your goals!

You CAN do this :D
 
I'm a mixture of both. My dad is a bit of a control freak and a perfectionist. Sorry, that sounds terrible. My parents are very much people who think that we girls (me and my sisters) should do whatever makes us happy. But in their house he does all the cleaning, cleans the cooker every week, cleans the sink so it is spotless every day with special cleaners. He catches the wrapping paper before it hits the floor at christmas :D . I have a split personality, I'm like him 50% of the time, but the other half of the time, I'm a slob. I do think my life is very unstructured because of not having supervision after school. I was quite young aswell because my oldest sister is 5 years older than me, so by the time she was old enough for my mum to go back to work, I was very young still. And my sister was a teen so she wasn't concerned with how I was filling my time.
 
Arg sorry to hear your weekend could have went better but at least you've managed to get a good gym session in. Hopefully this week will be much better for you!

How was the weigh in by the way (might have missed it). I can relate to your loosing size from your chest too. My boobs made a bit of a bid for freedom from my swim suit the other night so I think it may be time to invest in another one. Lucky it was only me and mum in the pool at the time!:eek:
 
OK, I think I'm back on track....

I'm a little nervous that I am up to 1540 calories today and it is still early, but I had a very delicious dinner and I'm full so hopefully I won't feel the need to snack. I even went to the movie today and only had a diet coke and a few bites of popcorn.

I have chopped up vegetables and put them in individual containers for the week. I also have a Papaya and Cantaloupe to cut up. That way I can take from each to make salads, wraps whatever and it will be easy and I don't have to think about it. We grilled out tonight and made some extra chops so I have cut the ones that were leftover up into pieces for the salads and the wraps as well. I purchased some large leaves of lettuce so I could make the wraps w/lettuce instead of using a tortilla type deal. I went back to the store today and was tempted to buy another block of chocolate...feeling confident that I could eat just the serving, but told myself since I binged out on the last one that was meant to last the week, I don't get to have it. Maybe next time I'll think about that before I binge. Ha! I am going to teach myself discipline! So far a great day. I'm going in a bit to walk the dog. Didn't go to the gym today as I had planned, but I had a nice lazy Sunday with my Beau and Doggies.

Goal for this week: No binging! Go to gym at least 3 times. Drink 8 glasses of water everyday (I'm only avg 5-6 this week).

Oh, and I purchased some green tea capsules....who knows if they really work or not. I looked to see if I could find any reason not to take them...couldn't find any info that said they were bad, so best case scenario they work (or I think they do--placebo affect is a possibility) or worse case they do nothing. Anybody take them? What do you think?
 
Movie Review--Nacho Libre: Translation "Free Nacho"

Ok, I thought I would review the movie I saw in case anyone is interested.

First of all if you don't love Jack Black or find wrestling the least bit interesting you will not enjoy this movie. If you do love Jack Black for find wrestling interesting you will probably like parts of it. It is slow moving, but full of strange Mexican characters. I love that they filmed it in Mexico and used all Mexican actors. A lot of the little parts are done by current or retired Mexican wrestlers. There are a few scenes that are very funny and to me worth the price of admission. I give it 3 out of 5 stars.
 
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Thanks for the movie review. :) I was actually thinking of going to see it. I am a closet Jack Black fan. :eek: Shh, don't tell anyone.
 
Great going Pineola, you realised that buying that choc might cause a problem, so you left it alone. And now you haven't got it in, there's no temptation.

PS - I luuuuuurvvvved Rock School!!! :D
 
Pineola, you make an excellent point about disorganization. When I'm not organized and in my routines I do not eat as well. But when I have structure and routine in my life it's much easier for me. A few years ago I found this great website that really helped me get organized. And now I'm so organized it's down right scary. But it wasn't until I got my house and life in order that I could start working on myself. If anyone is interested in the website just pm me.

And a big congrats on your ten pound weight loss. That is excellent news!!! I think that was the biggest obstacle was getting those first ten gone. You are rolling now!!!!
 
Hey Chica!

Thanks for stopping by my diary. Looks like you are doing good. I love putting snacks in gladware containers to regulate my portions.

Let me know how the green tea capsules work. I bought some too, but haven't taken them consistently. I know they give me energy though!
 
Yeah please let us know about the tea capsules, I've been wondering about these kinds of things ever since I started this. My friends at uni started drinking Chinese tea to aid their weight loss and it apparently worked like a laxitive. The whole toilets were boggin' for weeks on end!:eek:
 
Thanks for popping into my journal Pineola! :)

well, I don't take the capsules... but I do drink ALOT of green tea. it's one of my favourite drinks. As well as green tea ice cream and such... heh. But I try not to have those often. :p I haven't noticed any effect with them... but maybe cause it's not concentrated. Hmm.

I'm Chinese and I drink alot of herbal tea. If it's regular tea, it shouldn't have any effect. It's like drinking black tea or stuff. If it's medicinal herbal tea, then it could be a laxative. But I haven't heard of just regular green tea helping in weight loss. But again, maybe cause it's not concentrated.
 
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Hey there- you are doing great! And you have such a great attitude too! I like the goals you've set up for yourself- --- be sure to let us know what happens with the green tea capsules.
 
Hey there! Sounds like you are doing really great. It's great that you were able to look back on the chocolate incident and learn from it how to make detter decisions. I might start putting my fruit/veggies servings in little containers...that sounds like a great idea! Hope your day is well!
 
OK, it has been a couple of days since I have posted. As far as the green tea goes let me just say the toilet is not plugging up! Thank goodness! Crunchie, I think your friends need to cut back on the fiber. You are a nut!

I thought the tea capsules may have been working for a couple of days because Sunday and Monday I really didn't think about food all that much except at meal time, but today is a totally different story. Something happened this afternoon and I was thinking about food constantly. There is this lady at work that always has a basket of candy on her desk. I walk by it all day long. Today I glanced down into the basket every time I walked by. I DIDN'T EAT ANY! The only two things that are different today are I took my vitamins and the Green Tea Capsule last night instead of in the morning and I am a little behind on my water. Tomorrow I'll take them in the AM and let you know if I feel any different. Jelly, I do think I get a little energy from them too, but they do have a small amount of caffeine as well. Eating wise I'm doing great. Yesterday I put all my food into Fitday and found I still had a few hundred calories I could eat if I wanted so I had a sugar free/fat free pudding and bag of 100 calorie Sandies. I felt like I really got in a lot of food and it was all delicious. I made a really good salad. I put the recipe on the recipe thread if any wants to take a look. I spent a lot of time looking at nutritional info on-line. I think if I am going to cut back on food, I really need to make sure I am getting the nutrients I need. I have always been skeptical about vitamins. I take them anyway...just in case.

I have a new mission to get organized as well. I'm going to go through my house one room at a time. Starting with the downstairs bathroom tonight when I get back form the gym. It is the smallest room in the house so I thought I would start there to get going. I like the 7 habits planner. You pick out what your main roles in life are and what you want them to be. Wife, Friend, Mountain Climber etc...You then plan your week based on things you need to do be the very best you can be in those roles. I may just start that thread soon, Val.

Scarlett, Thank you for the link to the website. I think I will find it very helpful.

Ava--Thanks for stopping by. I think you will like having veggies all cut up and in the fridge to do whatever you want with. I hate chopping veggies, but if I only have to do it once a week it will really help me eat right.

M2M, Mrs. Bear, Thanks for sharing. Sorry you lost your Mom so young, M. I have a niece and a sister who sound like your Dad, Mrs. Bear---unfortunately, that gene didn't come my way.

Val, thanks for checking on me.

TwinMom---Jack Black is on my "list"--you know, the list of celebrities you can hook up with and your partner can't count it a cheating. I think he is very sexy.

Lazyone thanks for stoppng by. I'll be checking in on you too!
 
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